“…… She came silently to the birch forest / Watching and watching there every day / She said he was just lost in the distance / He will definitely come, come to this birch forest ......"

I hummed softly to myself again, the song I had just sung to my comrades in the MARS Legion, and when I sang these words, my tear ducts suddenly surged, blurring my vision.

Suddenly, my thoughts filled with emotion, the head of the regiment, Mars Kakaneghi, had left us to see his so-called grandmother for a long time, and it seemed that he would not return, as if he had died in battle.

And Xiaoyu (Mars silent drizzle) is still fighting strong in this "PlanetSide" world, carefully guarding the foundation created and laid by the head of the regiment Mars Kakanegi - the MARS Elite Alliance Legion.

Perhaps, Xiaoyu is waiting hard every day, looking forward to the early return of our regimental leader.

After the national service was closed, I once saw someone nostalgically uploading a short video of the "PlanetSide" game taken by the former MARS Legion, with the regiment commander and Xiaoyu as the male and female protagonists. I was surprised that there was a dialogue in the short film, and that the plot at the end was the same as what happened later.

It seems that there has already been an arrangement in the dark, otherwise it is the deliberate hint of the head of the regiment himself, who deliberately recorded the reality that he and Xiaoyu had to be separated and parted with a short video of the game, so that it can be missed in the future.

The final ending plot of this video clip is the same as what happened later in the MARS Legion, and the regiment commander Mars Kakanegi said goodbye to Xiaoyu and left!

In the video screen, it is the back of the head of the regiment who is gradually moving away, and behind him is the character "Xiaoyu" standing on the seashore of the "Fusaila" planet, watching the head of the regiment in the distance.

At this moment, the sweet voice of the character "Xiaoyu" in the play, voiced by Xiaoyu (Mars Silent Drizzle) herself, accompanied by a line of dialogue subtitles that appeared in the video, once again poked my tear ducts.

"I'll wait for you...... Definitely coming back......"

But outside the video, Mars Kakaneghi, who is the head of our MARS Elite Alliance Legion, still did not send any silent drizzle to Mars, who is the political commissar of our legion, after he left.

I thought about it again, "White Birch Forest" is not a song that touched my heart, otherwise I wouldn't have listened to the single song on a loop at the same time during the game for many days.

For me, Mars Interstellar, my former close comrade-in-arms and lover, is not the same as dying on this battlefield of "PlanetSide", and I can't go back to the first happy time when I met, knew and fell in love with Mars Interstellar.

After playing the Clan Championship on the night of the game, I just went to bed, and I haven't been on the phone for a long timeMars Interstellar, so I unexpectedly called suddenly, the first thing to say is that he regrets today's game and other foreshadowing topics, and the main meaning of the latter is that he hopes to reconcile with me as before, and finally he didn't forget to praise me, praising me for singing very well today, completely beyond his expectations.

But I've long since stopped talking.

Calm, I chatted with him for a while in the same tone as I did with an old comrade-in-arms, and did not agree to any of his requests, because I had already decided to give up a tree and embrace the whole deep forest, and I wanted to love every comrade-in-arms I met in "PlanetSide" with fraternity.

This call from Mars Interstellar was not the last communication between me and him.

After another period of time, the autumn when I first met Mars was long ago left behind by the New Year, and the arrival of the late spring and early summer of the new year completely forgot the harsh winter when the old and the new alternated.

One day at noon, Mars called me again out of the blue, saying that his mother had passed away and had just been buried after a memorial service in the morning.

When I heard the phone, I was stunned at first, and then my heart ached for some reason, and my nose was sore, and tears came down. Somehow, I suddenly remembered the love that I had forgotten for a long time, and the bits and pieces I had with Mars Interstellar.

I know that what I am sad about is not the death of someone else's mother, but the love that I once died.

Mars, who didn't get a word of me reply, but only heard me sobbing, maybe he was mistaken, he breathed a sigh of relief and said, "What are you crying about? I didn't even cry! Not once. I don't know why, but I felt relieved. Now, my dad has moved back and is back to live with me. ”

Mars's interstellar words seemed to reveal a hint of happiness. Perhaps he said what he really thought in his heart, because there is a saying: "There is no filial son in front of the bed of a long illness." ”

From the words, it can be heard that Mars Interstellar at this time has a sense of relief.

Whether I responded to him or not, Mars continued to say to me, in a tone that was quite comfortable and comfortable with the good life, "You are welcome to come to my house in the future." ”

I was amazed that he could say such a thing without forgetting what had happened before.

Have I really "played" with him? Play means happiness, have I ever been happy in his house?

So, I cleaned up the mood I had accidentally touched before, and replied to him seriously, "No, I won't go again." Goodbye, I'm hanging. ”

"One cannot step into the same river twice," said the ancient Greek philosopher. Everything in the universe is in constant motion and change, and nothing can go back to the past time and space.

In fact, I can't be sure whether I really loved, a specific person called "Mars Interstellar", even if I really loved, then I should have experienced the "butterfly incident", and when he followed Miss Train without hesitation, he decisively stopped abruptly, and should not have allowed mirage-like love to continue to spread and breed, and then finally experienced the "Qingqing Incident", the tragic and so-called love climax curtain call.

Perhaps it was providence that I met PlanetSide, an online game set in the future story in the fall of 2004, so as to go to a virtual time and space to create a covenant of love, as a tribute to the person who is accepting the fate of love in the real world.

That's right, Mars is like a sadomasochistic messenger sent to me by heaven to make me suffer a heart-wrenching pain from which I am destined to be inescapable.

The final self-summary made me understand that I was just in love with a game symbol called "Mars Interstellar" in the providence of God, and a time that was defined as happy and happy by my narrow subjectivity, a product of the times produced by human civilization - online games, and the dust fragments of the "galaxy network explosion" derived from it, such dust fragments are scattered in the universe, and there are countless dust fragments.

Except for myself, a fragment of dust, who will look back from time to time to see through, the so-called self covered in bruises, who else cares? Just like me, I don't care about the feeling of the person I once loved, the dust fragment of the symbol "Mars", to be precise.