The leaves rustle in the wind, and the insects chirp to their heart's content.

The eyes under the snow that are smiling all the time give people the feeling of encouragement. The nose catches a faint fragrance. The heart was beating abnormally strongly, and it was a fragrance that could indulge him. The scenery in the eyes is slowly filtering out, and only the figure under the snow is becoming clearer and clearer.

There is no script in life, and it will not go according to our settings, our every day. Every second is an improvisation.

Before that, he hadn't thought about the current picture, and after that, he didn't know what the future would hold. However, he knew that he had been hiding his suppressed self in front of her, and he didn't want to hide it anymore at this moment, and he wanted to convey this hot emotion in his heart.

Take a step forward, step on the same steps with both feet, stand up straight, tilt your head slightly, and look at the condescending girl. I didn't think about gains and losses, I respected my own heart, and the tension I never had hit me. Even so, the decision was made at this moment.

"Yes, under the snow, this is a confession. I like you, I've liked you for a long time. No matter how much he hides his heart, he can't be calm in front of the people he likes. can't control her inner emotions and behaviors, as he once told her, only robots can do this.

Although it is a little strange, Yukishita and Takeshita Bingmi have had similar conversations like this a few times. Every time in a joking tone, she never believed that his answer liked to be true, and he never once took what he liked to say seriously.

This time, however, she noticed something different. She herself compared his "confession" this time with the previous ones in her mind, and obviously felt that this time was different from the previous ones, and this time she felt sincere and serious.

Thinking back to the mood or purpose of asking this question in the past, it was mostly with a joking mood, but this time, is it the same mood? Without waiting for herself to straighten out her doubts, Takeshita Icemi, who spoke up again, made her pour all her attention.

"Even though you are so perfect that I am self-harming in my image; Even though I'm not good enough; Although the time to prepare for confession is not here tonight; Even though you only know a little about your past; Even though I have one of the biggest secrets I haven't told you; Although our relationship may be ruined by me after this; Although they also regard you as a sustenance; Even though I'm despicable for doing despicable things to get close to you, despite ......"

There was no room for redemption when the words were spoken, and he stared unswervingly under the snow, his eyes full of the likes he had tried his best to hide.

“…… Still, even so, I want you to know. From being just attracted by your appearance and beautiful face at first, to seeing your poisonous tongue after touching you. You look helpless. You look confused. You look lonely. Your cute look. Your gentle look. You look serious. How strong you look...... All of this made me fall into it. ”

"I can hear your "good morning" every day when I wait for you in front of the elevator, and listen to your "see you tomorrow" every time I part in front of the elevator. Even if I sit behind you and look at your back in the classroom, even if I am not alone with you in the ministry department, as long as I am by your side, listening to your voice and feeling your breath, communicating without words, watching you sit there with a book and reading, listening to your shallow breathing, being able to breathe the same air in the same space with you, and wanting to see you more and more, all of these make me look forward to and delight every day. ”

“…… Whenever you make a small gesture of picking your hair, turn around slightly, look at a look over, tell me about yourself, or accompany you to do some movie appreciation. Go to the bookstore and buy books. Going to a cat pet shop, sitting together by the glass window of a coffee shop even if they don't communicate, looking at the books in their hands, going shopping together at the mall after school, walking on the street simply, talking to you, looking at your occasional smile, cooking together in a housekeeping class, and spending weekends with you...... Every day with you is so happy. ”

…… Takeshita Bingmi didn't know what he had said, he was completely confused, and the emotions in his heart turned into clumsy words to tell stupid words.

The light flickered and dimmed, and the bulb on a street lamp not far below flickered, and it was unknown after which it would fall into permanent darkness. In film and television works, I always like to use such scenes to set off the atmosphere, but before I speak out, I have already brought people a bad feeling.

He didn't know where the two would go after this, and he had never thought of such a confession.

He has always had the longing that the relationship between the two can come to fruition, maybe one afternoon, walking in the warm sun on the street under the shade of the trees, saying words of no substance, looking at the scene that he will not remember, occasionally a glance after a spring breeze to move away, walking side by side when the palm of the back of a moment of friction knows that the other party's hand is there, and then can't help but approach each other's temptation and then hold each other's hands.

Even if it is not, it is a confession that can only be said when you are more sure, and you don't have to worry about what happens if the confession fails. He has always claimed to be a rational person, but he didn't expect this scene, he lost his reason, and everything made a choice governed by emotions under unknown circumstances.

Pursing his lips under the snow, he couldn't read the meaning of the streamer in her eyes.

"I want to make the one you can fully trust. Do that you can rely on when you are tired, confused, and helpless. Do the one you're there when you're crying and you're happy when you're happy. If you want to rely on someone you can rely on at any time. I can share my joys, sorrows and sorrows with you, and I can also listen to your ups and downs and accompany you to achieve your beliefs. I want to accompany you to watch the ebb and flow of the tide and the flowers bloom, and I want to be the most special and caring person in your heart, and accompany you through the wind and rain. ”

"I ......"

"I'll start with that." Takeshita Bingmi gently interrupted the words that Yukishita was about to speak, he didn't know what would happen when she opened her mouth, now he just wanted to tell her all the secrets in his heart, so that she knew exactly what kind of person she was.

He hadn't intended to tell her the secret at first when the relationship wasn't confirmed, but now he didn't think about it.

Under the gaze of the snow, he climbed the staircase where she was, and stood next to her, the two of them standing facing each other with their heads slightly raised under the snow.

"I have one of my biggest secrets, and I haven't been telling anyone else since the day I confirmed my intentions. Originally, I planned to tell you if I could really be the only one who could be with you for a lifetime, could let you rely on, and really confirmed the relationship with you. If not, hide it in your heart until no one knows the secret anymore, and don't let it bother you. Nothing has been achieved yet, but I can't keep this secret. It will let you know what kind of person I am, it will let you really know me, and I will have no secrets from you. ”

There are many ways for people to become closer, and having the same secret is one of them, especially when the secret is bigger.

Takeshita Hisumi slowly opened his raised hands, not letting his movements frighten her, looked into her eyes, and said, "This secret is very amazing, so I can only tell you alone." ”

There was a snort close to my ears, and I smelled the light fragrance emanating from her body. I don't know if I was overwhelmed by my sudden confession or I didn't expect that I would suddenly be so bold, Takeshita Bingmi gently hugged the snow into his arms and didn't feel the resistance at the first time.

"Trust me, let me hold you like this and tell you my secret." His cheek rested lightly on her left sideburn, feeling the coldness and smoothness of her hair, and his voice whispered in her ear with a trembling voice. As his voice fell, the resistance that had been a little late slowly dissipated.

"Thank you."

Although he wanted to, he didn't hug her hard, and now this step was a great surprise. His hand just didn't dare to move, and he could easily push him away under the snow.

"Do you remember me, I told you that I wasn't like this before I transferred to another school, and that the "dream" on April 2nd changed me. Now, I'll tell you about that "dream". That's my biggest secret, a secret that normal people don't tell until they die. Because it's not a dream, it's a real thing......"

People in the world always want to take their destiny into their own hands.

But he is really like this, but it is not the joy that the world thinks, only deep suffering.

Concealment may lose her, but openness may ruin her. Either way, it wasn't what he wanted.

"This secret, I originally hoped that one day I would be able to tell you without reservation, so that I no longer have any secrets, but I was afraid that I would not be able to hurt you after you knew it. But now I'm going to tell you because I'm "selfish". ”

The world has the law of both, and it lives up to its promise.

Life can't always be as you want, and there is no world where no one will be hurt.

Under the snow, he just stood a little stiff and let him hug lightly, and there was no other reaction.

"There is such a boy in the dream, he ......"

He could only hear it under the snow, and if it weren't for the fact that the sound was coming out of his throat, the frequency of the vocal cords transmitted to his ears through the body and caused the tympanic membrane to vibrate, and the sound that he might not be able to hear through the air began to tell his biggest secret.

Takeshita Icemi's cheeks leaned against the sideburns under the snow, this path in the forest was not disturbed by anyone else, he hugged each other like this, but there was no trace of crooked thoughts in his heart, more serious than in his dream. just wanted to tell her about his previous life, he really felt that he was crazy and stupid, no matter how sure she was that she wouldn't say it, which normal person would be like him.

He only wants to use his truest self to let her know.

“…… Maybe it's longing, maybe it's sustenance, maybe it's ...... Then, after falling asleep on a sleepless night, he woke up and was in this world. And then coincidentally, when I transferred to Chiba City, there is a total taketaka here, and there is you here.

…… Therefore, although my feelings for you at that time can be called "like", I don't think that I am worthy of you who is perfect in my mind, and I don't think that such a self can get your like.

I had a very low self-esteem.

On the morning of the first day of Totsuka's tennis practice, I realized that I had been unwilling to watch you go farther and farther away, and that I was not good enough to work hard to make myself worthy of you, and he could influence you to work hard to destroy it...... I wouldn't be who I am without you. ”

Takeshita Ice, who had already finished telling his secret, seemed to have let go of something, and the hug during this period was the first and perhaps the last, no matter what, he knew that he could never forget the moment of hugging her, and at this moment he seemed to have her. The cheek slowly moved away from her left sideburn, and the body slowly stepped back when she let go of her hand, and the reason for hugging her was over.

The silence under the snow made him uneasy, afraid to look at her, and desperate to understand. There was the sound of insects in the air, but he felt quiet.

Under the snow, who had been listening to him silently, he stretched out his hands when he was about to retreat, I don't know whether it was holding a movement for too long or being frozen by the cold temperature or some other reason, the white hands trembled and grabbed the clothes on both sides of his waist, and he immediately noticed it as he retreated.

"Why tell me this, why. Obviously, if you don't say anything, I won't know, don't say anything, don't you say anything, don't you fool around like before, isn't it what you're best at, why do you have to say it, why do you have to say it, why is it such an outrageous thing, but I believe it is true in my heart, why ......"

Without taking a step back, she felt her weakness and helplessness when she heard the choked voice under the snow, the strength of the clothes being pulled down at her waist, the trembling of her body under the snow with her hands on either side of her, and the whimper she began to hide.

"Because ......" his voice began to be hoarse, and the already unbearable pain and suffering in his heart erupted.

"Because I'm 'selfish'. ”

He hugged her again, no longer under his control, his voice crying in pain. The trust in him under the snow made him happy, but it was like a knife in his heart.

As his words fell, the sobs under the snow grew louder, and the hand that grabbed the clothes around his waist became harder. He hugged her like this, didn't say anything more, but was no longer afraid of scaring her and hugged her tightly.

"You're so selfish, you're so selfish. Why do this to me. What's the difference between this and the one in the story you told you, to break all my knowledge of you, to deny everything I have, and to turn me into that she? Even if you know me better, aren't you afraid that I won't be able to stand this information...... Is this what you said like me to be my dependence? Swindler. Liar, you big liar. Why didn't you tell me sooner, why didn't you tell me later, why ......"

Lying on his shoulder under the snow, he didn't know what she looked like at this time, only that she was crying very hard, and the voice in her crying voice was hoarse, and he could only feel the weak hands that were looking for support on his back.

What she said was completely true, he couldn't refute it, and he didn't know how to comfort her, and not long ago, he said that he would not hurt her by relying on her, but it immediately made her cry......

A person's heart is like a speck of dust, and when it falls into the eye, tears come out.

I don't know how to describe this unspeakable pain in my heart, and I closed my eyes in pain.

In autumn, the night in the mountains gets colder with each extra minute, not only with the cold wind, but also with the wet and heavy moisture.

I don't know how long it took, but the crying under the snow slowly subsided until it stopped, and the insects in the woods that had stopped crying under the snow gradually came out again, and they were screaming irritably.

"Can you let go first, so you can't talk properly." As time passed, he whispered softly under the snow in his arms, and his voice was unusually calm, not at all like he could doubt the news of his life after listening to it.

The calm words under the snow made him nervous, and when he heard her words, he didn't have the courage to take the initiative to hug her at the beginning, and he felt helpless when he let go.

Feeling the temperature at this moment, it was much colder than when I first came down the mountain, and my body shivered unconsciously. Xue Xia lowered his head and gently wiped the tears on his face, and Takeshita Bingmi watched silently. After a long moment, she lifted her face and looked at him for the first time after the sudden confession.

He was also looking at her, her eyes were red, but perhaps washed by tears, and felt brighter than what she had seen before.

"Takeshita-kun, thank you." With a calm smile on her face, she bowed deeply to him. With words of thanks in his mouth, he suddenly remembered the scene of the girl's rejection when she suffered a confession, and his heart hurt inexplicably.

"Thank you for ...... all the time"

"I don't want your thanks!" The tears that had just stopped in his eyes poured out uncontrollably in this thanks, and he interrupted her, but his voice was not as loud as he imagined, but small and had a feeling that he would be cut off and out of breath.

"Listen to me this time." Under the snow, he still looked at him with a calm face.

"It's ridiculous, but unexpectedly I believed Takeshita-kun's words, and I was surprised that Takeshita-kun already trusted me so much."

"Even so, I don't admit that the person you're talking about is me. Because," looking at Takeshita Icemi, who still had tears, said with a smile on his calm face under the snow: "Because, now I don't agree with her approach at all, which one will deny herself." That's what Takeshita-kun taught me, isn't it? ”

"I'm glad that Takeshita-kun was able to share such a secret with me, and I'm glad that Takeshita-kun has been "standing by and watching" and ......"

Under the snow, his right hand was clenched into a fist and he leaned against the bulge on the side of his heart, feeling his heartbeat and looking at him with determined eyes.

"And like. Although there are still a lot of things that I still haven't fully understood, Takeshita-kun's confession has really been conveyed to me. ”

Under the snow covering his chest, he felt a beating that had never been so powerful, and he smiled.

That's why I wanted to figure out what it was like. So, please give me some more time, okay, I want to reply to Takeshita-kun's heart. ”

Takeshita Higumi looked at the snow at this time, and he briefly thought about what she would be like when he confessed all his secrets to her, but he didn't have the appearance of her at this time.

"Okay."

He turned his head and wiped his tears. Such a big person, more and more like a 17-year-old high school student.

"Yes, it's not as big as you said, there is no sense of disobedience, I understand it a little." Looking at Takeshita Icemi, who turned his head to wipe his tears, he suddenly chuckled under the snow.

"Why do you suddenly know what I'm thinking?" Although his sudden confession was not successful, he was not rejected, and the words under the snow made his heart that had been nervous just now a little more excited, and his mood was much more relaxed.

"Who knows."

"You're like your sister tonight."

"Because, we're sisters."

"I thought you'd contradict me for saying that."

Under the snow at this moment, Takeshita seems to see the figure that he has always dreamed of seeing.

"About that ......"

Under the snow, she gently stretched out a hand, caressing the emptiness in front of her as if she had touched something, which was far from her usual truth-seeking.

"What I felt and what I experienced was not entirely beautiful in my memory, but it was so real."

"Well, the world feels very real too."

Although he knows that the world he lives in is as similar to the light novel world he knows, he rarely struggles with why he exists, whether this world is real or illusory. He is already familiar with such a thing. To his surprise, only the reaction under the snow came, and after that cry, things became very different.

Faintly, he felt this.

"Then, let's go back." Takeshita Icemi, who was already familiar with her, seemed to be back to the clumsy man he was in his previous life, and he didn't know what to say.

Xue Xia nodded slightly, and he took the heavy steps that had become before, only to realize that he was still holding his phone in his hand and the lights were always on.

"What's wrong?" Noticing that the snow was not following, he turned around again and saw that she was still standing still.

"Maybe I've been standing for too long, and I've heard such surprising news, and I've had too much physical exertion, and now it's hard to stand still, and I can't walk." Xue Xia looked down at his body, raised his head, and suddenly looked a little shy, his eyes were not as firm as just now, but a little dodgy.

"That~ I'll carry you down the mountain."

"However, I haven't replied to Takeshita-kun's intentions, so ...... Can't let you have any more. ...... again," Xue Xia thought about the content of his confession just now, and his tone became weaker and weaker intermittently.

……

Along the way down the mountain, Takeshita Bingjian walked steadily with every step, and other than that, all his mind was attracted by the snow on his back. This road down the mountain is so ordinary, but it is hard to forget, what it carries, both of them know clearly.

Because it had been so long since the closure of the temple, there were no surprises that the gate was tightly closed. Fortunately, there were still night guards on duty, and after spending some words, the two left smoothly.

When he went back, the two took a taxi, and he thought about carrying her back all the way, but because too much time had passed since his confession and the time when he said "secret", he had to give up.

"Under the snow." Seeing that he was getting closer and closer to the hotel, Takeshita wanted to say something.

“…… Well. ”

"I ......" There were a lot of words in my heart, but I didn't know how to say it.

"I, I ......"

Walking under the snow with him, he buried his face in the collar that had been erected, and the already quiet breath became quieter and quieter.

"I. Let's go get something to eat. After struggling for a long time and blurting out at the end, Takeshita Bingmi immediately covered his face with the little one in his heart.

I'm still shy after confessing, didn't I dare to carry her all the way back just now!

His shoulders fluttered uncontrollably when he heard his words under the snow, and he heard the laughter that came out of his fingers with his mouth covered.

……

In front of the staircase that divides the floors in the hotel, the chair belonging to Mr. Atsugi is still there, and the thermos flask is also standing on it, but the person is gone, probably because he has a bad stomach.

Because the time was half past ten, there were no other students in the aisles and stairs, only Yukimoto and Takeshita Icemi.

"Good night." Takeshita Bingmi softly said goodbye to the snow as he walked up the stairs.

He walked around the corner and stood under the snow and exhaled softly, turning to look at him. moved her lips as if to say something, but Takeshita didn't hear a sound at all, only saw her gently wave her small hand twice on her chest, and then disappeared around the corner.

His hand unconsciously covered his chest.