Chapter 35: Jack and Hyde (4. Sin Knocks on the Door)
You're using a special tool, right?
You can't control yourself.
There's no way you can get rid of that thought, and when you see these creatures, you involuntarily hurt them, even though you know it's not good, even though you don't want to.
But you can't control yourself.
I want to stop, but you can't.
Every time you do this sinful act, you share it with others, right?
The severed ear bones are the best keepsake and a sign that you are keeping each other warm. You look down on your people who abuse animals just for their own amusement, right, but you're also asking yourself.
Are you also having fun with it?
You don't get answers, and it makes you feel hopeless.
You control yourself carefully, and maybe you've done it well enough. But it still hurts. When you get to the limit, you have to do it, right?
The guilt grows worse in you, and you can only be relieved by being more cruel.
You're out of breath.
How did you get on this path, what was your first prey, and did you inadvertently have someone to help.
The shopkeeper may have the answer.
Where do your desires come from?
Why do you have such an addiction to violence? This kind of happiness is an innate human trait called cruelty. But you magnify it, magnify it to the point where you can't control it.
Is it you or someone else, what makes it grow.
Your scars, both in number and in character, don't look like ordinary scars.
That's a cigarette butt.
White cigarette paper wrapped in shredded tobacco, with red sparks. Maybe it's in the dark, the red is your only light, but despite this, the burns on your skin make you feel a sharp pain.
The smell of smoke makes you want to cough, but the fear and pain make you cry and scream.
The round wound.
There may also be bruises, blunt objects or heavy objects, which are filled with the power to make you miserable.
You're scared, aren't you?
Watching these fall, you can't do anything, you close your eyes and want to escape from it, but the real pain tells you that this is nothing but cowardice.
But can you tell me what these are?
Flaky, ribbon-like.
Bloodstains.
How much pain have you suffered.
Who is it? Your mother or your father, perhaps?
You're scared. Yes, there is no way you can escape your memory. You find that there is only one way to be relieved, and that is to be like them. When you are also immersed in this cruelty, you get more than just pleasure.
And a sense of identity, which you seem to think you might be able to get closer to them.
But that's not right, you know.
The process of finding prey is boring, and the time to cultivate feelings is also a must.
But in the time of all this, will you laugh uncontrollably, will you feel the ultimate pleasure?
You said you were sick when you saw smoke, I thought you just hated the smell of smoke, or your respiratory sensitivity. I didn't notice the faint smell of smoke on you, which you carefully hidden, through perfume and other smells.
Do you smoke?
I do not know.
What are you hiding?
Freezing snow, so you should know it, right?
Why.
What did it all start with?
Whether it's this atrocity, or something else.
You can't control yourself, right, He Xi.
- Right?
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"How could I, know?"
"And what do you want, according to you?"
"Senior Sister Du, what I want is just a promise."
The thing about the school forum is also coming to an end.
Blocking lists are very useful, but unfortunately, the truth is locked into a certain group of people.
People will always try to distinguish other parts of the people in order to express their emotions. I have to say that there is still something in the reasoning of these people. In some relatively scattered information, through reading and some specific conditions, through layers of screening, a group of so-called suspicious people were finally labeled with this hat.
This hat has no color, declared in advance.
It's very precise and very coarse.
However, after this situation, there is no reason for some bans, this is not spreading rumors, this is a matter of fair resolution and discussion. You can't even serve the pot, right, it's not the same to make the forum live at one time.
So in the end these people started, and all the grumpy old pigeons came out.
At first, I was still on the verge of hi in the mouth, but after getting the message that "the administrator is scared", the ban was lifted, and the ban was lifted. But a very subtle point is that they all cross the line, and occasionally those who cross the line will be locked up in a small black room for public display, but more often than not, they will turn a blind eye.
The bottom line is being broadened.
This should be a normal thing, but I don't think it's good.
I wouldn't have bothered if it had nothing to do with me, but unfortunately I have an inexplicable relationship with it. Neither directly nor indirectly, but more of a sense of uneasiness that has nowhere to place.
After all, even if it had something to do with me, I did those things.
And in the so-called list of that group of people, I got two key names.
One is me and the other is He Xi.
But fortunately, He Xi was not particularly concerned because of some performance reasons, but I had some suspicions. It's ridiculous, but it's still the answer from someone who doesn't know much about it.
And the test questions are the truth.
But I'm not very relieved, for He Xi, I saw that her social account also had relatively normal login traces. Not that it took a long time, but it's not the kind of person who dives all the time.
So I'm more worried about the impact of these posts, and if there is really any bad momentum, I have to stop it in time and make up for it.
And after I submitted a report, my only request was to request the addition of sensitive words.
By the way, I also set a hint for sensitive words.
It's also quite strange that this was originally a lookup function is now being used for this purpose. But since it's practical, there's nothing wrong with that.
"Well, we'll think about it."
President Du Feifei looked at my report and his face was not very good.
This kind of thing is not very easy for me to evaluate, right and wrong are very clear, but after knowing the reason, where should this sympathy and worry be?
I didn't expect the end result.
About 10 minutes after the school bell, I was on my way to clock in.
About punching in, it is a daily exercise required by the school, and punching in to indicate that you have participated, because it will eventually be recorded in the score, so you have to complete it.
It's like a daily mission, probably.
The school forum has issued a world announcement, although it is a world announcement, but it is just a hint that the whole school will have. This announcement is not very common, but it is not too rare, and some of the more important things will be announced in this way.
I thought it was nothing.
But when I clicked on the blue envelope-shaped border, it dissolved like ripples, and finally it turned into an announcement. The blue self with the black undertone, I feel a little uncomfortable.
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Class 1 student of 2017, Lu Yu, is now the 72nd manager and the 13th manager of the forum.
Permissions:
1) The right to publish all announcements
2) Mute rights on low-star accounts
3) The right to delete illegal posts
4) About the ownership of the administrator password
5) Voting rights on the decisions of the Forum
6) The right to propose on the development of the forum (the right to submit is removed)
7) The right to organize the activities of the Forum
8) Regulatory rights of individual users
9) The right to join the Board of Management
The Board of Management retains:
1) Right of dismissal
2) The right to reward
3) The right to temporarily modify the basic authority (for a maximum of 15 days, this power needs the support of more than half of the people to take effect)
4) The right to vote to change its authority (more than half of the people need to support the change for this right to take effect, and more than 2/3 of the votes are required to support it to be effective)
Concentrate:
The limit of the number of odd votes is rounded down (i.e., it can be exceeded by this line) and the management has the final right of interpretation
Fangcheng School Network Forum Management Association and Fangcheng School Student Self-Management Association Announcement
Effective as of such publication
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Lu Yu: ???
This can't be fake. If anyone dares to make such a joke, the consequences must be serious.
No, no, no, how could I be a manager like this, so can I do whatever I want?
But who would be going to cheat on this kind of thing?
The iconic Fangcheng School emblem is accompanied by this signature.
Plus some of the things that have happened to me lately.
It's true?
Immediately, I received congratulations from the manager in my mailbox, and the ambiguous title on my name, which may be the founder's bad taste, but I was still stunned for a moment when I really changed color.
Wait a minute?
I really just made a suggestion -
- What the hell is this, hey~!