Chapter 20: Loneliness, Loneliness, Dreams.
Back home, lying on the sofa, Wang Jin entered Ge You lying mode.
"Comfortable......"
A pair of Erlang legs rested on the sand table, holding desserts and drinks in his right hand and snacks in his left hand, squeaking and eating and drinking, living at ease.
He doesn't want to be so tired like the original Nakano, and every day when he goes home, he is lonely and playing video games, or drawing comics with pen and paper, and he is sad every day, of course it's boring to live.
Wang Jin felt that he would never do this, he touched his nerve connection device, and laughed.
"With the BB program, from now on, I will also enter the B mode! Hehehe......"
Under the acceleration function under the BB program, it is too easy to succeed, to give one of the most inappropriate examples, a lazy cancer web writer, if you are accelerated by the BB program, not to mention the daily more than 10,000 words, that is, 100,000 words are trivial, of course, the premise is that he can't Kawen...... (To be honest, there is really a BB program, and it is impossible for an online writer to change 100,000 words a day, and it is not just time that restricts the author.) )
If you want to be a cartoonist, you can practice it thousands of times in your mind, practice drawing skills, and other kinds of learning, all of which can be carried out in the accelerated world, in the accelerated world, the human sense of time is equivalent to 1000 times, and it is much easier to learn anything you want, as long as you want to learn.
“…… But what should I do when I have a BB program to speed up? Uh......" Wang Jin, who was lying on the sofa, gradually fell into deep thought.
This is a question that needs to be well thought about.
"I, I don't lack anything now, I'm single, I don't have to worry about parental discipline, I have such a big house, and I have a large amount of savings to inherit when I become an adult, so I want to be a golden bachelor in the future, and it's not a problem to come to my sister, wife or anything in the future."
"If you think about it like this, you have everything, and no one cares, so you should be happy...... It's just, why did Nakano collapse on his own, isn't that great? Is it just because he's still a kid? Is he, lonely? ”
"Lonely? ……”
Wang Jin fell silent, and he remembered himself before the crossing.
He felt that he was actually quite similar to Chunxue, he had been bullied by everything in reality, and the next day he was okay to eat and drink, and he didn't dare to be unwilling or unable to resist the 'barren valley'......
Nakano died, he should have died in loneliness, and in this regard, he is not like Nakano.
He's lonely, but he's not lonely.
He has long-winded and nagging parents, he has a dead friend, although he has a father and a family, and he has worked hard for his wife and children all year round, and he has not drunk well together for many years.
Even if you live alone in a cheap rental house, from time to time, you will video talk to your parents and talk to your friends on the phone.
No matter how bad it is, there is a group of book friends who don't understand anything or know everything, fellow authors, in the book friend group, in the author group, talk with them about the mountains, chat about the land, talk about the past and the present, talk about how the old driver drives safely today, or overturn, tomorrow talk about the one hundred and eight ways to cultivate immortals at night, and the day after tomorrow on the ancient Oriental flood gods and the ancient Western creation gods who is more powerful, the day after tomorrow will discuss whether it is women's clothing, or transformation, transgender, and stronger, which can attract the attention of book friends?
If it doesn't work anymore, you can also put down all the updates, go to the Internet café happily, and yell at the network manager!
"Webmaster! Turn on a machine, you want to play LOL without getting stuck! ”
Then fight in all directions, there are countless super gods or super ghosts, laughing wildly or abusing teammates for garbage......
Nakano resents Chunxue for not knowing happiness, and I also scold Chunxue for being a stupid pig, but I, did I also make the same mistake as Chunxue? I don't know happiness?
The deep thinking unconsciously drove away time, and it was late at night in a blink of an eye, and I don't know when, Wang Jin fell asleep, lying on his side on the sofa, his fists clenched tightly, and he was having a long and painful dream......
Wang Jin forgot one thing, that is the details in the original book, the night after Chunxue installed the BB program, he had a nightmare, in the dream the fear hidden deep in his heart was infinitely magnified, struggling in his sleep, suffocating, until he looked up at his head, looked at the sky, and said what he wanted - he wanted to fly! So the next day, his battle imaginary, the flying Silver Raven, was born.
So, what kind of battle imaginary body will he produce tomorrow?
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This is a dream world that Wang Jin is not familiar with, strange, pale, dark, sentimental, helpless, painful, tearful...... and the deepest loneliness.
In the world of dreams, the boy actually had a beautiful childhood, just like the rising sun, getting up in the gentle shouts of his mother, eating, studying, and playing in his father's stern but loving gaze, but this beautiful dream, just like the morning dew, under the light of the morning sun, the morning dew flashed with colorful light, but it also quickly dissipated in the sun.
The colorful colors in the dream disappeared, leaving only black and white like silent films, and the boy cried silently holding two black urns......
The dream was shattered, and the black-and-white dream world had no sound or movement.
I don't know how long it took, but the boy finally put down the urn, but picked up the pen, the brush used by the cartoonist, which was a gift from his father.
It is said that my father wanted to be a cartoonist when he was a teenager, and he begged his grandfather to pay for half a year's pocket money, and learned a bunch of old-fashioned cartoonists who were still drawing comics with pen and paper at that time, and only used comic tools, and taught himself for two years, and later, my father did not become a cartoonist, but inherited my grandfather's family business, but it was not useless, because my mother, because my father noticed my father when he was drawing comics at school when he was a teenager, and he began to fall in love and get married......
The brush has become a substitute for the teenager's parents, black pen, white paper, the tip of the pen is stained with ink, drawing on white paper, he draws comics, drawing, drawing, drawing countless things, it seems that these things can accompany him and fill his loneliness, but he keeps drawing, keeps drawing, but he can't fill it up, but he still keeps drawing......
It doesn't matter if he is bullied at school, it doesn't matter if he can't eat, he doesn't want to fight, he doesn't want to be beaten, what if he hurts his hand? He just wanted to get through it all, go home, and draw cartoons quietly...... Fill the hole in his heart, but he can't fill it all, and in the final picture, a black hole appears in the earth, and the boy falls into it with empty eyes......
I want someone to be there for me, to fill my void.
I don't want to be so lonely!
I want to live handsomely.
Like the main character!
Is this what you want? ……”