Gentlemen. I felt very uncomfortable.

For a long time, I had a relatively serious autism, but I never dared to face it.

It's not easy to face life head-on.

It's hesitant, it's helpless, it's vulnerable, I'm always strong, in reality, it's the same online.

Over the years, I have encountered many setbacks, and although I have resisted it, people have become more and more withdrawn.

Sometimes I look back and find that you are the only readers who communicate with me the most.

A lot has happened.

Suddenly, it was as if I had been crushed all at once, and then I cried.

It's kind of funny to say.

I never thought I'd cry like a......

I'm so tired and sad right now, I don't even know what I'm talking about, I just want to talk nonsense and find a sense of existence.

Maybe it's really a bad year.

There will always be a time when people are very unlucky and do not do things quite well. Family, life, career, all in shambles.

Alas.

I thought that material things would make life better, but in fact life didn't give me the good things I wanted.

Opposite.

I got more and more tired, lost myself again and again, and lost my sense of direction and existence.

It will stop for a while.

The timing cannot be determined.

It can be as short as three to five days, and as long as one or two months. If I can survive, I should be able to turn back into the Futu you are familiar with.

Maybe I'll get better when I come out.

I hope so.

Finally, bow and thank you for your continued companionship.

- Love you Futuzi. (To be continued.) )