Chapter 57: The time the two missed
Next to the entertainment hall, there is an artificial lake that extends all the way to the past, and the willows on the lake are still clinging, and the summer breeze blows, wrinkling a pool of lake water.
Rows of evergreens are planted along the road near the lake.
The setting sun casts shade on the side of the road through the dappled shadows of the trees.
Xia Xin pushed his bicycle and walked in the shade of the trees, and the old bicycle creaked.
Walking side by side is a girl who is as white and flawless as ever.
Su Xiaohan's long hair danced lightly in the evening breeze, and some of the dark and bright hair floated to Xia Xin's face, a little itchy and a little fragrant.
Familiar taste.
"You don't seem to think much of me."
Su Xiaohan stopped suddenly, her bright eyes reflected the light of the golden sunset, staring straight at Xia Xin.
Xia Xin just looked at the lake next to him.
smiled and said, "No, I can't keep staring at other girls' faces, people still think I have intentions, if I stare at other people's bodies like this,...... I'm afraid people will call the police. ”
“…… It's not someone else, it's me. ”
“…… Forehead. ”
Su Xiaohan's words carried a rare toughness.
Xia Xin also raised her gaze and looked at her delicate face, delicate and small cheeks, as beautiful as three years ago, and less immature, more of her unique temperament, shy and soft like a beautiful mimosa, which made people feel pity.
Xia Xin felt that the atmosphere between the two was a little depressing, and he had the intention to find some topics to liven up the atmosphere, but unfortunately he didn't know much when he used the words, and he was a little speechless for a while.
"You're still alone."
“…… Am I going to turn into a dog? ”
“……”
Xia Xin saw that Su Xiaohan stared at him resentfully and didn't speak, and apologized, "I'm sorry, I just wanted to make a joke, obviously I lack humor cells." ”
Su Xiaohan said lightly with thin lips, "I'm also a person." ”
Obviously, she also saw that Shu Yuewu and Xia Xin were not too close.
"Oh." Xia Xin replied lightly, I really wanted to joke that I am not your parents, you don't have to report your private life to me, and I am afraid that the tone is wrong and I will quarrel with her, so I can only talk as little as possible.
Su Xiaohan continued to ask, "Where do you plan to go to college?" ”
"Jiangnan University."
"Oh." Su Xiaohan didn't show too much surprise, and repeated softly, saying, "I'm at Zhejiang University, not far from you, just a few hours by car." ”
Xia Xin let out a faint "oh" to indicate that he understood.
When she was thinking about what she meant, Su Xiaohan had already taken the initiative to tell her.
Su Xiaohan's bright and smooth little face was covered with a layer of clouds, bit her thin lip, and said with a sigh, "Let's try to be boyfriend and girlfriend." ”
There was a "dang" sound, as if something was hitting the ground.
Xia Xin turned his head to look at the road, the evergreens stood quietly on both sides of the road, and there was no figure behind him, but a bottle of yogurt fell on the side of the road.
looked at Su Xiaohan again, and said with a dry smile, "I seem to have heard it wrong just now, you ......." ”
"Let's get along."
Su Xiaohan repeated with some shortness of breath.
I was afraid that Xia Xin wouldn't believe it, so I explained, "I, there are a few boys chasing me, but I haven't had a boyfriend, and I haven't confiscated their gifts, I, I've only accepted what you gave me." ”
Xia Xin smiled bitterly and shook his head, "Don't be stupid, forget about the past." ”
Su Xiaohan's beautiful eyes trembled, and her eyes suddenly dimmed, "Do you still hate me in your heart, you have been like this since before, hiding everything in your heart and not showing it." ”
Xia Xin let out a sigh of relief, looked at Su Xiaohan's eyes and said, "No, why should I hate you." ”
"You have, you must hate me, obviously I handed you a love letter, but it became you handed me a love letter, and I was laughed at by my classmates, you must hate me in your heart, hate me very much, think I am hypocritical and dirty."
Someone hiding behind a certain carved tree suddenly reached out and covered his mouth, what's going on, didn't it mean that Su Xiaohan was a class flower at the time, why was it the love letter she handed to Xia Xin, didn't that Zhang Min keep laughing at Xia Xin's incompetence, old-fashioned, and handing love letters to Su Xiaohan.
also said that he was ridiculed by his classmates for three years, could it be that the real situation was Su Xiaohan's love letter to Xia Xin?
How is this possible, the gap between these two is a bit big.
My God, my earth, my little girl, is this the truth of the matter?
Su Xiaohan had a bit of sparkle in his eyes, and his words choked up, "I'm sorry, because they were laughing all the time, saying that love letters were old-fashioned or something, laughing and now handing over love letters or something, it's so stupid, laughing to death, I was really scared at the time, I was afraid that they would laugh at me, so I followed their words, I'm sorry, when I wanted to explain, I found ......." ”
Some things are like this, once you miss the opportunity to speak, you will never be able to open your mouth again.
Xia Xin recalled the fragments of junior high school in his mind.
At that time, Su Xiaohan was pure and beautiful, like a white lily, the most beautiful scenery in the class, he was actually not so precocious, after listening to his classmates talk about Su Xiaohan several times, he gradually realized the love between men and women, and realized Su Xiaohan's beauty.
At that time, he often failed exams, Su Xiaohan as the class leader would often help him tutor, the two occasionally stayed in the classroom after school, and then Su Xiaohan forgot to bring an umbrella, he would hold an umbrella to send Su Xiaohan home, or borrow Su Xiaohan a pen in class and other small things, occasionally when Su Xiaohan forgot to bring a book, he would stuff her book into her.
Of course, the price is that he will not only be scolded, but also punished for standing in the back row and cleaning the classroom after school.
It's a trivial thing between the two.
He thought Su Xiaohan was so beautiful and wanted to be close to her, so he didn't have any special ideas.
Until the day of graduation, Su Xiaohan suddenly handed him a love letter and waited for his reply.
Xia Xin still remembers that he couldn't sleep that night with excitement, and his mind was full of Su Xiaohan's figure.
He didn't know how to reply at all, and he didn't know if he liked her or not.
Thinking about treating this love letter carefully, he could neither deceive her, nor hurt her heart, nor be too impatient, nor too procrastinating, and he thought about whether the format of the reply should be in writing or in person.
Fortunately, Su Xiaohan didn't let him worry for too long, and took the initiative to help him reply.
When he stepped into the classroom the next day, all kinds of strange taunts and mocking eyes followed.
Because that scene happened to be seen, he was regarded by his classmates as him handing a love letter to Su Xiaohan.
His classmates were unscrupulously ridiculing him, ridiculing him for his inadequacy.
He heard a girl ask Su Xiaohan with his own ears, "Xiaohan, Xia Xin handed you a love letter, you won't agree, it's so old-fashioned." ”
Su Xiaohan smiled dryly and agreed, "No, how could I agree." ”
"That's right, that's it, just like Xia Xin, how can there be a girl who likes him, giggles, laughs to death."
"Hehe, that's it."
"How can anyone still hand out love letters, why do you have to be a little sincere, buy some gifts and the like, and want to soak our class flowers with a piece of broken paper?"
“……”
After that, Xia Xin no longer had to worry about how to reply to love letters, and people were already very understanding to help him reply to the answer.
The answer is "rejected by the person who handed the love letter".
Xia Xin was not a saint, he was also angry at the time, and even wanted to announce the truth, but after putting himself in Su Xiaohan's shoes, he gave up.
In that case, if she doesn't follow everyone's words, she is a "heretic" and will be isolated, which is something that Su Xiaohan, who is shy and timid by nature, will never dare.
The girl is thin-skinned, Xia Xin will follow him, what is he afraid of as a big man, he laughs when he laughs, and he has a lot of meat.
So he has never mentioned the secret of love letters to anyone in the past three years, if Su Xiaohan hadn't taken the initiative to mention it, he would have rotted in his stomach, and it would be fine to say whatever others say.
Xia Xin is a gentle person in his bones!
Seeing that Su Xiaohan's beautiful eyes were becoming more and more crystalline, and there was a tendency for a mountain torrent, Xia Xinyi put his arm on her shoulder, and said, "Xiaohan, you listen to me, really, I never blamed you, I thank you very much, you are the first girl who likes me." ”
Xia Xin suddenly blushed, scratched his cheeks embarrassedly, and laughed at himself, "Really, maybe you will be the only girl in my life who has ever liked me, I really thank you, and thank you for your love letters, I have always treasured it, after all, it must be the only one in my life." ”
"Well, that's it, that's it, I'm really happy because you liked me, and I really didn't care about the rest."
"Really?" Su Xiaohan looked at him in a daze.
Xia Xin smiled, "Really, if you were the Zixia Fairy, you could fly to my heart to see if I lied to you." ”
Su Xiaohan suddenly breathed a sigh of relief, revealing a relieved expression, "Then, since this is the case, what about us?" ”
"The past, let him pass," Xia Xin said a little abruptly, "It's a very good memory, just let it stay in the memory." ”
"That's not a memory, I waited for you for three years, waiting for your reply, at that time...... You haven't answered me yet. The more Su Xiaohan spoke, the quieter he became, and in the end he was almost silent.
“……”
Su Xiaohan said in a slightly pleading tone, "Xia Xin, shall we start over from university?" ”
Xia Xin stared at her eyes and shook his head slightly, "Don't put too much pressure on yourself, you just feel that you owe me, so you want to compensate me, there is really no need for this, you don't owe me, I don't blame you, since you said it, we will ...... in the future You can still be friends, can't you? ”
"I didn't think about compensation," Su Xiaohan's eyes trembled, her mouth flattened, and she said a little aggrieved, "Isn't it enough to wait for your reply for three years, and I haven't had a good time with other boys, because I like you." ”
Xia Xin sighed slightly and said, "I can't start it, but now, can you still admit that we are boyfriend and girlfriend in front of other classmates, and can you still say that you like me in front of other classmates?" ”
The words were soft and calm, as if there was not the slightest emotional fluctuation.
Every word pierced Su Xiaohan's heart like a needle, making her unable to breathe in pain, and the ruthless words pierced the center of the problem, making Su Xiaohan unable to open her mouth and unable to say the word "can".
How could she have the courage to admit it again in front of everyone when she denied it in front of all her classmates......
Once some things are missed, it is difficult to continue, and the broken mirror can make up for it, and the missed time can no longer be recovered.
There was no word between the two for a long time, Su Xiaohan bit her lip, and tears slid silently down her cheeks.
Xia Xin handed over a tissue and said softly, "I'll send you home." ”
It felt like three years ago.
The sunset, the lakeside, the path, the immature face, the love letter handed by shyly.
It's just that the love letter has been sealed in the dust......