The icy water of the river poured into my ears, mouth and nose, and I felt relieved by the moment I was enveloped in water.

It is said that people will see everything that happened in the past before they die, but I only saw a flash of white light in front of me, and things from childhood to adulthood emerged like slides, so strange and real.

I reached out to grab it, but I couldn't, the tentacles just took away the water of my life.

If...... If there is an afterlife.

I don't ask for anything else, I just want me to be born in a family that loves me, find someone who loves me, I love, and live happily ever after.

Even if it's a lifetime of coarse tea and light food, I'm happy.

The scene in front of me became more and more blurred, like a deep whirlpool, and I was swept into it.

Before I died, I heard Fu Ruyan's voice: "He Chu! ”

God is so good to me, and he can make me cherish him one more time.

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Drip......

Drip......

Something seemed to be ringing around me.

The breathing was very difficult, and the chest cavity seemed to be pressed, which was extremely uncomfortable.

Where am I?

Paradise?

Or hell?

I have harmed others so badly, how can I still be qualified to go to heaven? I'm afraid it's eighteen layers of hell now, right?

"The patient's mental state was very bad and he was severely stimulated. There are many beating wounds on the body, but fortunately, it is not a major injury, and it is good to recuperate for a while, but this is mentally...... It's hard to say. ”

It was as if someone was speaking.

"Traumatized? Is it serious? As far as I know, things she probably knows...... It shouldn't be enough for her to kill herself. "It's a familiar voice, like ...... Fu Ruyu's?

The doctor said: "The mental stimulation is not caused all at once, but through multiple stimulation in the past, and this time it is just a flashpoint. It is possible that the patient had already been mentally stimulated before this examination. ”

"I see, so do you have to find a doctor for enlightenment?" Fu Ruyan asked.

"Yes."

"Okay, thanks." Fu Ruyan said politely.

There was a faint movement around the bed, and it soon fell silent.

My hand was held, the man's movements were very light, and the palm of the hand was familiar to me, which was Fu Ruyan's hand.

I've pulled it too many times, and I definitely don't feel wrong.

So...... Am I not dead yet?

At this moment, I couldn't help crying or laughing.

I didn't expect it to be so difficult to even die......

I opened my eyes in a daze, and it took me a long time to open them as if they were stuck with glue.

The things in front of me were a little blurry, and it took a long time to focus on them.

Fu Ruyan kept staring at me, and suddenly found that I was awake, he was very excited, "Xiao Chu, Xiao Chu, you finally woke up!" How do you feel? Is there anything wrong with it? ”

I didn't feel well anywhere, and it was like I had been crushed all over my body.

"I ......" I opened my mouth, but I couldn't speak, my throat hurt.

It turned out that I was wearing an oxygen mask.

"Don't talk yet." Fu Ruyan said: "Rest well, you are seriously injured." ”

I blinked and looked at him earnestly.

In fact, before committing suicide, I thought about seeing him again, but I knew that it was just Xiao Xiao's wish.

Fu Ruyu looked haggard, his beard came out long and unshaved, the dark circles under his eyes were extremely heavy, and his eyes were also full of bloodshots, but they were full of worry.

"Why are you so stupid...... How can you think about committing suicide...... Did you learn from Fu Yang that my company had closed down? Fu Ruyan asked me softly, without the slightest blame, as if he had just lost a dollar.

But I know better than anyone how hard he has worked to achieve what he is today in the past few years, so that he can raise his eyebrows and return to Beicheng.

But...... Now it's all gone.

It's all gone because of me.

I can't speak, but tears can express my feelings and words.

Fu Ruyan wiped away my tears in distress, and he said softly: "He Chu, nothing is as important as you. Do you know? Nothing is as important as you. ”

In fact, I'd rather Fu Ruyan be selfish, don't want me, and choose the company.

But he didn't.

It's because he didn't have it that I'm so guilty.

I'm so guilty that I want to die!

"You once promised me that you would follow me whether I had money or not. How? I have no money now, you can't stand it and want to commit suicide by jumping into the river? This is not good, I will drag you to live a hard life with me in the future. When the time comes, you will go with me to open a food stall, we will go to set up a stall at four o'clock in the morning, come back at noon, and go shopping and walk in the afternoon, okay? Fu Ruyan's words were a little ridiculous.

Good.

Of course it's good.

"It's just that I'm afraid you can't stand it, you can't buy beautiful clothes and wear beautiful shoes." Fu Ruyu smiled.

It doesn't matter, I don't care.

As long as...... As long as you're by my side.

I said these words silently in my heart.

Fu Ruyan seemed to understand what I was trying to say, and he squeezed my hand tightly, "Look, aren't you also saying that you can accept it?" In that case, why would you kill yourself? Could it be that this broken company is still worth your life? Are you stupid? ”

I choked up and sobbed.

"Okay, okay, don't cry, the most important thing for you now is to calm down, take care of your body, and then go to work to make money and support me! I want to experience what it's like to be packed/raised! "Fu Ruyan deliberately murdered.

I nodded slightly.

Fu Ruyan seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, he got up and bent down, and dropped a kiss on my forehead, slowly but firmly, "Good, then hurry up and rest, sleep." ”

With this in mind, I quickly fell asleep.

In my sleep, I dreamed that Fu Ruyan and I lived an ordinary life, he was not as busy as he was in the company, but he had a lot of time with me every day, and would go to various places with me, we were very happy and happy.

I woke up happy.

During the period of my recuperation, Fu Ruyan has always been by my side and never left.

Later, I was able to get out of bed and walk around, only to learn from the nurse that when I jumped into the river that day, it was Fu Ruyu who saved me, because he was wet and carried me over, and the whole person was crazy and did not like to speak, and scared many patients, who looked like they were going to kill someone, and kept shouting loudly: "Please save my wife, please!" ”

The word begging made me feel deeply shocked.

Fu Ruyan didn't say this word, but he was for me......

I took a deep breath and looked at the man who was asleep next to me because I was tired, and I couldn't help but reach out and touch his face.

For the rest of your life, no matter what kind of hardship there is, I will accompany you to go on.

Just like you're with me now.