Chapter 42: You are also living in the kindest way possible
Fan Lu, who learned of the origin of the Shenye clan, couldn't come back to his senses for a long time, because he couldn't imagine that the girl in the same class as himself had suffered these inhumane pains when she was a child.
"Then why commit suicide, why cannibalism!?"
After calming down a little, Fan Lu realized that there were still many doubts that Shenli had not explained.
"Do you really like my sister compared to that? If you really love her, then you will slowly understand this, if you don't really love her, then what is the difference between you and those brutes who are attracted by her appearance and cruel to her! The Kamiye clan is not the kind of doll that is destined to be played with and thrown away from birth! ”
"I..."
Shenli's unceremonious words made Fan Lu not know how to answer, it is true that although Fan Lu has a good impression of Shenye, this goodwill comes more from Shenye's appearance and the need for strategy.
"I'm sorry."
"There is no point in being sorry, and those who turn their backs are destined to be punished! You are not worthy of the Shenye Clan! ”
Throwing down the fierce words, the magic seal of Shenli's hands was outstanding, and in an instant, the magic array in the office was activated.
"Young Master, be careful!"
Reem, who stepped forward, protected Fan Lu behind him, but the Shenli clan did not attack, but gradually disappeared under the effect of the magic array.
The Shenli clan fled.
Stopping Reim, who was about to pursue, Fan Lu shook her head.
The current Fan Lu has no idea of chasing down the Shenli clan, in order not to repeat the mistakes of the last archive, Fan Lu must prevent this world from degenerating into a meow world, and the key to this is the Shenye clan itself. But after learning about the girl's tragic life experience, Fan Lu no longer knew how to face the girl.
What a deep wound is hidden behind that shy smile on weekdays.
Fan Lu, who learned about the life of the Shenye family, saved the file
[No. 3 archive has been saved]
After looking at the time, Fan Lu called Shen Ye directly.
"Fan Lu? Have you seen your sister? ”
"We met and talked a lot. You're still in school, is there any place you want to go, I can take you there. ”
"Now?"
"Now."
"But it's still in class."
"Forget the class, I want to see you... I, I miss you. ”
There was a long pause on the other end of the line, and finally a shy yes.
When leaving the teahouse, Fan Lu relieved Rem of the summons in advance, and although Rem thought that this would increase Fan Lu's danger, after listening to Fan Lu's explanation, Rem still followed the order.
"Although the Shenye clan doesn't know about the existence of Rem, but how to say that Rem is a girl, since you decided to date the Shenye clan, then it's impossible to bring a second girl to it, besides, the Shenye clan deserves a complete love after going through so much, of course, I've always approached her with a utilitarian attitude, but this time, I hope to accompany her well."
With this idea, Fan Lu came to the school, and the Shenye clan was already waiting for him with a smile at the school gate.
"I skipped class, can you really take me where I want to go?"
"Heaven and earth, listen to the orders of the Shenye clan."
"Good! Let's go to the Comic Con, there is a Comic-Con at the Art Museum right now! ”
"You, why do you like the second dimension so much?"
The Shen Ye clan, who was bouncing and retreating, showed a smile that could only be revealed in front of Fan Lu.
"Because if you are immersed in the second dimension, you can forget the reality, and you don't have to think about those unhappy things! Ouch, keep up, the car is coming! ”
followed and held Shen Ye's hand, looking at her satisfied smile, but behind Fan Lu's reluctant smile was a faint sadness.
Forget the reality... Indeed, this reality is too cruel for you.
As Fan Lu expected, Shen Ye really likes everything about the second dimension, plus she is a coser herself, and her popularity in the circle is also very high, and soon after appearing on the scene, many fans and like-minded fans greeted her, and in the end, the original plan to enjoy the game directly became a live cosplay.
However, after the whole process, Fan Lu could feel that the Shenye clan was really happy.
【Kamiha】
Opinion: 75
After the comic con ended, it was already the beginning of the lights, and Fan Lu proposed a very romantic candlelight dinner, but was rejected by the Shenye clan with a red face. The reason is that it is too expensive and too old-fashioned.
At the request of the Kamiha clan, the planned candlelit dinner was transformed into a bean bun and a Japanese-style bento box that climbed to the top of the park's mountain.
When the Shen Ye clan pulled the corner of Fan Lu's clothes and panted to the top of the small hill, a joy of success made the girl raise her hands high and scream. And this sudden cuteness made Fan Lu laugh directly.
"What's so funny, shouldn't you shout in celebration to break through yourself!"
"Eat bean buns."
Taking the bean bag thrown by Fan Lu, Shen Ye unpacked the package with a satisfied face.
Fan Lu had never been to the top of this small hill. Although the view here is not as wide as that on the top of the Ferris wheel, the stars and lights of most of the city can still be seen at a glance, and with the faint scent of grass in the air, it is also unique.
"I see."
Fan Lu's gaze suddenly dimmed.
"Huh? Know what? ... Could it be that sister, she told you about my shady things? Yes... Don't listen to her nonsense, I'm really not afraid of mice, and it's not that I can't eat mustard... Not... A little bit is acceptable, I just think it's a little choking. ”
In order to prove that he was not a wasabi fear, the somewhat panicked Kamiya took out the only wasabi sushi from the bento and stuffed it into his mouth as if he were facing a great enemy.
"Hmm... You see... Woooooooo
As a result, I naturally choked on tears and flowed out.
Looking at the resolute appearance of the Shenye clan, Fan Lu didn't speak, but just pulled the girl into her arms and hugged her tightly, making the girl a little overwhelmed.
"Eh, why suddenly..."
"I'm so sorry for the Shenye Clan, I couldn't protect you when you needed it most, but please believe me, I will never let the tragedy of that kind of religious sacrifice befall the Shenye Clan again, I swear, I will always protect you!"
"Eh.... Fan Lu.... Ahaha, I don't understand what you're talking about. Uhhaha..."
Although he didn't want to admit it, Shen Ye's lips, who were hugged tightly by Fan Lu, still trembled, and finally tears slowly flowed out.
"It's okay, it's all over. If it's too painful, it's okay not to laugh, and it's okay to cry, because this world is too cruel for the Shenye clan. ”
The terrifying scenes that I didn't want to recall but couldn't dissipate for a long time when I dreamed back at midnight resurfaced in Shenye's mind, making her body tremble constantly, and the only warm body in her arms became her only support, making her subconsciously hug, so that Fan Lu felt a little pain because of the relationship of being hugged.
"Don't be afraid, I've always been there."
"Woo..."
Shen Ye's lips clenched, and he suppressed his cry.
"I'm sorry, Fan Lu. The body of the Shenye clan is already unclean, and the Shenye clan is not worthy of Fan Lu... The Kamiye clan has known for a long time...."
"It's not! I'm not worthy of you! ”
"Uh-huh..."
Shaking his head, Shen Ye left Fan Lu's embrace with tears in his eyes, holding Fan Lu's face with both hands.
"In addition to the ruined body, there are many things that Fan Lu doesn't know about the Shenye Clan, and the ugly side is so ugly that no one can accept it, even Fan Lu will never accept it."
"No, it's not! Even if the Shenye clan feeds on human flesh, even if the Shenye clan becomes a meander, I can accept it! ”
Fan Lu's answer made Shen Ye's face instantly pale, and she stood up sharply while her eyes widened, trying to escape from all this in front of her, but the hand behind her held her tightly.
"Let go of me... Please, let me go, we are not people of the same world... It is impossible to forgive the sins of the Shenye clan. ”
"That's not right!"
He pulled the Shenye clan back and hugged it tightly.
"If you are guilty, some of the sins that the Kamiya clan endured when they were young are enough to pay off these sins... Moreover, the Kamiha clan has not committed any killings because they have to eat human flesh, has they? Kamiha, who has this kind of physique, should be the same as in the anime, eating any human food is very painful, but she still laughs and eats with everyone, doesn't she? Even if he is dominated by his own eating instinct, after he comes to his senses, the Kamiye clan who looks at the corpse in front of him will still be sad, right?!! ”
Scenes of daily life were recalled in Fan Lu's mind, and they became no longer daily.
He finally knew why the Kamiye clan showed that expression when his pupils returned to normal when he was in the morgue, it was an apology to the deceased and a hatred for himself.
He also understood why the Shenye clan ate so little when he ate on weekdays, for a mear-like physique, devouring human food was really the same as chewing wax.
Everything, this girl who knows that she is different from others, and may even become a monster in the eyes of others at any time, still tries her best to live as a human being.
Faintly, Fan Lu thought of Kaneki Ken in "Tokyo Mew Seeds", thought of Kirishima Dongxiang, and thought of the mews in the antique coffee shop who refused to give up their last humanity.
"Don't blame yourself too much, okay, because the Kamiye clan I think is a very good girl, because all along, you have been living in the kindest way, aren't you?"
"Fan Lu... Hmmmm!! Woowoowoo!! ”
Finally, the pain and grievances that had been suppressed turned into tears, making the Kamiye clan cry bitterly, and after more than ten years, she finally met someone who could understand and accept him.