Chapter 13: Suicide Note
Dear companions, if you get this letter, I will be dead. However, I wish I had been discovered by you! Maybe then I can live a little longer, after all, I have you, and I am reluctant to leave.
I knew that if I made this decision, I would probably leave forever, but I was ready and it just happened. It was a real pleasure to be with all of you during this time, and I never thought that I would be able to live happily ever after for a while. It's been short, but I'm already satisfied. After experiencing happiness once in a lifetime and then leaving, there should be nothing unworthy!
Okay, okay, I know I talk a lot, I can't help it, I'm always like this to make some people hate, I deliberately said more in order to fit in with them, and in the end it backfired. The point is that I'm so stupid, I don't have a long memory again and again, and I always fall in the same place.
However, I really don't know what to write about writing on this, and I can't say anything now, even though I usually have so many words. In that case, let me tell you my story!
When I was a child, I was actually a very ordinary girl, I also liked to eat snacks, I also liked to wear cute clothes, I wanted to dress myself up beautifully, and I hoped that a prince charming of my own would suddenly appear and enjoy that fairytale life with me.
But when did I change? Actually, I don't know, when I realized it, I had become what I am now, when I didn't want to speak, I would talk nonsense regardless of the occasion; I obviously want to enjoy the peace for a while, but I always jump around like a monkey. Really, I really don't look like a girl, maybe that's the reason, I'm pretty good-looking, and I'm not a bad person, but no boy has ever said he likes me! Haha, if I leave like this, this should be my only regret!
Of course, I lied because ...... There was actually someone who said they liked me before. I'm writing this, and there's a big reason it's because of him, the bastard who once shattered all my beautiful imaginations. I remember a man once said that hurting a girl's heart is more cruel than killing her, and this is an unforgivable sin. Although I think what he said is a bit excessive, it is not so outrageous! Maybe it's because of this sentence that I chose revenge after seeing him that day, and even if I die, I will never regret making this choice. Anyway, for me, everything worth cherishing is gone, and I am already a person with nothing, so what reason is there to stop?
That man cheated me about my feelings, he cheated my body, he cheated me out of my money, and finally threw me to the point of being spurned by everyone, if I don't take revenge, is there any point in living?
I don't know if you two are watching Hang and Mo Wei, although you want revenge and I want revenge, you need to go the same way, but I don't want to trouble you, just like you two entered the death game to fight on your own, I also want to complete my own revenge through my own efforts, I want to prove it to that bastard with my own hands, let him know what a terrible person he offended!
As much as I wanted to write down everything I had done before, I was afraid that I would cry as I wrote it......
Haha, yes, I'm still crying! I almost forgot! I have cried happily since that day when I knew that everything was deceived by him, and I have never cried again, not in that kind of inspirational way to say anything like "turning tears into motivation" or anything like that, but I feel that I can no longer feel anything that can make me feel pain, but why do I still feel tears oozing out now? Really, it's so unlike me, not like me at all...... Obviously, this may be the last memory left for you, but I am acting like such a waste, which is so unusual!
Do I regret it now? Do you regret making this potentially deadly decision? Probably not! I don't think that's the right thing to do! I finally got such an opportunity, how could I give it up? You know, that person deceived me and not only took away that, he took away all my happiness and joy! Because of him, my parents also had an accident, and my grandmother also died of a sudden illness due to excessive sadness...... That's right, it's a heart attack, so I was so worried when I saw the green kite that day......
I've always lived alone, it's been two years, two years have been able to completely change a person, I'm no longer the stupid girl who only cried to my mother before, and only longed for help from others, I want to strive to become a person who is admired by others, and I want to work hard to make everyone look up to me!
Principal Wang, I don't know if you are watching, I really thank you, you are the first person who is willing to trust me like this, even if I know that you have done something to deceive everyone, I have not left, because I know that you are the first person to believe in me, and I am willing to contribute my strength for your belief.
But ah, the four of them are so good, there is no way to do it, let them go in the final game, I just need to be able to watch them win the championship in the audience, I believe they can definitely do it!
There's one thing I shouldn't care, but I want to say something. Hang, don't be like this again, it's okay to be ruthless, otherwise Qing Kite and Mo Wei will be sad in the end. I can feel it, you have only Xiaoxue in your heart from beginning to end, since this is the case, don't let the other two girls feel the possibility. Maybe you think you're just doing something you're supposed to do as a partner! Of course, I can't say that you don't think about others, after all, I have seen how you usually think about everyone, I can only say that you still don't understand the hearts of girls!
And Tingting, you have to be careful, maybe when, your heart will be deceived! There is also light snow, fire prevention, anti-theft and anti-girlfriends!
Haha, I'm really a mouthy and nasty guy! After talking about so many things that have nothing to do with herself, she is simply an old woman!
Well, I won't say more, thank you for your care and trust during this time, no matter what happens in the future, you will always be my favorite people! You will always be my most important companions.
If I have the opportunity, I am willing to be your companion again in the next life.
Love you, Han Yelin.
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"It's really ......" Xu Tingting gritted her teeth tightly, tears couldn't help but slide down her cheeks, "It's not reassuring to be dead...... And let me ......."
She is actually the same as Han Yelin, she hasn't cried for a long time, but when she saw this, she couldn't help the sadness in her heart, her own tears, drop by drop, fell on this piece of paper that was already soaked in tears, mixed with those tears that already existed, blurring more words......
This was the big room they were staying in......
Everything else has been removed, but the basic furniture is still there. Xu Tingting didn't know why she came to Han Yelin's room, why she opened the bedside table that should have been empty, and why she saw the letter in the innermost......
"Tingting, what's wrong?" At this time, Xu Meihao also came over, if it was before, she would never call Xu Tingting like this, but what happened during this time directly touched the wound in her heart. There are already two companions on the run, and another companion lost his life in the death game, and now everyone who is still around is an important existence.
"Ye Lin's suicide note." Xu Tingting wiped the tears on her cheeks, and said in a choked voice.
"Suicide note?" Xu Meihagi was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly walked over, "She's ...... Suicide? ”
Xu Tingting shook her head and handed the letter to Xu Meihao, still not feeling good in her heart. If Xie Xiaoyun's suicide some time ago could not cause fluctuations in her heart because the two of them were not familiar at all, then now Han Yelin's death directly gave her a huge awakening.
That's right, the Holy Grail Battlefield, since it's called a battlefield, how can it not be dead? This is originally a game of struggling on the death line, but so many people don't think about it, and only know to enjoy the so-called academy life. But is college life really that good? No matter where you are, you are a part of this world, and even if it doesn't happen in front of you, there will always be somewhere misfortune is happening. Only when we find that misfortune has happened in front of us will we understand that in fact, life here is not so beautiful at all, just a life obtained by the passage of time, without the foundation of hard work, and in the end there will be nothing.
Maybe at some point, misfortune will befall you, so why don't you do something about it as soon as possible? Blindly expect your own good luck, and one day your luck will get worse.
Of course, those who have not experienced misfortune should just laugh it off!
Only those who have experienced something can understand this sense of crisis!
"Hagi-chan, let's go back!" Xu Tingting stood up, "Take this, but don't show it to Qing Kite yet, she has been in a lot of pain this time." ”
Xu Meihao nodded, packed the letter, put it in the mezzanine in her bag, and buttoned the mezzanine buttons.
This is a companion, the last treasure left, and it must be left intact.