Chapter 545: Expectations and Disappointments
In fact, Xia Xindu had already gone up to the third floor and came to the door of the house, but when he took out the key to go in, he stopped abruptly.
After thinking about it, the ghost sent the god downstairs again.
I made a phone call to tell Summer Night to go to bed early and rushed back to school.
Judging from Zhu Xiaosong's words just now, Zhu Xiaoxuan did not go back, otherwise Zhu Xiaosong would not have called to find him.
But why didn't he make it clear?
Xia Xin came all the way to Jiangnan University, and went around some hidden places that couples like, and peeping places that boys like, but Zhu Xiaoxuan was not found.
Finally, I walked along the campus lake, and suddenly found a pair of calves out of the corner of my eye.
In fact, the moonlight was not bright, and there were only dim street lamps flickering around, Xia Xin's eyesight was not good at all, and he didn't even know how he found out.
It's like following the feeling all the way through the dark,
Sure enough, behind the big tree by the lake, I found Zhu Xiaoxuan's huddled figure.
Under this cool moonlight, under this lonely tree, Zhu Xiaoxuan just sat on the ground with her knees bent and buried her face in the crook of her knees.
The moonlight cast the girl's lonely figure on the bright lake.
A feeling of distress suddenly surged in Xia Xin's heart.
Xia Xin took a step forward and gently pushed Zhu Xiaoxuan's shoulder, "Xiaoxuan,...... Xiaoxuan. ”
Zhu Xiaoxuan slowly raised her little face, her eyes were a little blurred, and it took a long time to gather her focus and recognize Xia Xin, "Wet?" ”
Xia Xin found that Zhu Xiaoxuan's big eyes were filled with some mist, and her eye circles were a little red and swollen, obviously crying.
The eyes have lost the vigor and vitality of the day, and they have lost the cheerful brilliance of the stars, and they are full of loss and sadness.
The pitiful, helpless gaze made people feel more and more distressed.
Xia Xin said softly, "It's late." ”
Zhu Xiaoxuan raised her blurred gaze and looked at the dark sky, and then nodded with a "grace".
"It's time to go back." Xia Xin continued.
"Yes." Zhu Xiaoxuan continued to nod.
"Your brother has called you."
“…… Kindness. ”
“……”
Having said that, Zhu Xiaoxuan had no intention of getting up at all.
Xia Xin thought about it, and without reluctance, he also sat down beside her.
However, he soon found that he did not have any suitable words of comfort, such as "don't be discouraged", "continue to work hard next time", "will definitely succeed next time", etc., did not have any effect, he always felt that these words were said to be equivalent to not saying, but not saying was not the same as saying.
It has no effect on the comforted person, but only to give the comforting person, a psychological comfort that "I have comforted him, I have done a good job, I can leave him alone", not so much to comfort the other party, but to say that these words are just the self-comfort of the comforter.
When Xia Xinwan was distressed, what comforting words should be used as the opening remarks in order to play a miraculous effect, but Zhu Xiaoxuan spoke first.
"Wet, your clothes ......"
“……”
Xia Xin looked down, only to find that he was still wearing a girl's skirt, and he was immediately embarrassed.
I kept thinking about Xiaoxuan, and I forgot to change my clothes before going out.
Xia Xin could only explain with a dry smile, "This, because, that, there happened to be a girl on the road to ...... Yes, I want to try it in a boy's clothes, or she'll ...... That, if I want to die, I changed it with her a little, eh...... I don't think you'll believe that. ”
Zhu Xiaoxuan is not stupid, and after thinking about it for a while, she understands, "Because of the punishment?" ”
The punishment that Shu Yuewu said and the reward she told her, she always remembered.
"Well, that's how it can be explained." Xia Xingan smiled and was speechless again.
These words made Zhu Xiaoxuan's eyes tremble, and her big eyes were full of moisture again.
With a little crying and trembling, he said, "I'm sorry, it's wet, it's all ...... It's all my uselessness and disgrace you. ”
After speaking, he couldn't bear it anymore, buried his little face in the crook of his knee again, and cried out with a "woo", apologizing to Xia Xin while crying, "Wet, I'm sorry, really...... I'm sorry, woo, it's all my fault for being so useless, woo~~I'm sorry~~"
Xia Xin panicked suddenly, "Hey, don't cry, let alone apologize." ”
It's okay now, don't talk about comforting, but I made the other party cry even more excited.
What the hell are you here for?
And, why go out of your way to apologize to yourself?
She's done a great job.
Xia Xinti was busy for a long time, and he didn't see that Zhu Xiaoxuan's crying had a tendency to shrink, but there was a trend of a flash flood coming and getting bigger and bigger.
Sure enough, the girls are made of water.
Finally, Xia Xin made a bold decision.
He couldn't just let her go.
Xia Xin grabbed Zhu Xiaoxuan's shoulder a little harder, and forcefully made her turn around and lean into her arms.
Then, he gently hugged Zhu Xiaoxuan's delicate body, and comforted Zhu Xiaoxuan back and forth with one hand.
"Alright, alright, stop crying, you've done a great job, great."
It lasted like this for a while, and Zhu Xiaoxuan calmed down a little.
In Xia Xin's arms, he sobbed and apologized again, "Wet, I'm sorry." ”
"No, no, you don't have to apologize to me at all, you really, you've done a good job, even if you let the harsh people evaluate, no one will say that you did badly."
"However, you didn't win, you made that bet with her because you believed me, I disappointed you, and embarrassed you, really, I'm sorry." Zhu Xiaoxuan lowered her little face, not daring to look at Xia Xin's eyes at all.
Xia Xineng could hear full of sadness and guilt from Zhu Xiaoxuan's words, and said in her heart, before worrying about herself, maybe, she felt more sorry for me, so she cried.
Therefore, Xia Xin hates what expectations.
If there is no expectation, there is no disappointment.
He is afraid that others will expect from him, and he will not be able to respond to them, and he also feels that he should not have expectations of others, such as now.
It is precisely because she has strong expectations for Xiaoxuan that she is sad because she can't respond to her expectations.
Expectation is a useless thing that puts pressure on others and can't provide any help to others, and Xia Xin feels that this feeling can be completely classified as negative emotions.
If you don't have expectations at the beginning, you won't be disappointed if you fail, and if you succeed, you will have a big surprise, isn't it better......
Hopefully, it's just something that makes people sad......
Xia Xin thought for a while and said, "Xiaoxuan, don't apologize, even if you want to apologize, then the person who should apologize should be me, although it is far away, but I saw it, it was because I screamed that I distracted you." ”
Zhu Xiaoxuan raised her little face and vetoed in a panic and said, "No, no, it's not the fault of the wet, you cheer for me, I'm very happy, I was distracted by myself." ”
"That's it, you've done a good job, I'm very happy, I won't say let me bear it alone, if you want to divide the pot, then let's bear the mistakes together, if there is no fault, then we are not wrong, okay, I am with you."
Xia Xin felt that he was a little cunning, obviously it should be his own fault, but he couldn't think of a better explanation.
Zhu Xiaoxuan was surrounded by Xia Xin, thought about it, didn't want to blame Xia Xin for the mistake, and whispered, "Then, we are not wrong." ”
"Well," Xia Xin nodded and smiled, "Since it's not wrong, then don't cry, okay, it's really a sin, you used to laugh so happily, it seems that I don't know when it started, why do I keep making you cry." ”
Zhu Xiaoxuan retorted in a low voice, "No, I didn't laugh as happily before...... now."
"Okay, then smile more happily, what a beautiful face, it's not good to cry." Xia Xin gently patted Zhu Xiaoxuan's back.
Zhu Xiaoxuan muttered coquettishly, "I'm not pretty." ”
Xia Xin pretended to be serious and said with a straight face, "Don't talk nonsense, you are not beautiful, don't you let the majority of beautiful compatriots jump off the building, then you take the responsibility for the password." ”
Zhu Xiaoxuan was easily amused, "I can't afford it." ”
"That's it, pretty to admit, you don't know how many people are staring at you with bright eyes."
Although they are all perverts, such as a few in the dormitory......
Zhu Xiaoxuan paused and asked timidly, "That, wet, are you staring?" ”
"I,...... Of course, I stared at it. ”
"And where are you staring?"
“……”