Chapter 32: The Girl and Dimi (The Final Chapter of the Volume)
hours ago.
In the deep black dome formed by the illusion, the Lord of Darkness looked at the girl in surprise.
"This is the third time you've come to see me in the last few days," he said, "have you come up with a way to deal with another you?" β
"It can't be a way," said the girl, "can you give him a copy of my memories before I crossed over?" β
"No way," said Mr. Palamedes flatly, "you are both soulless. I can't interfere with your memories. β
"Then," said the girl, "what about the great magic of 'concept transfer'?" This should always work, right? β
This time, the Lord of Darkness was silent.
"Looks like I'm right," the girl smiled, "'Concept Transfer' is useful." β
"Theoretically...... There's a glimmer of hope that it can be executed," the Black Lord looked hesitant, "Where are you from-"
"It was Empress Lichenda who told me," said the maiden lightly, "that she had fallen under the spell of slumber, and that Chancellor Friedrich had taken the concept of 'lethargy' out of her body and cured her of her illness. β
"This is not a cure......
"The price she paid was to substitute deep meditation for sleep β I had just returned Linna's soul to her new body when I suddenly thought of her mother's words. How is it? That's a good idea, right? β
Mr. Palamedes grimaced. He muttered something under his breath, something like "Damn half a bucket of water Fred always causes trouble." β
"Isn't this plan feasible?" The girl asked.
"It's not impossible," said Mr. Palamedes, "that you can't copy your memories to him by means of confusion and manipulate them directly at a deeper conceptual level." β
"What's the difficulty?"
"The effect you're looking for is to restore the memories of the 'Eternal Blood' to their original state. In other words, let him have all the memories you experienced as 'Wei Yuanhe' before you crossed over. β
"That's right?"
"The notion of 'memories that would restore him to his original state' is too vague in terms of the full concept. First of all, the time period itself is not clear. We don't know exactly when the Eternal Blood will come into this world, and we don't know at what point in time it will be in your original world. Secondly, if we ignore the confusion of details and directly transfer all the concepts of 'memory' in you to him, it will cause your own memory to be torn apart and confused, and even make you permanently lose your past memories or the ability to generate new memories. And then ......"
"Enough is enough," the girl interrupted the Black Lord's tirade, "I know you're good at this spell, but it's not appropriate to transfer the concept of 'memory' from me directly to him." So what if we think differently? Assuming he still has memories of the past in his head, it's just that the bald star makes him invisible; Or maybe I'm going to make him feel some part of my memory by some means. β
"What do you mean......"
"I've been living as a 'bright world' for a long time. Even if you partially abandon the concept of 'Wei Yuanhe', you can start a new life. β
The Black Lord's expression changed.
"I didn't say that I would give up everything, but just transfer to him part of my 'deep self-identity with the memory of Wei Yuanhe's identity', this concept can be linked, right?" The girl said, "You said that concepts are interconnected, so as long as he regains a deep identification with some of 'Wei Yuanhe', he will have a chance to regain his lost memories, or at least be able to reconnect with the past of 'Wei Yuanhe' and start reading." Because he was originally Wei Yuanhe, in this way, he will change back to his past self, right? β
"Failure is likely," said the Black Lord eagerly, "and even if it fails, there is nothing to lose to the Blood of Eternity." And you...... Success or failure......"
"My identification with the identity of 'Wei Yuanhe' will be partially affected," the girl said calmly, "It doesn't matter. I will always be myself. How can the concept of 'me' be changed and imprisoned by a memory or name? β
"Do you know who was the last person who said this to me?" The Lord of Darkness stared at the girl in front of him.
"Oh, 'Emperor of the Eternal Night'?" The girl blinked.
"You know!" Mr. Palamedes had a complicated expression that he had never felt before, "That's right, in the world where you have adapted to life in this world, give up your memories, even if only a part of your sense of identity......"
"The Emperor of the Eternal Night has not forgotten what he experienced as a child. In the same way, I will not forget. β
"You certainly don't forget. When this transfer is carried out, your memories of the past will become clear dreams. Although everything is still its own...... But the 'world of light' and the 'blood of eternity' ...... They will be like 'The End Day' and 'The Emperor of the Eternal Night', two people who are the same and opposite! β
"That's good. To be honest, I feel a little uncomfortable seeing my old self, and I feel like my current self is better. Is there a compromise? Can I keep some of my identity? β
The Lord of Darkness thought for a moment.
"From the perspective of 'The End of the Day' and 'The Emperor of the Eternal Night', there is one. It's good for your strength progress, but I don't think you'll be interested. β
"Please." The girl shrugged.
"It's not about transferring 'the identity that you spend your memories as Wei Yuanhe', but the transfer of 'the identity that you spend your memories as a man'. In this way, you will be closer to your gender identity, and you will not completely lose the memories of the past. And this kind of self-orientation can be corrected back to ...... through psychological suggestion"
The girl smiled.
"Don't give me any rambling, Mr. Palamedes," she said, "what do you think 'gender positioning' is?" ON and OFF switches? No kidding. That's something much more complicated. β
The Lord of Darkness was dumbfounded.
"Biological sex. What kind of gender do you want others to see as you? Which gender do you like. How do you think society views a certain gender...... "The girl said slowly, "In my hometown, there is a heated debate about whether gender is innate or acquired. And I, although I don't want to make an assertion, but in my current situation, being a woman is also ...... I mean, not to my advantage. β
It's just a girl, just this kind of thing...... It's not entirely unacceptable now.
"It suddenly occurred to me that the Bald Plane Traveler had miscalculated," said the Lord of Darkness, "and you have the guts to correct your own existence. β
"I've been physiologically locked as female by damn bald people since I crossed over, and I have to be female even to be an animal doppelganger," the girl complained, "and I don't want to suffer from philistine stereotypesβI'd rather they simply see me as a woman, after all, fighting with them is a waste of time." On the other hand, in Wei Yuanhe's twenty years of life, he has never liked anyone. β
"Really?" The Lord of Darkness asked suddenly.
"Maybe there were," the girl whispered, "and she was ...... But I gave up on my own. I...... Didn't care about ...... at the time"
A moment of silence.
"So be it," said the girl, "can you make the category harsher and transfer to the eternal blood the identification that the memory of the time when I was in my hometown, that is, when I expected others to see me as a complete male?" β
At least after the crossing, he wanted to prevent others from recognizing his former male identity.
Since it can't be changed...... Casting this spell is just to speed up the process of psychological gender transformation that you have already started.
"It's worth trying," the Black Lord nodded, "and the transfer can simply reduce the connection between the two concepts to a minimum, so that you also have a chance to regain your identity." Of course, it is more likely that Wei Yuanhe himself is divided into two. Like Peter? Cliff was split into the righteous 'Last Day' and the evil 'Emperor of the Eternal Night'......"
"Most people in the world see justice and evil, after all, there are a hundred standards of justice given by moral philosophy."
"Yes. The same goes for you, the 'eternal blood' of men and the 'light of the world' of women...... You will be a woman through and through, and you and the Eternal Blood will be truly different individuals from now on. No problem? β
"Of course," said the girl, "the one who is dominated by the present memory and the one who can objectively look at the memory of the past is the one who is the one who is the one who is the one who can look at the memories of the past objectively. That's natural...... It's me. And once the Eternal Blood regains its memory, we can draw him to our side and rebel against Speaker Nicholas. β
"Too bold," the Black Lord shook his head, "the first transfer may not be successful." β
"Do you need me to get the 'Eternal Blood' here?" The girl asked.
"Yes," said the Black Lord, "the final step of the concept transfer requires his own presence, and if he can agree, the success rate of the transfer will be greatly increased." Before I do that, I'm going to do a little bit of processing of your notion and weaken your temporal memory identity of 'expecting others to see you as fully male'. β
"Now?"
"Now. You couldn't agree more, you proposed the plan, and I'm just an arcane booster. Well, in fact, you can do it with your own long-term psychological cues. β
"For how long? Are there any temporary side effects? β
"It only takes a few minutes. There will be no significant side effects. In fact, you won't feel anything at first. If we don't tie up the 'eternal blood' for the next steps, you may not feel anything for the rest of your life. Of course, there is also a certain possibility that you will gradually feel the change. The change happens in a few days, months, years, and you feel like your memories of your past are gradually becoming alienated. β
"I'm sorry......" the girl muttered.
"What?"
"I mean, if only it could help me," the girl yawned, "though I think I'm a guy who doesn't fall in love with anyone else, regardless of gender......"
"But?"
ββ¦β¦ As long as I become a complete woman, I will have less psychological pressure. β
"What kind of logic is this?" No matter how deep the Black Lord City Mansion is, he can't help but complain.
"No, no, no. It's not that simple! For the boys who pursued me...... Hmmm......"
The girl put her finger on her chin and looked thoughtful.
"At least, I will no longer feel that I have deceived him with the guise of a woman," the girl smiled like a little devil and began to think of a plan to trick Dimi, "Now that I have made up my mind to become a pure woman, I can put obstacles in his pursuit in the open." Want to impress me? Willingness to sacrifice my life for me is a prerequisite. When he's done with all the calamities, maybe I'll think about it a little. β
"Alright, now let's get to work." The Lord of the Black said.
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Right now.
The girl slowly sank into the depths of the sea of clouds.
I see. This is the sea of clouds......
As if returning to her mother's arms, the girl felt a sense of physical and mental comfort. She felt close to the essence of the sea of clouds. For the first time, when the three powers of God, Mystery, and Secret were used at the same time, the girl had a similar feeling.
Just live on your own.
My own strength will go to the next level.
It's just that......
That's right. There is only one thing that I can't let go.
I think I'm really a crow's mouth......
Really, I don't hesitate to sacrifice my life for myself. Really, it should be said that it was unexpected...... Is it?
No. I should have known it for a long time......
You have to think about it. Next, what kind of "test" are you going to prepare for Dimi......
Thinking like this, the girl slowly lost consciousness.