I don't know where to start or where to end this story.

Probably everyone has a history like this, and the fond memories of a loved one include the allure of roadside barbecues, the indulgence of snacks, the bitterness of lemonade and a little bit of shocking white and red. These things are exchanged for a wet pillow when you are lonely and helpless, and even the consciousness that you no longer easily fall in love with anyone.

I don't know how to tell this story, because the plot is bloody and realistic.

But this contains a girl's best years.

"Nianhua, one of us is willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer, you are blind BB, I want to work."

Xiao Yutou didn't raise his head to rush the plan, and his tone was cold.

One

That day, Xiaoyu was wearing a dress, a hat in the style of a round ball, and a little leather shoes, and ran to the boy with 100% sincerity for the last time in her life. Under the sun, the boy's eyebrows and eyes were dry and pure.

"May I ask if you are Xuanyu, hello, I am Xiaoyu."

A generous and bright smile gently knocked open the boy's ice-shell heart.

There is a popular confession wall between schools, in fact, it is some public QQ accounts, lost and found, substitute class homework and other non-circulating information that only students know are here, like black market transactions.

The most important thing is that you can also introduce countless innocent young boys and girls to their long-cherished wish to fall in love vigorously when they were students.

That's not the point! The point is that after losing the items, publishing information on the wall may not be able to come back obediently, Lao Tzu lost more than 100 yuan, and in the end I don't know whose trouser pocket they were lying in, and finally whether they were passively donating their lives to add a few meals to the student who picked up the money and didn't pay it back......

People don't destroy the heavens and the earth for their own sake!

…… Off topic, the starting point of Xiaoyu and Xuanyu's story starts here.

At that time, Xiaoyu was in the period of falling out of love, and her boyfriend ran away with her elementary school girl. Xiaoyu calls herself a scumbag, and she is ashamed to say that the only way to end the pain caused by a relationship is a new love and time. And she chose the former.

I had always been ashamed of the way this person thought, and years later it was my turn to find myself in the situation and understand that she was just trying to escape.

How can there be so much empathy. If the pain never happens to oneself, no one can really see it clearly from the perspective of others.

Xiaoyu is not a proud general in the love field, a coward and a deserter.

She didn't even have the courage to push away her ex-boyfriend's request that she wait for her relationship with her schoolgirl to end.

I don't have the courage to face the future agreed with Xuanyu.

At that time, Xiaoyu was gentle and kind, absolutely pure, and absolutely stupid.

"What the hell do you want to know, I'll tell you." Xiaoyu snuffed out her cigarette butt and leaned lazily back in her chair, looking at me with cold eyes.

I was a little in a trance for a while, but in a few years, a person can change so much.

I couldn't see the shadow of that girl.

The boy must have felt the same way when he left, looking at the person he loved like a torch. The world is changing so fast, and she is no longer the gentle person she used to be.

Two

Xiaoyu is also a silly girl, better than the other girl I know. She took the boy to her heart and held it carefully in her hands.

She gave up her favorite club activities for the boy, studied hard to improve her grades in order to meet the boy under the strict discipline of her parents, and forced herself to chat with the boy when she was so sleepy at night that she couldn't open her eyes, and the same was true in the early morning.

After two years of dating, she rarely proposed to take a break first.

Although the boy is a bit of a perverted desire to control, he treats her very well.

Probably this is also the most important reason for giving all the sincerity to her.

"Maybe I'll never meet someone like this in my life."

Xiao Yu crouched on the table, her eyes sad.

and Xuanyu have been going around for four years, and the two have been in different places for two years, but Xiaoyu has never left Xuanyu's heart. I said that Xuanyu treats Xiaoyu very well, maybe every time they quarrel, the two of them can't wait to climb to the other side of the phone and strangle each other, but it doesn't prevent the two from sleeping all night.

At that time, the ordinary life was also all Xiaoyu's fantasy for the future.

We never know what kind of person we will become, and we never know that one day we will hurt the people we love.

Everything seemed to be going smoothly, and the two also agreed on their own tomorrow under the dim light.

Xuan Yu hopes to be part of the Chinese People's Liberation Army and to join the peacekeeping force himself, which he said has been his dream since childhood.

Xiao Yu lowered her eyes slightly. Young people go to chase their dreams, it's so good and envious, but what about me?

…….

"Speak, you're chasing your dreams, what about me, do I want to live in an empty house for the rest of my life? Can a child live without a father? Do I have to do all the housework? If your parents have a sudden illness? Do you want me to fly around and run at both ends? ”

In silence, Xuanyu strangled his dream in the cradle.

"It's so naïve, it's childish and it's capricious."

A few tears slid down the corners of Xiao Yu's eyes.

"My request is to give up my ideals, which is difficult for anyone to accept, he can die for me, but he can't live for me."

“…… Ironically, I was the one who failed to keep my promise. ”

“…… But fortunately, there is no one to stop him from realizing his dream. ”

Three

Xiaoyu's family is well-off, and her parents know the existence of love between the two parties. Although he was not satisfied, he was quite enlightened, and the old man did not follow the example of an idol drama and threw millions to the male protagonist to order the male protagonist to get out.

After stepping into society, it was Xiaoyu who changed.

Xiaoyu has huge ambitions and knows exactly what she wants. gradually began to alienate the boy because of the difference in values between the two sides.

"Sometimes when I buy something that may not be necessary, he thinks it's expensive and blames me for spending it indiscriminately, but that's how I've always lived. For me, there are some things that really aren't a big deal. ”

The conflict between the two gradually increased, and Xiaoyu began to be unable to stand the boy's desire to control.

"Why do you have to report to him every time you go anywhere, why do you have to tell him every day when you get up, sometimes I forget to tell him, because I have never done anything wrong, but he is so angry that it takes him an hour to coax."

"He never coaxed me that long when I was angry."

People who love each other are always accustomed to leaving their worst temper to each other and showing their smiling faces to others.

Words and deeds will be like nails, once nailed to the other party's heart, even if they are pulled out, the mark will never disappear.

Encountering bugs, rats, clogged sewers, bursting light bulbs, and resisting rice oil drums, Xiaoyu does it all by herself, because she knows that no one will help her in another strange city, including Xuanyu.

Xiaoyu has overcome obstacles along the way and has turned herself into an army in her life without him.

Maybe Xuanyu didn't really understand her, and what he gave when she was lonely and helpless was not companionship, but preaching. Accusing her of not handling this matter properly, how should it be.

Xiaoyu hung up the phone and burst into tears.

Moving forward in such a hard way, Xiaoyu has become omnipotent and powerful. So strong that she didn't need anything else to warm her.

The straw that breaks the camel's back is often the trivial things of life. After the last heated argument, she felt hopeless and powerless.

"Let's separate."

Don't say that, she told herself.

"I think I've been with you for too long, and the novelty has long passed."

Don't say, shut up.

"I don't need your protection now, and you don't need to treat me like a child."

What are you doing?

"And there is a word called the right door, which is not unreasonable."

Swindler.

She held the microphone and said, "Thank you for your company, goodbye." ”

……

The boy could not look at his beloved, and was in great pain.

He thought the girl was indifferent, and let go of the hands that were gripping the girl.

That year, the boy took the college entrance examination.

That year, the boy failed the college entrance examination due to too many emotional fluctuations, and no one knew about it after carrying his package and going to a distant place.

That day, Xiaoyu wiped away her tears after hanging up the phone, and fainted on the stairs the next day after catching up with her thesis all night.

Fortunately, my brain didn't break, otherwise I might have to do something.

That's what the story is all about.

Li Ronghao sang a song called "Young and Promising".

If I am young and do not feel inferior, I know what is precious.

Those sweet dreams, I am ashamed of not giving you all my life.

"It is said that he has fulfilled his dream, and he is now in the army, in the Air Force. I don't know if it's a regular, but he works hard. ”

Xiao Yu smiled and lit a cigarette.

In the smoke, I saw the shyness of the first acquaintance, the fire when we fell in love, and the parting embrace.

with their glorious future.