From the moment I started remembering, Hoshikawa didn't seem a little special. When the other children didn't know anything at all, she realized that she was different from most of them.

Although that was long before the ability was developed, it seemed to her that she had been able to clearly "understand" her future long before she knew it.

Yes, long before she could see the future, she was not curious about the "future".

As the second lady of the family of a giant in the jewelry industry, her position is quite relaxed, and her family background has long determined her future. This kind of thing that ordinary children will not realize at all, she has understood quite deeply since she can remember.

So in the process of growing up, emotions such as "rebellion" that are common in children have never appeared in her.

Always respond appropriately and logically to the expectations of others. Study logically and achieve results logically.

If fate is about "moving forward on a predestined path", then she has always done a pretty good job at this point.

Only she knows best that it shouldn't be like this.

If it were other children, even if they were in the same situation, would they become like themselves? Not so, right?

At that time, she suddenly realized that she was abnormal. Compared with ordinary children, she lacks something that ordinary people are not aware of.

She lost her sense of the unknown.

For her, the future became something that was natural and natural.

No one really knows how the future will come, so the future is unknown for everyone. And when people are able to accept the future calmly, they are often called "enlightened".

A sage said: "Those who are enlightened are always happy." ”

The implication is that those who are aware of the unknown future are eternally happy.

But she has long had this kind of awareness, but she has lost her sense of her future.

Without a sense of groundedness, the future is just a meaningless conclusion that it will come. Empty and nihilistic, but it is logical and natural.

Live as a matter of course, and welcome the future as a matter of course. Other than that, nothing.

Gradually, in her heart, she began to fear this natural "nothingness". To escape this sense of nothingness, she began to allow herself to become fond of vanity.

I want others to praise me, I want to show my extraordinary, I want to hear praise that is not so natural for me.

This desire made her work beyond the ordinary, and even with this effort, she entered Tokiwadai. Some people praise her, others envy her. But even so, the admiration of others sounded so natural to her, and the envy of others made her feel taken for granted.

It's not that her feelings have become ossified, indifferent, and gone.

Whether it is sadness, joy, or anger, she has all the feelings and can feel them.

It's just that, on top of these feelings, a hole has been opened like a "nothingness".

True to her name, as she walks the path from the past to the future, a sense of "not yet" always dominates her.

Knowing that he has it, but it is like he has nothing; I feel it, but I don't feel anything.

She didn't know and couldn't tell what she wanted.

She thought she was probably broken. It's like a bottomless cup, no matter what kind of wine you pour in, it will only end up empty.

She obviously has everything, but what she really has is just this emptiness.

All because of the loss of a sense of the unknown about the "future", so that all possible "futures" are no longer attractive to her. She knows. She actually knows this, even if she doesn't really see the future.

So, she observes the people around her. When they rejoiced, she imitated laughter; When they grieved, she followed suit with a sigh.

It's still so logical and natural. Or maybe it's just for the sake of being logical and natural.

To be honest, she didn't understand. Even though she no longer had a sense of uncertainty about the future, as a girl who was only in middle school, she never understood the meaning of doing so. Tendencies such as liking or hating have never existed.

Even if she knew it was an anomaly, she didn't have any doubts about it anymore.

Until one day, for the first time in her cognition, a girl who seemed to be acting like her appeared.

This girl who seems to have infinite talent, she even thought she was the same person as herself at first.

In the same way, observing others; In the same way, imitating others. Doing the same thing as her as a matter of course, but completely different from her.

Far from becoming more and more empty like her, she became more and more fulfilling in the process of imitating others.

The difference is only that the girl looks forward to the future.

At first it was envy, then jealousy, and finally anger. Strong feelings poured in.

Envy her, envy her, angry because of her presence.

Want to be like her.

Even if it's just imitation, I want to be like her, with hopes and longing for the future.

The feelings that I have never felt until now suddenly poured into my heart like a. She was shocked that these feelings were not empty. In the deepest part of these feelings, there is a real "unknown".

When I was stared at by those beautiful heterochromatic eyes, faintly, the "unknown" joy came to me.

The empty heart was filled in that moment.

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Suddenly falling asleep and waking up suddenly. In this sudden process, I saw a projection that could be called "the future".

What's going on? There was a feeling of heart congestion. I feel that some things have been neglected, and some things have been forgotten; There are some things that I can't remember, but I clearly know that I should never think about them.

In the dormitory in the garden of Tokiwadai Gakusha, Hoshikawa's shallow smile faded away, and then disappeared completely.

What is she doing? It was a question that even she couldn't answer. It's just that she has a pure instinct that if she doesn't do something, she will regret it.

Sit on the bed, curl up and bury your head between your knees.

Ever since the Stadium incident in early May, she has been constantly exposed to projections of what may be the "future," consciously or unconsciously. She felt that she was starting to become more and more abnormal.

Those "futures", those projections, are like tickets without any logos. They do not indicate where they came from or where they are going; That is, it is not known when it happened, and it is not known what will happen after then. They are like empty dreams, but the horror is that these dreams may represent information about something that must happen. However, with all this information, Xingchuan had to wonder, what was it for?

The world is made up of some kind of information that "should be this way". Just as an object falls with gravity, order follows the second law of thermodynamics and becomes disordered. In a way, everything remembers this past, because what we call the past is itself made up of bits. (Note: This quote is copyrighted by John Wheeler.) ）

So, what exactly is a superpower? What is the essence of changing the original posture of an object through observation?

There is not much evidence, but Xingchuan has sensed something that should not be noticed in the fragments of the future that continue to attack and erode her.

To put it another way, superpowers are not caused by observation, as most people understand. Rather, on the contrary, it is the observation that changes something that "should be the way it should be". Wouldn't it change the way things are to collapse the wave function to a point where only a small probability occurs, in a very small probability?

The past is the bit that has been determined to be decoherent, and the future is the bit that is still in the superposition state of undecoherence. When the Hilbert space has few dimensions to describe this event, it is possible to see a projection of a certain possibility to a certain extent. So for herself, she can see the future to some extent, but she can't see any of the past. In the Hilbert space she is in, the past is something that has become recoherent.

So, is the projection you see from the future something that "should have been like this" or something that has been "changed to its original appearance"? Although I have an intuition that "if I don't do something, I will regret it", but does that projection come from a future where I have done nothing? Or what did you do in the future? What exactly should I do? And what should not be done?

At the end of the day, she can't really "see the future", and her abilities alone prohibit it from happening. If one can truly foresee the future, one may be able to avoid many mistakes. But if one only sees a possibility of the future, everything is completely different.

For a moment, she even understood why the psychological arrow of time dictated that humans can only remember the past, but not the future. If a person's memory is oriented towards the future, then one day the person will definitely go completely crazy.

If you are a person with a strong will, you may be able to withstand this sense of confusion. However, Hoshikawa himself is also well aware that he is not a strong-willed figure.

This kind of thing, why let such a hopeless self bear it?

To this day, she doesn't know exactly what happened to her in this May. The improvement of abilities and the expansion of applications are secondary, and what she really cares about is only all of a sudden, she finds herself looking at something she shouldn't be looking at.

From that day on, looming, someone tried to approach him.

The reason why the inexplicable word "looming" is used is because of the identification barrier.

There is a brain disorder that manifests itself in the form of an inability to identify people who have just been contacted.

Let's say one day you come to a strange city to run errands and have a meal in a strange restaurant. Excuse me: Do you remember the lady at the restaurant who paid for you afterwards?

Maybe in some cases, such as the front desk lady is a big beauty or something. But in most cases, your answer should be NO.

For the vast majority of people in this world, "even if you have met but you can't recognize each other" is the norm. Ignoring certain minor things and not remembering or even recognizing them is a function of the human brain. So what happens if it gets out of hand?

Hoshikawa has been in this situation since then.

No, it's not that she has this kind of recognition disorder. Although the out-of-control event caused her to suffer from some kind of dysfunction in her ability to express herself, she did not suffer from a life-threatening disease such as recognition disorder.

It's just someone who has found her, and she can't identify this person.

She knew there was someone in Tokiwadai who could do that. But she was pretty sure that the two weren't the same person.

"You're no different from someone who analyzes the future by making predictions. Only cause and effect, which you don't know about, can 'possibly' not be relevant to you. ”

All she remembered was that the man held out his hand to her.

"Just like path integrals, in the future backward process, only the superposition of all paths will be obtained. If you don't know the consequences of your choice, why don't you just do it? ”

And then, say so to her.