"No, I refuse!"

Zhang Lan flatly rejected Aunt May's request to take care of Harry and Peter instead of Aunt May.

This was obviously beyond Aunt May's expectations, and even more so for Harry and Peter to understand.

"What? Did I hear me wrong, Blue, you ......"

Peter said to his lips, but he didn't know how to continue, and asked Zhang Lan why he refused to take care of them.

"Peter, shut up! And you Harry. ”

Aunt May reprimanded Peter, and stopped Harry, who was about to speak, and looked at Zhang Lan with a complicated expression, not any blame or distrust, but full of distress:

"Blue, you...... Tired too, right? As a nurse, I understand the feeling of powerlessness when life is out of my hands, and it haunts me in the beginning. ”

After subconsciously rejecting Aunt Mei, Zhang Lan thought that he would wait for Aunt Mei's reprimand, or an indifferent understanding, after all, he was just adopted, didn't he?

What he didn't expect was that what he was waiting for was Aunt Mei's relief, and when it came to the relief in his heart, he had endured the tears that had not flowed before, but under Aunt Mei's relief, he broke out of the embankment.

Seeing Zhang Lan's reaction, Aunt Mei smiled very kindly, wiped away Zhang Lan's tears with her thumb and fingers, her expression was out of focus, and she described the scene recalled in her mind:

"People, there is always life and death, I didn't understand it when I first became a nurse, until a critical care patient I was in charge of died suddenly and died in front of me, I knew the preciousness of life, the kind of life passing away in front of your eyes, and the sense of powerlessness that cannot be stopped, is the barrier I face, which is not taught by textbooks and teachers."

"At that time, when I was about to quit my job, Ben showed up, and he said to me, 'Do you want to do your best to save the hope that others might survive, or do you want someone else to do it?' ”

"It was also at that time that I learned that with great power comes great responsibility."

"The previous leak of the lizard potion at New York University, and the subsequent lizard potions all over New York City, I think it wasn't just Harry who stopped it personally, right? I guess in the middle, you should have taken on most of the responsibility, right? ”

Aunt Mei's last sentence made Zhang Lan recall many pictures in his mind, many pictures that others dare not recall when they are alone.

In the cafeteria of New York University, after Dr. Lizard threw the experimental lizard potion, even if Zhang Lan saved most of his classmates in the end, the severed limbs and stumps in the cafeteria, and later Zhang Lan saw the photos of the scene given by S.H.I.E.L.D., it was a slaughterhouse!

This time, hundreds of classmates died!

The lizard medicine that then pervades New York City is a purgatory on earth, where human order is broken, lizardmen hunt humans, and biological parents do their own children......

This time, the death toll alone is tens of thousands! There are countless injuries and disabilities.

And this cut was all caused by his "World Difficulty +3" at that time, how many days and nights Zhang Lan maintained falling into boundless self-blame and boundless remorse.

Later, Zhang Lan's performance in the "Mutant Act", the blocking of the Statue of Liberty on Manhattan Island, and the rescue at Los Angeles Airport were all in order to prevent more casualties from appearing in his own hands.

Thinking of this, Zhang Lan walked to the floor-to-ceiling window of the office a little sluggishly, looked at New York in front of him, looked at the bustling scene, and finally confided what he thought in front of his closest people:

"Peter, do you remember the death toll in that NYU cafeteria? I remember that there were 241 people, including my own classmates, your teacher. ”

"Harry, Victor's battle was really hard, but even so, that time, 32 civilians died, 32 people, how many classmates are in our class? That's enough for half the class, right? ”

"And the lizard potion that Connors made and dispersed, all over New York City, and 1,341 people died that time, you know what the concept of 1,341 people is? Enough to fill a football field, you know? ”

Speaking of this, Zhang Lan was already choked up, and her voice trembled terribly.

"And as long as I am at that time, as long as I arrive at the scene in advance, as long as I am a little stronger, really as long as I am a little stronger, then a little bit, it can be completely stopped, and they don't have to die at all."

"It's all because I'm not strong enough, you know? Do you know? In the Mutant Registration Act, I tried to defend humanity, I wanted to save them, I didn't want them to die like the people who died horribly. ”

"When I succeeded, you know what they looked at me when I went back to Xavier Academy? At that time, I seemed to see the eyes of you when you looked at me, and I couldn't accept that one day in the future, they would become corpses and lie in front of me, and their relatives would also have heartache, just like when I lost my uncle, I couldn't accept it. ”

"Hehe, I can't accept it at all, so many people will die, obviously as long as I am stronger, as long as I am stronger, as long as I am stronger, I can save so many people, hehe......"

At the end of the talk, Zhang Lan's body was attached to the tempered glass, slid down the glass and fell to the ground, half-kneeling, burying his head and crying.

For many days and nights, these thoughts tormented his heart, showing confidence in front of outsiders, never showing the softness of his heart, he had to be strong, he had to set an example for Peter and Harry, and there was no one to talk to.

Today, under the guidance of Aunt May, he completely opened his heart, faced the most fearful memories in his heart, and released them to his heart's content.

The other three in the room didn't speak, Peter and Harry looked at each other, pursed their lips, took a few deep breaths, and finally couldn't hold back the tears.

The two of them never thought that Zhang Lan was under such a lot of pressure on his shoulders.

Aunt Mei on the side looked at the three brothers who were crying and weeping, sighed lowly, helped Zhang Lan up, pulled him between Peter and Harry, and helped the three of them wipe away their tears one by one, looking at their young faces seriously.

Obviously they are only three children who are only seventeen years old, why do they have to provoke such a heavy pressure?

"Trust me, you've done a good enough job, no one can do it better than you, and even though some people still die, that's not what you want to see, is it? You've saved more people, including the families of the people who died, maybe the wife of the family died, but at least you saved her children, and her husband, the fathers of the children, and no one can accuse you of not doing a good job, can you? ”

Is anyone capable of doing the job?

No one will be qualified again but themselves.