"What's wrong with you?" Su Xing turned around.

I struggled and said, "I can't see ...... Your sister...... Come to the Great Aunt? ”

Su Xing came over, squatted down next to me, and asked worriedly, "Wuhui, do you want it?" ”

"It hurts, what do you say......"

"I'll carry you, come." He made a carrying pose in front of me.

However, instead of appreciating him, I was angry: "Why don't you care about your mother?" ”

Su Xing hesitated for a moment and said, "Just care about it in your heart." Come up first, I'll carry you. ”

"I don't. You scumbag! "Although I was unwilling, when Su Xing took the initiative to carry me up, I still didn't resist at all.

He carried me behind my back and said, "Anyway, it's Friday, it's noon, so let's not go to school." I'll boil you brown sugar water when you get home. ”

"You just don't want to go to school!"

"What's the point of going to school? Forcing you to do things you don't like, and making you do well, are you willing? ”

"I ......"

Damn, I was actually preached by my former self, shameful!

"You're using strong words!" That's all I have to say.

"What do you mean by strong words? I love singing and drawing, do your parents know? Do you know? As my closest and dearest, what do you know about me? Do you want me to care about my parents? I care, I save money in school, I don't want my parents to spend money to wear broken shoes all the time, and my classmates scolded me for being poor and being excluded, do you know? Su Xing smiled lightly, "No, you don't know, because I never say it." Since junior high school, I have been suffering silently by myself. Why did I grow up so old and only have one friend? Because I was forced by life to have a weird personality, no one wanted to stay with me for long. Except for Cai Wen. ”

I was speechless by him.

Yes, for various reasons, Su Xing's psychology has become more and more gloomy, so he has become like this, and he wants to leave this place.

Who is at fault?

I am him, and what qualifications do I have to teach him?

I lay on his back and wrapped my arms around his neck, hoping to give him some comfort.

When I got home, Su Xing threw me on the bed and went to the kitchen to make brown sugar water.

When he handed it to me, he said, "It's been cold lately, so you should wear more clothes these days." ”

I nodded obediently.

After drinking the brown sugar water, the pain was finally relieved a lot.

If you look closely, this Su sentence is actually different from me in my previous life.

In my previous life, during this time period, I didn't say anything about caring for my sister; didn't say a bunch of heart-wrenching words to his sister like he did just now.

Didn't I come back from rebirth just to change "myself"?

Even a small change is progress.

I still have time.

I'm going to keep him until he's gone.

Suddenly, I thought of one thing and said, "Su Xing, that ......"

Su Xing glanced at me: "Have you called my brother today?" Forgot what you said on your last call? ”

"Okay, brother, brother, that ...... Do we have diapers at home? ”

"Diapers?"

"Ah no, sanitary napkins."

"I'm not coming to my aunt, why are you asking me to do it?"

"Can you help me buy it?"

Su Xing's face was full of unhappiness: "Why? ”

"You're my brother, grass!"

"Don't buy it."

"The panties are getting blood again." I felt sticky underneath and pleaded.

"You buy it yourself."

"I hurt." I pretended to be pitiful.

Su Xing glanced at me and said impatiently: "You can buy it, but I have one condition." ”

"On what terms?"

"You're not allowed to be a model anymore."

"I don't have a chance to go right now." I had no choice but to spread my hands.

"I can't go if I have the chance. Wue, I know you want to share the burden for this family, but you are still young, what you have to do now is to study hard, and when you have a job in the future, you will take on your responsibilities. Su Xing sat on the edge of the bed and actually touched my head, and his tone was gentle for the first time.

I'm a little speechless, how do I feel like it's my dad's tone? But he had this kind of awareness, and my tone was better: "What about you, as a brother?" ”

"Me?" Su Xing looked out the window and was silent for a while, "I belong to poetry and distance." ”

I shrugged: "I still belong to the sea of stars." ”

"Really, I'm not in the crowd." Su Xing said seriously, "No matter how many people there are around me, I always feel lonely and lively, but it has nothing to do with me, just like I am redundant." ”

"And...... Recently, there have been more and more conflicts with Cai Wen, and we often argue endlessly, and if we are about to leave, we always feel that we will part ways soon. He is like a warm ray of sunshine to me, but I can't beg like a dog for the sun to stay, it will set and the world will be bleak. ”

I listened to him in silence, and it was like talking to myself in my heart when I had no friends.

For some reason, I was a little lost: "You, are you still thinking about leaving?" ”

Su Xing asked rhetorically: "What is there that is worth keeping for me?" ”

"Am I not counted?"

"Unless I'm going to live for you."

I didn't understand the meaning of his words.

He was me in my previous life.

"What about Mom and Dad? Are you really willing not to want it? "I asked a question I shouldn't have asked, but even if I shouldn't, I didn't know how to save his soul.

And Su Xing smiled bitterly, "Wuxi, you may not know that facing my parents is a kind of torture for me." ”

"Then how are you willing to stay?"

"Wue, I said it, there's nothing worth me keeping."

I was silent for a while, and suddenly thought of someone and said, "What about Su Feiya?" ”

Su Xing smiled freely: "I like her because she was good to me when she was a child." But she was always my cousin. She will marry and have children, and her future has nothing to do with me. ”

"Then I'll help you chase her, can you stay?"

"Don't be kidding."

"I'm serious!"

"You ......" Su Xing looked at me, a little speechless.

"Then it's decided!"

"Don't mess around." Su Xing raised his eyebrows, "Even if you help me, she will like me?" I'm her cousin. ”

"Raw rice is cooked, and it doesn't matter if it's a cousin or not."

“……”

"When you have a girlfriend, I don't think you dare to go away." I smiled sinisterly at Su Xing, and I already had a crazy idea in my heart.

Su Xing looked at me speechlessly, as if he thought I was crazy.

"Oh yes, go buy me a sanitary napkin."

"Looks like you're not in pain, go buy it yourself." Su Xing said with disgust.

"I promised you not to be a model." I pouted, a little aggrieved.

Su Xing seemed to be a little unable to stand my cute appearance, and immediately softened, "Don't make a fuss, don't be sassy, I'll go." ”

……

Soon, the day passed as simply as it were.

I still spent Saturday in abdominal pain, but by Sunday I was just bleeding and it didn't hurt much.

Parents are again working early and returning late.

I learned to cook and waited quietly for school.

Everything is back on track.