A Story

Man:

On that day, I asked her out, it was our second anniversary together, and she was beautiful in the white dress we had when we first met and the red hair card I gave her. It's beautiful. I admit that she is the most beautiful girl I have ever met in my life, and I look at her affectionately and even forget that I exist. Then she threw herself into my arms, and in that moment I wished that time had frozen like this. It was also that day that I pretended to be very cold, I cruelly pushed her away, and then told her: I don't love her at all, what I have always liked is someone else, she is just my lonely pastime, and now I am tired of playing. At that moment, she was like a panicked deer, obviously the world collapsed, but she didn't know what to do, she rushed over again and again to hug me, but I couldn't be soft-hearted, I was ruthless, and slapped her hard and then shook a sentence: "Cheap woman" Then she turned around and walked away without looking back, I didn't dare to look back, because I knew she was crying, and I couldn't leave it when I turned around. But she still has a long way to go, and mine is due just a few months ago, I was diagnosed with blood cancer, and how many days I can live depends on when God collects the debt, so I can't drag her down.

After that day, I deleted QQ, changed my mobile phone number, went to another city, and found a new job, thinking that this was the end of everything

So one day, all of a sudden, a group of reporters surrounded me, and they reported on my illness, and I made headlines and was labeled as a patient. No boss will hire a patient to work, no friend will befriend someone who is dying. So I lost my job, I lost my friends, I didn't even have a place to stay. I don't regret my decision, but I regret that I misjudged her, I didn't expect her to retaliate against me with such vicious means, I really loved wrong.

Woman:

On that day, he asked me out for the second anniversary of our relationship, and I wore a white dress and the red hair card he gave me to dress up like two years ago. He looked at me affectionately, dumbfounded, just like he was as silly as he had been chasing me. I threw myself into his arms, but somehow he pushed me away indifferently and told me mockingly that he didn't love me at all, and that he had someone else in his heart all along............. At that moment I felt the world spinning, I threw myself into his arms again and again to hear him say that nothing was true, but he ruthlessly incited me and scolded me for being a cheap woman. That day, I kept crying and asked him what I had done wrong, but he walked away without looking back. I didn't believe that he didn't love me, I didn't believe that his vows to me were all fake, so I frantically called him, sent messages, and went to him. As a result, he seemed to have evaporated from the world. I was devastated, and in desperation I turned to the media, and I just wanted to know if this was really the case? As a result, I got the news that he was seriously ill, I didn't hate him, I didn't think it was God's retribution, but I was very sad, I wanted to tell him that no matter what he did, I would face it with him, and he left again. Where the hell are you, my dear!?

It's one story, or maybe two. This is the tragedy of two people, and the sorrow of a group of people. Sometimes a smart person who prides himself on seeing everything through it may not understand it all his life, and when the sun warms the southern hemisphere, it determines the loneliness of the northern hemisphere。。。。。。。。

A Message

Today, Xiao Z sent me a message asking me to help her find a corner in the university so that she can listen to songs alone, be in a daze alone, and think about things alone. I was really surprised to receive this message, in my impression that Xiao Z is a very rational girl, today suddenly made such an emotional request I thought she was reading the sequel caused by my diary yesterday, so I half-jokingly said: Are you going to become a monk? As a result, Xiao Z was very angry.

For her anger, all I can say is that I don't understand girls. But I can't meet what she needs. It's not that it can't be done, there are a lot of secluded and uninhabited places in our school, so the location is not a problem, but this kind of place can only be found by herself.

It's like there is a song that others listen to carelessly, but you cry with empathy, there is a color, others see it as plain, and you feel very individual. There's one person who the whole world thinks sucks, and you feel it. For "feeling", in fact, what you need is not necessarily a certain corner or place, but a feeling, a sense of calmness. As long as you have this feeling, whether you are in the rivers and lakes far away from the temple, or in the downtown of the exaggerated clouds, your heart is like a pool, and you are quiet and beautiful. But to be honest, it feels like it's hard to do, it's like inviting someone to dinner and saying whatever, it's your own personal customization and proprietary attributes, and we can only watch. But as a friend, you can't turn a deaf ear. If what you need is a sense of steadiness that allows you to meditate, then you might as well find a time to distract yourself, don't die by yourself, if you are really road blind and can't find a quiet place, I think of Master Xingyun's words: If there is a Buddha in the human heart, where is not the Buddha'

It is better to be quiet than to be quiet