Chen Hao:

I believe that you have seen this letter at this time, and I originally wanted to leave without leaving anything, but I still couldn't do it, I never thought that I, who had countless blood stained on my hands, would have such a day of struggle and entanglement.

From the moment I actually wrote your name, many of our shared memories began to come back to my mind, and it turned out that I was also a sentimental person.

For the past six months, I have been thinking about how to explain this matter to you and how to say goodbye to you.

Chen Hao, I'm sorry.

From the beginning, your relationship with me was a lie.

I'm not actually your cousin, I forged my cousin's identity just to get close to you.

I am the injured woman you saved at the mouth of the alley that day, if it weren't for you, I would have died, you are my savior.

The reason why I left in a hurry on the day you saved me was because I had important things to do, and I didn't want my enemy at the time to find you, which would affect you.

Although it has been so long, I still want to explain to you here that I am a person who never explains, and I don't care what others think of me.

However, I care about what you think and what you think, and that's important to me.

Chen Hao, do you know?

Before I met you, my world was too complicated, full of blood and blood, and human life was as thin as mustard.

Where is tomorrow? I don't know.

Will you be alive tomorrow? I don't know.

In that world, if you want to live, you can't expose your weakness, you have to learn to hide, learn to disguise, learn to be cruel.

The most important thing is to learn to ignore life, not just the lives of others, but your own.

I lived like a murderous tool for twenty-three years, and my world was pale until I met you, and as you said when you first met me, this woman was as cold as a block of ice.

Because tools don't need emotion.

I always thought I was going to die in that pale world, and that's my fate.

But after meeting you, I realized that there is another way to live in this world, and it turns out that there can be other colors besides black and red.

You once asked me, if Xu Xian hadn't saved Bai Suzhen, would Bai Suzhen still fall in love with Xu Xian?

I think it will still be, and the world is not only perfect and outstanding to be attractive, simple and ordinary can also be.

Because the ordinary and simple can make people feel at ease.

During this time with you, I am really at ease and happy.

I never thought I'd live this life.

Get up early in the morning to make breakfast for a man, and then the two of them squeeze the bus to go to work together, doing a normal job, coming back from work to buy vegetables and cook, and someone to say goodnight to you before going to bed.

I didn't get tired of this ordinary and ordinary life, but enjoyed it.

You know, half of the reason I approached you at first was because I was curious about you as a person, and the other half because I wanted to repay you for saving your life.

I was going to stay with you for a few days, and when I got tired of it, I would just find a time to leave you a sum of money and leave, and if you encounter unsolvable troubles in your life, I will also help you solve them.

After all, I owe you my life.

But I didn't expect that I would stay in your house for months, and even I would be stuck in it.

I am truly grateful that God was able to give me such a happy time, and I dare not ask for more.

It turns out that a person like me, whose hands are covered in blood, can also be blessed in this way.

Originally, I was also lucky, thinking that I could live happily with you for the rest of my life, grow old together, and grow old together.

But those people still won't let me go, they've found out here, I have to deal with these troubles, I can't bother you.

Seriously, being able to spend all these wonderful times with you, even if I die tomorrow, my life will be worth it.

Chen Hao, I really like you, not only the feeling of being with you, but also the person you are.

Love your shyness when you peek at me on the bus, through the reflection of the glass window.

I like the stubbornness with which you eat the dishes that I have obviously cooked.

I love how much you care when you rush downstairs to find me after work.

Love your concentration as you stand under the streetlights waiting for me.

And the tenderness in your eyes when you look at me.

I know that under the big grinning appearance, you are actually a person with very delicate feelings, and you are at a loss when dealing with feelings, in fact, because of the kindness and seriousness in your heart, you are afraid that your actions will offend others and hurt others, and you value other people's feelings more than your own feelings.

I know that people can only become cautious in front of their loved ones, and that sincere feelings become more and more precious.

Everything you do, I see it in my eyes, I remember it in my heart, I can feel your heart.

As I hugged you, I could feel your pounding heart.

As I kiss you, I can feel your body temperature and your lips trembling slightly from nervousness.

It turns out that this is what it feels like to be loved.

It turns out that being loved by someone is so happy.

Thank you for all this I have ever experienced in my life.

It is the luckiest thing in my life to meet you.

These words have been hidden in my heart for a long time, and today I finally said them.

I don't know when I'll be able to come back, or if I'll be able to come back.

But believe me, as long as I'm alive, I'll be back.

Because of you, I have never loved life and loved life as much as I do now.

I will definitely do everything I can to come back alive.

So please be sure to wait for me.

Although this time, I don't know how long it will take, it may be half a month, or it may be a year and a half.

No matter how long it takes, you have to wait for me.

You promised me that if I disappeared, you would turn the world over and find me back.

I don't need you to go all over the world to find me, and you can't find me.

I just hope that you can live well during my absence, remember to eat on time, smoke less, and don't let me come back and see you lose weight.

Also, please help me take care of my cat Snowball.

When I'm done, we'll get married.

If you can still accept me again.

The last payment: Love your Hu Xue.