As I said before, Lao Huo will go to other places for treatment during this time, so if it's good, I'll continue to write, and if it's not good, I'll continue to write.

Well, the treatment failed.

This means that the condition will recur in the future, but fortunately it can be controlled, so it is necessary to go to the hospital often to avoid serious problems.

I won't talk about anything else, I really don't want to talk about it repeatedly.

In fact, I have been home for a long time, and although I occasionally cheer myself up, most of the time I am in a state of depression.

I believe that many people have experienced the trough and said that it is easy, but it is very, very difficult to get out of the trough.

Whether it's confused or hesitant, in short, looking back now, I'm completely in a stage of "why was I so stupid at that time", and I think about the past carefully, I have experienced this state more than once before.

What to do if you are stuck in the mud, there is really no way but to go with the flow, addicted to the game for a long time, and try to continue to write Confucianism, but always dissatisfied, the more dissatisfied you are, the more you don't want to write, forming a vicious circle.

After a long time, the guilt is getting heavier and heavier, and I feel sorry for the readers, this is not a polite remark, because I have been reading online articles, and I also hate breaking and eunuchs, and I know very well what it is like to be a eunuch in my favorite book.

I blamed myself a lot, slowly reduced my game time, bought some books from the Internet that were interesting and helpful for writing, such as psychology, political science, history, etc., and began to read them slowly. Of course, there are also some books that I haven't read for a long time before, and everyone understands that buying books is like a mountain, and reading books is like a thread.

Looking at it, I suddenly realized that reading books is really enjoyable, and it is much more fun than games, so I uninstalled all games. Well, life is so full of ups and downs, two or ten horses can't pull it, and there is no trace of it when it's serious.

During this time, my mind was much clearer, and I was actually quite introspective, and I began to analyze why I couldn't continue to write, and soon found that it might be due to fear.

There is a psychological saying that our procrastination, laziness, and laziness come from the fear of something or something.

I analyze it carefully, I have a fear of being scolded by readers, or all authors have this fear, hahaha......

Another fear is that I am afraid that I will not be able to write the ending of "Confucianism and Taoism", because ...... I overturned the original outline, which is probably the main reason why I was reluctant to write some time ago.

However, I couldn't form a new outline in a short period of time, so I began to fear writing "Confucianism and Taoism".

Actually, I don't say it, all authors and readers can understand that for a book that has written five million words, it is really completely acceptable to have a bad ending, not a black author, a book with more than five million words and no signs of being unfinished in the later period should be very few.

I insist that the author must master a balance when writing something, and this balance is simply put, "between the author's expression and the reader's needs".

If writing a book "completely" for utilitarian purposes, written entirely to cater to the reader, I think this is a failed work.

As an author, you should have at least the slightest urge to write about yourself.

However, if the author writes about himself "completely", without any consideration for the reader's feelings, there are only two possibilities for such a work, either it is as great as a classic, or it is still a failure.

I'm a person who thinks I'm a little bit idealistic and cunning, so I'm trying to find a balance between the two.

At first, I was going to write science, but then I gave up and wrote a new outline, but when I realized that the new outline and direction would ruin my writing impulse and philosophy, I gave up on that outline, and as a result, I didn't know how to continue writing.

Fortunately, according to the standard of "three knowledge and three elements" in "The Mean", I barely reached the end of the knowledge, so I gritted my teeth, re-read Confucian-related books, continued to take notes, and tried to refine the initial outline and direction.

In terms of the understanding of the Confucian classics themselves, I am definitely not comparable to those sages and even ancient scholars, but for the understanding of the whole, I think any of us modern people will surpass them as long as they have read those books, after all, we are standing on the shoulders of giants, and we have too much knowledge and information to sort out Confucian thought.

After combing through the history of scripture a while ago, I sighed helplessly, Confucianism, especially since the Song Dynasty, has almost completely fallen victim to political struggles, and it has intensified. However, this is also an inevitability, as Marx said, all (class) struggles are political struggles, and no political ideology can escape.

Of course, in the history of classics, few scholars who have truly inherited the Confucian Taoist system have been officials, and most of them are those who have written books and taught their disciples in various places.

In a sense, the sages who resigned from their official positions to become scholars were essentially similar to those who practiced Taoism and Buddhism. Whether they are pedantic and paranoid or ignorant and stubborn, their spiritual realm is extremely high.

Therefore, we cannot only look for the Confucian spirit in those bureaucrats.

In addition, the more I read, the more I feel that Confucianism and Taoism in China are actually the relationship between the palm of the hand and the back of the hand, and I will write a separate article about the relationship between Confucianism and Taoism.

After thinking about it for a long time, I finally decided to continue writing science in the book.

There are two main reasons why I gave up writing science.

First, no matter what the actual situation is, in the impression of almost all Chinese, science is backward, dark, dehumanizing, and so on, which can only be described by various negative words.

The second is that I am too lazy and feel that it is troublesome to write this thing.

By the way, science actually includes three doctrines: reason, mind, and qi, and the three are of the same origin, and they affirm each other, and the three schools are only competing for priority.

However, regardless of the science of science, it did have a great negative impact on China, and even made Confucianism the first person to take the blame in Chinese history.

In fact, there is a pot that cannot be shaken off in science, that is, it really restricts people's minds.

This is a defect of "reason" itself, which can never be solved within the Confucian family. But in the system of 100 schools, in a world where 100 schools of thought have not been overthrown, the problem of science is no longer so fatal.

Therefore, I had a very bold idea early on, or I thought that I could solve some problems of Confucianism in the Shengyuan Continent, but I was hesitant to write it.

In fact, I decided to continue writing it a while ago, and I also listed a new outline, but I still couldn't update it immediately.

Ahem...... Because I was inattentive, I came up with all kinds of ideas and ideas mainly in the process of reading books. In the recent period, I have been constantly thinking about all kinds of new ideas and new books, so I instinctively make a list of books to buy and read, and then take notes to accumulate knowledge, and at the same time make an outline and set a ...... But all new ideas and new books are a process of constant negation, a bit like a blind bear breaking buds.

Fortunately, I managed to control this impulse and continued to write "Confucianism and Taoism".

As for new ideas, I think slowly, accumulate slowly, and only when I can't deny myself will I be sure of a formal idea.

In fact, I have several stereotyped ideas now, but I can't get the order of succession, so I have no choice.

I decided to continue writing "Confucianism and Taoism", and I also had a stubborn idea, that is, I had to finish writing what I thought was different from other doctrines and thoughts, and only after writing the principle or Tao in my mind would I feel at ease.

The theme is the theme, the thought is the thought, and the theme of Confucianism and Taoism has long been revealed, but in the end, the thought or concept I want to write about will only be formed at the end, in fact, this concept has been throughout the book, and it has not been officially pointed out so far.

In fact, the previous battles were not fierce, and after the Burial Sacred Valley and Fang Yun's Holy Dao battle officially began, it was not only fierce, but tragic.

Only after I finish writing this book, can I continue the next book of ideas related to hundreds of schools, and continue to the next concept that only our Chinese bloodline can understand. Of course, it will be a different story, in the Hundred Schools system, but in a different new world.

However, the world of the new book is larger than that of "Confucianism and Taoism", and the list of relevant books is initially more than 50 books, and the minimum is 30 books. So this idea has to continue to polish, continue to read to enrich myself, as for whether to write the next book or the next book, I have been hesitating, headache.

Therefore, I don't think about anything else now, and continue to write "Confucianism and Taoism" while reading the book.

I'm actually not a good social person, and the readers and friends in the group should know that the reason why I say so much is to talk openly and honestly about what I think and do, to apologize, and I didn't deliberately break off the change or anything before, but it took a lot of effort to cross that threshold and regain the mountains and rivers in my heart.

I couldn't keep updating it, so I'm sorry to disappoint everyone!

At the same time, a special thank you to everyone who reads the book!

People are very fragile, and if they can overcome some difficulties and grow, they are strong enough.

I'm writing books, I'm living, I'm practicing.

Finally, I hope that everyone can become a better version of themselves.

The old fire worshipped.

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