It's supposed to be updated today.,But lately it's really.。。。

First of all, when the update reached the climax, it was taken down from the recommendation list, which was quite helpless.

I said to myself, what happens is what happens, and I have to move on.

Then in the irritable mood, I inexplicably noticed that the book review area of the book was in a state of immobility for a long time, so I was even more irritable, but soon I said to myself: a fact, I may have a rare model of book review area, I don't have garbage, advertising, rewards, but what I have are all book reviews that speak and have substance.

Okay, so I was relieved again.

Then, I opened the "To Me Five Years Later" that I wrote five years ago, and immediately burst into tears. Suddenly, there was a feeling that the distance that this book had advanced in five years was really far from the plans and expectations that had been given to me five years ago... I also feel that online literature is too different from my expectations for the present five years ago...

The vast majority of them are still cool for the sake of coolness, and they are dry and dry. . . Well, I won't say this, after all, this is also reasonable, people always have to relax, and when it comes to entertainment tools, people always feel that the more the merrier. But why hasn't the author's demeanor changed much, I saw an advertisement for a Gundam novel not long ago, saying that W's man in a vest crossed over to Seed, and the article was not even 10th the length of mine, so I gave up. The reason: the grades are too poor.

I'm looking forward to change, but, with a wry smile, a joke: I don't have a Gundam like a fool.

I'm experiencing Char personally, with my own heart. Aznab's despair, I once thought: what's wrong with becoming Franto, what's wrong with becoming a container of will, wouldn't it be easy to write cool essays according to the needs of the public now? I realized how hard it is to believe in the possible.

It's to kill the book, to kill my hope for change, to be freed from the pain of now; Or keep going?

I chose the latter, believing that decorated prayers would not reach the place of the gods, so I wrote down my struggles.

The decision has been made, but I can't immediately eliminate a pain in my heart, so I can't write the most intense battle chapters smoothly even if I have a draft, so I can only update it every other day at most.

Isn't it ridiculous that a person who expects change, but has no strength but his own heart?

Perhaps, but just like the Zeon soldiers who helped push the meteorite during the impact of Gundam Rixis, even if they knew it was an act that would bring them death or military law, they would still do it, right?

Maybe I'll regret it later, but maybe I hope that the hope for change will spread little by little, right?

Many years ago, someone told me that Gundam was a phone call, and I finally understood that it was a group of people who wanted change--- and they all happened to have the power called Gundam, so it was a fairy tale, because they were looking forward to change, but what about people who were defenseless except for one mouth? Where do they stand?

That's the reason for the frequency of updates.,Wry smile.,Why did I get off the recommended list when my plot was at its highest.,Why did the most intense moment of the battle plot come.,It happened to be the day when the letter I wrote five years ago expired?

Smile.