Chapter 35 The Girl Who Loves to Laugh Wants to Be Hurt
In fact, people who are always laughing really need to be hurt
There are always some people, they seem to be very happy all day long, giggling, no worries, like a child, they will say that playing is my greatest pleasure, I like to play, I will play everything when there are many people they always have a smile on their faces, many people will envy them, but this is actually their saddest place, they don't want others to see their sad side, and they can't be alone, because in the dead of night, he doesn't know what will happen to a person, sitting in front of the window and meditating on the bits and pieces that have passed
No one understands them, thinking about them who seem to be happy, they will shed sadness on their faces, and then say to themselves: Actually, it's nothing, fate! So they force themselves to laugh all day long, in order to escape the pain that ordinary people can't bear but to bear!
They seem to be strong, because in the eyes of others, they can face everything with a smile, but in fact they have the most fragile hearts in the world, and it is only the long-term disguise that makes it difficult for others to discover the deep wounds in their hearts. They are actually very lonely, even though they are talking to a group of people when they see them, because they can't bear the torture of being alone!
They just want to live a simple, happy life, look forward to and believe that everyone's smile is sincere, and hope that the people around them really like themselves. Even a small opinion from others will make them sad for a long time, and they really, really mind, mind that they are not liked. Because, they always think a lot for others, and they are always better to others than to themselves; Think of being good to the person you like as happiness, and liking others more than yourself.
They are always like that, one second they are still crying sadly, and the next second when they appear in front of their friends, their faces are already full of bright smiles. Some people say that they are sunflowers, yes, the people they care about are like the sun, they are always bright petals in the face of the sun, and the back side where the sun can't shine, the sadness is hidden so well, they don't want to be seen.
They yearn for a life of indulgence and freedom, but they have to work hard to live in the other direction for someone, very tired and tired, but still willing. I got farther and farther away from my dreams, and I had to face the struggles and complexities that I had never thought of, panic and overwhelmed. Only when facing the most dependent person, will he take off his armor, shed tears of grievance, and after a small catharsis of his feelings, he will secretly wipe away his tears, like a child who has made a mistake, innocently admit his mistake to you, and promise not to do it next time. In fact, they really don't know what they are doing wrong. I only know that your unhappiness is because of one more him. They are afraid of abandonment. They are more afraid to find out that they are superfluous to the world.
In their hearts, laughing is happy, crying is sad, approaching is liking, and staying away is hating. But in fact, no, they understood, their hearts were so sad, and they couldn't hold back their tears. After crying, I wiped away my tears with a smile and said, it's okay, I can do well.
They seem to be omnipotent, they always seem to have no troubles, they seem to be able to solve any problem easily, they always like to appear in front of people who shed tears, and they smile and laugh. In the face of their own problems, they are at a loss, and in the face of their own sadness, they will only hide in the invisible corners of people, and slowly the wounds will become bigger and bigger.
Hurting a pure and fragile heart like theirs, wouldn't you be entangled with the heart to the point of suffocation?
If one day, you, really, just accidentally break into the depths of their hearts, see what you haven't seen before, feel their feelings, you will definitely feel sad in your heart.
Unfortunately, it was too late.
It was you, unintentionally, who snuffed out the spark of hope that was the only little hope in their hearts that were not warm.
They really shut themselves off completely.
They chose to remain silent. Choose a person.
Choose not to give any joy or sorrow to this world that has forgotten them.
After all, for them, feelings, what a luxury thing.
Those who are ignorant, please stop using pretend happiness as a capital to show off. Because they would rather be hurt themselves than let others hurt.
All they want is a smile. A word of concern.
That's all.