Chapter 25: Let Go of Everything in the Past Tense
Heliga was stunned.
He didn't expect Ling to ask this question - of course, he didn't think about all kinds of possibilities for the complicated relationship between Ling and the Hayvas family - although it was a better choice to hand Ling over to Istelle, but if he had to say, he didn't think about it, under the design and guarantee of a complicated situation, let the Hyvas couple and Ling, no matter how they meet.
A lot of things...... If I did, I wouldn't have walked according to common sense...... Here's what Helliga thinks.
Of course, he knew that such a topic would most likely upset Rei. He didn't want to ruin his friendship with Ling for so long because of this...... So he was amusefully not to ask any of these questions - even when Ling already knew she was meddling in their family's relationship.
However, Ling herself took the initiative to bring up this topic, and it seemed that she was really thinking about it very seriously, and she was confused and distressed by it—and Helriga also felt very relieved to see it.
"I asked Levi too...... But he said that his experience wouldn't help me much......" Ling said to herself, "so I thought that maybe Heliga ......"
“…… Levy's life has never been happy since the incident with Hamel...... His words are also on the way out of such a huge shadow. "In that sense, you are companions on the same road." ”
"yes...... That's what Lévy said. He said he couldn't give Ling any advice...... Because he himself has not experienced it at all, and he has not experienced it...... The object of his hatred and his desire to seek forgiveness are not the same as Ling's. Ling's tone was very calm, but there was confusion and confusion between her eyebrows.
“…… I've heard Lloyd talk about that. After a moment of silence, Haley let out a long sigh, "Actually, you wonder why you can't control your emotions like you after saving your brother...... And what exactly is that? It's simple. Because you want to take those you lost...... All so that your little brother can enjoy it all in peace. You don't want him to be like you and have to leave his parents; You don't want him to be like you, powerless in the face of aggression from the outside. You want to watch him grow up, a boy with the same blood as you...... Healthy and carefree...... It's like...... The original you are the same. ”
Rei's smile froze on her lips and slowly unfolded again. Thinking of her brother, her face gradually became gentle, "Uh-huh......" she felt relieved when she admitted this, "That's it." ”
"That's good." Heiliga gently stroked Ling's head, and didn't say anything else, just kept this movement, for a long, long time.
"Heliga...... I...... Should I forgive them? Ling muttered, wondering if she was really asking Helica, or if she was just talking to herself.
Heliga sat down. "I wonder if you were in the closet at the time and could relate to how they were talking about it...... I looked at your father's face, at the words he said, and at the look on his face that was almost completely relieved and judgmental—to know how much pressure he was under. ”
"......" Ling bit her lip and remained silent.
"I know some people...... They did not let go of their hostility towards others until they died. Hyriga said, thinking of Bernardo, who would rather dissipate completely than submit to the demon god, "It's not because they don't want to let go of their hatred and live in this world...... It's that they need this hatred in their hearts to maintain their dignity and maintain the meaning of their existence. In other words...... They have no reason to let go of their hatred...... Ling, think about it and ask yourself...... Is this the case for you? ”
"I ......" Ling turned her face away, not wanting Heliga to see her wavering and tears, even though her voice was trembling, "to see the relief they had when they got Colin back...... Listening to them, I ...... I'm soft-hearted...... But I think of the night of my abduction, of what happened in Paradise, and of the various intensive training I received during the "association...... and hate them again......" The barrier of pretending to be strong was easily broken, Ling turned around and grabbed Helika's clothes, tears dripping down, "I...... I don't know, I don't know if I should ......"
She really didn't know what to do—she just wanted to keep a cold heart, let this matter pass gradually, and finally silently forget it—no more hatred, no more entanglements, just a stranger from now on. Unexpectedly, when he heard those words with his own ears, he couldn't help but look like this.
Those words of repentance and excitement, each time I think back, are more devastating than the previous one.
If only time could go back to before they came into contact with dangerous loan sharks.
If only time could go back to before they sent themselves to a friend.
If only time could go back to before the evil party of the Order set fire on a large scale.
Ling was scared...... She didn't dare to think about it anymore. She didn't dare to face these possible alternatives, and her life would not be so complicated and distorted - because that would only make her current self more sad and want to see them even more.
“…… Haha......" But Ling's appearance made Helliga can't help but smile. He took out a handkerchief, wiped Ling's tears, looked into Ling's eyes, and said, "Since I hate them so much, I don't want to recognize them again until now...... So are you going to follow Joshua and Estelle on their way? Never come back, never return to Crossbell - just run away for the rest of your life. ”
“…… No, you can't. Ling shook her head hoarsely.
"Yes...... You can't just leave them alone, it's too cheap for them. Heliga feigned anger and said, "Then make good use of your abilities...... Engage in some information warfare and let them taste the bitterness? ”
"Heliga." Ling said angrily.
"Look...... Ling, didn't you already have the answer? Facing Rei's reproachful gaze, Helliga just spread his hands indifferently, "If you don't plan to drive away or hide from the haze...... Then wait until the haze dissipates on its own, wouldn't it be better? ”
"......" Ling tilted her head, looking puzzled.
"All facts are the result of human actions - the things of the past were created by them, and the things of the future are also made by them, and no one can change them - including you. Ling. "If you can't forgive them, that's fine...... Just never forgive them. ”
With a triumphant smile, he flicked Ling's surprised face, "Let 'unforgive' belong to the past, and face the present and the future in a different mood...... Be realistic, fair and just, okay? ”
“…… It's hard to understand. Ling smiled wryly in confusion, "But ...... It doesn't seem to be bad......"
"You will...... Ling. Heliga muttered in her mind.
Because...... You're not alone.
Himself, Estelle, Tita, Levi, Old Yogurus, and everyone in the Support Section are all using their own ways to light the way ahead for Rei.