Xiapan County's attitude towards Mingwen is somewhat complicated, and he breaks some rules that make it impossible for some people to maintain some kind of calm as they did in the past. A rupture of order can lead to a panic that will lead to a willingness to try risky measures that were previously unavoidable. And they didn't expect that behind the text was not only Yang Xueren, but more importantly, there was also Hu Ji. In some ways, they found Hu Ji's support and trust in Mingwen to seem indestructible, at least it felt. They begin to adapt to a different life than they used to be, and they try to make it a habit.

However, on the afternoon of the third day after Mingwen left Zijin and returned to Xiapan County, he received a call from Yang Xueren. On the phone, he severely rebuked Mingwen, saying that he was stubborn and self-serving, too arbitrary in everything and liked to take doctrines, and sooner or later he would make a big mistake. Mingwen didn't explain much to him, and he knew that arguing would only attract greater condemnation. In the past two days, he has been running to the most remote towns to conduct research, and even walking to visit secluded villages, his body is extremely tired, and now, he feels even more sleepy inside, beyond the body. He called Zijin again, how he longed for someone to talk to him, to listen to him say a few nonsense words, but the phone still couldn't be connected. He sat lazily on the sofa, and the parting scene after Zijin's birthday was the most comforting memory for him at this time. In that memory, he went back to Sunday afternoon, he returned to Zijin's side, she looked at him, reluctant to let him go, she sent him, sat in a wheelchair, held his hand, looked at him, and her eyes were full of him. In his memory, there was a difference, he and her were still together, as if that afternoon, happiness was in his and hers' air, and this air filled the reverie of the day when he closed his eyes and returned to that day. Her advice is just like what she said to him just now, Mingwen, you must take care of yourself, you must learn to be strong when no one is temporarily guarding you, you must make me always worthy of love, even if I leave, I am already full of pride when I think of you,—— because you make people feel so noble. Her words still lingered in his ears, and time went by, everything was like today, just now, and she said, Mingwen, do you know how much I love you, do you know how long this love is, how deep it will be, how strong it will be, if the world dies today, I only pray that I can see that last piece of scenery in your arms, and I will feel that it is incomparably gorgeous. He got on the bus, the car started, she waved to him, in a wheelchair, and kept waving there, towards him, until they disappeared from each other's field of vision, but he still saw her waving, right in front of his eyes, her eyes were overflowing with reluctance that he had never seen, and he was still on the highway, and the highway was still in her sight, and her vision blended into his vision.

The mobile phone rang abruptly in the quiet space, and Mingwen, who was sleeping lightly, was frightened and stood up, he was stunned for a second, and hurriedly took out his mobile phone, intuitively it was Zijin calling. At this time, he felt that his face was a little cold, and touched his face with his other hand, and he realized that he had slipped two lines of tears in his dream, and he was very surprised in his heart, and felt that he was inexplicable. When he saw that the caller ID was Wen Duo, his heart was instantly enveloped by a sense of loss, and then a refreshing panic blew up, this panic once prevailed, his brain struck in an instant, and he forgot to answer in a daze. It was only the fourth time he mustered up the courage to answer. On the twelfth day of the first month of Wen Duo, on the tenth day of the winter month of the lunar calendar, he decided to go back to the city to hold a wedding banquet, so that he must arrive a few days early. Congratulations and jokes in plain text, but I don't dare to mention the bride alone.

Hanging up the phone, he pulled out his cigarette, lit it, and paced back and forth in the room. He tried to think of something, and the brain was like a vacuum tube. He paced back and forth, just didn't want to sit, couldn't sit down, was uncomfortable, and paced comfortably. Cigarette after cigarette roamed between his lips, and cigarette butts scattered on the floor one after another. He patted his head with his hand, what could he do about it?

The mobile phone rang again, it was Zifeng calling, and he told Mingwen to be sure to arrive early. After that, Rende also called him, worried that he would either go late or be entangled in official business and not go, so he must go no matter what, and go early. He understood that their worries were right, and the last time they were all together, they were missing him. Truth be told, he was trying to escape and think of a viable path to reality, but now, their phone calls had somewhat blocked his way out. He was imagining many ways to meet, and the more he imagined, the more confused his thinking became. Sleep, he said to himself, maybe everything would be so good when he woke up.

When we wake up, there may be many wonderful accidents that we never thought about. But the problem is that as soon as Mingwen got into bed, he seemed to smell Ke Yue's elegant body fragrance again, and that body fragrance never disappeared, never, but he never realized it. And now, everything is gradually recovering, the body fragrance, the vanished past, time and space at this moment with the text as a base point, on this basis brings together everything, friends, relatives, lovers, past, present, future......

He shallowly fell asleep with his confession, with a confession begging for moral forgiveness, but was soon awakened by a cell phone alarm and a new day began.

The first thing he did when he got up was to call Zijin, and when he thought of it, he asked Zijin to accompany him to Wen Duo's wedding. Still can't get through. On the way to work, he called Wen Guang to see if he knew Zijin's current situation. What he didn't expect was that Wen Guang said that he was in other places to negotiate business, and he had quit his job a month ago, and as for Zijin, he didn't know anything.

Zijin suddenly haunted him like a mystery. On the way to Gumu Town, he did not go to exchange work matters with Zhang Mingren and Zhao Yacai as usual. Zhang Mingren is a doctor of law, and Zhao Yacai is a doctor of economics, and both of them were hired at the beginning of Mingwen's tenure, which was agreed by their superiors.

Gumu Town is nearly 60 kilometers away from the county seat, located in the deep mountains. Because of the deep mountains, people mistakenly think that this is a very poor place, but in fact it is a very economically developed town, and it is rich in copper resources. The purpose of this trip is to investigate the feasibility of rectification again, so that disorderly mining can become an industrial chain.

I didn't expect to meet Xia Hui in Gumu Town.

"County Magistrate Yang, it's good to see you, and we don't have to go to the town mayor's secretary." Hearing Xia Hui say this, Mingwen thought, could it be that something big happened here, and even reporters came. I saw her say again: "We have been to the scene to see, the houses of the residents on the mountainside do have different degrees of cracks and subsidence of the foundation, and one family's kitchen is no longer afraid to go in to cook." Excuse me, have you already found out about this? ”

"We went to the scene last Wednesday, the day the problem occurred, and ordered the relevant departments to deal with it properly in the near future." He looked at Xia Hui, and really wanted to ask about the current situation of Jin, but this was not a private occasion after all. He said, "Is that okay?" We'll be on site together now. He turned his head to Zhang Mingren and said, "Tell the mayor to come to the scene immediately, we will wait for him there, and ask him to notify the relevant people." He turned back to Xia Hui and said, "More detailed information will interview our mayor later." We are trying to do a mediation and handling that satisfies all parties in accordance with the law today. ”

It was already the afternoon when the incident ended, and everyone suddenly felt hungry. Back in town, the mayor asked Mingwen, the old rules, or something special. Mingwen pondered for a moment and said, today is special, we will be special, not as an example, I will pay the bill, you see how it is. Zhao Yacai objected and insisted on eating working meals. Zhang Mingren also said that no matter who pays, the rules cannot be broken, if there is special today, will there be again tomorrow, and who will pay, not every leader will pay out of pocket like you. Zhao Yacai said unceremoniously, if anyone has a personal relationship, they can go down to eat, but on the occasion and time of work, they must be done in accordance with the principle, you are the county magistrate, you go up and down, I eat separately, I only eat work meals. Mingwen looked at Zijin and her colleagues helplessly, then looked at the mayor again, and said: It's still the old rules!

After eating an ordinary bowl of noodles, one shook hands with each other and thanked them for saying goodbye. When shaking hands and saying goodbye, Mingwen quietly asked Xia Hui to help him invite these colleagues of hers to have dinner together this weekend.

Back in the county seat, Mingwen called Zijin again, but he still didn't get through. He regretted why he didn't ask Xia Hui. He counted his fingers, and in two days he could see Zijin again, and everything would be clear at that time. He began to eagerly look forward to Friday, when he would return to her, and as for whether or not to confess everything to her, he thought it would be better to give up, and more importantly now. He suddenly realized that he could be so accessible.

Someone rang the doorbell and when he opened the door, he was really surprised.

"Why, I'm not welcome in."

"Fast forward, fast forward." Mingwen made way for the other party, and at the same time was infinitely suspicious, and at the same time secretly happy. As soon as the other party entered the door, he grabbed the other party's elbow and asked impatiently: "Do you know why Zijin's phone can't get through?" Have you seen her in the past few days? Xia Hui looked at him with his eyes, and then at his elbow that was caught, Mingwen immediately let go, smiled apologetically, and he said a little embarrassedly: "I'm sorry, I scratched you just now, this is really that I can't get through to her phone these days and can't help but be anxious, and you are her best friend, so ——。 ”

"Can I sit down?"

"Absolutely." He closed the door, quickly went to pour water for her, and sat down on the couch across from her, waiting for her answer, keeping his eyes on her, hoping that she would soon say what she knew.

"I really didn't expect you to be quite frank, I thought there would be a lot of resistance to the interview, I really didn't expect it, today is a real acquaintance with you. And it's the first time I've seen a county magistrate who eats a working meal, and I've been embarrassed by my subordinates in public. ”

"Are you praising me or are you degrading me?" Mingwen smiled unnaturally, he only wanted to know Zijin's situation now, and he was a little impatient in his heart because Xia Hui changed the topic.

"Compliments to you, of course. There are two types of people like you, one is to make his image rise day by day, and the other is to really want to seek happiness for citizens. You say you do this, is it the former or the latter? ”

"Does it matter? You think I'm that kind of person and that. Xia Hui, you're not here to praise me, are you? ”

"Sort of. You don't know that I searched all the way to find you here, but I actually came to give you something important. Mingwen looked at her suspiciously, and her sexy lips spit out a graceful voice again: "I have always carried it with me, and when I saw you in the morning, I wanted to give it to you, but the environment was not right." I was busy, and then I forgot about it. On the way back, I suddenly remembered again, so I had to get out of my colleague's car and take a bus to you. By the way, I will also give you the press release. ”

"I'll look at it when I see the report. I respect freedom of speech, and I also believe in the objectivity and fairness of your news reporting, so I am not afraid of press supervision, but I am worried about the absence of your supervision. ”

"Don't look at it." She said as she pulled out a letter from her small purse, "I hope you take a deep breath before looking at this thing." She shook the letter in her hand and handed it to Mingwen. As soon as Mingwen looked at the words on the envelope, he understood that it was written by Zijin. "Alright, mission done, it's time for me to go."

"I'll send you."

"Forget it, all you want to know is the content of the letter now."

Mingwen looked at the sky and said, "It's dark, don't go back, let's leave tomorrow!" ”

"Where to stay? Hotel? I might as well go back. Stay here, I'm afraid to see a man who is emotionally out of control later. ”

Xia Hui insisted on leaving, and Mingwen insisted on sending it. Mingwen sent Xia Hui to the car, bought her food and drink, and told him to pay attention to safety, so that she should not forget to call her home so that he would not worry. Xia Hui shouted that he was too wordy, and his mother-in-law didn't look like a big man. He only smiled and went back after the car left. As soon as he got home, he hurriedly tore open the letter and read it suddenly:

"Plaintext:

When I call you that, you still belong to me. It is only by calling your name in this way that I feel the weight of its meaning. My dear, my dear, my dear, all of this is no longer a complete expression of my love for you. However, when you read these words, can you understand my state of mind at this time, perhaps just as I cannot fully understand your feelings after reading this letter. Be strong, you, me, and let us be strong because of each other. - This is the only strength I have at the moment. By this power, let me finish writing this letter for you; By this power, please read this letter to the end. ”

Mingwen found that there were unintentional tear stains on the paper. He tried to use his imagination to reconstruct the sad look she had when she wrote the letter, and he ——。 He lit a cigarette and looked down:

"If you love someone, you will always be with him. But when I really fell in love with someone, I suddenly realized that sometimes I couldn't do it all, despite the hard work I had tried. Mingwen, since the day we met, I have always cherished our time together, whether it is long, short, happy, or worried. The days we have passed will eventually become a precious memory in my life, and it will moisten my dry life like dew.

Mingwen, please come and leave me! Let me be your wife, in that home that belongs to the two of us, we will wait for love with all our love, and I will wait for your return every day in this love,......。 However, I finally chose to leave in the face of reality, and I will leave forever, do you know how much courage it takes? At this time, how I wish you were by my side, let me lie in your arms, listen to you comfort me, coax me, and then kiss me, so that I can be at peace, let me know that we can never be separated because of love, except death. But the reality is that I must leave you, and I am destined to see you again. - Thinking of this, I don't know what will accompany me in the future?

Those days with you are so nostalgic. And this day of attachment is destined to become a kind of memory, in which I can feel that the world can be so warm. Just today, I watched you leave me step by step, and my heart was tearing and calling for you, calling for you to stop and accompany me. Yesterday, I was by your side, and I wanted to give you everything, even my life. I don't want to be your wife for the rest of my life, but I at least get the time you gave me like a wife, and that is the most precious beauty of my life. You love me, and you are willing to give everything for this love, and I can only be a passerby in your love. That miserable night, I saw you carrying a girl on your back in the street, so sweet, and I was right across from you, and that day, you know, how I escaped from you. Tanabata, when you came to my door, I didn't know how I would face you, I could only use lies to hastily fight everything. My heart hurts to see you wandering at the door, I love you, and I'm so afraid of losing you.

My intuition has always told me that the true love in your heart is that her, and that I am just floating on the surface of your bustling love. I try to convince myself that you belong to me and that I belong to you, all, I mean all. If I can do you a good job in your life, and your whole life, in a wheelchair, I'm willing to lie to myself for the rest of my life. I am selfish, I am trying to keep you in this selfishness for the rest of my life, who made me love you so much. But Heaven has left me alone to wait for you to return, and to watch you go, like another woman who cares for the person she loves the most, when he is helpless. It's time for me to take back my selfishness, even though I know that you can be good to me and give me happiness for the rest of your life, then let me give you real happiness too,—— that is my departure and let you return to her. I love you, and I just want you to be happy.

When everything really wants to become a memory, it makes people so uncontrollable. Tomorrow I will leave, to go to a country without you, to receive that slim treatment, how much I hope you can send me, in your eyes the plane flies away from your homeland, how much I hope to finally hear you say: I love you. I want to face you again and say again: I love you.

I'm gone, but I can't bear to tell you, I can't tell you in person, I'm afraid you'll be sad about it, I'm afraid I'll be sad to see you. I can't tell you I'm leaving, what I say to your face, I'm afraid my resolve will crumble, and I just want to leave the last moments with more warmth than the clouds of parting. Forgive me for this selfishness, don't hate me, you promised me, don't hate me.

My departure, I know what it means. The only thing that can't let go is you, afraid that you will be too sad, afraid that you will be unable to extricate yourself from your grief for a while. This departure of mine has left you with no one to rely on. I don't know why you couldn't be together in the first place, although I wanted to ask you at one point, but I was afraid of losing you because of it, so I had to say nothing, and although I was so eager to know, I was waiting for you to confide. I know that deep in your hearts you love each other, and that is love for the sake of love, and that is the noblest love, the love that I have always hoped for. I am your barrier to this love, at least giving you an excuse not to love her, and also giving you the strength to stay away from her. - And now, my parting is about to break your reality, and as cruel as it is, as painful as it makes you, I am also going through it. I've been through all this to get you to find what you really want, and why not? Go, plaintext, go, for the sake of all that I have done for you, go, don't let me down my last good hope for you, make me feel that I have done an amazing thing for the person I love.

Please, forget about this one who will not come back. Plain text, please, forgive me, please, don't hate me, please, don't hate me for the sake of how I loved you. Please, Mingwen, don't hate me.

I love you!

He thinks he was your wife's son

2002.12.1 Night"

The last page had been so badly wet that many of the characters had become lighter, and some of the glyphs had been stained a little differently, and she had obviously crawled on them and cried for a long time after she had finished writing. Mingwen put the letter over his face, and the person leaned back on the sofa.

Xia Hui was sent to the car, and when the car had not yet driven out of the town, she got out of the car again, and she didn't know why she did it. She walked around the town alone, and after a long time, she speculated that she should have returned to the city from the theoretical time, so she called Mingwen. She said, I'm home, you don't have to worry. Then she asked Mingwen what he was doing, if he was shedding tears. Mingwen said with a smile, that's not all, I'm discussing things with a few friends. She thought to herself, I see you pretending, I'll show up in front of you later, and see how I tease you.

She felt strange in her heart, what made her feel strange in this small town? Could it be that something has already happened in the first place, or is it the result of a fission, or maybe everything exists at the same time? Zijin had asked for her to comfort and comfort Mingwen at the right time, why did she have some kind of joy at that time, and why she was indescribably moved when he sent her......

She came to Mingwen's door and found that the door was unlocked, and she gently pushed the door in to see what he was doing. There was a strong smell of alcohol in the room, and Mingwen and his clothes fell asleep on the sofa. She closed the door, took the futon from the bedroom and gently covered Mingwen, he didn't even feel it at all, he was too drunk. She looked at the time, and it was nearly half past eleven, and she sat cautiously beside him, looking at him quietly.