The early winter sun shone lazily on the white table. Kong Ling closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and then slowly opened them. Through the sunlight, I could see the clover on the balcony glowing green. She stretched and walked to the window and looked out at the plane trees. The leaves dance in the autumn wind, refusing to fall. This is the fifth floor, and it will take some time for the leaves to fall to the ground. Maybe it doesn't intend to fall, but wants to float somewhere else, such as the roof of a building, such as the balcony of someone else's house, for example, another city......

Kong Ling took down the books from the bookshelf and put them in cardboard boxes, the house was due, and she was going to move to her newly bought house.

A white notebook fell to the ground, and she picked it up and patted the dust, which was a little yellow. This is her and Xiao Jinmian's diary, which records their bits and pieces, just like their children. She opened it, tears welling up in the corners of her eyes.

When I met you, you were a silly child; By the time you leave, you've become a mature man with a woman by your side.

Oh, so I used to have you, and now, I've lost you.

The words in the diary became blurred as she burst into tears. In fact, she didn't know that in a corner of the city, the man was grieving alone, but she couldn't feel this sadness.

His photo had been locked in a drawer for a long time, covered with dust, and Kong Ling had never had the courage to look at it. Today, she suddenly felt the urge to see it. She didn't want to know how he was doing, and she didn't want to hear everything about him from other people's mouths. She was afraid that those would disturb her peaceful life and make her heart ripple again. At this moment, she just wanted to quietly enjoy that photo and admire him at that time.

Xiao Jinmian, this man, once made a big hole in her heart and exhausted her best eight years of youth. He is a pain that she will never forget in her life.

Kong Ling put the photos and journals into a blue box, threw them at the bottom of the box, and got up to organize other things.

A sad tone permeated the room.

Suddenly, the phone rang. The voice of his best friend Wang Xue came over there: "He's getting married!" ”

He's getting married?! He, he, is getting married!

Okay, good to get married! He's married after all!

Suddenly it started snowing outside the window. The first snow of the year came so suddenly and so early, which made Kong Ling a little overwhelmed. She pushed open the window and slowly stretched out her hand, and the snow fell on her pink hand in pieces, and immediately turned into drops. Kong Ling shuddered, closed the window, squatted down, and shrank in the corner.

It's really cold this winter!

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One night four years ago, in a hot pot restaurant, Xiao Jinmian swore to Kong Ling: "Kong Ling, I, Xiao Jinmian, have married you in my life." You wait, give me a few years, before the age of thirty, if nothing else, I will definitely marry you, and make you the most beautiful and happy bride. In this city, I, Xiao Jinmian, will definitely give you Kong Ling a home. Yes, it's in this city, and we're not going there! ”

At that time, the opening ceremony of the Olympic Games was being broadcast live on the large screen TV of the hot pot restaurant.

On that day, Kong Ling had been in Beijing for exactly half a month, and everything was fresh and full of strength. Xiao Jinmian had just been paid and invited her to dinner.

Although it was August, and it was so hot that it felt like it was going to burn, they still plunged into the hot pot restaurant and ate in the dark.

After coming out of there, they sat in the garden of the complex, drinking and singing songs. Others thought they were insane. Later, when they were too drunk, they squatted on the side of the road and vomited, and even threw stones at passers-by.

They talked a lot that day.

Kong Ling gently snuggled in Xiao Jinmian's arms, like a lazy kitten who was well fed and drunk, and whispered to him: "When we have money, we will buy a house here, more than 100 square meters, with floor-to-ceiling windows." I want to grow flowers, vegetables, and fish on the balcony. I'm going to get a little study room too. No, we have to get two, and in case we quarrel, we can stay in our respective study rooms and calm down. I'm going to fill my study with my work. As for you, your study is full of all kinds of medical equipment, and when someone pushes the door open, you think you're in the hospital. Hehe......"

"By the way, you have to prepare a room for the baby, the walls should be ocean blue, the floor should be grass green, and as for the bed, make a trampoline and let the baby jump on it. Also, the whole slide so that I can slide the slide uncontrollably. ”

Xiao Jinmian poked her forehead with his finger and said with a smile: "You think you are opening a kindergarten, naïve!" ”

"You're naïve. What do you think we should call if we have children in the future? Candy floss? Little Jin Ling? Xiao Kongkong? Xiao Lingling? ”

"What a mess, and a drizzle!"

"Hey, seriously, how many years have we been together?"

"It's been a long time. Can't remember......"

Yes, they have been together for so long that Kong Ling feels that they have been together from the beginning. Thinking of the scene when they met for the first time, it was an ordinary scene, not a deliberate arrangement, nor some fate.

At that time, Kong Ling was still a student in the journalism department of Huaqing University and was in his sophomore year. One weekend, Kong Ling went to a bar near the medical university to attend a classmate's birthday party. This was Kong Ling's first time going to a bar, and before that, she hated this kind of place very much, and always felt that the people in it were indifferent and unskilled. However, it was her best friend's birthday, and she had to go.

The light in the bar was dim and the atmosphere was ambiguous. Kong Ling drank a lot of wine under the repeated persuasion of his good friends. She never knew she was drinking so well that she couldn't get drunk. At the end of the fun, everyone started to play like a wild horse. It's a very old-fashioned game, spinning the beer bottle, and after the beer bottle stops, whoever the bottle mouth is aimed at, who should perform the show. It happened that Kong Ling won the bid in the first round. Although she is usually competitive and has strong learning ability, she does not have any artistic cells, she is not proficient in piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, and she is a layman in playing, playing and singing. What to do? She was dumbfounded.

Friends coaxed: "If you don't perform a show, just play an exciting one, kiss, and choose the kissing partner." ”

"Don't choose, I'll come!" A tall boy immediately stood up and shouted, it was obvious that he was drunk.

"Oh, I can't see it, Brother Xiao, how did you change sex now, you sullen man." Someone whistled and teased.

Before Kong Ling could react, Xiao Jinmian's thick lips had already pressed against Kong Ling's cold little mouth. Kong Ling's whole body immediately went numb. The girl's scream sounded in her ears, and there was only one consciousness in her mind: "Strong kiss? My first kiss ......" and then the whole person fell into Xiao Jinmian's arms......

Looking back now, I was really drunk at the time, and I became this man's woman in such a daze.

She had fantasized about her love before, but her family was strict, and she was a very shy girl, so the corner of her heart was always blank. After going to college, she finally had freedom, and she was trying to change herself to make others feel that she was a sunny and cheerful person, but she never thought that she would be involved with such an excellent boy.

When Kong Ling woke up, he found that he was lying in his friend's bedroom. The friend looked at her angrily and said, "Give me back my boyfriend." ”

"Your boyfriend? Who is it? Where is it? ”

"Don't pretend you! Return my boyfriend, what a good fish, why did you let it go! ”

"What fish? I didn't eat fish! ”

"Pretend, that handsome guy last night was my boyfriend-to-be, and before I could do it, I was hooked away by you. Kong Ling, I'm not done with you! As she spoke, her friend beat her up.

Kong Ling rubbed her sore shoulder and said, "Oh, you mean...... Ah, my first kiss! But I ...... Who the hell am I giving it to? ”

"Let's take a look." The friend took out a two-inch photo from his wallet, handed it to Kong Ling, and then said, "He, Xiao Jinmian, twenty years old, unmarried, one meter eight, the president of the student union of our college, has an easy-going personality, a little sullen, knows a little art, has no bad habits, and is a pure and pure good man." ”

"Are you sure it's him?"

"Why not! He's my boyfriend-to-be, but now he's not pure, so I'll give it to you, I'm not a rare girl. ”

"Oh." Kong Ling got up from the bed, slowly got dressed, and was pulled out for breakfast by his friends.

Along the way, she was in a dizzy state.

After breakfast, Kong Ling prepared to go back to his school.

While waiting for the train at the station, a boy suddenly appeared in front of her and said, "Let's go, I'll take you back to school." ”

Kong Ling glared at him and said angrily, "Who are you?" ”

"Xiao Jinmian!"

From this moment on, Xiao Jinmian captured Kong Ling, the little sheep. Xiao Jinmian was like a meteorite, falling into Kong Ling's life without warning, and the explosion caught Kong Ling off guard. His appearance completely broke Kong Ling's original world. In the past, her world was as simple as a line, studying, eating, sleeping, and shopping with friends. The only social activity she participated in was a work-study program, which was selling newspapers and magazines at the school's newsstand, and although she didn't need the money, she could exercise herself. Now, her world is full of him.

When she was in self-study, he would suddenly appear behind her, poke her back with the tip of his pen, and hand her a bottle of water. When she went to the cafeteria to line up to eat, he would suddenly stand in front of her with the finished meal and smile at her. When she comes to menstruation every month, she always has a terrible stomachache and doesn't want to go out in the dormitory, he will fight wits and courage with the aunt in the building manager, and then bring a lot of snacks to the dormitory to see her, and tell her extremely cold jokes. At this time, the roommates are especially happy because they can share these snacks together. They also joked that Kong Ling should have a few more periods, so that they would be happier.

Every Friday afternoon, Xiao Jinmian would come to the school's newsstand to compensate her for being on duty with her, helping her sell newspapers and magazines, and never stopped. He likes to see her reading seriously, so simple and quiet, with a little confusion in her eyes.

Yes, in the eyes of many people, Kong Ling is such a girl, ordinary, simple, will not make your eyes shine, but can leave a shadow in your mind, and you will smile when you think of her; It's not pretty, but it's very delicate and beautiful; The family background is not bad, but she never spends money indiscriminately; He doesn't have any special hobbies, but he is never ambiguous in his studies. When she lowers her head and communicates with those words with her eyes, you think, oh, it turns out that she is such a girl.

A long time later, when Kong Ling asked Xiao Jinmian what he liked the most, Xiao Jinmian stroked her head and said softly, "I like the way you read." Do you know, the first time I met you, you sat quietly in the newsstand alone and read a book seriously, I called several times, you ignored me, and when I walked away, I found you with your head down, neck brunch, and being criticized, I guess that person should be your little leader. I was thinking, there is such a stupid girl who loves to read. ”

"What? Isn't it the first time we've met when you kissed someone! ”

"You just know, silly girl!"

"You're a bad ......"

"Silly girl", Kong Ling likes Xiao Jinmian to call her like this, which makes his heart very down-to-earth and warm.

She thought he could call her that for the rest of her life!