Lu Zhengze went to work, and Jiang Youning asked for leave.

After Lu Ke took a bath, his tight shoulders finally relaxed a little, and the whole person buried himself in the quilt, closed his eyes and tried to sleep well for a while, on the plane, not only was it bumpy all the way, but the seat was too narrow to sleep well, from the body to the nerves were exhausted to the extreme, and it seemed that the eyelids couldn't be opened-

I was sitting in the driver's seat just now, and I fell asleep in a short instant.

But now, the whole person is sleepy, but he can't sleep.

With his eyes tightly closed, he lay down for a while, thinking that half an hour had passed, but he turned his head and glanced at the alarm clock on the bedside table, and suddenly found that only three minutes had passed, and the passage of time had slowed down like never before.

Simply, Lu Ke sat up directly, sat cross-legged on the bed, and looked at his room.

Everything was so familiar, it didn't look the same, the Peyton Manning poster on the bedside was still bathed in the thin morning sun, the erasers and pencils left on the desk never seemed to move, and even the books on the shelves were still the same as they were then.

Time, it seems that it has never set foot in this pure land, those green years and growth footprints, still alive and real, vivid, every corner is truly recorded traces of the passage of time.

I turned around, pulled back the quilt, and saw the wooden board between the mattress and the head of the bed, written crookedly with a black carbon pen: "I want to be the best quarterback!" It seems that I can still vividly recall the excitement and excitement when I wrote such a bold statement in my own hand.

Since you can't sleep, then get up and do something.

left the room and came downstairs, and then Lu Ke found his mother sitting on the sofa "recuperating", "Mom, don't you have to go to work?" ”

"Oh, I'm a little inconvenient today, so I'm at home." Jiang Youning pretended to be flipping through a magazine, and replied to Lu Ke casually, but his eyes were always secretly looking at Lu Ke's state, "Don't worry, it's not a big deal, just keep busy with you." There are breakfast materials in the fridge, so you can do it yourself if you need it. ”

Lu Ke's eyes fell on his mother, trying to open his mouth to say something, but he found a mess in his mind, he didn't know what to say, he knew that his mother must be worried about himself, but now, he really didn't have the mood or the mind, the whole person was like a headless fly, spinning in place in a transparent glass box, hitting the wall everywhere.

Standing in place and thinking about it, he still didn't speak after all, but responded in a deep voice, "Hmm." Then he went straight into the kitchen and started preparing breakfast by himself.

Jiang Youning hurriedly sat up straight and leaned in the direction of the kitchen, trying to see his son's movements, but he was worried about being discovered, so he hurriedly shrank his head and sat back down again at the slightest sound; Then he found out that it was a false alarm, so he started to probe again, and immediately saw his son coming out with cereal and milk, and sat down in a panic, quickly tidied up the blanket that covered his knees, and pretended that nothing had happened.

Lu Ke entered the hall, Jiang Youning pretended to hear the sound, raised his head and smiled at Lu Ke, and then lowered his head again and began to flip through the magazine. But in fact, she didn't even know what kind of magazine it was, and it was unclear whether the pictures on it were advertisements or interviews, and the only thing she knew for sure was that the magazine was not taken backwards.

Lu Ke has no way to think now, the whole brain is a mess, and after there are too many thoughts that can't be sorted out, it simply becomes a blank, no thoughts, no positive emotions, but no negative emotions, it seems that for a while, the defeat that has just ended has gradually been forgotten in the back of his mind.

He was just reflexively busy, and the long-term regular routine and training formed a natural system, without thinking at all, the body and mind seemed to have been implanted with a program, and began to execute it step by step. However, after breakfast, he realized that something didn't seem quite right with the program.

Yesterday was Thursday, today is Friday, and at the same time, there are no games on Sunday, and there is no need to report to the training base on Friday and Saturday; The next game was a distant next Sunday, with nine days to go, and the whole pace and plan was very different.

For a while, Lu Ke's brain was a little blank: What should I do today?

I've never played a Thursday night before, so I don't know anything about what to expect after the game. In the midst of the chaos, Lu Ke stood in place like this, stunned for a while, and then reacted and summoned the system.

Ignoring the large number of unread messages, he directly opened the daily training plan, looked for today's recovery training-related items, and then came to the backyard and followed the instructions to devote himself to training. He now needs to sweat profusely, needs to be exhausted, needs to stop thinking for a while, needs to calm his brain again.

Engrossed and distracted, Lu Ke started his daily training again, just like countless days and nights in the past, steadily devoting himself to basic training; But today's training was extremely difficult, and there was no way to achieve a high degree of concentration, and Jiang Youning's figure could always be captured in the corner of his eye.

From time to time, Jiang Youning began to clean, swaying back and forth in front of the window; From time to time, Jiang Youning went to the tool room in the backyard to sort out the sundries; From time to time, Jiang Youning poked his head out from the second floor, considering whether today's sun was suitable for drying quilts; From time to time, Jiang Youning asked Lu Ke if there was anything he particularly wanted to eat at noon today......

Intermittently, Jiang Youning's figure was always circling around the backyard.

Lu Ke knew that his mother didn't mean it, she just cared; But he is just restless, and he has never been able to completely calm down, that impetuous mood can't be suppressed at all, and the slightest wind and grass will be magnified countless times.

Such constant distraction is not only unsatisfactory for training results, but also has the potential to lead to unnecessary injuries.

In the end, Lu Ke gave up the ongoing recovery training, just left a sentence of "I ran", and then trotted all the way out of the house, along the path he was familiar with, and began to run. Run, just run.

Running, which is undoubtedly one of the simplest training programs, is just following the instincts/abilities, putting aside all thoughts, and simply taking steps and striding towards running; As I ran, my brain gradually began to lack oxygen, my lungs were like bellows, and then all my thoughts, all my thoughts, all my confusion was completely emptied, and I really fell into a blank.

Those failures, those grappling, those interceptions, those helplessness, everything is completely gone, and only a deep sense of frustration is rampant.

In a group sport, if he refuses to work hard and refuses to fight, then losing the game is a high probability event; But sometimes, even if he tries his best, even if he doesn't give it his all, even if he explodes completely, and he does everything to the extreme, he doesn't necessarily win the game.

The frustration of powerlessness is like a bottomless abyss with no end in sight. interception, capture; Grabbing, intercepting, it seems that before they have time to catch their breath and relax, the shadow of two consecutive defeats has already hung over their heads, which is really ...... It's infuriating.

Faster and faster, Lu Ke's running speed became faster and faster, giving up rhythm control, and also giving up speed control, just getting carried away and accelerating with all his might, the rhythm of the whole sprint became more and more fierce, as if the whole person was burning, but before it could be burned out, deep exhaustion and burnout came surgingly, and his lungs began to sting.

Today, Lu Ke's physical and mental state are in a poor stage, and it can even be said that it is terrible.

Usually, the 10,000-meter variable speed run has become a habit, just like eating and drinking, and the body has long been adapted to such intensity; But today, after running less than a third of the way, the secretion of a large amount of lactic acid began to make the limbs extremely heavy, and it seemed that even the feet could not be lifted.

To make matters worse, the scorching lungs had already begun to catch fire, exhaling and inhaling were a cloud of scorching air, burning from the lungs through the throat and spreading throughout the mouth, the pain that penetrated deep into the blood seemed to have reached a critical point in drowning, and the feet were straddling the line of life and death, death on one side and survival on the other.

This feeling is even worse than death.

The more this is the case, the more angry I become, and the anger that has gradually subsided and disappeared burns again, and a nameless fire begins to sweep through the body, just trying to vent freely, but I can't find an outlet, I am aggrieved and depressed, and the whole world begins to change color.

He hates failure! He hates failure! He hated such a disgrace, such a disgrace, such a terrible failure! Even after going through it countless times, he still couldn't get used to it. Unable.

His stumbling steps almost began to stumble, his knees were like soft noodles, and he could barely support his body's strength, and he could only stumble in one direction along the way. The headless fly still hasn't been able to figure out the direction.

At that moment, a slender figure appeared at the far end of the line of sight, standing around the corner of the street, looking up the long, well-proportioned legs, and then saw the face of Candace Swanepel with a big smile.

However, Candace didn't say a word, just winked at Lu Ke, rushed towards him quickly, and quickly narrowed the distance between the two people with an orderly pace, and then ...... Passing by, her footsteps did not stop, but continued to run, and the slender back faded away from sight.

Lu Ke was stunned for a moment, then gritted his teeth, began to speed up again, and chased after him.