When the water is full, it overflows, and when the moon is full, it loses. Good things don't last long.

After October, the weather turned cooler, and Rowling felt a little dizzy on this day.

"Lin'er, what's wrong with you, what's uncomfortable?" Zou Yun felt Rowling's footsteps stagger.

"I don't know, I feel ...... I'm a little tired!" Rowling said weakly.

"I'll help you back to your room to rest first!"

Zou Yun saw that Lin'er's face was not very good, so he sent the maid to invite Langzhong.

"I'll pour you a glass of water!" Zou Yun looked at Rowling on the bed a little distressed. To soothe her, I wanted to turn around and give her a glass of water.

"Xianggong~" Rowling held his hand and refused to let go.

"I'll pour you a glass of water, soon, I won't go anywhere, I'll accompany you!"

When my mother heard that Lin'er was sick, she hurried over.

"Lin'er, how are you feeling?" the mother looked worried.

"Mother, I'm fine, I'm just a little tired, just rest!" Rowling laughed a little far-fetched.

"It's okay, it's cold, you guys, pay attention to your body, don't be like a child. ”

"Got it, mother, you let Lin'er rest for a while!" Zou Yun felt that Luo Lin was in a bad spirit.

"You're distressed!" the mother glared at him and turned to Rowling, "Lin'er, you can rest well! ”

It didn't take long for Lang Zhong to come.

"The autumn is high and cold, the wind evil has entered the body, follow my prescription to grab some medicine!" Lang Zhong said after taking Rowling's pulse.

"Thank you, sir!" Zou Yun arched his hand at him.

Zou Yun returned to the room after sending Lang Zhong away, not daring to let Lin'er wait for a long time.

"Don't worry, Lin'er, the medicine will be fried soon, and you will be fine if you drink it. Zou Yun touched her face and said.

"Xianggong, I'm a little scared... Rowling grabbed Zou Yun's hand.

"It's okay, don't be afraid, the doctor has said it, it's okay if you drink the medicine!"

"Then can you lie down next to me, I want to lean on you. Rowling begged.

Zou Yun took off his boots, went to bed and held her in his arms.

"Is that okay?"

With the passage of time, Lin'er's condition did not improve, but her body became weaker and weaker, and she also invited a few more Langzhong on the way, but there was nothing she could do.

"Xianggong, do you think I will die~" Rowling said that tears were about to flow out.

"Fool, don't think too much, the doctor said that you are just weak, just recuperate for a few more days. Zou Yun hugged Lin'er a little tighter.

"Do you want to know what I made on the day of Shangyuan?" Rowling looked at him.

"Why did you say this all of a sudden, didn't you tell me?"

"But I want to tell you now!"

"But I don't want to know, I just want you to rest well and get better quickly. ”

Rowling looked at Zou Yun for a long time, did not speak, buried her head in his arms, took a deep breath, the smell of his body made her uneasy heart stabilize a little.

...............

The first snow of winter had fallen, and Rowling's condition had not improved in the slightest, and she was getting haggard day by day.

Zou Yun is very worried, Lin'er is now in a coma from time to time, and the time she is awake is getting shorter and shorter. Zou Yun was afraid that she would not wake up one day when she fell asleep, so he didn't dare to relax in the slightest, and kept guarding her.

"Xianggong, can you hold me?"

"When I finish feeding you the medicine, I'll take you by the way, come, good~" Zou Yun brought a spoonful to Rowling's mouth.

"Can you hold me?" Rowling burst into tears.

Zou Yun suddenly felt a strong uneasiness in his heart.

"Okay, I'll take you. ”

"I want to give you a baby. ”

"Well, when you're well, we'll have a baby, and we'll have a baby at home without going anywhere. Just give birth to a bunch of them, so that they are annoying to their mothers!"

Rowling was amused by him, but the tears still flowed from the laughter and laughter.

"What's wrong Lin'er, Xianggong is with you!"

"Xianggong, I'm so scared~" Rowling felt that her soul was about to float away, "Xianggong, hold on to me, I'm so scared!"

Zou Yun was also scared and hugged her into his arms.

"It's okay, don't be afraid, you'll be fine. Zou Yun felt that Lin'er's strength in hugging him was getting lighter and lighter, "You will definitely get better!"

"Xianggong, I can't see it, I can't see you anymore. ”

"Lin'er, I'm here, don't be afraid, I'm kissing you. As he spoke, he kissed Rowling on the forehead.

"Xianggong, where are you, it's so dark here, you speak, don't scare Lin'er, Lin'er is so scared!"

"Lin'er, Xianggong is here. Zou Yun was at a loss.

"Xianggong, Lin'er ~ Lin'er-" At this point, there was no sound.

"Lin'er, did you hear that?

"Don't scare me, Lin'er, you speak!"

"No, no, please, speak quickly, Lin'er!" Zou Yun's heart was broken.

"Didn't you say you were going to give me a baby? Don't you talk and don't count, okay?" Zou Yun felt that Luo Lin's body temperature was slowly dropping, and he would never have thought that his beloved wife would leave like this, "Hey, wake up quickly, I'm going to be angry if I don't wake up!"

"We've just started, I can't just lose you, please wake up!"

"Lin'er, you're too much, you said you were going to give me a baby, are you lying to me?"

"You're too much, I haven't loved you well yet, there are still a lot of places I haven't taken you to play, and there are still a lot of things I haven't said to you, please, Lin'er!"

Zou Yun has been hugging Lin'er tightly, and he can't accept the fact that she is leaving. He was ready to love her for the rest of his life, but he could only let Lin'er die in his arms, and nothing could stop him. At this moment, sadness, self-blame, unwilling to overwhelm his heart, why did the result become the same!

...........

He had always thought he was lucky, and the first time he saw her, he knew that she belonged to him. She was a star from the sky, with a glowing tail that went straight into his heart. This feeling itself has nothing to do with beauty, but a fit from the soul, she should belong to herself, and she should be born for her.

However, creation makes people, maybe God is jealous, or maybe perfection is inherently fragile.

Zou Yun only had half of his life left, he felt so. He didn't know how to forget her, no, he didn't want to forget her at all, but he knew he had lost her, lost her forever, and despair crushed him.

In her mind, her smile, her willfulness, the pitiful gaze she had when she asked for herself—lingering. From then on, he just wanted to immerse himself in the memories, because the memories had her figure, which was his only consolation.

............

Time flies, and three years have passed. Zou Yun is no longer the handsome appearance he used to be, but now his face is haggard, his eyes are gloomy, and he no longer has the charm of the beginning. Zou Yun's mother persuaded him every day that he was a manly man and couldn't be willing to fall for a woman. Zou Yun didn't want to hear it, Lin'er was all he had, and if he lost her, his life would lose all its light.

"Yun'er, my mother knows that you can't let go of Lin'er, and my mother is also sad, but you have to cheer up, you are the only bloodline in our family, you can't fall like this!"

"What's more, Lin'er loves you so much, she doesn't want to see you like this, what she loves is that beautiful young man with a good demeanor, and that man with confidence, courage and responsibility. Are you worthy of her love when you are like this?"

After three years of longing and three years of sadness, Zou Yun's heart no longer feels pain, only numbness. He can give up on himself, but can he tolerate disappointing Lin'er? Is he still worthy of Lin'er now?

What his mother said was right, he couldn't let Lin'er down, he wanted to be the most perfect person, and when he died in the future, if he had the fate to see her again, he must tell her that he was worthy of her love.

It's not that you can't forget a lot of things, it's that you haven't found an excuse to convince yourself. Everything will precipitate, and so will longing, when you are obsessed with other things, if you don't stir it, it will sink to the bottom of your heart, fade away, and then be buried. Time is the medicine, and it will heal everything.

Zou Yun will prepare to go to Beijing in the spring of next year, and he doesn't know if he can get it, otherwise he will have to wait another three years. The plum blossoms bloomed again in front of the court, and Lin'er was promised to paint her next to the plum tree, but the plum blossoms were still there, but the beauty was no longer there. Zou Yun found the original picture scroll, but he couldn't sketch her appearance in his mind, so he had to draw Lin'er's back.

............

At the end of the exam, Zou Yun fell off the list, but he didn't feel much sadness about it, but start again, how can life be smooth sailing, and God will never favor anyone extraordinarily.

After returning home, his mother gave him another family affair, and I heard that it was the niece of Lord Thorn Shi, and I don't know how Lord Thorn Shi looked down on him. Anyway, my mother's wish was granted.

Since Lin'er got a strange illness and left, others thought he was unlucky, and his mother also asked many people to talk about matchmaking a few years ago, but those who were big families were taboo and didn't dare to marry their daughter. Now, after she fell off the list, Lord Assassin Shi asked someone to kiss her, thinking that she would not be so virtuous.

At the wedding banquet, it should have been full of joy, but Zou Yun was not very happy. When Lin'er died in his arms, his heart had slowly died, or the emotions in his heart had dried up. Now he doesn't feel sadness, he doesn't feel joy, and he has no expectations for the bride.

When the guests left, Zou Yun was already drunk and unsteady, and returned to the room with the support of the maid. Looking at the bride sitting on the edge of the bed, Zou Yun suddenly fell into a trance, but he knew in his heart that the little girl at the beginning would never come back!

"What's your name. ”

"The slave's name is He Sisi. ”

"Sisi, it's a nice name. ”

Zou Yun helped her take off the hijab and glanced at the bride. The bride is more beautiful than he imagined, and she is a beauty.

"How could you marry me?"

"The order of the parents, the words of the matchmaker. ”

"In that case, then go to sleep!" he collapsed on the bed.

"Xianggong, I'll undress you. ”

This voice made Zou Yun's heart ripple, there was a person who kept calling himself Xianggong, sometimes willful, sometimes timid, sometimes attached. And now, the girl next to her also calls herself Xianggong, even if she doesn't know how to love her, but at least, don't let her down.

..............