Chapter 18
Tong Yu is one step closer to his goal of revenge. He looked at Yu Shanshan's figure buying water at the door of the theater, and from time to time returned the smile she sent when she turned her head, and this smile had wiped out all the tears just now. He has no guilt or fear, he has the experience of a previous life, and this is not the first time he has happened to Yu Shanshan.
Waking up from his slumber, Tong Yu felt gently pushed, and when he opened his eyes, he accepted Yu Shanshan's continuous questioning. Tong Yu understood her state of mind, and replied very firmly that she would definitely be responsible for her, Tong Yu said: "I love you, so I don't worry about revealing my true nature in front of you; I also know that you love me, so I am also willing to expose all the obscurities in front of you. There's nothing wrong with that, give me enough trust that it's only a matter of time before these things happen. β
"I don't think it's bad, I have my own thoughts. But when the future happens now, there is always an unsettling fear. Yu Shanshan kept her head down, as if she had lost something precious and thought she deserved to be punished.
Tong Yu was a little proud, what he saw in his eyes was Yu Shanshan's remorseful appearance, and what appeared in his impression was that "Yu Shanshan" in his previous life was being whipped by his own spirit, which was the punishment of his soul; Shicai forcibly took away Yu Shanshan's first time, and what Tong Yu thought was a physical injury to "Yu Shanshan" in his previous life. But this is far from enough, Yu Shanshan is burdened with a blood debt related to his life, whether it is "Yu Shanshan" or Yu Shanshan's.
Unconsciously, Tong Yu's deep consciousness actually has the distinction that Yu Shanshan is two different people, but the emptiness of lack of revenge makes him use reason to forcibly match the identities of the two together, whether it is time and space connection, blood, relatives, ......, the rationality of any explanation is not important, what he needs is the result of Yu Shanshan is "Yu Shanshan", and the revenge for Shanshan is also the revenge on "Yu Shanshan".
Everyone is willing to build happiness on the pain of the enemy, and twenty years of torture have made Tong Yu at the moment savor the current pleasure like an artist, but soon he has a better plan. Tong Yu comforted and enlightened her: "Do you love me? β
"Nature." Yu Shanshan replied, and began to pay attention to Tong Yu's eyes, hearing that this could easily see the sincerity in other people's words.
"If something good comes early, isn't it another good thing? Life is too short, we should enjoy the love between us in advance, there is nothing wrong with that, you should praise me for my courage to take the first step. When Tong Yu was talking, he recalled the feeling that he once loved "Yu Shanshan", which could make the tone of his performance fake and real.
Yu Shanshan listened to it and believed it a little. The logic in Tong Yu's words seemed to be correct, and she began to torture her own anxiety and whether she was too emotional. I thought to myself: "Tong Yu and I are in love, why let the first tension add a shadow to our love." No matter what, the first time should always be a little negative, like the first time I performed a dance on stage, and I was so trembling that I couldn't even walk steadily. The first uneasiness should and should not be, but the first time should be more beautiful and worthy of deep recollection in the future. β
Tong Yu's words made Yu Shanshan peel off her previous fears thoroughly, making her feel confused and finally realized, and she saw the happiness and meaning of the "first time" hidden behind her fears. She hugged Tong Yu tightly, and the eyes that looked at each other made her unconsciously send her fragrant lips to the face of her beloved boy. This is also the first time she took the initiative to kiss Tong Yu.
The two were entangled again in bed, and the time quickly came to night. The ancient clock in the living room rang on the hour, Tong Yu and Yu Shanshan just came downstairs, they tidied up their clothes slightly, and then hugged each other and went out.
Tong Yu was thinking about the next revenge action alone while Shanshan was buying water. Yu Shanshan's smile that looks back from time to time is a sign that she is deeply in love.
"She needs her love now, and if she doesn't give it to her, she will definitely be very uncomfortable." Tong Yu thought.
But everyone understands that time is the medicine to heal wounds, and how the failure of a relationship can ruin its life. It's just a revenge for falling out of love, it's naΓ―ve, what Tong Yu thinks is that it is far from being equal to the harm he has suffered, and he wants to think of a more severe method.
He had already had an idea in the conversation with Yu Shanshan before, but he was in conflict with the law, and he had to hesitate how to be perfect, after all, he had no experience in committing crimes. Tong Yu thought of a very strange word - learning, he began to find that his knowledge was lacking, and it really seemed that he was useless except for playing games. Without knowledge, without skills, there is no means, even if they are not very bright. People who do great things more or less have their own wisdom.
Tong Yu asked himself, "What do I have?" Instinctive flair for play? What can this be, the game is nothing more than a combination of countless rules listed by others, and if you play well, you can do great things at will with your talent alone, without thinking about your brain. Tong Yu realized that this should also be the root of his failure to realize the importance of learning in his previous life, and it seemed that it did not take too much effort to do a good job, and he then thought: "Because I don't think, the definition of the meaning of knowledge is quite vague, and I can't appreciate the usefulness of knowledge and the benefits it brings." The feeling of 'hating less when the book is used' turned out to be so real...... In his previous life, he performed well in the game, but when he returned to reality, everything became a mess, probably related to his own wisdom and knowledge. β
Tong Yu let out a sigh: "After all, this world is real and not virtual. β
Yu Shanshan saw the name of the movie, "A Journey to a Different World", and replied thoughtfully: "Some scholars are questioning the reality of the world, and in the eyes of another world, we will become virtual." β
"Real or unreal? It doesn't matter to me, I live in a world with you, and I just need to live well in a world with you, that's who I am. Tong Yu actually thinks of hatred, he comes from another world, whether the current world is true or false is unknown, but revenge is what he must do, and the pleasure after revenge is also real.
Yu Shanshan thought that Tong Yu was saying some nice love words again, holding his hand, and leaning on his shoulder shyly, for her, Tong Yu is her standard for judging the authenticity of the world, and it is the totem she needs to live well.