After playing games with Andy for a while, he told me about his favorite, but already broken up, his girlfriend from college.

They were classmates, and during the four years of college, they were together almost every day, going to the cafeteria together, going to class together, and sometimes sleeping together. Andy said that they were almost married, like old husbands and wives, but they didn't get a license.

But after graduating from college, they broke up because his girlfriend was admitted to graduate school, while Andy has been struggling to find a job with a stable income and is often unemployed.

After that, Andy's college girlfriend found another department manager, and now he is about to get married.

Andy also told me with great nostalgia that when he was in college, he often went to Internet cafes to play games, but his girlfriend didn't blame him very much and was very tolerant of him. Although his girlfriend doesn't like to play games herself, sometimes, she will stay with him and watch him play.

Andy said that once he spent the whole day in an internet café and his girlfriend sat behind him and stayed with him all day, Andy said he felt guilty afterwards and felt so sorry for his girlfriend.

Andy said that he was so fascinated by the game that he forgot about his girlfriend's existence, and he didn't hear his girlfriend speak for a long time, and thought she was gone.

When Andy finished the game, he suddenly remembered that he had his girlfriend by his side, and he looked back, but his girlfriend was behind him, lying on the back of the chair and falling asleep.

Andy said that in fact, his girlfriend used to love him very much, and it was only because of practical reasons that she had to break up with him, because his girlfriend said that she had to find someone with a stable job and income to be her husband (I agree, at least this is a responsible choice for future generations).

Andy also told me that the most difficult period for him to find a job was when he was in Wuhan. At that time, it was because he met a girl from Wuhan on the Internet, and Andy followed her.

At first, Andy found a job selling computers in the computer city in the girl's city, but then there was an accident, and the computer sold by his hand undercharged a sum of money, so he owed a lot of debt and lost his job.

After that, the Wuhan girl kicked him out of the house they lived in.

When he was first kicked out, Andy still wanted to try his best to save his relationship with the Wuhan girl, so he rented a house next to the girl's residence, but then he really had no money to pay the rent, so Andy slept under the city overpass every night like a beggar, waiting for the girl to change her mind.

It wasn't until the weather turned cooler and colder, and he slept under the overpass at night, which was too cold to bear, that Andy asked his parents for help and begged for travel expenses, and finally went back to his own city, Hefei.

According to Andy himself, he couldn't find a job that suited him when he got home. I analyzed that maybe it was because he went to a second- or third-rate university, or maybe he was too picky, or because he studied law in college.

Andy said that his father was a worker in a bus factory (anyway, it is a very famous bus factory in China, I don't remember the name of the factory), but because of his age, he no longer works on the front line, and now he is on night duty to guard the warehouse.

So, imagine a person who doesn't have any political or officialdom family background, graduated from a little-known university with a law major, and it is indeed difficult to find a job in the corresponding major, and it is likely that Andy did not get a lawyer's license (I can't ask, guess).

Andy doesn't seem to love his college majors, and the topics he talks to me the most are related to games.

I almost never heard Andy talk about what he majored in college, and when I asked him, he said he was studying law.

So after returning home, Andy, because he loves to play games, found a job working in an Internet café owned by a friend, doing things like game leveling and playing game currency, and also served as a cook in a friend's Internet café, responsible for buying vegetables and cooking for the people who work in this Internet café - so it seems that he doesn't need to go to college for four years, isn't that a waste of time and tuition?

However, for Andy, the most worthwhile four years of college, and his biggest gain, should be the ex-girlfriend he met and talked about for four years.

Andy told me that he works in an Internet café and spends most of his time playing "Fantasy Journey to the West", but in fact, his friend's Internet café is a part-time studio that plays game currency, and he has invited a number of young workers who play game currency.

Andy said proudly that buying vegetables and cooking can take advantage of the benefits, you can taste the delicious food first, and it is very uncomfortable to sit and play game currency all day.

Even in such a turbulent and difficult working and living environment, Andy has his own lofty ideals.

Andy has told me more than once that a certain game idea in a certain country has sold tens of millions of dollars! So he likes to play games and has played games, so he said that he wants to experience every new game, learn from it, and come up with a game idea to sell a lot of money in the future.

At that time, when I heard Andy say this, I felt that his grand blueprint was too big, too empty, and it was close to my foolish dream of wanting to be a pianist, so I really sweated for him.

It's 2005, and it's still very rare for a game idea to sell for tens of millions - I thought so suspiciously.

But I held back myself, and didn't dare to ask Andy the question of interlacing like a mountain, for fear of dampening his self-esteem and pride, which had obviously been severely overdrawn by reality since he graduated and walked out of college.

Andy himself, on his own, said for me what I wanted to ask him, "Do you think it's unlikely?" ”

I was speechless, and Andy, who was asking himself, went on to say - it seemed that he was answering for me, but it was really to appease his own frustration in reality, so he was disappointed, "Tell you, it's not impossible! ”

Seeing such a sworn and bluffing Andy, I think he is much more unrealistic than me, and he is simply a dreamer.

I think it's because Andy lost his girlfriend twice in real life, that's why he said in the game that he was looking for MM. Probably lost in reality, and wanted to seek comfort in the virtual.

Then one night, Andy came to the TeamSpeak voice platform, asked me to go to a sub-channel where no one else was, and started to talk to me on a large scale, first of all, he said, "I drank a lot today. ”

Then, to my surprise, Andy suddenly burst into tears and sobbed that he had gone to his girlfriend's (ex-girlfriend's) wedding today and had given a hundred dollars as a gift money.

I guess that the one Andy said he got married should be the ex-girlfriend of his college classmate and friend for four years, and I only seem to have heard Andy call her a girlfriend.

Andy said that when her ex-girlfriend saw that he had wrapped up the gift money, she said to him: "As long as you are willing to come to my wedding, I am already very satisfied, and you don't need to give red envelopes." ”

I guess Andy's ex-girlfriend also knows how embarrassed he is.

Andy continued to say with a crying voice and a stomach full of vinegar that he finally saw her groom, the department manager, who was really not good-looking, looked old and ugly, didn't he just have a few bucks?

Andy said that he was "girlfriend" (Andy is still stubbornly and unrealistically calling his ex-girlfriend at the moment), and a few days ago, he went downstairs to his house to call him, and came to send him an invitation, telling him that she was married, and it was up to him whether to go to her wedding, but she said that she still wanted him to go.

Andy said sadly that he had tears in his eyes when he saw his "girlfriend" say this. Andy said how could he not attend himself? So he said to his ex-girlfriend, "Go, I will definitely go." ”

Andy, who poured bitter water on me, couldn't stop crying when he said this.

But after a while, Andy relented a little, and still couldn't let go, and continued to praise his ex-girlfriend, who had married someone else's wife.

Andy reminisced to me about his ex-girlfriend's excellence one by one, as if he wanted to remind him: "I can't forget it for the rest of my life!" ”

"My girlfriend was very beautiful, and she was considered a school flower in our school at the time, and many boys chased her, but she didn't like her, and somehow she fell in love with me.

At first, I just thought I was joking with her, but I didn't expect that later, we really fell in love and loved each other for four years.

Four years! They lived together almost like a husband and wife for four years.

And now, it's like we're divorced, and then she's remarried......"

……

Later, when Andy played games with me, there was a phrase that often came to his lips, he always liked to say that he was a twenty-six-year-old body and a sixty-two-year-old heart.

The double pressure of unemployment and broken love has left Andy physically and mentally exhausted, and although he still has great ambitions, Andy will often sigh about the uncertain future and slim future of his own life.

In fact, at that time, in our MARS Legion, it was difficult for Andy to find a suitable job after graduating from college, and maybe Andy was not alone.