"Mama, why don't I have a poop?" When I was a child, when I saw Ma Ma, I would point to the noisy crowd outside and ask, "They all have poop, why don't I have it?" ”

Ma Ma never replied to me, she was always silent to me, in my home, there is no so-called home warmth at all, I was the last time I saw the children playing with Ma Ma to know that our home is abnormal.

"Ma Ma ......" I pouted, shaking the hem of Ma Ma's clothes, "Ma Ma, why don't you ignore Liu Yue." ”

In fact, at this time, I didn't think that she would answer me in reply, because she would ignore me when she came out, and Ma Ma's beautiful face was always sad or gloomy, but today Ma Ma didn't ignore me, she looked down at me coldly and threw me away, and slammed the door into her own room.

"Ma Ma didn't ignore me, alas, at least she looked at me." I whispered it and told myself to be happy, to work hard, to laugh. But I tried hard to hook the corners of my mouth, but I still couldn't get it to rise. I couldn't cry, Ma Ma was already very tired, so I couldn't let Ma Ma have any more burdens, so thinking about it, I gritted my teeth and started cleaning the somewhat messy room.

"Mama, welcome back." Ma Ma was a little happy when he went out today, so I went out to buy vegetables today, and I specially made a full table for Ma Ma. When I heard the sound of the door opening, I happily opened the door for Ma Ma, and after Ma Ma finished changing his clothes, he asked Ma Ma to eat.

I looked at Ma Ma expectantly, picked up the bowl and took a bite, there was no gentleness as I imagined, but a stinky scolding: "Stinky little ghost is hard to eat, this thing can't be eaten by dogs." Then he turned back to his room.

"She, she talked to me today......" I shook my hand full of injuries and told myself to be happy, "Ma Ma talked to me, alas, I'm so happy." I told myself, but there were drops of water falling on my hands, "What......" I looked up at the roof, it didn't leak, why was there water......

Liu Yue was born to be hated, I know. Because I'm not a boy who can continue the incense for the Liu family, I'm hated by everyone, including my mother. I know all this, but I still have fantasies about all this, and I fantasize that one day, I can also get the love of my parents. So I have been trying, trying, longing and hoping for that day, my only light will come, but that trace of warmth is indeed farther away from me

I don't know why, my body stopped growing after I was five years old, and now I'm eight years old, but I'm not the ignorant child I used to be, and I know all the rumors outside, so on that day I asked Ma Ma again the question I haven't asked for a long time, "Ma Ma, who is my poop?"

My numbness still hasn't answered me, in fact, since I was a child, I haven't even gotten her smiling face or I haven't even gotten a straight eye from her. So I didn't care about her attitude, so I tugged at the corner of her clothes as usual, and after hesitating for a while, my eyes became resolute, and I said, "Is it the man named Liu Cheng?" ”

Syllable! It was the first time Ma Ma hit me, and it was the first time Ma Ma looked at me, and it was the first time I heard Ma Ma say so many words to me, "Don't mention that man to me, you wild seed." ”

"Wild Seeds...... "I repeated what he said, and then I laughed, from low laughter to laughter to loud laughter, I laughed very happily, very happy, the corners of my mouth rose to look at Ma Ma, who was obviously close to me, and I felt that I was so relaxed for the first time" Hahahahahahahaha As I said this, big tears slipped from my eyes, and I didn't need to hold on, for by the time I said this, she was gone, and had gone back to her room, which was separated from me by a wall, but so far away.

Why would I be so naïve to think that Ma Ma loves me, what gave me such courage to mistakenly think that Ma Ma also loves me? Sure enough, those so-called motherly love and selflessness are all lies, and even if they weren't, this wouldn't be used on me, because my mother is not my mother, and he doesn't treat me as his child, right...... When she said those two words, or I knew a long time ago, I just didn't want to believe it, and in his mind I was just a wild seed......

But I was not reconciled, so I continued to inquire about the story of the year, and gradually I knew that my Baba Liucheng was a bullish person, how powerful, but I was not the slightest happy, obviously he knew my existence, but never came to me...... I had a little bit of resentment towards him, but more of a curiosity, after all, I had his blood in my body, so I didn't break down. After the sadness, I still have to live, I still have to live, or I have to live until I don't see my father and know how he feels about us. In fact, I already know how the other person feels, but I am still so naïve.

Because the Liu family blocked a lot of news at that time, it took me six years to piece together some of the things I heard scattered from different populations to form a complete story. It's probably that Ma Ma liked Baba very much when he was in school, but Dad liked another woman, but the woman Baba liked didn't like Baba, she liked another man. And because the woman that Baba likes is with that man, Baba is very sad and decides not to marry in this life. And the elders who were worried that the Liu family would not have follow-up incense fascinated Baba, and let Ma Ma, who was willing to dedicate himself, and Baba, who had been drugged, spend the night, and then there was me......

"What shall I say, is Baba really brave? Or still complain about my fate...... "I want to laugh when I know everything, but I can't." It's a big pot of dog blood, but it seems that no one is wrong...... What about me? What did I do wrong again, the old genius treated me like this, I laughed again, "Liu Yue, Liu Yue, you shouldn't be a girl, if you were a boy, you would have everything you want, noble birth, numb smiling face, respect from the people next to you...... But because I'm a girl, just because I'm a girl, I have nothing, who is to blame? Blame yourself, Liu Yue, you don't fight ......"

I admired myself, relying on my child's body to quietly enter the well-guarded royal area while the other party was not paying attention, and the road was unimpeded. With the inquiry of the past few years, I found the location of the Liu family and my father's room along the memory. I found out that this was actually a study, and there was a handsome man sitting on a chair in the center of the study, looking at the things in his hand with a serious face, and did not seem to notice me.

This is my father. With everyone's narration, I recognized a man with extraordinary bearing at a glance, in fact, the real person is more handsome than the legend, with neat short hair, smart eyes, a high nose bridge, long eyelashes, bronzed skin, and a perfect body is really the dream lover of countless girls. Just when I thought he hadn't noticed me, he didn't raise his head and said, "Who?" What is full of magnetism, low and good-sounding. I thought so in my heart, but the next moment, my eyes widened, because I suddenly found that this handsome man was actually standing in front of me, still holding something in his hand and looking at it, and the corners of his mouth did rise, "I thought it was an assassin, but it turned out to be a little girl." Why, are you going to assassinate me too? ”

"You ......" I was a little out of breath just by feeling the faint pressure on the other party's body, but I still raised my head and gritted my teeth and asked, "Are you Liucheng?"

"It's me." He raised an eyebrow and tossed the document aside, but it fell back to the table safely. "It's interesting, you can resist my aura at such a young age...... So what's the matter?" His gaze was full of banter, and I understood that it was the expression of a person who is only interested in having fun.

"Yes." The cold sweat on my back had already soaked my shirt, but I didn't flinch, because I knew that once I backed down, the hard work of these years would be in vain, and it would not be possible to come in so easily next time.

"Speak, I'll be merciful to hear it."

"Liu Yue wants you to coax Ma Ma, Ma Ma is really tired, she really misses you." That's right, that's what I'm here for, I want them to meet, I hope he can untie the knot, I hope they can be together, but I'm really naïve. Because after I said this, the banter on the face of the man in front of me had disappeared, and it was replaced by a gloomy face, "Oh Huo~ Your name is Liu Yue~ How old are you." ”

“14。” I gritted my teeth and said against the other party's increasingly gloomy coercion, "Liu Yue, ten... Four, years old. ”

"Oh~" When Liu Cheng heard this, he squatted down, pinched my chin, looked my face up and down, and then his face became a little more gloomy, but the corners of his mouth did rise, "Very good, your mother and daughter are very good, you dare to come to me, you wild seed." ”

"I'm not a wild seed, I'm your daughter, no matter how much you deny it, I'm your daughter!" Hearing this sentence similar to Ma Ma, my heart was very cold, but I shouted "No matter how much you deny it, you can't change the fact that you already have a woman, no matter how much you deny it, you can't change the fact that you already have a child, no matter how you escape, Xian Xuan is not yours or yours, in the end you are just running away, you just don't want to, what qualifications do you have to take all this anger on me, your flesh and blood!" At this time, I don't know why I shouted out like this After shouting, I felt a lot more comfortable, "After all, I am also a wild seed without a father and a mother, a wild seed that even my parents don't recognize, then you kill me, you kill, you kill, you kill me!" I never knew it was so tiring to be alive, especially when I saw the magic that had been condensed in the other person's hands.

It's inexplicable, I'm inexplicable...... Why am I alive I don't even know myself, I have lived humbly for fourteen years, fourteen years, no one cares about me, no one takes care of me, I am left to fend for myself, I don't even have the last bit of warmth, I already know it but I just don't believe that this is the case, you are so ridiculous, I closed my eyes and waited for death to come "I did something wrong, I just want to see Ma Ma laugh, I want to see you happy, why ......"

After a burst of white light, there is endless darkness, which can be appropriately after the darkness has passed. I opened my eyes. I'm not dead... I was amazed for a few seconds, and then there was something even more surprising around me, because not far in front of me, my mom ...... Hanged himself. There was a small note at the head of my bed, very short, just a few words.

Sorry, thank you.

I held the note and was silent for a long time. What can I say, my dear Mama, my dear Baba, I actually don't blame you, and thank you for giving me life to see all these good and bad things, although there is a lot of sadness, but at last I am really happy to see you untie each other's knots...... Although the result is not very good, the important thing is the process, at least Ma Ma is not sad all day, she is also very tired, I know, she should be satisfied to see Baba, so even if she dies, she is still laughing, and my wish has come true. So on this day, I took this note to the high place, looked at the bustling flow of people, and smiled, "The world is also very beautiful, but I haven't experienced it." "Say me, I laughed and jumped off.