The first time that a dream was so long and clear was a fresh memory and unforgettable. It's not that he didn't have a dream, when he was a child with a fever, he dreamed that a group of strange people and mud balls chased him, he struggled to escape, and the last moment of the dream was that the huge mud ball was about to press on a lonely green grass, and he wanted to push the stone ball away for the grass. But this dream is only when I was sick, and it didn't last long, at most, it was just a fright to wake up. And yesterday's dream is as long as a TV series, with a clear plot, clear characters, and the environment and feelings are so real. And when he learns to think through dreams as an adult, this dream is very much worth pondering. Whether he went to the future at that time, or whether he returned to the past in the future, and so on, there are endless levels of thought. The answer is only for him to find out slowly.

Time flies, and in the blink of an eye, the first day of spring has been, and in the past few years, there have been some dreams intermittently, some are dreaming of exam questions, some are dreaming of some inconsequential people or things, when things or people appear, he will instantly remember that he has dreamed. This is also what people often call déjà vu. So he doesn't memorize either. And the sound of breathing in his ears also came and went, he was used to it, and he didn't think about it if he couldn't see it anyway.

Lichun has been playing in the football team for six years, and during this time, he has also participated in some big and small competitions, and has achieved good rankings, for which he will give some bonuses as encouragement. After saving money for a long time, he wants to buy himself a pair of leather shoes, after all, boys at this age slowly begin to pay attention to their own image, since entering the football team, clothes and shoes are issued all year round, and the family has also saved a sum of expenses, so he sometimes envies the appearance of other boys wearing shirts, pants, and leather shoes.

Lichun has already aimed at shoes, and there is a store selling leather shoes not far from home, and there are a pair of black and white leather shoes in it, which are the shoes he has been thinking about for a long time, which is very cool. When I paid for shoes, I felt the pleasure of being a big boss and throwing money, but I didn't have much money left after saving up for a long time.

Joyful mountain biking, yes! His dad bought this mountain bike for him, and his teammates had one, so he mentioned it to his mom a few times, and his mom had a good face and decisively took out the money to let his dad buy it. When he got home, he had to show his mother the shoes under his feet, after all, it was the first time he had saved money to buy something he liked, which was very meaningful. It's a pity that he didn't understand his thoughts, "You will pay for such ugly shoes." The money is not spent so indiscriminately, where did you buy it, I will return it. When he heard his mother say these words, Lichun felt as if he had been splashed with a basin of ice water. Doesn't his own money have the right to buy what he likes? "I can't put on my shoes." "Who says you can't quit? I can retreat if I say retreat. Mom raised her voice and shouted. Lichun is very difficult, this is something that cannot be done at all, the shoes are worn on the feet, how to retreat. At this time, I looked at the shoes under my feet, and no matter how much I liked them, I became disliked. "Then I'll try it." Lichun went out with the idea that he couldn't quit if he went out and mixed around.

When he arrived at the shoe store, he tentatively asked the salesman if the shoes could be returned, and the salesman replied that it was necessary. When Lichun hummed and was about to go home, he turned around and saw his mother coming. What followed was the stormy yelling in the store, the hysterical look, which was unbearable to look at. One tenet is that shoes must be returned. In order not to affect the business, the store had to return the money in the end. When his mother was making trouble there, Lichun wanted to die, and a pair of shoes was so unwelcome. So embarrassed, so many customers are watching the excitement. When all the drama was over, the money was also taken away by the. He depressedly followed his mother home. I hid in my room without eating lunch. Tears silently flowed from his eyes, and he took out the blade in the pencil case and wanted to cut his pulse, but he was afraid of pain and stopped his hand. I just took sleeping pills, and I rode to a nearby pharmacy angrily to ask if sleeping pills were sold, but I needed a hospital certificate to buy them. After turning his head, he stood outside the door for a long time, and had no choice but to continue to go to school in the afternoon. And this anger comes and goes quickly. On the way to school, Lichun was resurrected with full blood.

In the days that followed, my mother seemed to be like a stuffy pot, and she could always find a reason to scold Lichun, either because she disliked Lichun for not doing housework, or because Lichun was slow, and it was always unpleasant. And Lichun vaguely knows that his mother may be annoying about work recently, and the economic crisis has caused many people to be laid off or leave their jobs to recuperate, and his mother belongs to this rank. Until one day at noon, when Lichun came home to eat a good meal and wash the pot, the pot was too heavy and was not held firmly in the pool, and the sound was a little loud, and his mother shouted: "Do you have any opinions on washing the pot, give you food and drink, and you don't want to wash the pot?" Scolding and scolding, he rushed over to beat Lichun, at first he just pulled his ears, slapped him twice, scolded and scolded, and the result was completely out of control, and he went to the kitchen in anger and took a knife to cut Lichun. His father was also shocked when he saw it, and it was no joke to use a knife to cut it twice. One by one, he snatched the knife and hurriedly put it away. But Lichun's mother grabbed Lichun's neck to strangle him, and kept banging his head against the wall. His dad didn't care like he did this time, he ran over and pulled his mom away, and asked Lichun to stay outside first. After Lichun went out, he stood in the corridor and cried sadly, and the crying attracted the neighbors, who asked what was wrong. "My mom is in a bad mood because of work." Lichun reluctantly found a reason. So the neighbor took him back and persuaded his mother at his house, and the matter passed like this.

Although the matter has passed on the surface, it has also created a deep imprint on Lichun's psychology. And the existence next to Lichun, Xiao Heng, also watched everything that happened in Lichun with patience. If Lichun's life is threatened, he can't help or manage. All of this is what Lichun needs to experience and understand.

In the dead of night, it is also the time when Lichun can calm down and think. A string of tears fell on the pillow. Lichun didn't know why he existed in this world, and what the meaning of existence was. Although I have parents, I can't feel their love. The family has always been cold and violent to him, if he wants to get close to his parents and want to show happiness and joy, he will only be abused by his parents: "What are you happy about, you are going to heaven if you are treated as a human being?" This is what my father said most often. It was uncomfortable to listen to this sentence at first, but it doesn't matter if you listen to it too much. Lichun sometimes feels that his heart is quite strong, and his skin is getting thicker and thicker. The front foot is still breathing, and the back foot continues to go its own way like no one else. No face, no skin, ho! That's true. He was like a stinky, hard stone that could not be crushed or crushed. It is also because of this mentality that the future of the beginning of the spring. A firm heart can still be happy in suffering under repeated blows.