I didn't have that much water in the bucket before...... Could it be that she is dreaming?

Forget it, no matter what, put on your clothes first.

Lu Aya stood up and saw the cat hanging on the edge of the barrel, which was sleeping peacefully.

"Why did you sleep here?" Lu Aya couldn't cry or laugh, put on her underwear and put Xuechen on the bed, and then neatly put on her clothes, small skirts, socks, and embroidered shoes step by step......

Meticulous, not even a single fold is present.

Then tied the red silk, and a heroic girl appeared.

His eyes were bright.

Originally, Lu Aya, who didn't sleep well at night, was in very poor spirits after getting up early today, but after a short rest, she was very energetic.

Sometimes when people are in spirit, they are prone to cranky thinking.

Lu Aya began to clean.

Dressed so neatly and started cleaning.

……

said that it was cleaning, in fact, her and Liu Fufeng's home was very simple and very small, sometimes it was not that Lu Aya had to sleep with Liu Fufeng, but that there was no way to add another bed in this house......

As far as the eye can see, yellow earth, a simple thatched bed, a table, two stools, and a stove.

There is only one pot on it......

Lu Aya stood stupidly in front of the stove for a while.

Is this your own home? In the past, she didn't look carefully, but this time she came back after going down the mountain to see the world...... I was so miserable.

If Tang Sheng saw the little girl, she would definitely cry, but if she didn't know, she thought she was a beggar.

It is estimated that the city god temple where the beggars live is several times stronger than her.

Lu Aya knocked on the wall of her house, and the sound of dirt came.

What is the purpose of the wood wrapped in mud and then a layer of thatch on the outside? Warm? Lu Aya's fingers were lightly forced, and she poked a hole in this wall.

With this level of vulnerability, how did you survive the heavy snowfall before? Didn't collapse?

"Goo."

Swallowed a mouthful of saliva.

Lu Aya looked up at the roof, and the whole person trembled.

The tofu slag project is nothing more than that......

Oh my God, she and her sister have lived in such a room for so long......

It's too dangerous.

Then Lu Aya breathed a sigh of relief, fortunately, now that the snow has stopped, otherwise she really wouldn't dare to continue to live here.

"It's nothing, nothing." Lu Aya looked at the simple house, full of dissatisfaction.

She also wants to live in a better house.

Standing in front of him with the wooden barrel in a huff, he jumped on the spot a few times, filling in the traces of the water mixed with the wooden barrel.

Then continue to doubt life.

The main reason is that Liu Fufeng is not there, Lu Aya just began to think crankily, and she couldn't wait to prove something, housework or something, but she was actually annoyed by now.

"It's not that bad......" Lu Aya began to make excuses for herself.

The bed or something, although it only has a few wooden shelves, but there are several layers of gorgeous brocade on top of it, which makes it not look so unsightly.

It's quite comfortable to sleep on, soft, and there is a faint smell of grass, which is why Lu Aya sometimes dreams that she sleeps on the grass.

When she stayed in a luxury inn at the bottom of the mountain, she was very uncomfortable sleeping in that bed.

Yes, that's good.

The stove is so bad, but the food cooked by the younger sister is still so delicious.

It would be better to solve the leakage of the house, and to tell a joke, she is afraid of the cold.

Kindness.

So be it, don't change.

"Smack!"

waved his hand and slapped himself, but this time he didn't leave his hand, and the whole right side of his face showed signs of swelling.

"Nope."

"Nope."

Lu Aya stood up.

She ran away again because she was lazy.

She can't be satisfied with the status quo, she wants to come back from Liu Fufeng to turn this home into something she doesn't know......

When the time comes, the junior sister will definitely praise herself.

Lu Aya began to giggle when she thought about it.

......At this time, Xuechen opened his eyes in a daze, looked at Lu Aya, and was stunned for a moment.

The cat jumped up and pounced on Lu Aya.

【Master, your face...... What's wrong? The cat stretched out its paws and gently stroked Lu Aya's right face.

"Nothing." Lu Ayaqiao's face flushed, but because there were signs of swelling, she couldn't see it.

[I'll ......] A blue light flashed on Xuechen's paws, and she wanted to treat Lu Aya, but she grabbed it and extinguished it.

"No, you don't." Lu Aya shook her head.

It's okay to be in pain, it's a warning to yourself, don't be too lazy.

"Oh." Xuechen nodded as if he didn't understand.

"Alright, you can continue to rest, and I'll continue to clean." Lu Aya turned her head and stretched out her finger against her three-petal mouth: "By the way, Xiaoxue, are you hungry?" ”

[No, not so often. 】

"That's good." Lu Aya nodded, her face was hot at this time, and at a certain moment before, she suddenly felt that her existence was meaningless, lazy, and liked to escape, and wanted to live a good life......

It's just a rice worm.

It seems that it is useless at all except to provide "energy" to the snow dust.

Well, now that the only meaning of her existence doesn't seem to be so much needed.

To change.

A trace of firmness flashed in Lu Aya's eyes, and then countless energies surged in her body, and she began to wipe the table and make the bed.

Finally, with hard work, this simple room allowed Lu Aya to clean up a little, with a layer of paper on the wooden table, cushions on the stools, and more chopping boards and kitchen utensils on the stove - these are all household items that Liu Fufeng bought back in the world.

"Pillow, pillow ......" rummaged through the Qiankun bag for a while, and Lu Aya pulled out a pink pillow, a little speechless.

It's too girly, isn't it......

Forget it, it's better than nothing.

Putting the last pillow on the head of the bed, Lu Aya clapped her hands.

"That's it."

Looking at the neat and tidy, there is a little delicate room, Lu Aya showed a proud look on her face, her sister is not there, she is not useless.

on the bed.

Xuechen tilted his head and watched Lu Aya busy for a few hours, still confused, but he could probably understand a little......

In fact, she wanted to tell Lu Aya that if she wanted to change the room, it was very simple, as long as she went through the formalities with someone from the young hall, she could come back and get it herself...... Because this is how the buildings of Lingshan came about.

In the words of the master, it should be...... DIY, yes, it's DIY.

Also, if you want to prove yourself, just work hard to improve your cultivation, this is the world of cultivating immortals, and cultivation is everything...... Xuechen always felt that the current owner's head didn't seem to be enough......

What better way to prove yourself than to make progress? However, in the hearts of the current owners, it seems that being able to take care of themselves and be able to live independently is the best proof.

Can I prove my worth by being able to cook? The owner seems to think so.

Incomprehensible.

All mortal women can cook, are they all valuable people? From the perspective of the people in the Immortal Sect, it is obviously wrong.

The mind of the master...... It seems to be in a strange place, and I haven't completely woken up to the fact that I am a child of the Xianmen, and I have more important things to do.

The short-haired girl that the owner fears the most can't cook.

Why is it that the master's talent in cultivation is so strong, but he feels that he is actually a useless person?

Xuechen can't understand, but if she doesn't understand, she won't point fingers.

From the first second of Liu Fufeng's absence, her master's mental state has been tense...... There seems to be something wrong with the spirit.

If you look closely, you can find that Lu Aya's eyes are all anxious now, and she can't be quiet at all.

"It's noon, it's noon...... It's time to eat...... Eat ......" Lu Aya paced back and forth.

Dine? My sister is not here, what is she eating?

Don't you eat that?

No, my sister can't even eat by herself, doesn't it seem very useless?

But she didn't know how to cook at all.

Lu Aya stood up.

Take your own identification badge.

"Dining Temple...... The ...... of the dining hall stumbled and pushed the door open, as if he was stunned.

"Master......" The cat was worried and had to get up.

"Don't follow me!" Lu Aya turned around and roared, hysterical, and the shouting was broken.

"Master......" Xuechen's eyes were worried and panicked, but as Lu Aya said, she didn't follow.

Why did the owner suddenly become like this?

……

"Whew." Lu Aya went out of the door, the cool air was blowing, and the whole person was a little sober.

The more she cleaned, the more Lu Aya felt that she was useless...... I even began to wonder what the meaning of my existence was...... The answer is that it doesn't make sense at all.

In fact, not everything has its own meaning of existence, but Lu Aya is not deeply involved in the world, so she is not very able to understand this truth.

This problem has been there since the beginning.

Lu Aya has always wondered...... Who are you? What is the meaning of being alive? What is it to be born again?

I don't seem to be of any use.

There is no goal at all.

At the beginning, after the goal of living was completed, Lu Aya began to be confused, but because Liu Fufeng was by her side, she didn't have time to think about these messy things, and now that Liu Fufeng was not there, this problem resurfaced.

Lu Aya felt that she was completely a scum and didn't know anything.

is a little nervous, and Lu Aya doesn't know why she became like this......

She can't really be insane, right......

Of course not.

This is related to the peak of her condensation, the Soul Splitting Realm will make people's minds extremely sensitive, and some potential problems will emerge from the depths of the mind, which is the role of the Soul Splitting Realm - during this period, the problem will be solved, and it will be more difficult to deal with the demons in the future.

It's a good thing, the soul splitting realm is a process that must be taken to baptize the soul, and everyone will go through it, but what appears on Lu Aya's body is the most difficult thing to deal with - self-denial and self-doubt.

I believe that Li Zhuzi didn't expect it.

Lu Aya, who has always been "bold", introverted and serious, actually denied herself from the spiritual level.

Lu Aya is a person who has no self-confidence at all.

Self-doubt itself is not terrible, what is terrible is that self-identification is completely based on the evaluation of others, and subconsciously feels that only "perfect" and "recognized by others" are worthy of living in this world.

Lu Aya wanted to turn herself into a perfect person from the beginning, and she has always cared very much about other people's opinions...... For example, the junior sister's, the husband's, and even Tang Sheng's.

Once you are suspected, the ensuing self-doubt begins, and you will feel that this person is right, because she is really not good enough, and Lu Aya is even more excessive, no one doubts her, and she herself does not let herself go.

Looking at Lu Aya's character-

Doing anything, you will tiptoe and be afraid of things.

Timid, worried about this, worried about that.

The word tangled is infinitely magnified.

In the final analysis, it is a sign of low self-esteem, lack of confidence, and taking other people's opinions as their true appearance...... It's a very dangerous thing, the more Lu Aya thinks about it, the more she feels that she doesn't have any meaning of existence, this world won't change without her, and she is just a waste who can't say a word after being reborn.

I erased the culture and language that I had been studying hard since the first day, and I only felt that I was mentally retarded if I couldn't learn it after learning it for so long.

I neglected my own efforts.

Now Lu Aya's worst state is that after extreme self-denial, he thinks that he has no value in existence, and defective products like himself should be eliminated.

Suicide.

It's hard to solve, but when problems arise, they're meant to be solved.

This time, no one helped her, the meaning of others was not the meaning she wanted, and Lu Aya needed to find her own answer before formally studying the soul realm.

Lu Aya is probably mentally ill, not to mention schizophrenia, but there must be a problem, which can already be seen from the incident in Shushan.

The human race majors in the soul, and the soul is the most likely to have problems.

Liu Fufeng is, and now Lu Aya is too.

……

Food Palace.

Lu Aya walked all the way, and her face gradually calmed down.

This time, she didn't carry the "dog beating stick" she relied on for survival, and limped around in embroidered shoes, feeling the sight around her.

In her opinion, it is mocking, ridiculous.

On pins and needles.

Actually?

Many female cultivators sensed that something was wrong with Lu Aya and were very worried.

"......" still thinking.

Mr. is so good to herself, is she worthy?

The junior sister is also very good to her, is she worthy?

It should be unworthy.

Mr.'s students should be perfect, they can draw inferences, they are extremely smart, and they can bring pride to Mr., not like themselves, they are completely useless, they cause trouble everywhere, they want Mr. to go to Shushan to save them, and they are worried that Mr. may embarrass her.

The senior sister of the junior sister should be able to cook for her, resist all the housework alone, so that she can learn the way of medicine to her heart's content, instead of cooking for her after a tired day, helping her with laundry, and occasionally tutoring her homework.

That's not right.

What Lu Aya didn't know was that her ideal, Li Zhuzi's "perfect student" was not unprecedented, Shen Gui and Xu Xu, each of them was 10,000 times better than she imagined, but Li Zhuzi's favorite is still her.

Liu Fufeng is the same, Lu Aya thinks it's good, she doesn't necessarily like it.

But now Lu Aya is drilling the tip of the horns, and in self-doubt, her mind is constantly sinking.

The most fundamental reason for the matter is that Lu Aya, who found that she couldn't do anything without her junior sister by her side, didn't want to become a waste, but no matter how you look at her, she is just a waste...... I can't accept it.

……

In a trance-like procession, Lu Aya walked to the dining hall.

Rise.

White Jade Canteen.

This is the second peak, I came with Liu Fufeng before, and then went to Qin Qin to eat, Lu Aya remembers it very clearly.

Unconsciously wandering here, Lu Aya laughed self-deprecatingly.

She even had to come to the place where Liu Fufeng had taken her to have a meal, because she only knew that there was a food hall here, and she didn't know the way-

It's really useless.