“……”

Xia Xin paused and did not answer.

Su Xiaohan met her gaze unrelentingly, with an expression that she must know, and met Xia Xin's eyes, as if Xia Xin didn't say anything, she would keep staring at Xia Xin like this.

For a moment, the corners of Xia Xin's mouth twitched.

The way of the heart, once upon a time?

When I was ignorant, did I ever feel moved by Su Xiaohan?

Have you ever liked Su Xiaohan?

Xia Xin himself actually doesn't know very well.

Junior high school, that is, fifteen or sixteen years old, is the same age as flowers.

At that time, Xia Xin was actually very embarrassed, he was different from other students, just to survive and take care of his sister, he had exhausted all his strength.

He actually didn't have the heart to gossip about whether XX and so-and-so were elephants in the same place, XX held hands with so-and-so, whether so-and-so had a crush on so-and-so, and he kept peeking at him in class.

He has to work as a cheap job, take a salary from Weibo, and then take care of his teenage sister alone, and also pay attention to dealing with trivial chores such as laundry, cooking, and taking out the garbage in life, and often have to deal with the trouble of finding the door, fighting with people, and at the same time being scolded by teachers for poor grades, and being left alone to write homework after school.

Or...... Not alone.

The girl who studied the best, beautiful as a mimosa, would also stay, with a little shy, a little elegant, and a shy smile, adding a bit of beauty and touching brilliance to his gray, punished after-school time.

At that time, Xia Xin's life was basically black and white, between running around and being poor and depressed, and suffering from the white eyes and ridicule of others.

Probably, the time spent alone with the beautiful and lovely Su Xiaohan after school is the only color scene in his black and white life.

How the two got acquainted, Xia Xin couldn't tell the difference for a long time.

Maybe it was a rainy day, he threw his umbrella to Su Xiaohan, and then ran back in the rain, maybe it was a certain time Su Xiaohan took the initiative to guide him to a few questions, in short, at that time, the cute and beautiful girl who was as cute and beautiful as a rabbit when she spoke timidly, blushed when she said a word to the boy, and her eyes were dodgy, knew Xia Xin.

Yes, it can only be described as awareness.

No one would think that there would be any cattiness or romance between these two people, Xia Xin, as one of the most inconspicuous characters in the class, has poor learning, is poor, and is not handsome, how can he have anything to do with the goddess in the minds of many boys in the class, and Su Xiaohan, the class flower.

The gap is like that between a toad and a swan.

Even if it is a girl who gossips, she is not interested in the gossip of the two, it is nothing more than Su Xiaohan, who is kind-hearted and cares about her classmates, and works hard to help the poor student with his homework, which is very common in other classes.

But, no matter what, Xia Xin likes that kind of time after school, likes the two of them to sit in a row, and likes Su Xiaohan to explain the topic to him with a slightly red face, although he is not listening at all.

Most of the time he was thinking in his mind, Su Xiaohan's voice was so good, gentle, soft, did girls have such good voices, he didn't know, he rarely talked to girls, or to be precise, few girls were willing to talk to him.

And then the brain will still spin, similarly, Su Xiaohan's fingers are really thin, thinner than most girls, very white, very good-looking, it would look better if the nails were longer, but she is a good girl, she will cut her nails frequently, and there is a fragrance on her body, faint, you have to get close to smell it, why is there a fragrance on the girl's body, but not on the boy's body? But it smells good.

Her mouth looks so small, how is she going to eat? It's a conundrum.

In short, Xia Xin is not a good student, he doesn't do bad things, and he doesn't have any thoughts of studying hard, and there are always a lot of messy thoughts in his head, most of which are out of curiosity and yearning for the opposite sex, or in other words, curiosity and yearning for Su Xiaohan.

That time was a rare time in his life to look forward to, he looked forward to the time after school, looked forward to the short break, looked forward to the beautiful face and shy smile, which could eliminate his fatigue, let him relax, not to think about other troubles, he enjoyed the simple and happy time wholeheartedly, and occasionally his heartbeat would be inexplicably "bang bang" acceleration.

Yes, he did look forward to it, and he looked forward to a better tomorrow.

It was like a rainy day, the only rainbow for people to rest.

Until that day, he unexpectedly received a love letter from Su Xiaohan with a blushing face, in fact, he was completely inexplicable, because no matter what others said, he didn't think about it, didn't want to think about it, or, didn't dare to think about it!

Anyway, that afternoon, for him, it was as if the haze had dissipated and the sun was shining on the earth, which made the gray and white scenery around him shine again, and even the teacher, who usually looked annoying, became amiable.

The heart is always working at a high frequency, and it can't calm down even when sleeping.

All night, Xia Xin was thinking about how to answer.

He has thought about many, many situations, and he has thought of many, many answers, and he tries to consider the other person's feelings, and tries to make the most correct answer.

As for his answer at the time...... It doesn't matter anymore.

Because he doesn't need to answer, the other party already has an answer.

When he came to the door of the classroom, he heard several girls talking and laughing, "I heard that Xia Xin handed you love letters?" Really? ”

"Ahh

"Isn't it that Xia Xin who is terrible, that's Xia Xin."

Then there was another neat burst of laughter, and Xia Xin could clearly distinguish it from it, and there was Su Xiaohan's echoed laughter.

"It's really old-fashioned to hand over love letters, besides, just him, he doesn't look at his face in the mirror first, good-looking people are called confessions, and those who look like him can only be called sexual harassment."

Immediately, the ridicule of several girls rang out.

"Xiaohan, have you figured out how to refuse?"

Then Su Xiaohan trembled and echoed, "Think, think about it." ”

"Oh, Xiaohan's words must be very euphemistic again, taking care of the other party's self-esteem."

"No, no, he dared to hand a love letter to Xiaohan with a shy face, he already had no self-esteem from the beginning, shameless, no need to be tactful."

"Haha, that's to say, I don't look at my own virtues, how can any girl be willing to associate with him, it's too embarrassing, right, Xiaohan."

"Yes, yes."

Then there were the ridicule of several girls, among which there was naturally Su Xiaohan's echoed laughter.

How big a blow this hit Xia Xin, probably only Xia Xin himself knows, anyway, since then, he no longer has expectations, convinced that no good things will come to him, as long as he doesn't have expectations, there will be no disappointment, let alone harm.

No matter what others say, Xia Xin is also silent about the love letter.

Of course, with Xia Xin's temperament, he was also angry with Su Xiaohan at the beginning, and even wanted to expose her in public, and the two broke up.

He felt a betrayal at the time.

However, after thinking about it calmly, he gave up this idea, he knew Su Xiaohan's temperament, Su Xiaohan was more timid and cowardly, she was afraid of being ridiculed, afraid of being excluded by other girls, standing in Su Xiaohan's position, if she didn't agree at the time, what could she do, tell the truth, and let herself become a laughing stock?

Yes, if you want to say wrong, you are also at fault, and it is a kind of shame to associate with yourself, and this situation will occur, isn't it your own fault?

Xia Xin didn't blame Su Xiaohan, and he couldn't forgive Su Xiaohan, he was grateful to Su Xiaohan for adding a bit of brilliant color to his gray sky, although in the end, the sky became grayer, but he felt that it was not Su Xiaohan's fault.

Even from another point of view, he learned from this incident that "there is no expectation, there is no disappointment", and since then, he has never been hurt again, because from the beginning, there was no hope.

Most of the road of his life is also like this, step by step, stepping on the rugged and bumpy road, and coming through it with difficulty.

Xia Xin thought that he would have nothing to do with Su Xiaohan from then on, but he really didn't expect that the two would be like this......

Xia Xin sighed softly, looked at Su Xiaohan's poignant pale little face under the quilt, and said softly, "Why do you ask this, isn't it good to let it pass like this?" ”

"Because, I care, because, I want to know." Su Xiaohan said this, his lips trembled, his eyes were slightly red, but he gritted his teeth and continued, "Even if it is something else, there is nothing to say, because if you think about it, between us,...... There is no future,...... Only the past. ”

"......" Xia Xin was speechless, he didn't quite understand what kind of psychology Su Xiaohan was, why he asked this.

Su Xiaohan asked again, "Xia Xin,...... Have you ever liked me? Even if...... Only for a moment. ”

"I ......"