Sequence 7: Depression

"You're really not going to work at your father's unit?" Wenbo looked at Qiu Ning in a daze, and asked about the topic.

Qiuning shook his head, stared at the coffee cup in front of him, and didn't reply. Wenbo saw that she didn't want to continue chatting, so he changed the topic and asked, "It's a little late to come to the club today!" Where did you go in the morning? ”

"I went to apply for ......"

Then the two fell silent again, Qiu Ning suddenly remembered something, and asked Wenbo, who was still in a daze: "Do you think girls are easy to deceive?" Wenbo was puzzled and looked at her inquiringly.

Qiu Ning lowered her head, seeing that Wenbo didn't answer, so she asked again: "Are our girls particularly easy to deceive?" ”

"Why do you say that?" Wenbo still didn't understand what she meant.

"Most of the people who are deceived on the news are girls, and very few men are deceived......" Tyunin muttered to herself, turning her glass.

"It's all the same, men can also be deceived, and in front of interests, everyone is a prisoner. Girls are deceived a lot, probably because they are relatively simple! It's easier to get carried away by interests. Wenbo clasped his hands in front of his chest, and the strong muscles and strong arms in his chest were highlighted. Seeing that Qiu Ning had been staring at his arm, Wen Bo asked jokingly, "Who bullied our family Ning Ning?" Seniors help you teach him a lesson! ”

"Who dares to bully me......" Qiu Ning twisted his head to the side and replied silently as he lay on the table.

Is it really because girls are simple that they are more likely to be deceived? Will some woman who is too shrewd to be any more shrewd never be deceived? She thought about it in her heart, walked down the street with the piano, came to the place where she often performed, packed up everything, and began her performance.

In the ruins, Qiu Ning gradually woke up, his eyes slightly open and scanned the surroundings, the ground was as messy as ever, this lounge-like room was very large, but it was already a mess destroyed by the earthquake, as if it had just been ransacked. She remembered everything she had just done, but she didn't know how long she had been unconscious.

She slowly got up, feeling a little pain in her head. She looked up at the place where she had fallen from the pipe, which was still hanging from the ceiling as a broken piece of pipe. Qiu Ning looked down at his body, his clothes and pants that were so dirty that they were torn everywhere, and he had a lot of thoughts. She thought back to herself when she crawled out of the bookcase, the couple of men and women in the underground garage, the rescuers who were smashed for saving herself, she felt that her nerves had wandered to the outside world, as if she was standing in the ruins with only a shell, at this time she didn't even want to leave here, hoping that her name would disappear from the world, no one remembered her as an insignificant girl, let alone the bad songs she sang.

Perhaps all this is God's test for her, when she opened a door of hope every time, the door was ruthlessly sealed, as if deliberately aimed at her, after escaping death again and again, and grief-stricken again and again, only to find that she had missed too much in the first twenty years of her life, and the most important things that she had missed were dispensable......

Qiu Ning walked out of the lounge in a trance, she had no sense of direction at all, she just walked aimlessly with her feelings, and even stepped on the broken glass shards, but she still didn't feel anything, she didn't want to be near the window, afraid of seeing hope outside the window again, and then dashing hope again......

As she walked, she suddenly heard the sound of water flowing, so she followed the sound to the bathroom. There was a pool of water at the door of the bathroom, and the water trail just extended to both sides of the corridor wall, and the water reflected the chandelier on the ceiling, and the sound of water was coming from the bathroom. She was about to take a step forward, but she noticed that the exposed wires by the wall were encroaching in the water, and in a panic she retracted her half-unshoed foot, and retreated in panic to a far place from the water. She wasn't sure if there was electricity in the water, so she picked up a broken piece of wood from the side, came back to the edge of the water, and hunched over to pick up the power cord that had come out of the hole. She struggled to hold the stick with one hand, and with the courage to step her left foot into the water, and although there was no change in the water, and she was unharmed, she still strode down in fear.

It was the first time in her life that she had entered the men's bathroom, which was as messy as the outside, with wooden planks toppled to the side, and the only two sinks that had cracks in place, and the sound of water coming from the pipes next to the sink. Qiu Ning couldn't wait to rush to the water pipe that had broken and was still seeping, lying on the ground and sticking her face to the wall, catching the water with her mouth and drinking it in a big gulp, she didn't care if the water was clean or not, whether it had been disinfected or not, she was very satisfied at the moment, this was the first time she felt extremely comfortable from being trapped in the ruins. Qiuning was like a giant baby that had not yet been weaned, greedily sucking the stream of water.

As the thirst in her throat faded, she stood up contentedly, wiped her mouth with the back of her hand, and gasped for air. She stood in front of the cracked sink, wiped the dust on it, and saw her long-lost self through the incomplete mirror, the weather-beaten girl in front of the mirror, which made her almost forget what she really was. Her clothes and pants were tattered, she really looked like a beggar, her face was covered with a layer of black ash, and several unhealed wounds were still clearly visible, she remembered the origin of the wound on her forehead, but she couldn't remember at all what time and where the other wounds were scratched.

The water pipe was still seeping, and she put her hand under the water flow, scrubbing the mud on her hands and face, and the water dripping on the ground instantly turned black. After freshening up, she sat down against the relatively clean wall, rubbed her wet hands on her clothes casually, carefully examined her white hands, and couldn't help but think of the songs she had sung.

She slowly closed her eyes, her hands dangling in front of her chest, fantasizing about her fingers moving back and forth on the guitar, C, FM, C, E, F, and she unconsciously remembered the familiar melody in her mind. At this moment, she seemed to be on a splendid stage, performing her songs unscrupulously, she proudly waved to the audience, and the audience also responded eagerly to her, shouting her name. In the crowd, Qiuning saw her parents sitting in the front row, looking at their daughter on the stage with a worried look in their eyes.

Qiu Ning opened her eyes suddenly, and the scene in her mind collapsed instantly, and she didn't notice that a line of tears had slipped from the corners of her eyes. She didn't know why it was happening in her head. She got up again, slapped the dust off her body, and faintly heard the sound of a helicopter outside, and her nerves were instantly excited, but the high windows of the bathroom limited her desire to look outside. She ran down the hallway and rushed into the front room......

Although this building is close to the next building, you can still see the sky through this not too wide space. With the sound of "boom", a helicopter flashed through the gap between the two buildings, the sound of the helicopter had disappeared, but she was still standing in front of the window and staring blankly into the sky, as if she could see the helicopter hovering here.

Qiu Ning gradually came back to her senses, turned around and leaned against the windowsill, and glanced at the door inadvertently, but she was startled, only to see a male corpse lying near the corner of the door, the corpse's head was blurred with flesh and blood, and there was a broken flower pot next to it, and there was a large pool of blood around it. Although it was not so unusual to see a corpse, it really scared her to see this scene unsuspectingly. Just now, because of my anxiety, I focused all my attention on the window, and I didn't pay attention to the corpse lying in the corner of the wall at all.

Qiu Ning sat slumped under the window for a while, and then slowly recovered from the horror, she walked to the foot of the corpse, stretched her head to look at the corpse's face, she did not dare to get too close, the fear in her heart still took the first place. She kicked the other man with her shoeed foot, then quickly dodged backwards, her heart pounding like a drum, and only after making sure that the other person was dead did she cling to the corpse and left the room.

After walking for a while, she suddenly remembered something and stopped, and turned back to the room she had just been. She stared at the male corpse, hesitated for a moment, and finally made up her mind to approach the corpse, carefully untying the shoelace of the corpse's left foot. She took off her shoes and threw them aside, putting them on, and didn't care if the other party had a foot disease, although the shoe size was a little large, but tying the laces didn't make much of a difference. Tyuten changed his sitting position and began to take off the other shoe, but the laces of this shoe were like a dead knot, and they couldn't be untied at all, and they tried many methods, but to no avail. She sat up on her knees impatiently, tugging at her shoes, and her body began to shake because of her hard pulling, and at this moment she seemed to have completely forgotten her fear.

Seeing that this method did not work, she lifted the corpse's right leg and pulled it out with her heel. After a lot of effort, I finally took off my shoes, but I lay on my side as if I had collapsed. The laces on the shoes still couldn't be untied, and she forced the pain of the wound to stuff her right foot in, and the shoes on her feet obviously didn't follow her feet, but for Qiuning, who had always been barefoot, she had been very satisfied.

She lifted the wrist guard wrapped around her ankle, and it still hurt a little around the wound, but it wasn't as painful as it had been before, and she tried not to think about it, and went back to the hallway again.

Qiuning walked in stride, like a warrior who had just returned from the battlefield, with a fearless expression with determination, thinking that she would use her ability to escape, she had never been so confident, perhaps because of the growth after going through this, she remembered her parents...... Her mother's kind face and her father's sad expression seemed to be far and near, stirring her most fragile nerve all the time. For the first time, she felt untouchable, she didn't know what to do now, but she quietly made a decision in her heart, if she could get out of here, she would give up these flashy things she was pursuing now, abide by her father's wishes, and choose the path that her father had planned for her.

Qiu Ning thought about her mind and walked forward, she didn't pay attention to her feet at all, she tripped over the power cord on the ground and fell to the ground, her head happened to hit the collapsed iron frame, the pain quickly spread all over her body, followed by a burst of dizziness, she felt that the scene in front of her was shaking involuntarily, she shook her head vigorously, only to feel that her head was getting more and more swollen, she slowly got up, barely holding on to the wall to advance.

A white light suddenly appeared in the room in front of her, and the blinding intensity of the light made her unable to open her eyes a little, and she covered her eyes with her arms, and her eyes were fixed on the tiles under her feet. As she approached, the light disappeared along with the door, replaced by an airtight wall. She gasped for air, and her headache was getting worse. At this moment, the light appeared again, and Qiu Ning was a little confused, running towards the light at the end of the corridor on the right......

She walked into the room, which was empty, with a large space around her, surrounded by walls that looked like white sets, reflecting a harsh white light. Qiuning squinted his eyes and found that the door behind him had disappeared. A row of stone staircases suddenly appeared at his feet, and the whole room became a desert, and the distance was very blurred, except for a few towering buildings.

She walked slowly down the steps, and found that the stone steps were soft, like silt, and would sink deep if you stepped on them. Tyuten knew that he must be hallucinating, but he couldn't get out of this illusion anyway. The stairs were long and kept going downward, and she saw her parents standing at the bottom of the steps, their hands clasped to their chests, staring blankly at their daughter as they walked down. As the distance got closer, her steps became lighter and lighter, as if she were in space, unable to force each step. Eventually, her legs couldn't support her weight, and she fell down the stairs.

Qiu Ning raised his head tiredly, the figure of his parents had long since disappeared, and a father and daughter appeared not far away, Qiu Ning struggled to stand up and swayed towards them. When she approached, she saw her young self and her young father, sometimes they appeared next to the swing, sometimes playing in the swivel chair, the sound of father and daughter playing always tugged at her most sensitive nerves, and she vaguely remembered that it was the happiest time when she was young. At that time, my father's hair was still very thick, and the two slightly raised sword eyebrows and the high bridge of the nose, as well as the angular face, were all places where her little hands had touched. Thinking back to her father now, except for the clear imprint left by the years on her face, there is not much grace left, Qiu Ning suddenly felt a burst of sadness, felt light under her feet, her legs could no longer hold on, she fell to the ground, looking at the people and things that disappeared in front of her little by little, and gradually lost consciousness......