After dinner, after the three of them cleaned up, they all went back to their respective rooms, but this night was very different for Ji Si'an...

He lay flat on the bed and pinched his thigh hard with his hand, it hurt... It's not a dream...

Thinking back to yesterday now, he always had a feeling of being in a different world, and before today, the left pocket of his clothes contained resentment and anger at the injustice of the world.

And the right pocket is filled with helpless compromise and forced helplessness in the midst of suffering...

Even yesterday morning, I was still trying to bring the broken life together as before, and piece together a little bit of life.

And today, when he returned home, it was no longer a black and empty cave.

Even when he came home, there were still steamed buns waiting for him, and there were even people who ate with him....

He suddenly remembered the smile before today's meal, and when he thought about it at this time, he realized that that smile seemed to be different from any of his previous smiles...

It's like he will never be able to learn the confident pace of Luo Qianxi, Ji Si'an has never been able to learn the smiles on the faces of those children, it seems to be the same in the past, but Ji Si'an knows that it is actually not the same at all...

He didn't know what would greet him next, and he didn't care what would greet him next, the only thing he knew was that this was already what he had dreamed of in his dreams for I don't know how many times...

Thinking of this, he pinched himself hard again....

Not a dream.......

Maybe it was pinched too hard, Ji Si'an's tears slowly slipped down....

..........

After half an hour, Ji Si'an realized something, it seemed that he had really pinched too hard...

actually directly pinched Ji Si'an's already thin sleepiness today, and his spirit at this moment is like the sun at noon....

After making sure that he was so excited that he couldn't stop at all, Ji Si'an got up cautiously, tiptoed to the door, he walked to a small hillside not far from the door, and slowly lay on the soft lawn, his hands on his head, looking up at the stars...

The murmuring of streams and the chirping of crickets in his ears flowed, and in front of him was the bright moon and the sea of stars...

Ji Si'an looked at the familiar scene in front of him, but his mood was completely opposite to before...

More than once he had been lying outside that cave, looking at the stars in the sky, thinking about who he had bullied again, or who had been ridiculed today, or who had been stung by what someone had said today.

He is an orphan, so when he faces those injustices, he can only smile and put on a disapproving appearance, otherwise the more he resists, the more excessive words or actions he will be greeted by...

And all the things that are suppressed under those smiles have to wait until the dead of night, take them out alone, chew them, bite them, close the vast starry sky, raise their heads and swallow them in their stomachs...

..................

But today's night seems to be much more beautiful than usual....

"The starry sky here is so beautiful," Ji Si'an muttered alone.

"Yes..."

Ji Si'an heard a voice from overhead, a spirit, turned over and stood up to look, it turned out to be Ji Er, at this time he was sitting on the grass, looking up at the sky...

"Huh... Earl.... Big brother, I'm sorry to wake you up..."Ji Si'an hurriedly lowered his head and whispered at this moment.

Jiell was stunned for a moment, looked at Ji Si'an for a while, and said: "It's none of your business, you may be used to beating gongs and drums around you at night, and it's a little strange to suddenly quiet down..."

Speaking of this, Jiwell changed the subject and said, "What, it's you, why don't you go to sleep?"

After hearing this, Ji Si'an lowered his head and pinched the corner of his clothes, and said, "I, I can't sleep." ”

Jiell could naturally guess the reason, and didn't ask anything more, at this time, he saw that Ji Si'an was still standing, so he patted the open space next to him, probably signaling that Ji Si'an could sit down...

Ji Si'an naturally knew what Ji Er meant, but he still stood in place, and after hesitating for a while, Ji Si'an carefully sat next to Ji Er...

After that, the two sat together and looked at the sky, and after a long time, Ji Si'an asked softly, "Brother Earl, you... And Big Brother Bai, are they all killers?"

"Hmm. ”

After hearing this affirmative answer, Jiell originally expected that Jisian would be curious to ask some information about this "special profession" that has existed since ancient times, or ask him to tell him something about what he encountered during his mission, or ask him what it was like to kill someone.

But what made him extremely stunned was that after listening to the affirmative answer, Ji Si'an whispered: "Then, you must have suffered a lot, right?"

Hearing this unexpected answer, Jiell was stunned, and turned his head to look at Ji Si'an, his eyes did not have the previous calmness, but instead of surprise, and an instant loss of concentration...

At that moment, all kinds of memories of the past came to his mind...

He and Bai Jixiao are both killers, this is what Ji Si'an knows, but what Ji Si'an doesn't know is that they belong to a special organization, this organization is called "Death Gate"...

And the reason why this organization is called the Gate of the Dead is very simple, because in addition to the mission objectives of the organization, all the other people who know the secrets of this organization are also sent to the dead...

These ordinary members of the Death Gate, those who can persevere to the end after countless trials are definitely not one in ten, and for them, it is like going to a dead life...

And in the end, there is a very special trial in the Gate of Death, that is, the trial of loyalty, and those who survive this trial have long lost their enthusiasm for this world.

Because in the midst of that trial, the torture they endured, the temptations and deceptions they faced, were enough to make the vast majority of them lose faith in the world.

That's why, despite Bai Jixiao's superb, Jewell is still willing to act with him... Because Bai Jixiao is the only one who is still passionate about life after going through those things.

Enthusiastic to the point that many times, Jewell wondered if Bai Jixiao had participated in those trials...

.......

After Ji Si'an said this, seeing that Ji Er didn't speak, he didn't seem to be able to find any topic, so he also fell silent.

After the two were silent for a long time, Jiell suddenly asked, "I was in Fifty Mile Town before, why did I deliberately stay away from Aunt Zhang and Ling'er?"

Obviously, Ji Si'an didn't expect Ji Er to ask this question, and after being stunned for a moment, he replied with a straight look: "At that time, I would only drag them down..."

Ji Si'an didn't seem to want to say the reason, but then said: "In this world, there are good people like Aunt Zhang's family. But again, there are a lot of not-so-good people in this world..."

Speaking of this, Ji Si'an turned his head to look at Ji Earl and asked, "By the way, Brother Earle, why are you asking this?"

After hearing this, Jiel smiled, and said with a deep gaze: "I understood this truth when I was seven years old..."

Ji Si'an was stunned for a long, long time when he heard this, he didn't know what Ji Er had experienced, but at this time he probably knew why the person in front of him, who seemed to be unmoved by anything, would pay special attention to himself....

So maybe it's because he has some of the same experiences that Jiel pays special attention to Ji Si'an....

Only those who are truly in the darkness will know how terrible the darkness really is.

After Ji Si'an listened, he didn't say anything, neither of them spoke, just looked up at the stars in the sky, as if to break the embarrassment, Ji Si'an chatted with Ji Er about the details of Bai Jixiao being chased by a dog today....

After Ji Si'an said for a while, he heard Ji Er suddenly speak again: "Actually, sometimes, it's good to live like him."

When Ji Si'an heard this, he turned his head to look at Ji Earle, obviously a little stunned, and he said at this time: "But, but I always feel that Brother Earl seems to be more powerful than Big Brother Bai... It's also more stable.... Well... It seems to be more mature.... Well, it's a bit more reliable...."

If these words were heard by Bai Jixiao, I don't know if he would stomp his feet angrily...

When Jiel heard Ji Si'an's words, he smiled dumbly and said, "At least, he can do anything without worrying..."

Hearing this, some images came to mind, like Ziell throwing away an unknown number of steamed buns, and even risking his life to save himself, but it always seemed to give people a feeling of being unapproachable.

But Bai Jixiao is completely different, he is always very aggressive, and even when he is not too familiar with himself, he can naturally hook his shoulder...

This difference may be a bit like the situation when Ji Si'an wanted to learn to walk in Na Luo Qian's play, it is obviously an extremely simple thing, but he will never learn it...

Maybe it's caused by their childhood experiences, this difference seems to be their introversion, but in fact, it's just an inferiority complex hidden inward that even they are rarely aware of...

So thinking of this, Ji Si'an suddenly said: "No matter what, I think that Brother Earl, you are a very good person..."

After hearing this, Jiel was silent for a long time before he whispered, "Maybe..."

After Ji Si'an heard this answer, he nodded heavily and said, "Definitely." ”

Jiel didn't respond to Ji Si'an, just raised his head to look at the sky, and muttered in a low voice: "Good guy... Is it?"

After that, the two of them were speechless, and Ji Si'an actually pillowed the ground, covered the sky, and slowly fell asleep with the starlight in the sky...

..................

At this time, on the top of the mountain, there was a person, he was dressed in a white shirt, his hair was messy, and his face also had a sparse beard, and he was only twenty-seven or eighteen, and at this time he was carrying a wine jug in his hand, and after pouring it into his mouth, he looked at the halfway up the mountain with drunken eyes....

Although his eyes were misty, he seemed to be looking very seriously, and the whole person was motionless, just leaning against the mountain gate, looking down the mountain...

And what can be there?

It's just a hillside, a pond, an acre of fertile land, a child, a teenager, a sea of stars, a lonely moon, a good night, and a good dream.....

At this time, silence is better than sound..........

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