The two don't usually come to the playground for a walk.

Because there are too many people in the playground, Xia Xin is not used to this kind of crowded place, there will be many people watching the two, usually watching Shu Yuewu first, and then paying attention to him, occasionally there will be disdainful people, and occasionally there will be people who show a "flower inserted in cow dung" expression, in short, there will be many people who pay attention to him, Xia Xin is not used to it, and he is not used to being intimate with Shu Yuewu in such a crowded place.

This is also why he didn't kiss it last time, and then he was bitten by Shu Yuewu.

So the two usually pick a path where there are few people, or even no one......

If it were someone else, Shu Yuewu would still think that this person was going to take himself to a place where there was no one and do something quietly, but Xia Xin's words would be forgotten, there were no people, and he never did anything.

So, Shu Yuewu doesn't mind where to go.

She sometimes even thinks that even if she stripped naked and stood in front of him, he wouldn't do anything.

It was for this reason that she believed in Xia Xin, and he would not have anything to do with that senior sister at all.

Of course, we still have to be angry.

It wasn't until Xia Xin calmly proposed to go to the playground that she was very surprised.

She was keenly aware that something had changed in Xia Xin's body.

"Huh? Why don't you go? ”

Xia Xin looked at Shu Yuewu who stopped suspiciously.

Shu Yuewu glanced at Xia Xin deeply, shook her head and said, "It's okay." ”

At this time, it was already past 9 o'clock in the evening, and there were indeed quite a few couples walking on the playground.

In the evening, the most densely populated areas of the school are the playground and the grove.

The playground is used to do things that can be done in broad daylight, and the grove behind the school is used to do things that are unsightly between sneaky couples.

The two walked slowly on the playground, Xia Xin kept looking ahead, and Shu Yuewu lowered her head, eating ice cream while thinking about Xia Xin's affairs.

After a while, I heard Xia Xin ask, "Are you cold?" ”

Shu Yuewu replied in a cold voice without raising her head, "Do you want to say that you are also cold, so let's hurry up and go back to the bedroom to keep warm." ”

"Please, where do you want to go?"

"As if you hadn't done it."

It stands to reason that the normal routine should be for the boy to ask the girl if she is cold, and the girl nodded shyly and said, "A little." ”

Then the boy took off his coat and put it on the girl, and said gently, "Be careful, don't freeze." ”

Then the two went all the way sweetly.

And when it comes to Xia Xin, it is, such as the last time.

Xia Xin asked, "Are you cold?" ”

Shu Yuewu nodded delicately, "A little." ”

Then Xia Xin moved the coat he was wearing, and Shu Yuewu still thought about the wood.

Hearing the sound of the zipper of the coat, Shu Yuewu also deliberately said reservedly, "No need, you will be cold if you take it off." ”

"I take it off? I didn't take it off. ”

As soon as Shu Yuewu looked up, she saw Xia Xin tightening her coat, zipping her coat full, sealing her neck, hugging her arms and saying, "Indeed, I'm also quite cold, let's go back to the dormitory early." ”

Even if he had already bitten it, now that he thought about it, Shu Yuewu couldn't wait to bite a few more bites of meat on Xia Xin's body.

"Please, I saw that you were wearing so little, I was afraid that you would catch a cold."

Xia Xin said and put one hand on Shu Yuewu's shoulder, letting Shu Yuewu lean towards his side.

This made Shu Yuewu even more surprised, Xia Xin would take the initiative to ...... Made?

Still choosing to come to the playground?

Didn't you do something sorry for me again!

Shu Yuewu was deeply skeptical of this.

Xia Xin, on the other hand, looked ahead and didn't think much about it, just took a walk with Shu Yuewu.

If you have to say why this change occurred, it is related to what Yanmei said before.

At that time, talking to Yanmei, Xia Xin suddenly understood a lot, understood what his father often said, "Because you are a man", the specific meaning of these words, and also understood his father's real expectations, of course, and his mother's expectations.

Going deeper, it's called "love".

Father's love and mother's love!

Now recalling the sporadic childhood situation, Xia Xin understands that his parents have invested a lot of love and expectations in him.

My father was angry, that was angry that he hated iron but not steel, and he would only use clumsy expressions, but fortunately, my mother has always been very gentle and made up for this.

It is the expectations of his parents, or in other words, the love of his parents, that gives Xia Xin confidence, motivation, and the courage to face it calmly.

Since junior high school, Xia Xin has always been a child without parents, and it has been 6 years like this.

No one knows how he survived.

Children without parents are discriminated against, how unpopular they are, and how difficult their daily lives are, all of which only he knows.

At the same time, he has to force a smile and take care of his sister so as not to make her sad.

Those who have not experienced this will never understand.

Xia Xin has always suffered from the cold eyes and shirk of his relatives, the ridicule and disdain of his classmates, the indifference and discrimination of his teachers, and the injustice and unfair treatment.

He had to bear everything on his own shoulders, and no one could help him.

Growing up in this environment, it is not easy to maintain your personality and character and ensure that you do not go down the wrong path.

As for what to say in any cruel environment, we must maintain confidence, courage, self-confidence, bravely face difficulties, and strive to make some achievements, so that others are surprised by these chicken soup words, that is, some "brick families" who stand and talk without back pain are used to fool people.

It's always easier to say than to do.

Those who have not experienced it will not understand how difficult it is to live every day.

If other people live in the human world, Xia Xin lives next door to hell, and his environment has always been very cruel.

The best thing he can do is to keep himself, follow his father's wishes, take care of the remaining sisters, follow his mother's wishes, treat others gently, do not steal, do not rob, do not cheat, do not do bad things, ensure the existence of himself, do not have a conscience, hold his chest high, and be neither humble nor arrogant.

In the past, the biggest motivation to support him to live was to make money and work hard to make money to cure his sister's illness.

No matter how calm he is on the outside, his heart is also gloomy, but he is good at hiding, suppressing, and never venting it.

Even, he is a little inferior and lacks confidence, even if measured by the popular standards of the world, he can be regarded as an outstanding young man with an annual income of one million, which cannot make up for his loss of confidence and confidence because of the lack of parents.

He has nothing!

Not only materially, but not even talented.

He has no talent for learning, his academic performance has not improved, and his memory is not particularly good.

He has no talent for work, his work has always been ordinary, and he has exchanged his hard physical strength for payment, and he doesn't even have much more strength than others.

As for anything like Chen Dong's shooting talent that surprised even photography teachers, Zeng Jun's talent for easily making girls happy, and so on, he didn't have anything.

Yes, reality is not a fairy tale, hard work does not necessarily have results, and when God closes one door for you, it does not necessarily open another door for you.

He really had nothing, not even the expectation, trust, or gaze of others.

In this case, as long as you are not lacking in heart, you will definitely feel about your own situation, as for what confidence, confidence, if there will be strange, where do you get the confidence and confidence, who can you compare with?

If you are not afraid of comparing goods, you are afraid of comparing people.

From childhood to adulthood, no one has ever expected Xia Xin.

No one expected him to do anything.

The teacher didn't expect him to get results, and most of the thoughts were not to cause trouble for himself, and it would be fortunate to be criticized by the principal.

The classmates either ignored him or ridiculed him, not to mention the expectations for him, that is, they hoped that this wild child without a father and mother would do something funny to make himself happy.

The boss and colleague who work don't expect anything from his thin body, and they don't expect him to do anything as an uneducated junior high school student.

Nothing to expect!

This also created Xia Xin's consistent idea that it is plain and unobtrusive.

He didn't have much confidence or confidence.

So, what he used to say is, there is no expectation, there is no disappointment.

No one expects anything from him, and he doesn't expect anything from anyone, so he won't be disappointed and won't get hurt.

This is a kind of self-protection of Xia Xin.

It's like a bird that breaks out of its shell, in order to protect itself from the outside world, it takes the initiative to retract into its shell, not to contact other birds, and it doesn't plan to fly in the blue sky.

What he has to do is to do what he has to do and take care of his only remaining family, which is the only belief in his life!

If a psychologist analyzes it, you will understand that Xia Xin's situation is a typical lack of love, no love, no confidence, no confidence, and even low self-esteem hidden deep in his heart.

It's not easy to keep yourself up.

But...... He understood from the smoke.

It's not that there is no love and no expectation on my own.

Parents have always had the greatest expectations for themselves.

Although his father didn't speak, he was still very fierce, but his eyes were always on himself, always watching what he was doing, what he was going to do, always looking at himself, always looking at himself, and then when he needed to, he would come over with a straight face and teach himself that he would not be able to do this little thing, and then teach himself what to do step by step.

His mother always hugged him very gently, saying some gentle words, Xia Xin was used to his mother's warm voice, probably longing for his mother to be the foundation of his own character.

Parents are always paying attention to themselves.

He also knows that he has too many expectations from his parents, and there is a strong unspeakable love.

It was the love and expectations of his parents that made Xia Xin regain his confidence.

It's probably similar to a child's vindictive saying:

The rest of you are nothing to be angry with, my parents also love me, so I don't have nothing, I still have my parents, even if they are no longer there, but what they put on me, love and expectations, will always be with me.

Mom and Dad were watching me all the time.

I don't need to envy anyone else at all, I am who I am.

Even if no one expects anything from me, my parents expect much more from me than your parents combined.

This is Xia Xin's confidence, self-confidence.

Or, to put it in a more colloquial way:

Xia Xin felt love!

A child who has lacked love since he was a child, feels love!

This is the confidence for him to hold his head high, walk beside a bunch of couples, and look ahead bravely!

Confident, he is no worse than anyone else, and some people have expectations of him!

The love that his parents put on him is his courage to face everyone's eyes!

Therefore, Shu Yuewu felt that something had changed in Xia Xin's body, and inadvertently raised his head and found that Xia Xin's eyes were brighter, and there was a feeling that the dark clouds that shrouded his eyes suddenly dispersed.

Shu Yuewu felt that Xia Xin's eyes were more moving than before......