When he got home, Aoki didn't do anything, took the medicine bottle that Tsukashi Poison Island brought back for him, and after smearing the sore spots on his body, he lay directly on the bed, looking at the ceiling in a daze.

He's thinking about Tsukiko Poison Island.

Although he is willing to accept everything about Poison Island Tsuneko, there is no doubt that what Poison Island Tsuneko exposed to him today really made him a little overwhelmed and tired of coping.

First of all, Aoki's first thought was the most pressing problem of Tsuneko Poisonshima at the moment - the so-called bloodthirsty impulse.

This is really a tricky problem that Tsukasa Aoki can't even think of.

He never thought that the gentle, generous, and empathetic Poison Island Tsuneko would be a person who would lift a wooden knife and commit violence at midnight.

Although those people deserved to be beaten, Aoki felt a headache when he thought of the satisfaction and pleasure that Tsukashi Poison Island confessed to and felt when he hurt others.

This is indeed a very serious problem, if it can't be solved, when one day the son can't help but lift the knife to hit someone, and the hand is heavy, and someone dies, then what should I do?

Why is she like this? How can I help her?

Aoki Tsukasa began to read all kinds of psychological information, but fortunately, he had accumulated experience by looking up information about medical skills on the Internet before, and he was quite familiar with the information.

According to Tsumiko Poison Island, she doesn't usually have this kind of thought or impulsiveness, but she always appears whenever she is in a low mood.

Tsukasa Aoki believes that there must be a reason for this.

What triggered this impulsive desire in her?

Is it simply a bad mood and wants to vent anger?

Wrong.

Tsukasa Aoki flipped through the materials and gradually fell into deep thought.

What was the satisfaction she felt?

That feeling of refreshment, because of what she felt in the process of violence?

Looking at the information, Aoki gradually narrowed his eyes.

According to the information on the mobile phone, according to the survey, a person's childhood experience is very likely to be the core cause of mental problems in adulthood.

"I want to win." Poison Island's voice sounded in his ears like lightning.

Aoki sat up straight suddenly, the pain in his muscles was ignored by him, he slapped his palms, and his expression was a little excited: "That's right!" ”

"It's this!"

He muttered to himself: "As the information says, this situation is quite complicated, but it is often because of some trigger that causes a series of problems. ”

"Tsumiko only has such an impulse when she is at her most depressed."

"And what makes her depressed?"

Aoki Tsukasa thought about it carefully, and Tsukasa Poison Island confessed that the first time she did it after leaving Kunijunior High School was when she kept her distance because of her lack of self-confidence.

What did she feel?

"Low self-esteem?"

Aoki Tsukasa was a little unsure of this idea, he propped his chin and pondered carefully: the reason why Tsumiko has never dared to tell herself about her problem and has repeatedly procrastinated is because of low self-esteem.

She is afraid that because she has such a problem, she will be disgusted, especially by the people she likes.

And during the time when Tsukasa Aoki kept her distance, what was the deepest thing she could feel? Is it frustration? Is it anger?

No, maybe it's inferiority, right?

He tried to analyze more reasons, and began to think about every word that Tsumiko had said to him.

Family?

"Yes, the family is what makes her the most desperate." Aoki could feel that he was getting closer and closer to the truth of the matter.

"She was jealous of his younger brother, especially after Toshio Poison won today, and his emotions were directly on the verge of collapse."

"If I hadn't confessed to Tsumiko and accepted her past, maybe she would be walking in the alley with a wooden knife looking for a target today, right?"

"Why? Is it because you lost? ”

Aoki Tsukasa muttered to himself and gave his own answer: "No, it's another kind of inferiority." ”

Aoki tried to bring himself into the face of Poison Island Tsuneko herself to think about the problem: "If I were Poison Island Tsuko, at the beginning, my father pinned his hopes on Poison Island Stream swordsmanship, and practiced kendo every day, just to make my father happy. ”

"At first, everything went well, his strength was extraordinary, and he was talented, maybe he was expected by his father during that time. She is stronger than all her peers, and she has to work hard, although she worked hard at that time, she must have been very happy. ”

"And when her brother showed up, everything changed."

Tsukasa Aoki began to sit down at his desk, sketching out key words one by one.

"With the death of her mother, the appearance of her younger brother deprived her of her already small love, and all of this was exacerbated by his brother's talent for kendo."

"My father began to give all my expectations to my younger brother, and Tsuneko was horrified to find that no matter how hard she tried, she would still be surpassed by Toshio Poison Island........"

What did she feel in this moment?

Aoki closed his eyes, and in his mind, there seemed to be a purple-haired little girl squatting in the corner with a wooden knife, crying silently but never comforted.

At first it was anger.

to jealousy.

to despair.

At last...... It's inferiority.

"The reason why she came to Japan is to escape that kind of life." Aoki Tsukasa turned the gel pen in his hand, his eyes solemn: "The feeling that you may be surpassed by your brother at any time, the reality that no matter how hard you try, you are destined to have no effect." ”

"At home, what Tsumiko feels the most is neglect. And in the process, she has almost lost herself. ”

"In the eyes of outsiders, she is a perfect woman with excellent kendo strength, gentleness and humility."

"But for Yanzi, he is just a loser who is ignored by his family, and no matter how hard he tries, he is just a foil."

"And what does she crave the most?"

Tsukasa Aoki wrote the word desire on scratch paper.

Tsuneko Poison Island said not long ago, the three words 'I want to win' keep circulating.

Then, a series of possible answers were written: Agree? A sense of accomplishment? Prove?

In the end, Tsukasa Aoki circled everything.

"For Yanzi, being able to win against her younger brother proves that she is not a failure in the eyes of her father."

"Maybe deep down, she is still looking forward to regaining her father's recognition after winning her younger brother."

"So what will her bloodthirsty impulse satisfy her?"

Tsukasa Aoki closed his eyes again, substituting himself in the place of Poison Island Tsuneko, and when he imagined that he was stepping on a pool of blood and watching others wail and scream on the ground, his head suddenly opened his eyes in a cold sweat.

“....... You guessed it. ”

Tsukasa Aoki put down the gel pen in his hand.

By hurting others, you get your own inner satisfaction – allowing yourself to feel a sense of presence, power, and accomplishment.

Maybe it was the moment in the country, the moment when Poison Island Tsuneko first swung her sword to destroy someone else, and what she felt was all the feeling she longed for.

The lack of a sense of existence due to being ignored by the family, and the lack of a sense of accomplishment because of being surpassed by the younger brother and having low self-esteem.......

Tsukasa Aoki shredded the scratch paper and threw it in the trash, threw the gel pen into the pen holder, and looked out the window with a slight frown.

He had direction.

Whoever started the trouble should end it.

Who is the culprit who made Poison Island Tsuneko suffer like an empty shell, the answer is already coming out - her family.

The lack of identity of Tsumiko Poisonshima, the love she needs, Tsukasa Aoki will try to fill the void in her heart.

And the scars that others gave her, the dark clouds that suppressed her breathlessness, the mountain that made her never straighten up in her heart, Aoki Tsukasa and Poison Island Tsuneko held the wooden knife side by side....... Smash together!

If Tsumiko could face the difficulty head-on and break it with her own hands, maybe she wouldn't need to feel what she was missing from somewhere else.

The question called 'violent impulse' and 'bloodthirsty desire' will naturally disappear as her heart is no longer empty.

She needed to find herself.

Prove yourself.

And the rest will be left to Tsukasa Aoki.

Aoki took a deep breath and clenched his fists hard, the new pressure on his shoulders made him feel not tired, but full of motivation again.

Happiness is never easy to come by.

In his last life, he gave up.

In this life, he worked hard, and he had to hold it tightly in his hands.

"You confessed everything to me, and I accepted it all."

"You trusted me, and I will live up to that trust."

Tsukasa Aoki made a vow alone.

Because, since today, Poison Island Tsuneko accepted his favor and confessed unreservedly, the happiness of the two of them will no longer be separated from each other.

Whoa, Aoki closed the curtains.

"Today, I will work hard to learn all the skills in the special training room of medical economics on the occasion of the New Year! Then, while he began to heal his body, he prepared for boxing matches during the day and studied kendo in the dream training room at night! There's also a whole semester of time to work hard with Tsukiko next semester, and I'm definitely going to beat Toshio Poison Island hard when the summer vacation comes! ”

"If it's not enough for Yanzi to regain her self-confidence, then go to the United States and beat her father up too!"

Tsukasa Aoki set his goal again and closed his eyes in satisfaction.

Tomorrow is a better tomorrow, and Aoki firmly believes in that.

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PS: The third is later, still writing, and after writing, go to bed, and ask for a monthly ticket (?? (???????? Than-heart)

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