Chapter 123: Late Night Talk
"You two explain to them first, you kid come with me." found a place where there were no people, Fan Jiaye explained to Ling Chen and Lu Qingyuan on the side, and directly dragged Du Yanhang and Xu Tingting to the other side.
Du Yanhang reluctantly followed Fan Kaoye to the other side, and suddenly felt that the air was very embarrassing, and he didn't know what to do.
"You two will solve it by yourself, I'll go back there first." Originally, Du Yanhang was waiting for the fan to be able to play a role, but she directly threw down such a sentence, and went back, throwing Du Yanhang and Xu Tingting here.
"Alas......" Du Yanhang was really embarrassed now, the air became more solemn, and the two of them stood opposite each other like this, but neither of them spoke, and they didn't know what to say. It's not that there are too many things that you don't know what to say, it's that there is nothing to say at all.
Du Yanhang stared at Xu Tingting like this, Xu Tingting also stared at Du Yanhang like this, neither of them spoke, no one had any extra movements, they just looked at each other simply......
"Alright, so be it." After a long time, Xu Tingting finally took the lead in speaking, and turned her head to go back.
"Tingting!" Du Yanhang immediately grabbed Xu Tingting's hand.
"What's wrong?" Xu Tingting turned her head and asked.
Du Yanhang didn't know what to say for a while, obviously he had already figured out how to communicate in the last second, but everything disappeared from his mind in an instant.
"That ......" Du Yanhang frowned, "Shall we find a place to sit first?" ”
"Where are you going to sit in the middle of the night?" Xu Tingting immediately asked rhetorically.
"This ......" Du Yanhang didn't know why, he felt that he had never been so nervous, obviously a long time ago, when he went out on a date with Yue Mohan for the first time, he was also nervous to death, but compared to the current situation, it was not at all comparable to the feeling at that time, "It's good to find a step or something...... Standing here in this way, you can't solve any problems. ”
"There is no problem in the first place, where is the solution?" Xu Tingting snorted, "But you let it be, I don't care." ”
Du Yanhang breathed a sigh of relief, looked at the surrounding terrain, found a place with steps, and pulled Xu Tingting to walk over there.
"You can let go of your hand." Xu Tingting said lightly.
"Uh...... I know. Du Yanhang nodded and let go of his hand.
The two of them entered an awkward atmosphere without any communication and sat down on the steps together. But Du Yanhang still couldn't think of anything to say.
"Nothing you want to say?" Xu Tingting turned her head and asked.
"Tingting, we only know what kind of situation you have encountered before, but can you tell us more about it?" Du Yanhang asked, "Actually, although the four of us know each other quite well, we are all strange guys, and if we don't explain some things clearly, there will always be all kinds of contradictions." ”
"I don't want to say it now." Xu Tingting shook her head, "If you want me to say it, you have to show sincerity first, right?" ”
Du Yanhang nodded: "I understand, but I want to tell the two of them directly after dawn today." Actually, I already told Lucia yesterday about my past, and every time I mention it, my heart is twisted. ”
"Then I'll wait until tomorrow." Xu Tingting closed her eyes.
"Okay then." Du Yanhang nodded.
Then the two men went into silence again, a long silence.
"Du Yanhang, do you know why Yue Mowei and Lu Qingyuan don't raise objections to your idea?" Suddenly, Xu Tingting asked such a sentence.
"What?" Du Yanhang was stunned for a moment, he had never thought about this question before, "Mo Wei, she is not a particularly smart girl in the first place, she has always listened to our decisions. Blue Kite ...... She must be on the same page as me! ”
"Fool." After Xu Tingting said these two words, she didn't say anything more.
"Huh?" Du Yanhang was stunned for a moment, but he showed a meaningful smile, "I don't know who is stupid!" ”
"Yue Mowei is not particularly smart...... I've never thought so. Xu Tingting suddenly said, "In my opinion, her wisdom is actually more terrifying than you and Lu Qingyuan combined. ”
Du Yanhang turned his head to look at Xu Tingting, not knowing what she wanted to say.
"And Lu Qingkite, she just forced her to agree with you."
Du Yanhang lowered his head and sighed: "What they know ......"
"Yes, they all know." Xu Tingting nodded, "But they have never been reconciled." is different from Liang Ruolan, the two of them just want to offend Xiaoxue, and they want to rob you. ”
How could Du Yanhang not feel what Ling Chen and Lu Qingyuan meant to him, after all, Du Yanhang can also be said to be a teenager who has been in love three times, although his three loves are experiences that ordinary teenagers and girls will never have. However, for Du Yanhang, it is impossible for him to do something sorry for Qi Duxue, after all, how much that girl has done for himself, Du Yanhang knows very well in his heart, he can feel how important he is in that girl's heart.
"I'll keep an eye on you." Xu Tingting spoke again, but after saying these six words, she fell silent again, and the atmosphere became awkward again.
"Tingting, you are different from everyone else you are to Xiaoxue." After a while, Du Yanhang finally spoke again.
"Because she's a friend I made when I didn't despair of everything." Xu Tingting said, "At that time, she was the person I longed for, and she was the person I always wanted to be. ”
"I see." Du Yanhang nodded.
"At that time, I was a big idiot, I didn't understand anything, I didn't know anything, and I would only ask for help when I encountered something." Xu Tingting continued, "It was she who was able to deal with everything around me at that time, and gave me a way forward. At that time, the two of us committed the second illness together and messed around in the class together. She has always been the one who takes the lead, and I am her follower......" As she spoke, a soft smile appeared on the corner of Xu Tingting's mouth, which was a heartfelt, warm smile of nostalgia for the past.
Du Yanhang looked at Xu Tingting like this, a little stunned, he didn't make a sound, he didn't want to break this beautiful smile. After all, Xu Tingting he knew was either hypocritically charming or indifferent to everything, and he had never seen her like this.
"However, now I don't want to be her, what I want to do is to surpass her and become someone better than her." Xu Tingting's expression suddenly froze, "I'm different from Lu Qingyuan, I'm not trying to prove anything to anyone, I'm just trying to prove the meaning of my own existence." Keep getting stronger, keep getting better, until the moment when there is no one who can surpass it, and my life should come to an end. ”
"Why do you make such a goal a meaning in life?" Du Yanhang asked, "After surpassing everything, will it end directly without doing anything?" ”
"Well, because there's nothing to do."
Du Yanhang sighed helplessly: "Then have you surpassed Xiaoxue now?" ”
"Nope." Xu Tingting shook her head, "Even now, she is much better than me." If it weren't for the incident that Principal Wang did that forced her to leave, it wouldn't be the two of us sitting here now. ”
Du Yanhang nodded: "Indeed, that girl's ability is too strong, so strong that it feels a little unreal." How are you going to surpass her? ”
"Transcend one aspect at a time, until you surpass her in all respects." Xu Tingting said directly, obviously she had already made this plan.
"Then let me tell you a direction first!" Du Yanhang sighed, "Do you think you can take me away from Xiaoxue's side?" ”
Xu Tingting looked at Du Yanhang and shook her head: "You guy is also very scary in some aspects, I won't do that kind of thing with almost zero possibility." ”
"Okay." Du Yanhang nodded and did not speak again. I can't remember how many times the scene has gone silent.
This time the silence lasted the longest, and after a long, long time, Xu Tingting spoke again.
"Du Yanhang."
"What's wrong?"
"Remember, you're a captain, not an emperor yet." Xu Tingting closed her eyes.
When Du Yanhang heard this, he understood that after Xu Tingting had said so much, she finally got to the point of today: "I understand, I'm sorry. ”
"I'm sorry, don't say it to me, say it to the two of them." Xu Tingting shook her head, "They have always changed themselves because of your ideas, and I have always followed my own ideas." ”
"Okay!" Du Yanhang nodded, "I'll pay attention, and I hope you can help me pay attention in the future." ”
"Hmm." Xu Tingting agreed, and after being silent for a while, "I'm sorry." ”
"Why did you apologize?" Du Yanhang asked with a smile.
"My emotions just now were out of control." Xu Tingting replied.
"It's not your fault, it's my fault that made you like that."
"No, I can't allow myself to make mistakes, even if it's because of someone else's mistake." Xu Tingting responded, "Wrong is wrong, always dwelling on the preconditions, your problems are not discovered, and you will never be able to make progress." ”
"You're so strict with yourself!"
"It's just that you're too forgiving to yourselves."
Hearing this, Du Yanhang smiled and nodded: "That's right, you're right." But don't you feel tired of living like this? What are you living this way for? There is no way to be happy, so what is the use of progress? ”
Xu Tingting looked at Du Yanhang and didn't answer his question: "It's time to go back." ”