I couldn't raise the spirit to quarrel with Jin Shao, so I said to him weakly, "Anyway, you don't participate in this competition to win, it's just for fun, so you can just be eliminated early, and you will save a lot of time every week on this kind of thing." After I finished speaking, I ignored Jin Shao, so I just walked towards my dormitory with my head bored, Jin Shao grabbed my arm and dragged me, I was caught off guard and almost dragged to the ground by him, I barely stood still and glared at him, panting for breath.

"If you have any opinion on me, just say it, I made a joke about you before Zichen and I went on the field, and I also care about you, and I want to know what happened after you and the eighth master left last night!" Jin Shao looked at me and said in a deep voice, I could feel that he was also angry, but he didn't lose his temper and tried to control his emotions.

"Do I have any personal problems to report to you and Zichen? If that's the case, I'll stop doing the work of the Propaganda Department, I won't be able to do it, and you can see who likes to do it. I said with a fuss.

Zichen pulled Jin Shao, tried to calm down and said to me, "Jin Shao just cares about you, you don't have to say that, right?" ”

"Care about me?" I pointed to myself, "Have you two really cared about me over the years?" You two are just using me to set off the greatness of the two of you, and you take me to the debate tournament to help me, but in fact, isn't it just a show of your personal style? The girls who came to listen to the debate competition are almost waving glow sticks, and this is the effect you want! Now that you've lost and can't make it to the finals, you two feel shameless, don't you? I'm sorry...... There is no perfect thing in the world, and you want to have someone to set off the ability of the two of you, and you also want this person to be able to turn the tide at a critical moment, where is there such a good thing? ”

"You ......" Zichen was about to say something, but was stopped by Jin Shao, Jin Shao and Zichen said, "Go!" ”

"It's ......" Zichen didn't react a little, "just leave!" ”

"Let's go!" Jin Shao's brows were deeply locked, with a tired expression on his face, he said to me in a slightly hoarse voice, "I don't know what to do" and walked in the other direction with Zichen. As soon as they turned around, tears burst out of my eyes and ran down my cheeks; The farther and farther they went, I couldn't help myself squatting down, holding myself and crying. I realized that I had lost two particularly important people because of my own glass heart. I burst into tears, and a man stood next to me and said to me in such a familiar voice, "Wipe it off." ”

I quickly wiped away my tears, stood up pretending that nothing had happened, and forced myself to smile and ask the eighth master, "Why are you here?" I didn't see anyone in the evening game. ”

"Don't pretend," said the eighth master, "I was next to you when you were arguing just now. ”

I want to say something more, I want to say something to the eighth master, we just lost the game and were in a bad mood, but the words came to my mouth but I couldn't say anything, and finally turned into a grievance in front of the eighth master and cried out, I hugged the eighth master, the more I cried, the more ruthless, the tears and snot rubbed on his clothes, I hugged the eighth master hard, at first it just felt like grabbing a life-saving straw, but then I felt that I could only rub such oil once in my life, and take advantage of it at one time!

The eighth master didn't push me away, gently patted my hair, didn't say anything, and let me cry.

The crying turned into tears, and the tears turned into intermittent sobbing, and finally stopped, and then I had to let go of the hand holding the eighth master, and stood in front of him with my head down, not daring to look up at his face, not daring to look at his eyes, I could only say in a vague voice, "Thank you." ”

"I've heard about the competition," said the eighth master, "it's fine." ”

I nodded.

The eighth master said, "Why are you arguing so fiercely?" ”

I said, "I hate them!" ”

The eighth master asked, "Why?" ”

I shook my head and refused to say, what I hate is that Jin Shao and Zichen don't treat me as a girl day after day, they are very gentlemanly, polite, and gentle when they treat other girls, but when they turn their faces and see me, they are fangs and claws, sharp teeth, and sometimes I feel that I can't continue the topic without saying two bad things about me. But ask yourself, who likes to hear others say, "You are fat, you are ugly, you have no aesthetics, you are wearing pajamas and wandering around the street, the person you love deserves to love you, and the person you like deserves to like others......"

I used to see delicious food, and my eyes lit up, but now I eat delicious food, and my heart is heavy, because I feel that after eating this meal, I will be ridiculed for being fat, and I don't control it; I used to see loose sportswear and was full of joy, but now when I see sportswear, I don't dare to buy it after thinking about it, I am afraid that I will buy it and wear it back, and I will be said that I am wearing pajamas and wandering around the campus inappropriately; Every time the theme of the poster is set, I actually draw a lot of designs myself, but when I have a meeting to discuss, I never dare to take out my work, for fear that Jin Shao will sneer at it and say "ugly......

I know that they talk to me so openly and honestly because I am my own person, but I can't just ignore my feelings when I say every word because I am my own person, just to make them happy, right? Why don't you leave me a little bit of patience and tenderness with such inexplicable and unknown women? I often feel inferior, and I don't know if it's because I'm much worse than others, or because I'm being told so badly by them.

Today's dispute is probably because emotions have accumulated to a point and finally erupted. When the eighth master saw that I didn't speak, he didn't mention it anymore, "Have you eaten?" ”

I still shook my head.

"Let's go eat!" The eighth master said, "What do you want to eat?" ”

I thought for a moment, "I want to eat good Lungo." ”

The eighth master pointed to the school gate, "Let's go!" ”

I fumbled in my pocket, "Wait a minute! ”

The eighth master turned to me and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

I said, "I don't have any money, I still don't eat, I'm going back to my dorm and lying down......"

The eighth master smiled and grabbed my arm, "Let's go!" He pulled me and led me to the door, and it wasn't until I caught up with him that he let go of his grip on my arm. I asked him, "Why didn't you come today?" ”

"The agent I asked before helped me look at the application for the school, and I didn't pay attention to the time after chatting for a long time, so I hurried and hurried, and when I came back, I still missed your game." The eighth master said, "I heard that you have been absent-minded in today's game, and you are not in shape?" ”

"Hmm!" I nodded, and when I heard the eighth master say about going abroad, I began to be absent-minded again.

The eighth master asked, "What's the matter?" ”

I'm thinking about how to answer the eighth master's question, could it be that because of his refusal last night, I am very sad and sad, so I will be very out of shape? If I say that, will I be rejected outright today? If you refuse to be good, you can still be a friend, although being a friend is not good, at least it won't be embarrassing for everyone in the future, right? Seeing that I didn't answer for a long time, the eighth master said to me, "There are wins and losses in the game, don't take this kind of thing too seriously, it's okay!" He patted me on the back as he spoke, like he was coaxing a child.

"That'...... Everyone is out of shape for a few days every month! I muttered and said to the eighth master, the eighth master seemed to understand something, and was silent on this question, I seemed to see the eighth master's face turned red for a moment, he probably thought of something to digress from the topic, I inhaled the cold air in embarrassment, and didn't dare to remind him that what I said was not a visit from the eldest aunt.

The eighth master was very caring, he didn't talk to me about the game again one night, nor did he mention Jin Shao and Zichen's affairs, I said that I wanted to eat Orleans roast wings, so he went to line up for me to wait for the roast wings; I said I wanted pizza, and he went and brought it to me; I said I wanted soup, and he went and scooped it for me; I said I wanted to eat ice cream, but the eighth master paused, glared at me and said, "What ice cream to eat?" Don't eat it! ”

I stuck out my tongue, and the eighth master really misunderstood.

But it doesn't matter, I like this feeling, it seems that after breaking off with Jin Shao, the luck of the whole person is inexplicably better, and the two of us eat from seven o'clock in the afternoon to half past ten in the evening, chatting non-stop, talking about horoscopes, movies, entertainment, and news...... Talk about anything. I used to think that people like the eighth master must be difficult to talk to, if you don't ask him about his studies or talk to him about work, he will definitely not be able to talk about anything else. But tonight the two of us had a tacit understanding not to mention the country, not to mention the student union, not to talk about study, not to talk about work, but there was still no cold scene, I chattered, he listened carefully, and then he told me a story, and I looked at his face with a pair of eyes.

At half past ten, the waiter came over and said, "We're closing tonight, I'm sorry." ”

The eighth master looked at his watch, "I didn't pay attention, it's so late, can I send you back?" ”

I packed up my things and followed him out of the cafeteria, and the two of us walked back to school from the cafeteria at a turtle speed, and when we arrived at the school, the eighth master suddenly said to me, "Actually, I'm quite hesitant." ”

I asked the eighth master, "What?" ”

The eighth master said, "I talked to others about going abroad, and I was not very optimistic, because our school is not a comprehensive college, and the school's ranking is a bit of a loss, and the top 50 PHD full awards depend on luck." It shouldn't be a problem to stay in Baoyan and Zhibo......"

I said, "That's different! If you have the chance, be sure to go out and check it out! ”

The eighth master smiled and looked at me and wanted to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything, just nodded, "Hmm! ”

I pointed to the dormitory, "So I'm going up?" ”

The eighth master nodded.

I said, "Thank you for today." ”

The eighth master said, "Yes, I knew you would lose this time, and I won't go out today." ”

I laughed out loud and laughed happily, "It's okay, it's good that I didn't look the most embarrassed, it's good to leave you with the image of the best debater with a degree of progress and reason!" ”

The eighth master nodded and said, "You have always been." ”

I smiled from ear to ear, and when I was about to turn around and enter the dormitory building, I suddenly received a call from Zichen, I hesitated, but still answered, Zichen hurriedly said to me on the other end of the phone, "Jin Shao has an accident, come here!" ”