Xiu seemed to be stunned for a moment.

"My story..."

He fell into a long silence.

His eyes stared blankly at the distant village, the nearby landscape, and beyond, the sky on the horizon.

He watched it for a long, long time, so long that Sakura felt as if she had done something wrong, and was about to say something when Shucai chuckled weakly.

I don't know if I'm laughing at myself or others.

"Do you think the story I told Rin is good?"

"Hmm." She nodded, "When you encounter difficult things, there will always be many people to overcome them together, and there are terrible monsters, and there will always be many people to overcome them together." This kind of story sounds the best! ”

"But my story is the opposite... I almost didn't have any. Such a terrible story... Do you want to listen to it too? ”

"Hmm!" He nodded while responding, "It's yours!" ”

With a long sigh of relief, he said slowly

"Actually, I thought about it for a long time, but I realized that I really don't seem to have anything to say." His words were full of self-deprecation. Looking back at the girl next to him, there was a weakness and a little helplessness in her expression, "Actually, sometimes, I still envy the people in those stories, because they always have close friends, warm families and comrades-in-arms who can be entrusted with their lives." They can resist dangers together, overcome difficulties together, and encourage each other when they are desperate. ”

"And my story.... The danger is... But there are no friends to defend against.

"You know, I was able to enter the village because I defeated the wild boar mountain god... But you probably won't know that this is the second time I've faced such a huge monster.

"The first time I faced those horrible monsters, I was almost scared and couldn't move. That was about half a year ago... You know, that monster was huge, much, much bigger than the boar? He gestured to the girl, "I'm in front of that monster... It's not as good as one of its claws. ”

"I've got several instructors around me, and they're very powerful, but those monsters are still beyond their power. And I... It's just a recruit who has just arrived at the boot camp, and the most useless of all. I didn't have their experience, speed or strength, and I had only a female commander with me on my way to escape. You know, I just watched the officers fly like sacks at random by that terrible beast. Their blood sprinkled like a mist in the sky. ”

"In the end, even the commander who protected me lost his combat effectiveness. She was hit head-on by the Honkai Beast, and in an instant, the Commander disappeared in front of me... I'm the only one left. And I'm going to face that kind of Honkai beast...", he smiled with a smile that didn't know whether it was sadness, despair, or fear, saying those secrets that shouldn't be known by ordinary people, "It's either life or death." ”

"I beat it. Used everything I could think of and everything I had in me. With a sword, with a gun, with gunpowder, with projectiles, even with flares, and with my body, I threw it all into its mouth. He looked at the girl who was close at hand, "It's like a dream, the monster died in front of me." As it fell, the corpse dragged a long chasm and finally slipped at my feet. And my distance from it... It's like the distance between me and you. ”

Sakura looked at the purple pupils.

At this time, she wanted to say something, but she couldn't say anything. Obviously, the words were on his lips, but he couldn't say them, and in the end he could only squirm unconsciously, turning into a silent stare.

"Then the support arrived, and I just made it back to the training camp alive."

"This is my story when I was in danger."

"Ah, I'm sorry, I obviously wanted to tell a plain story...", he scratched his head, as if a little embarrassed.

Sakura didn't speak, just watched and listened silently.

"There are two places where I live. One is the family's castle, and the other is the Black City in the Legion. ”

"When I'm at home... I'm sorry, but I don't want to say anything about my family, because there doesn't seem to be anything happy. Let me tell you about my time in the Black City. When I first arrived there, I was actually very unaccustomed to it, and the bed there was so uncomfortable that I couldn't sleep at all on the first day, and it wasn't until I was tired and had no choice on the second day, so I didn't know how to sleep. Oh yes, in my dorm room I met my first friend... Although he left me very quickly. At the beginning, life was very uncomfortable, because I had to do everything by myself. No one taught you, and you haven't seen anyone else do it, so you can only figure it out on your own. The weather there changes very quickly, and it doesn't take its time at all, it all changes overnight. At the beginning of winter, I was awakened by the cold. He couldn't help but laugh out loud as he spoke.

But Sakura didn't laugh.

She couldn't laugh.

"Later, after training for a while, there was no warning, and suddenly it was time for actual combat. And then a flurry of training ensues. Throw us out of the city, don't do anything, we're on our own. ”

"And then there's the sparring with the instructors. You know, the instructors could have beaten all of us by themselves, but they wanted us to go up one by one, saying that if they didn't beat us in ten seconds, even if he lost... In fact, they don't use a second. ”

"But in the end, I spent one night. You know, it was the first time I didn't sleep all night, all the time, to challenge the instructor again and again, in fact, I never intended to win, I just wanted to know, how I lost.

"Eventually, as the sun was about to rise, there was a dense morning fog like smoke. With that fog, I survived for 10 seconds..."

He suddenly lowered his head, put his palm on his forehead, and was silent.

After a long time, he took a deep breath.

"That's really fun. Sakura, you know what. At that time, everyone was cheering for me, and I felt that I was recognized. You know, everybody gave up at that point. They waited until dawn and slept on the grass, preferring to wait for the day's punishment rather than try again. They all thought it was impossible to get through. It was a whole night, I had never been like this, I didn't sleep all night, just a short rest. The instructors don't seem to be so bad to me either. That's probably what I'm most happy about. ”

“... Why so insistence? Sakura whispered as if she were talking to herself.

"Because... Very unwilling! He smiled and clenched his fists, inadvertently grabbing the pleated shirt on his trousers, and faintly heard the sound of the fabric being crushed. Listening to the taunts of the chiefs, watching them easily defeat their partners at will, and then even more harsh ridicule... I'm really angry. I really want to beat them all up, but... And what can be done? We can't refute it at all, because he's really accurate. ”

Suddenly, he laughed at himself again.

However, in fact, now that I think about it, it has only been a long time, but now I can't imagine how I got through it at the beginning. Even now I'm not the instructor's opponent, if he gets serious, I won't be able to last a second, but I've passed..."He suddenly raised his head, and seemed to squeeze out some smiles in front of him, "Forget it, just go over it, don't talk about it." ”

"When I was most desperate... That's when I fell into the deep ocean. ”

"At that time, we were given the task to exterminate some pirates."

"When I received the task, I didn't think about it that much. But... But when it came time for me to actually kill the pirate, I regretted it. ”

"That's murder, my sword is not on the monsters, but on the people. I'm taking their lives. ”

"At that moment, I suddenly didn't care if they were good or bad, I just wanted to throw my sword away and get away from the ship. The farther away the better. ”

"But I can't do that... Finally, during the chase with the pirates, I disobeyed the orders of the commander and left the cabin to the deck. I just want to breathe, I can't stand it, really... It's really uncomfortable. Watching in amazement as the captain navigated the tsunami to chase the poor pirate ship. ”

"But I didn't make it to the end, the waves swallowed me. I just felt a trance, and I fell into the deep sea... I don't even know how to swim. ”

Xiu lay on the ground all of a sudden, looking at the blue sky.

"That's how I was at the time... When a person is in the water, he doesn't know where it is up and down, let alone where it is left and right. In the water, there is no direction, where you are... But there is only one direction that can keep me alive, but I can't find it. I don't know if I'm in the sea or on the surface. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't think, and no one even knew I was falling. I was the only one there, in the dark, bitter, icy waters. I can't see anything, I can't hear anything. ”

"If it weren't for the darkness, I think I would have died there."

"By the way, it was a big sister who rescued me and took me ashore. But what's the use, I don't know if I'm so far away from home... Here I was truly isolated. ”

"But that big sister takes good care of me. She taught me to speak your language simply, otherwise I wouldn't have been able to speak to you like that. ”

"She took me for a short period of time. She's really a nice person. When I was most confused, it was she who found my way. When I didn't know if I had done something wrong, she was the one who told me about right and wrong. I am grateful to her. ”

"Actually, there was a little time at that time, and I thought: if there is no way, can I live with her..."

Then, suddenly, she left. She walked very resolutely, and she didn't even give me time to regret it, and she left... But she has taught me everything I need to know to live here. ”

"And then, I'll meet you."

Shu looked at Sakura, "That's my story." ”

"I don't know what my story is, but I know it's not something that makes you feel happy or powerful. Because he's really not wonderful. ”

"When he said it, it was just me. There's nothing else—" He was stunned.

Soft fingers ran through his silver hair.

It was like a soft, warm and new breeze from the far south, and a subtle, soft breeze passed through his softer hair.

"It's cunning." She said, "It's hundreds of times more exciting than those stories about fighting monsters, but you say it in such an ordinary tone..."

At this moment, the blue eyes are as soft as water.

"It's so cunning."

(End of chapter)