To a large extent, people will always make irrepressible resistance and doubt about things they don't want to believe.

and evasion.

I was no exception, and I found myself in the same situation after I stumbled upon this envelope. It was a white envelope with a five-petal cherry blossom pattern in the upper left corner, the only pattern on the simple letter.

The pink one is like the first cherry blossom in full bloom.

It was supposed to be something to look forward to in some way, but the touch I got in the palm of my hand made me feel strange. I thought it was just a stack of papers, but when I opened it, I felt a little dizzy.

Bright red, this red cannot be described by other adjectives or other things.

Because, it's really just, the color of the yuan.

"I'll go, am I being taken by the little rich woman?"

"Huh? What do you say? ”

"You sent it?"

I said to Li Xinmu, who had just entered the classroom, that she should have heard it, but even Li Xinmu's words wouldn't be so explicit as to stuff me with money, no, why did you stuff money for me?

"Nope."

"Eh, yes, the little rich woman I know is just you."

"Tsk."

Li Xinmu actually dropped the schoolbag with one hand a little handsomely, lifted the headphones, and glanced at me with slanted eyes, the purple eyes were shining.

Well, it doesn't seem like it's true, so why?

So it's for me? What if it's not for me but misplaced?

But this thickness is still quite tempting, eh, even if I'm so upright, I'm a little restless, do you want to ask in the class? No, I can't tell the lie, what if I do it wrong?

Damn, it seems to see how much money there is, damn, I'm really an upright person.

Really, hey, but, but it's like looking!

Oh no, I can't control myself!

It's okay, it's okay, just take a look, it's really just a look!

No, no, this kind of thing can never be stopped after doing it once, it can't be so easy-

"Huh?"

"Don't you really want to see it?"

Li Xinmu, who leaned over from behind, took the envelope directly, although I didn't think that with my fingers, I would not be able to take away the things in my hand so easily, but Li Xinmu still pulled it as if it didn't take much effort.

Maybe I subconsciously relaxed my strength.

No, I'm really an upright person!

"Eh, it's quite a lot, I'll count, 1-

- 10, 10 is 1000. ”

Actually, if you say (9), I still want to laugh, but at this moment I feel that something is not quite right.

"That, I bought my new car on 998."

"Poof~"

"I know, I know, is that funny?"

"Well, and then what?"

"There should only be one person who knows."

"That doesn't mean much, hmm."

"yes, so what should I do with this money?"

"How do I know, whatever you want, I don't care."

How do you feel that Li Xinmu is a little handsome today, after stuffing back the money, he directly threw the envelope to me in a chic manner, if you say this, is it an attack? No, it can't be edged, how could I react to this.

Well! It's definitely because Li Xinmu is cute at all times!

Cuteness is justice!

Anyway, isn't this the "idiot" in everyone's mouth, no matter how you think about it, I feel that something is not right, hey?

I haven't done anything perverted, right?

I am a law-abiding citizen!

But on the other hand, my curiosity was satisfied, and in a way it wasn't an undesirable outcome. I don't want to do this, and I don't want to do the opposite, but I actually want it on both sides.

What is this?

Sure enough, humans are greedy creatures.

"Okay." As a result, I was still a little overwhelmed by the envelope.

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When I saw the cat again, it had been cleanly washed. The white fur looks like a blooming pear blossom, but I always feel that something is not right.

Even though I don't know what happened, the eye sockets, which had been washed of clotted blood, took on a horrible color.

It turned out that there were two eyes, green on the left and blue on the right.

Originally, I didn't pay that much attention to the color of the heterochromic pupils, but now I remember them clearly. It was like a light shining in my head telling me that the place that was supposed to be so beautiful was now only a bloody scab.

Like a beautiful soap bubble disillusioned in the sun, the place in my eyes that seems to have beautiful eyes is only sadness. In the sunlight, the shadows are highlighted, dark like a black hole that sucks everything.

I think it's still visible, not the world, but something else.

"Meow—"

I tried to call it, and it looked at it.

It can see, it can see.

Not the reflection and refraction of light, but the shadow of this world. It could see that in the black sockets of my eyes I could read the same contempt and mockery as I had last time.

Even more intense than the last time.

It overwhelmed me a little, but what made me blush even more was the sympathy. Yes, I'm mostly sympathetic to it, but I'm also aware that it's sympathy from a high position, even though I think that compassion is the essence of human compassion.

But it was too small in front of this cat, it didn't care, and my scorn was just a ridiculously clumsy show for it, even a hypocrisy full of rejection.

It doesn't need that kind of sympathy.

It's looking down on me, it's looking down on humanity.

Its face did not change at all, but the mockery grew stronger and stronger, as if it spread out from its white body and melted into the world.

But.

Isn't that also a grudge? Isn't it because of such a deep grudge?

What's it, what keeps you from letting go?

The dark eye sockets became darker and darker, as if there was no light to escape, and all the light, whether sad or melancholy, seemed to have fallen into a whirlpool, mixed together in this circular darkness.

It's as if they're locked onto a white cat.

What is it? What is it exactly?

What keeps you from being far from humans? What makes you so afraid of humans?

Is it the round hole? Or even earlier, this sense of dependence.

It's her.

"Meow—"

I feel more and more uncomfortable, and this sin is so small in front of it.

"Meow—"

After all, what do you have to do to ignore me?

"Meow—"

However, in the end, it was still so unhurried, it didn't take me seriously, and it didn't ignore me.

It just doesn't care.

- but I care.