Chen Chen took off his shoes and put on slippers, and said to Lin Qian, "Are there any guests coming today?" ”

Lin Qian put down Chen Chen's bag, nodded and said, "Yes, but I won't come over until the afternoon, so Xiao Chenchen, you don't have to care, it's just what you usually do." ”

"Oh......" Chen Chen nodded, didn't pay much attention to it, and went to sit down on the sofa in the living room to rest.

Now I don't need codewords, so I didn't bring a notebook, so I took out my mobile phone, plugged in my headphones, and asked Xingchen to help me find a song to listen to.

It's Lin Qian, although she told Chen Chen not to care, but herself, in the process of eating, will be in a daze from time to time, and the whole person is a little unrelenting.

After eating, Chen Chen and Lin Qian changed their clothes, and when they were sitting on the bed and preparing to rest, Chen Chen looked at Lin Qian in a daze, so he couldn't help but ask, "Teacher Lin, do you have something to do today?" ”

"I ......" Lin Qian opened her mouth to say something, but after turning her head and glancing at Chen Chen, she let out a long breath and shook her head, "It's okay...... I'm fine...... Xiao Chenchen, go to sleep...... I also fell asleep quickly......"

"Oh, okay......" Chen Chen lay down helplessly.

Lin Qian also lay down on her side, but she kept her eyes open, obviously without a trace of sleep.

Chen Chen closed his eyes several times, and opened them several times, Lin Qian was always like that, and the whole person seemed to have no soul.

Chen Chen finally couldn't bear it anymore, and reached out and grabbed Lin Qian's hand: "Teacher Lin, what's wrong with you?" Is there anything you can tell me? If you have anything to worry about, you can tell me, I can ask my dad to help you, he listens to me the most. ”

Lin Qian was stunned for a moment, instinctively wanted to break free of Chen Chen's hand, but her body did not have any strength, Chen Chen held it a little harder, and she did not break free in the end.

Lin Qian paused for a while, shook her head helplessly, and tried to speak: "Xiao Chenchen, what the teacher told you, you must not say it!" ”

Chen Chen nodded: "I understand, I won't say it." ”

Lin Qian took a deep breath and said, "You still remember that morning, I didn't go to class, and you came to me." ”

Chen Chen nodded: "I remember...... That day was the teacher's escape, and it was the second time. ”

Lin Qian nodded with a wry smile: "The first time was when I was in college, I obviously fell in love, but I couldn't accept my boyfriend's body, and I ran away on the night of the decisive victory, and then naturally broke up." I've been single ever since.

"Then, after many years, another person finally came to me. We have been communicating online for a long time, and he is not only tall and handsome, but also humorous, gentle and considerate. ”

"After getting along for a while, we've become friends who talk about everything. He came to Linhai several times to look for me, and we hung out together, and I had a great time in those days. ”

"As the relationship became closer and closer, we all knew that it was time to go to the last step, but I became more and more scared, the incident of six years ago is still vivid, and that incident is a pain that I still can't forget."

"So this time, I've been shirking, I've been making excuses, and at the same time I've been cheering myself up, looking for ways to get myself out of the shadows, but I haven't told him these things, I'm just silently preparing alone."

"That night, I thought I was ready, so I asked him out with me, and we played until late and then went to a family hotel."

"As you know, just like six years ago, I still couldn't overcome my fear and ran away again."

"After I came back, I drank a lot of alcohol alone, and the whole person was in a trance, and it wasn't until you came to me the next day that I regained my consciousness."

"After this, I thought we were going to break up again, but he called again, and instead of getting angry, he comforted me very gently, trying to untie the knot."

"In the past month, he has called me a lot, we talked a lot, I told him about my experience, and he said that he would work with me to find a way to help me get rid of the shadow in my heart."

When Lin Qian said this, she couldn't say any more, and the whole person quieted down and looked at Chen Chen in a daze.

After listening to Lin Qian's narration, Chen Chen also understood what Lin Qian meant, the guest who was going to come over this afternoon was naturally the man who said that he would accompany Lin Qian to get rid of the psychological shadow.

Thinking of these, Chen Chen's heart became inexplicably irritable, the so-called untying of the knot, the so-called overcoming Lin Qian's psychological shadow, isn't the ultimate goal to spend the night with Lin Qian?

In the final analysis, isn't it just to overthrow Lin Qian?

Only when the two are really combined can they be regarded as untying this knot!

Thinking of this, Chen Chen frowned and asked Lin Qian, "Then Mr. Lin, what are you going to do?" ”

"I ...... What else can I do......" Lin Qian's eyes flashed with tears, "I actually know, I know that it is impossible for me to overcome this psychological shadow, I am afraid that I will be like this for the rest of my life." ”

After Chen Chen heard this, he felt more and more that Lin Qian was a little wrong, so he sat up directly, and then asked the serious Lin Qian: "Then what did you ask him to come over in the afternoon?" ”

After listening to Chen Chen's question and thinking of her decision, the tears in Lin Qian's eyes could no longer be controlled, and flowed down her cheeks:

"I'm ready to ...... In the place I know best, lock myself in my room, let myself have no way to escape, and then, let him be rough and forcibly break the shadow in my heart......"

After listening to Lin Qian's words, Chen Chen could no longer control his sobriety, and yelled at Lin Qian: "That's not right...... There's something wrong with this thing that shouldn't be like this...... It shouldn't be like this......"

Lin Qian's emotions gradually got out of control, and she looked at Chen Chen in a daze: "Then what else can I do?" As a woman, I have to find a man to marry and have children after all, and I will spend my whole life. Now that I have a man who is excellent in every way, I can't run away from it anymore......"

"Calm down...... Calm down...... Think about it, think about what you can do......"

After all, Chen Chen was a person who had been reborn twice, and knowing that now was not the time to get on fire, he shook his head, tried to calm himself down, and then turned over and sat next to Lin Qian, holding Lin Qian's arm with both hands, and looking at Lin Qian's eyes.

"Teacher Lin, Lin Qian, you look into my eyes."

"Huh?" Lin Qian, who was a little emotionally disturbed, didn't care too much about Chen Chen's title, but instinctively asked, "What's wrong?" ”

Chen Chen looked directly into Lin Qian's eyes: "Tell me, are you afraid or disgusted with a man's body." ”

Lin Qian was obviously stunned for a moment: "I...... I don't know ...... either."

Chen Chen continued to ask: "Then let me ask you again, when facing a man's body, do you dare not look at it because you are afraid, or are you not interested or even disgusted from the bottom of your heart?" ”

"I don't know......" Lin Qian can't calm down and think about it at all now, her current state can't distinguish such a detailed emotion at all, "In short, I can't face it, I just want to escape, I just don't want them to touch my body." ”