Night 36 Yuri's Diary (2)
I was only seven years old when I became a prisoner.
Bound by chains called bandages, waiting all day long for a meal called motherly love to be delivered to the ignorant prisoner, this is the path I have chosen.
Next to my bed, a woman with light brown hair fluttering was smiling steadily.
My mother hugged me gently.
Gently soothe my back.
"My lovely Yuri."
Surrounded by the fragrance of roses unique to my mother, I feel so relieved. I grabbed my mother's slender wrist and closed my eyes.
My mother, loving my mother.
I also love my mother deeply.
For me, being abandoned by my mother is no different from death.
Because only Mother wants to love me.
My mother didn't smile, and I couldn't laugh.
She worked hard to make ends meet, and I did everything I could to keep my mother's love for me.
If my mother doesn't love me, I can't breathe.
Like a person who is about to drown desperately grasping for something and refusing to let go, I cling to my mother's love and fall asleep unconsciously.
I had a dream, a strange dream, in which I was just a little girl in an ordinary family, not plagued by illness and, of course, not bound by bandages.
Have childhood friends......
In the dream, my father did not abandon me and my mother.
In the dream, our family of three lived a harmonious life called happiness.
In a dream......
But a voice shattered the dream of happiness.
"Bastard! How is there only this money? ”
Woken up by an unfamiliar voice, I looked around, and my mother was no longer by my side.
This was followed by the sound of the bowl being smashed.
Who is it?
That's right, Mother! Mother will be fine, right?
With that in mind, I got out of bed, and when my foot touched the ground, the pain in my heart kept me from taking the second step.
However, compared to the mother, the pain is bearable, right, as usual, wouldn't it be better to endure it?
Opening the door to my room, I walked out with a difficult stride.
Usually in the morning, at dawn, my mother carried me down the stairs, sat in a wheelchair by the door, and pushed me out to the garden where my mother planted roses.
Grabbing the handrail on the side of the stairs and walking down the stairs step by step, the scene I saw made me a little confused, but I knew that this man was hurting his mother!
My mother was lying on the large table in the middle of the hall, her hands wrapped in bandages, which I had replaced.
A strange man with dirty, short hair and old clothes stained with dirt on them rode on his mother's body, tearing her clothes incessantly.
I don't know what this man wants to do to his mother, but ......
The mother was struggling incessantly, looking very painful.
As if noticing my presence, my mother stopped struggling, her body trembled a little, and her voice became a little like pleading,
"At least, not in front of children...... Go to my room, I don't resist. ”
The strange man turned his head and noticed me!
Being stared at by his hungry wolf-like eyes made me shudder all at once, and I couldn't help but stumble and fall down the stairs.
"Yuri! Yuri! Are you okay? Let go of me, let go of me, my child ......"
Rolling down the stairs, the cracked skin hit the stairs as if it had been torn apart by force, and blood kept seeping out of the cracks in the skin, and soon dyed the new bandages bright red.
I staggered to my feet.
What I saw was the man's indifferent and mocking eyes.
"Such a monster, you are sorry for raising her to such a big age."
"What are you talking about? She...... She's your daughter! ”
"Daughter? I don't remember a monster daughter like this. ”
I heard this strange man talking to his mother, this man ...... It's my father?
"You're still not a man? It's been 13 years since you abandoned our mother and daughter and ran away with another woman! You haven't come back once, you haven't fulfilled your responsibilities as a husband and father, and now your business has failed, and you've been abandoned by that woman, what are you going to do when you come back? This is no longer your home! You're not my husband anymore! ”
The mother's words made the father angry, and he slapped his mother in the face, using too much force, and directly slapped his mother with half of the blood and fainted.
"Stinky Baba." My father exhaled deeply, his wandering gaze away from his unconscious mother, and finally turned his head to meet my gaze.
I opened my mouth in horror, thinking that I had to say something.
In the end, he spit out a sentence that surprised him, "Father... Dear, don't hit your mother's ......"
The man straightened up and moved closer to me.
Rudely grabbed the bandages off my body and began to tear.
"You monster...... It's all because of you...... It's all your fault...... It's your fault...... Caused me to become the way I am now...... Go to hell! ”
When the bandage was torn off, it revealed a frightening skin that I couldn't even look at myself......
The man began to pull my hair and threw me out with all his might.
Then came the most unbearable pain I had ever endured.
He kicked me in the face, and a whole piece of my face fell off the soles of my shoes.
There's no end......
Kick after kick, kick after kick...... Kicked all over my body.
I became a blood man.
Even if I can't imagine it, now I know that this man, my father, wants to kill me!
Surprisingly, even so, I didn't cry out.
yes, I didn't have a father all along, did I? It was my mother who took care of me alone, and my mother was the only one who still loved me.
Yes, isn't it enough to have a mother?
This man is the guy who hurts his mother......
He's not my father......
He's a demon!
Can't let him survive in this world and continue to hurt his mother!
This thought took over all my thoughts.
Something was born out of my chest.
It's a feeling called hate.
Even if I was born unfair, even if I was disliked by everyone, I never had this kind of feeling, and that's because, even so, I still have the love that my mother gave me!
As long as the mother is enough, everyone else is fine......
Kill him...... Kill him...... Kill him......
Shedding blood and tears, hating the man who kicked him.
"Kill you! I'll kill you! ”
I roared out with all the strength I had, and then I lost consciousness.
When I came back to my senses, the man who was supposed to be standing in front of me and kicking me, and trying to kill me, had fallen to the ground as a headless corpse.
It's like a dried corpse, and the blood all over its body feels like it's been drained......
It wasn't something I cared about, seeing my mother, who had been knocked unconscious by the man before, now sitting at the table and looking at me in horror, but this was not the way my mother looked at me.
Just wanted to make a sound, "Mother ......"
But I heard my mother's trembling voice, "Strange...... You monster, don't come here......"