[This is not the moment you think]

Sitting in the seat of the shuttle, the words he had spoken in the past whistled past his ears, and watching the blue of the sea gradually fade away under his feet, Arrando's neck twitched violently.

My Last Command... 】

The illusion of his lover's death came out of front of his eyes in the illusion of a battlefield filled with steel and blazing light, causing the scarred veteran to close his eyes as if his eyes had been flashed by a flash of bright light, and after a while, Arlando raised his hand violently and pressed the throbbing veins under the frozen metal-like skin on his neck. He held the vein down for a few moments before he shuddered and pulled out a small plastic bag from the pocket of his torn clothes that he refused to take off, and then took two lozenges from it and swallowed them.

"What kind of medicine is this, Captain." K59 sat across from Arlando in silence until the shuttle left the atmosphere and Arrando stopped convulsing.

"Medication for anxiety and high blood pressure, a gift from a psychiatrist with high blood pressure in a shantytown," Allando sighed as he looked at the empty bag, "I saved my daughter who escaped with him when she was about to be raped by the marauders, this was the only medicine he had at that time, it was a thank you gift to me, to help me lower my heart rate and blood pressure, to prevent my blood from spurting out of my skin, and I finished eating... ”

"Captain, anxiety and high blood pressure medicine for your current symptoms...

"Do you expect me to have a doctor there, the shantytowns are all there is to fuck and I need even a little ... A little bit of medicine is fine... Arlando muttered tremblingly, his voice lowering.

Look at Arlando in front of him. Bakina, Zeon's officer, Moon Blade, codenamed K59. A sense of incongruity welled up in Whiteside's heart---- something had disappeared from the man in front of him, he was no longer the high-spirited young ace, not even the young officer with a sad face because of the sorrow on the battlefield, nor the man who smiled because of love, nor the thinker who had guided him...

If you say Arlando. Bakina was once a statue, and K59 was an admirer, and K59 now inevitably felt as if some important parts had been removed from that statue. And out of the fear of not wanting to be crushed to death by the falling statue, 59 almost instinctively moved to the side, as if to avoid the cracked statue-like man--- weather, broken, lifeless...

Seeing the actions of his former subordinates, Arlando just blinked, and his mouth didn't even have a sarcastic arc. As if stung by this unresponsive numbness, K59 reopened its mouth:

"Captain, you...

"What am I," as if the ancient, cracked statue had suddenly been given life, Arrando's swift reply startled K59, "I may not be able to sense your Samuel waves, but you know, in that everyone's eyes, everyone's facial movements, everyone's fucking breath is like a stone statue, but everyone's actions are based on [kill you] as the standard, I learned something--- I don't need brainwaves to know what you're thinking59, you think I'm going to break and fall, and you, Fear of being hit by splinters, am I right? Am I right?! What the fuck am I talking about!! ”

Leaning over and roaring like this, Arlando's chest erupted with a snoring sound that was somewhere between a machine and a beast, and he suddenly slumped back, as if the power that had moved the statue had suddenly vanished. K59, who suddenly understood what was driving the man in front of him, felt a sour feeling welled up in his eyes, and crystal tears slid down K59's cheeks, flying in gravityless space, and then smashed into Arlando's face, sending out a bomb-like roar in the other person's ears.

The purring in Arlando's chest stopped:

"You're right to be afraid, 59, I understand, you hate my words, I understand, but one thing you have to make clear is that the way I can hurt you and the others around me is not the debris I created when I collapsed, I am something inside me."

"War destroys too many things, humanitarians will tell you that war destroys life and humanity, artists will tell you that war destroys art and monuments, economists will tell you that war destroys wealth; There are so many things that war can bring, humanitarians will tell you that war can bring reflection and suffering about human nature, artists will tell you that war will bring heroic stories, economists will tell you that war can bring more jobs, politicians will tell you that war can bring peace... But as people who have experienced the war firsthand, you and I, we both know that it is nothing more than comprehensive bullshit for us ... ”

“。。。 What have you lost and what have you gained to become who you are ... Now so, Captain ... K59 lowered his head and let out a muffled voice.

"The war has taken away my name, I am no longer Guo Zhouyi, or even Arlando anymore. Bakina, no longer Zeon's Thunder; The war gave me a new name, warrior, then soldier, then rebel, deserter. The war has taken away the truth that I know, my brothers and sisters, my comrades, my love, the enemies that all these people fought against and the future they fought for, and in its place was the truth that was given to me and had to accept the approval of the world ... ”

"War has drilled a hole in my head, taken away what sustains a man, takes away the scaffolding that can make a man happy--- [his love, the respect he receives, his family]; My lover is now on the other side of the tombstone, and all I can do is run into the cold realm; The respect I once had was gone, and now all I got was fear and doubt; My family is shattered, she died, Kotaro died, too many people died... ”

"The war took my name, took my truth, took love, respect, and family, and poured something new into the hole he opened in me--- pain, anger, remorse, indifference, numbness... These things are mixed together like strong acids, eroding the one you see now," Arlando said and pointed to himself, "This container, eroding me, making me crack, look at me, this is not a man who saved a planet, this is a man who has lost a lot from the inside who has been eaten alive ... ”

K59 slowly looked up at Arlando, at his lava-like veins under the bandage.

"You should be afraid of me, but not of my fragments, for the fragments of my vessel have no weight, and they cannot crush people even if they are broken; What you should be afraid of is what I am carrying in this container now, because it will eat you alive. Now, if you don't have anything to say or do, stay away from me, I still have to keep things from erupting ... With that, Arlando shut his mouth.

"Captain... Feeling as if his throat was really being looked down on by acid, K59 felt a burning and tearing pain eat away at his words, preventing him from being able to complete sentences.

"Don't worry, you've done well enough," Arlando pressed one of the bandages on his face with his fingers, moistening his fingertips with tears and holding it up to K59's eyes, "That tear is enough for now, enough for me to keep this container for a while, thank you。。。。。。 Now, can you leave me alone for a while, and then let me be alone for a while before I go back to the last place where I rebelled and left me... ”

"Captain, yes..."

"Say no more, leave me alone for a while... Like a doll that consumed too much of the electricity, Arlando's voice withered along with his figure.

The small cabin was plunged into darkness, and a dull cry rang out after the hatch closed, after venting the acid in his body, Arlando. Bakina pressed his hand to his chest--- a ring forged in an induction frame that had been forged with his flesh by the flames of hell:

"Honey, help me, give me strength, give me the strength to hold on to your last command...

The light of the stars shone in through the window of the shuttle, shining faintly on the ring that had been smelted together with flesh and blood.

[Dear... A gentle murmur sounded in the next moment, as if it had never left.