Gerard and Xiu talk a lot about Otto Vera.

He said a lot, a lot, a lot of detail, a lot of detail, just a few treasures.

There was a look of love in his eyes, and his expression became softer and softer. His angular face slowly revealed the kind expression of an old man.

But Xiu didn't want to listen to it anymore.

"Don't say it." Xiu suddenly spoke.

Gerald looked at him silently, "Why?" Don't want to know more about your mother. ”

"But, it's useless!" Xiu raised his voice as if he was giving up on himself, "I know that my mother is a very gentle person, a very beautiful person. She can make bread, and the smell will make the knights of Kaslana Castle unsettling, and she loves to grow flowers, even though she never grows them alive. The flowers in the castle are secretly taken care of by the maids. She likes to poke her sister's face at night, originally wanted to put her sister to sleep, but instead she could wake her up, she likes to ride a horse with her father and take her sister out to play. But... But..."Xiu Yue said more and more excited, his hand unconsciously tightened tightly on the soil around him, and the black leather gloves left five fingerprints on the ground, "But there is no place for me there!" Xiu burst into tears.

"No! No matter how good my mother is, it's useless, she will die if she gives birth to me! Xiu cried more and more fiercely, and he couldn't speak steadily, "I really want to know my mother, I really want to!" I want to know how good that mom named Otto Vera Shaniyat is, and I'd love to know if she would be nicer to me if it was mom, mom! But... But when I knew what you were talking about, uncle, I realized that my mother might be confused, maybe she would make mistakes, she might be inadequate, or she might be good to everyone... But it doesn't make sense to me at all! What's the use of knowing she's going to be nice to me! What's the use of knowing she's beautiful! What's the use of knowing that everybody loves my mom! She's dead! Xiu wiped her tears and cried hysterically like crazy, "Everyone loves her, so all her shortcomings will be forgiven, but I can't!" I wasn't liked from the beginning! What's the use of me listening! Can it make me cry even more when I think about her! Can I lie to myself that my mother is not dead or alive in my heart! ”

Xiu's impression of his mother was limited to the little that Karen had said, and the painting in his father's bedroom that was never to be touched.

I don't know which master captured a scene. White-haired girls dressed in white gauze sat in a sea of purple and red flowers. The bright sunlight shone a faint golden glow on her tulle dress.

She wore a garland of small flowers of many colors on her head, and her long snow-white hair was draped around her waist and scattered on the ground. She stretched out a slender and snow-white delicate finger, and turned her head slightly, her amethyst-like clear and gentle eyes were full of innocence and confusion, as if someone was calling for her and looked back.

At the fingertips, a colorful butterfly gently shakes its wings.

Very beautiful people. When Xiu first saw the painting, he was asking who it was, and Francis didn't say a word and just kicked him out.

After that, Xiu never asked who the person on the painting was, because he knew he shouldn't ask.

At that time, he missed his mother very much.

Maybe if my mother is here, I can take my mother out and tell all the friends I haven't made yet how beautiful and amazing my mother is.

Then I can take my mother's hand and go home proudly under the envious eyes of everyone.

When he grew up, he knew that first he had to have the opportunity to make friends, and then he could have friends to show off. None of them were allowed to go out, and no one was allowed to see him. When he was a little older, he learned that first of all, he had to have friends who were willing to make friends with him before he could show off. When he was a little older, he realized that he had to have a mother first and then a friend. Only now did he realize that he didn't have a mother anymore.

"My impression of my mother is only in the mural in my father's room. It is more than ten meters long and four or five meters high. A wall of flowers, my mom only has a tiny little in the middle. It's really beautiful. At first, I didn't know who she was, so I asked my father, but he kicked me out. Then I knew, and I understood something. Even if she is my mother, she gave birth to me, it will never belong to me. I'll never be able to have the slightest relationship with her. ”

"Actually, when I faced the Honkai Beast just now, I was scared, I was scared! Such a huge thing, the soles of its feet are bigger than my whole person! It couldn't have been easier to kill me! ”

"When I watched it fall with my own eyes, Chief Linda was shaken uncontrollably just by the shock, and the person who was photographed by it was just a palm! All have lost their combat effectiveness! They're all powerful commanders! They are so powerful that they are vulnerable in front of the Honkaimon! In the end, I had to face it! ”

"For a moment I wondered, is there anyone, is there anyone, anyone, anyone! Who can save me! ”

"I'm wondering if my sister will show up, if my grandpa will show up, and even I'm begging my father to hope he will show up!"

"But I know, I know it! No one will come to my rescue! I'm on my own! Rely on yourself like a madman, you have to desperately try to kill Honkaimon in order to keep yourself alive! ”

"I know that if my beacon is put out early, it will be me who will be killed, I know that if Honkaimon doesn't swallow the gunpowder bag in its stomach, then the gunpowder must be useless, I know that if I run a little slower, I will be swallowed by it directly, and I know that if the explosive pack has no effect on Honkaimon, we won't be able to escape!"

"But I can't help it! That's the only way I can think of it! ”

Gerald looked at the child beside him who had already been completely broken but still didn't fully realize it, and every word of his words revealed endless loneliness.

Gerald slowly closed his eyes.

Francis, this is the sin you have made.

It's also...

He was thinking about something.

Your iniquity!

He opened his eyes to see the child wiping tears from his eyes.

Xiu gritted his teeth and kept swallowing back the sound that was about to cry, forcing back the tears that were about to come out to prevent him from shedding. His eyes were resolute and terrifying, and his teeth clenched as tightly as wolves.

He kept saying, "Can't cry, can't cry." "Cheer yourself up like this. And then he really stopped crying slowly.

"Sir, when are we going back? I still have training tomorrow, and I have lessons. Xiu's voice was still a little crying.

This kid is already doing well.

Gerald thought so.

"Xiu, if you are given a chance to become stronger, do you want it?" Gerard said suddenly.

"I want to." I don't even want to think about it.

"Why don't you ask what it is?" Xiu's answer was so painful that many of the arguments that Gerald had prepared were useless.

"No, I just don't want to go on like this. It's a fact that I'm useless, and I have no reason to refute what others say. But I don't want to go on like this, I don't want to be a useless person anymore, Uncle Gerald, as long as you can make me stronger, I can withstand any training. The crystal purple pupils were full of determination. He looked at Gerald steadfastly, and he would say yes to anything he could make him strong.

Gerald smiled.

"Can you withstand the training of the training camp?"

"I can keep up."

"Then when you can get first place in the training camp, you can come to me again."

"First? Me? Xiu was like hearing a joke, "How can I get the first place now..."

"Can't you do it?" Gerald didn't explain anything, just looked at him with a frown.

"I... I can do it! But I need time..."It's not confident."

"It doesn't matter. You've had five years in the bootcamp. Say long is not long, say short is not short. If you're not up to par in five years...", Gerrard didn't explain, "the camp has a monthly assessment. The usual grades are not counted, and only the assessment can be counted. Remember, you have to stay at number one for three months in a row and come back to me. ”

Gerald patted Xiu on the shoulder and stood up.

Behind him, two Celestial Knights had been waiting for a long time.

"General, this is what we found in the Honkaimon's lair." He handed a cloth bag to Gerald.

Gerald took it and looked at it, a satisfied and cold smile.

Xiu saw the edge of the cloth bag, and a golden luster flashed.