On a certain day of the month, the weather was clear.

Today I am ready to speak my heart to her. It's been three years, and it's time to end this long-distance love run. I still remember that her parents turned me away because I had no name and no money, but now I have become famous and have become a man worthy of her.

On a certain day of the month, there were no clouds.

Today's surgery, I failed. It's that I'm too conceited, too overestimating myself. I did everything I could to stabilize the patient's life, and in the end, although I saved the patient, I also left the patient with a lifelong disability. The patient's parents didn't blame me, they said I had done my best. No, it's my fault. I should be a little more cautious and take into account any situation that may arise during the surgery, and I have to do my best. It's not enough to save a patient's life, I have to make it possible for the patient to get back to health. I am not qualified to be an expert doctor.

On a certain day of the month, it was cloudy.

Vice President Zhang said, "I am a famous doctor in the neurology department of the hospital, and I can't apologize to patients in front of them. "If you tell them it's your fault, they'll misinterpret it as our mistake and make it the hospital's fault. When the media and relevant institutions come to ask for an explanation, we can't afford to take that risk. No, I won't allow you to admit your mistakes. ”

I told my girlfriend Natsuri about it, and she told me that I couldn't submit to power. "However, it's really not your fault. I also participated in this surgery and understood how difficult and risky it was. If it were me, I would not have been able to pull back the patient's life in that situation. Although the patient is disabled for life, you have at least saved his life. So, Du Ming, don't blame yourself. We also have to do different types of surgeries with different levels of difficulty, and once you feel guilty, you may make mistakes during the operation and cause the operation to fail. You need to remember your failures and correct them, not dwell on them. We are doctors, not gods, and what we do is do everything we can to save lives rather than decide whether to stay or go. ”

Eventually, news about my surgery was lost in time.

On a certain day of the month, the sky was fine.

The young man said to me that it was thanks to me that he was able to live in the sun as he is now. Due to brain damage, his lower limbs have been completely paralyzed, and his left and right arms have become ornaments and cannot move independently. I took him in a wheelchair to the garden and showed him the flowers and plants at his request. When he looked at the birds flying in the sky, the young man laughed and wept.

I want him to tell me honestly if he hates me or not. The young man put away his smile and closed his eyes to think, then opened his eyes and smiled and said to me: "To tell you the truth, when I learned that I could no longer lift things and walk on the earth, I only hated you, big brother. However, I saw the body of a good friend in the hospital. A month ago, there were friends who talked and laughed, but now one can only sit in a wheelchair, and the other is lying in a coffin and can no longer speak, I don't know if it is the trial of the gods or the arrangement of fate. If this is providential, it is a bit cruel. Thinking about it on the other hand, maybe this is an impermanent life. ”

The lad stopped talking. I looked at the back of this twenty-four-year-old young man, and my heart overflowed with sadness, and tears could not stop falling.

On a certain day of the month, it rained.

When I talked and laughed with Xia Li, I saw the young man sitting on the bed looking out at the dripping rain.

Sensing that my gaze was off, Xia Li immediately understood what I was thinking. She dragged me into the room and asked me to come with me to the young man's bedside.

"Wang Liang, are you watching the rain, have you eaten lunch?" Xia Li said politely to the young man and poked me with her elbow.

"Ouch. Ah, Wang Liang, where are your parents?"

The young man was stared at and his face gloomy and did not answer our question.

"What's the matter, Wang Liang, in a bad mood?" Xia Li sat on the young man's hospital bed and said to the young man, "If you are in a bad mood, say it." Trust me, say it and you'll feel a lot better. ”

"Doctor Xia Li, you say, does there exist an afterlife in this world?"

My heart chilled: Why did Wang Liang ask this question, could it be that he couldn't think about it?

"Do you think there is?" Xia Li asked rhetorically.

The young man did not speak, still looking out the window at the drizzling rain.

"Would you like to have one?" Xia Li continued.

"I don't know. But if there is an afterlife in this world, I want it to be a beautiful place. There is no pain, no sorrow, no need to be distressed by not being able to move, no need to be sad about being physically disabled. I hope that everyone will be happy and happy in the world after death. ”

"So, what if there is no afterlife in this world?" Xia Li asked.

The young man turned his gaze to Xia Li and said with a wry smile: "This is too cruel, even more cruel than reality." ”

Xia Li also looked at the rain outside the window, and then reached out to hold the young man's hand. Now the young man's arm can't feel the temperature of Xia Li's palm. Occasionally I would empathize with what a terrible thing it would be if I were a lad but I couldn't feel my lover's temperature.

"Sometimes I wonder if I can get rid of this useless body if this life is gone. ”

Hearing this, I was so frightened that I immediately walked to Wang Liang's side and tried to advise him that he must not think like this.

"Yes. Xia Li actually said something like this, "Life is gone, brain death, and the body's functions stop functioning, which is equivalent to you getting rid of this body." ”

Not only me, but even Wang Liang was stunned by Xia Li's words.

"But," Xia Li said after leaning over to Wang Liang and kissing him, "this body is not useless. Even if you don't have the freedom to move in this life, your body is still much better than those that are cooler. At the very least, you have the warmth to warm other people's bodies and hearts. Xia Li put her hand on Wang Liang's face, and Wang Liang could feel the temperature of Xia Li's palm.

Tears overflowed, Wang Liang felt Xia Li's body temperature, and then turned his gaze to me, as if he was longing for something. I sat down, put my face on Wang Liang's, and said to him, "As long as I have the opportunity, I will definitely cure you." Even if it was going to drain my life, I would not hesitate to do it. ”

On a certain day of the month, the sky was cloudy and windy.

On this day, an emergency patient was taken to our hospital and needed emergency surgery. Time is of the essence, but specialists in neurology and neurosurgery are struggling to handle the operation. It is not just a craniotomy that needs to be done, this operation is difficult and risky, and everyone cannot afford to take this risk. However, if we do not perform emergency surgery, the patient will die.

Vice President Zhang appointed me as the surgeon in charge of this operation. I could tell from his face that he had given up on me as a "famous doctor". Ge Yingming, who is older than me, and Zhang Jian, the son of Vice President Zhang, who is younger than me, are both strong and excellent doctors. I was not qualified to continue to stay in Yixiang No. 1 People's Hospital, and Vice President Zhang probably wanted to take advantage of this opportunity to get me out.

I was at a loss.

Minutes and seconds passed, and preparations for the operation were underway. Cold sweat broke out in my palms, and my body trembled. Nurse Chen came to me and told me that the operation agreement had been signed by the family and that the emergency operation would start immediately.

For me, the surgical agreement is just a blank slate, a blank slate that determines the attribution of responsibility. I'm a doctor, a life-saving doctor, but I'm so incompetent that I have the idea of treating this surgical agreement as a treasure. I'm a scumbag like this.

"Big brother," the young man came to me with the help of his mother, "are you worried about me?" the young man did not say explicitly, but I had already told him what he meant.

Wang Liang smiled and asked me to put my ear over. The young man, who did not deserve to suffer such an ordeal, whispered to me, "Come on, big brother. I believe in your strength, you are better than any doctor. ”

I stood up straight and looked at my brother with a big smile on his face, mixed feelings.

"Big brother, you don't have to worry about me. You won't fail. When the surgery is done, I will wait for you to walk around the garden with my big sister. ”

I, what a shameful person. The doctor who gives up the patient's life is not even as good as an ant.

On a certain day of the month, the weather was sunny and the air was fresh.

After emergency surgery, the patient's life was stabilized. In time, he will slowly recover his health.

In the garden, I squatted down to thank Wang Liang. The young man blushed and said embarrassedly: "It's not my credit, it's your superior strength, big brother." ”

When I heard the words "superior strength", I was worried for a while. The understanding young man noticed the change in my expression and said to me, "Big brother, I told you a long time ago that my business is not your fault. This is the will of God, and the will of God cannot be disobeyed. What's more, although I am now unable to move and live a difficult life, with you and Sister Xia Li, as well as my parents here, I have the motivation to continue to live. However, the graduate school entrance examination is really a bit difficult, haha. ”

Seeing my sad face, the young man said to me again, "Big brother, please don't feel guilty. I've forgiven you a long time ago. If you are really unbalanced, then please come and stay with me when you have time. To tell you the truth, my parents are busy with work and have been heartbroken in order to increase their income, and now they have to help me pay for medical expenses, hospitalization fees and other expenses, which is a heavy burden. I don't want to drag them down and ask them to stay with me. However, it is still very lonely to be alone. ”

"Aren't we here?" said Natsuri ran to the young man's side and put a flower in her hair.

"Hey, Xia Li, you can't pick flowers and trees. ”

Xia Li pursed her lips and said to me, "Du Ming, you are really rigid. I didn't pull the flowers uprooted, and I was very careful when picking them. ”

"But aren't you hurting an innocent life by doing this?"

Hearing my words, both the young man and Xia Li burst out laughing.

"Big brother, you are so kind. The young man said to me.

"yes, how can the person I fancy be a general. Du Ming has a kind heart, and that's what attracted me to him. ”

Xia Li's words seemed to touch my acupuncture point, making me unable to move.

"But," said Natsuri, poking her finger into my nose, "it's just too rigid." ”

"Natsuri ......"

The two laughed again.

"Du Ming, I see. The flowers have been picked and there is no way to go back. I promise you that I will not pick flowers from the flower bed again. ”

In the middle of the night on a certain day in a certain month.

When I received a call from the hospital, I rushed to the conference room.

"Wang Liang, 24 years old, non-local hukou, studying ......for graduate studies at a local university," said the director of the neurology department and the director of neurosurgery, standing on the podium together, saying the young man's message.

"How's he doing?" was the only question that came to my mind as I hurried there.

Vice President Zhang turned his head to look at me and said to me unhurriedly: "The patient's condition is not very serious, don't be in a hurry, you are out of proportion." ”

Sitting next to Ge Yingming in the same department, I asked him about Wang Liang's situation.

"I heard that the patient fell off the bed in the middle of the night and hit his head on the edge of the bed, causing the old illness to recur. Ge Yingming looked ahead and said to me.

"Shouldn't we operate on him right now?"

Ge Yingming looked at me, sneered, and said, "We have done a preliminary examination, and the patient's condition is not very serious. Now the director is discussing how to perform the surgery, and after the discussion, we will perform the operation. ”

"When you discuss it, the daylilies are cold!" I stood up and yelled, I realized that I was out of shape, but when I thought that Wang Liang would be critically ill, I couldn't sit idly by and let it go without wasting time here.

"What a quarrel, a meeting. Vice President Zhang turned his head and said to me expressionlessly.

"Vice Dean, please let me perform this operation. ”

Vice President Zhang pointed to the screen and said, "The surgical discussion has not yet been resolved, and I will arrange the surgical staff when the results are available." ”

However, Wang Liang's specific situation is unknown, and his condition cannot be delayed any longer. ”

"Du Ming!" Vice President Zhang stood up and glared at me and shouted, "You think the hospital is your home, you can do whatever you want?" Let me tell you, we will use newly introduced technology and medical equipment in this operation, and the operation will be foolproof. The surgeon in charge of the operation confirmed that it was Zhang Jian, and when the specific plan was discussed, we proceeded with the operation. If you're bored, get me out!"

Vice President Zhang has always been like this, and whenever the hospital introduces new technology and equipment, Zhang Jian will preside over the operation. Although Zhang Jian's strength should not be underestimated, as a doctor, he also has considerable ability to do a good job, but he still has a bit of a hard time performing this operation. It's not that my mother-in-law sells melons and boasts, but I know the difficulty and risk of this operation as the chief surgeon who has operated on Wang Liang, even with the latest technology and equipment, if the surgeon can't do it step by step during the operation, the patient may die on the spot at any time.

During the discussion, I checked the information on new technologies and equipment, and found that although these things can improve the success rate of the operation, it is still not possible to ensure Wang Liang's life in the second operation without relying on the doctor's personal ability and skills.

The discussion of the surgery was finally over, and preparations for the surgery were imminent. My persuasion was fruitless, and Vice President Zhang still asked Zhang Jian to be the chief surgeon. After much pleading, Vice President Zhang agreed to let me be the assistant doctor for this operation, that is, Surgeon No. 3. The second surgeon was Ge Yingming.

On a certain day of the month, the sky was cloudy.

I went to Wang Liang's hospital room to check on him. He is in good condition, his blood pressure and heart rate are normal.

"Thank you, Dr. Du, thank you, Dr. Du......" I dare not take the thanks of Wang Liang's parents.

"Thank you to the doctor for rejuvenating and saving our son from the ghost gate. The doctors at Yixiang Hospital were highly capable and skilled, and they not only saved my son, but also cured his paralysis. You see, he can now walk on his feet and move his hands......"

"Big brother, thank you for giving me hope and giving me a second life. ”

In the praise of the young man and his parents, I could only laugh and say what happened during the operation.

Judging by the results, the operation was a success. Judging from the process, Wang Liang should have died.

The operation performed for Wang Liang by Zhang Jian was carried out smoothly in the early stage. Although Zhang Jian is Vice President Zhang's biological son, he never shows off everywhere in this capacity. Father and son, one is the vice president and the other is a doctor in the neurology department, working in the same hospital, it is inevitable that people will gossip. Zhang Jian did not rely on this identity, but relied on his own strength to be recognized by everyone again and again. I once asked him, and I turned around and asked him about him every time he had a new technology and equipment. "Does it matter?" said the big boy with a slight smile, "and the most important thing is that we can save patients, don't we? If you think my dad did this to get me to improve my skills—that's probably true." However, I want to progress, keep improving and save more people. For that reason, I don't care what people think of me in this matter. ”

The operation was supposed to be completed smoothly, but Wang Liang's blood pressure suddenly dropped and his heart rate was erratic. Zhang Jian tried his best to search for the cause, but could not find the anomaly.

"I can't do it anymore, I can't continue with my ability...... Zhang Jian said to me, "Dr. Du, I don't want to give up on the patient's life. Please help me with this surgery!"

"No!" said Vice President Zhang, who was watching the operation, "Zhang Jian, you can't get out of the way." Ge Yingming, I now let you continue the operation with the chief surgeon, and Zhang Jian will assist as the second surgeon. ”

Ge Yingming agreed, and then Zhang Jian began to operate. Wang Liang's life characteristics gradually stabilized. However, like a prank by the gods, Wang Liang's blood pressure and heart rate were abnormal again.

"Vice President Zhang, it can't go on like this. I beg you, let me take over this operation!"

Zhang Guofu didn't speak, and looked at Ge Yingming expressionlessly. Cold sweat broke out on Ge Yingming's forehead, and the movements on his hands gradually slowed down.

"Di-" The voice of death.

"Get out of the way!"

I tore Ge Yingming apart and quickly checked Wang Liang's situation, trying my best to find a way to break through.

"No...... Too late to ......"

The brain is blank, and there is only a long "beep" sound in the ear.

"I'm sorry, but I was incompetent and failed to fulfill my promise with you. Sorry ......"

Remorse, remorse for incompetence. Looking at Wang Liang in front of me, I couldn't forgive myself.

"Stitched. ”

"But, Vice Dean......" Nurse Chen Peihua's voice sounded.

"Didn't you hear it below, I'll let you stitch it up!"

Ge Yingming came back to his senses and pulled me apart to suture Wang Liang according to Vice President Zhang's words. But man is dead, and all things are in vain.

"Take the new medicine, inject it. ”

I saw a nurse holding a syringe and injecting an unknown liquid into Wang Liang's body.

Time passes, one second, two seconds......

"It's useless. The death of the living body, even if it is injected with drugs, the circulatory system ......"

As I muttered, Wang Liang's body began to twitch. A few seconds later, Wang Liang opened his eyes, took off the special respirator for anesthesia, and took a big breath.

"Patient, patient awake!" someone shouted.

"Quick, check on the patient!" I yelled at everyone.

The operating room is busy.

So, Wang Liang came back from the dead. The resurrected Wang Liang's vital signs were normal, he was in good health, and even his immobile hands and feet returned to normal.

Regarding Wang Liang's resurrection from death, Vice President Zhang held an in-hospital meeting to inform us that the injection during the operation was a new type of drug. "This agent is still being tested, and its efficacy is obvious to all. Since it has not been certified by the relevant authorities, none of you can say anything about it. If there is any violation, the hospital will investigate its responsibility and severely punish it. ”

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