Bismarck's frustration
night
The beach outside the town guard house
Bismarck sat quietly on the protruding reef on the beach, his red eyes staring blankly at the cold wind in the distance, his long silver hair drifting away with the wind, floating in the silent night sky with sadness.
If Yamato, who stayed in the room and happily looked at the oath ring in the red box, was the biggest winner of this game, then Bismarck, who sat alone in the cool breeze in a daze, was a complete loser. As the saying said in the game, the biggest loser is either someone else or the second place, obviously only the last step is missing to win, but that step is like a chasm, out of reach. And she is a lonely figure standing outside the chasm, unable to feel any joy, and deeply branded with failure.
Bismarck sighed slightly at the surface of the sea, revealing a wry smile of weakness. This is a frustration that she has never felt in the past, as if she lost this game and lost the whole world, and she can no longer say to herself that she still has a chance, and she has not completely lost everything.
The battleship Bismarck has carried the name of Bismarck, the iron-blooded prime minister, from the beginning of its birth, and pinned on the glory and hope of the entire German Empire, so she also appeared in this world with an iron-blooded military character, with a firm will and high morale, like a brave man who will never be defeated, protecting his admiral with the main gun and long sword in his hand.
It stands to reason that such a self should not be depressed because of a defeat in a game, but when she recalled the last moments of the battle, when she finally showed her weak side, she knew that she was no longer the Bismarck who didn't care about anything and could give up everything, at least she didn't want to die like this at that time, because in the picture that flashed in front of her eyes, there were Tirbitz and the commander.
In the past, when I was fighting on the deep sea front, I would always bring my sister who liked to stay at home with her favorite things when she returned to the academy, sometimes it was a comic book, sometimes it was a dinner she had carefully selected. I thought that such a peaceful day would go on until the day she was buried at sea, until she met her former comrade-in-arms, the avant-garde who had stumbled and recklessly come to the Royal Naval College to beg for her help.
In that eye, which was as strong as herself, she saw for the first time a look called weakness, as if it were an abandoned child, stretching out her feeble hand and praying for the last light.
It was hard for her to imagine that a shipwreck who had been the secretary general of the Governor's Mansion would look like that, kneeling in front of her like a dog with a broken spine and praying. It wasn't until later, after she saw this young figure, after coming into contact with this admiral who was called a fool by the avant-garde, that she finally reached the avant-garde's mood at that time, and also let her see the admiral she was looking forward to.
The Admiral and the Shipwreck are the most important characters in this world, playing the role of the savior of the world, because only they can keep the deep sea out of the battle line, and only they can give this world the last pure land where they can rest in peace. However, the ship girl is the existence of a weapon in the eyes of many admirals, and since it is a weapon, it means that it can be given up when life and death are at stake, so when many admirals choose between their own lives and the life of the ship girl, although they are reluctant, although they don't want to, they will still choose the latter.
Humans are the spirits of all things, and this is because they are born superior to other creatures, even if they are almost indistinguishable from them. And the boy in the avant-garde mouth is not such an existence, she said that he was the biggest fool in the world, and at the same time sobbed and shed tears for his disappearance.
If a person can sacrifice for the sake of others in his last moments, then his last move will be remembered by all. And that fool has always existed in the hearts of the avant-garde and the other shipwives, even if they don't find the figure who said they would return, and don't wait for him to keep the promise, no matter how long it has been, Bismarck believes that the entire town guard will still exist, and will still exist in the name of the prayer.
Although the ship girls may fall apart because of the disappearance of the Admiral, no one will forget that figure that day, and it is precisely because of his existence that everyone has the possibility and chance to live. In the end, the fool kept his promise and returned to the town guard that was waiting for him.
On that day, Bismarck began to really come into contact with this young man who was called a fool by the avant-garde, although he had only graduated from the Admiralty Academy not long ago, but he never looked immature and young because of this, and he always showed the best side of being a commander in battle.
And as one of the best ship girls, she is also in constant contact, and has a different affection for the serious figure in the office, although she doesn't know what kind of emotion it is, but she can clearly feel the blazing and hot inside, as if it was a sudden fire, illuminating her originally plain world as if it were daytime.
His sister Tirpitz said that such a hot emotion is the love that is constantly mentioned in love, when a ship girl who never cares about other things suddenly dreams of a certain figure one day, she has quietly fallen into the net of love, and there is no possibility of breaking free.
Although she said no, Bismarck's heart was clear that she seemed to have fallen in love with the young figure, the serious figure in the office, the figure who was never afraid on the battlefield, the young man who would smile gently at all the shipwives in the town's guard.
And she thought that she could easily win the final victory in this game, get the gift ticket that could be exchanged for anything from him, get the chance to meet him alone again, and get the possibility of getting herself infinitely closer to him. But the end result was a cold shatter of her unrealistic illusions and all her hopes.
She, Bismarck, was still unable to defeat Yamato, the battleship with the largest caliber and strongest firepower in the history of battleships. When he showed a look of fear, when the opponent's long knife attacked him, Bismarck already knew the final end. At that moment, the winner was decided.
Bismarck took a deep breath of the cold wind wafting in the night, and then exhaled heavily, looking at the undulating waters in front of him under the lighthouse and constantly soaking the sand, and shed tears for the first time, like a girl in a rainy night, so pitiful that no one gave her a trace of warmth in the cold rain.