Su Wanxi's delicate body trembled weakly, her hands and feet were cold, and she could no longer feel the slightest warmth.

"After all, everyone is still colleagues", after all, this sentence is just like a heavy boulder, so cold-blooded and ruthless to crush the last trace of faith in her heart.

At this moment, I just want to rush into this man's arms desperately, but I no longer have the courage.

"Maybe you're right......" After a long silence, Zhao Xiaotian took out a cigarette from his arms, lit it, and took a big sip before he said indifferently, "This marriage contract between us was originally a ridiculous and funny joke. ”

"How can two people who don't know each other at all really accommodate for a lifetime because of a fragile marriage contract......"

"But you obviously know that it was just what I said when I was dizzy for a while......" In an instant, Su Wanxi couldn't hold back anymore, and her voice was choked and muttered.

"I know ......" However, Zhao Xiaotian still only shook his head, the corners of his mouth were a little bitter, and he smiled, "To be honest, I'm not a saint either!" ”

"If I don't care about what you say, it will seem that I am too hypocritical and too petty! You and I are both arrogant people, and we all have our own pride in our bones......"

"But if you want to say how much I am obsessed, it won't be ......"

The atmosphere in the office was once again silent, heartbreakingly silent.

After a long time, Zhao Xiaotian slowly shrank his head, bent down and flicked the cigarette ash in the ashtray in front of him.

It's just that unconsciously, the calm on his face gradually dissipated, and there was a bit of inexplicable hardship and pain in his eyes.

The voice became a little hoarse, "Actually, a few years ago, I also had a girlfriend, and I also had a vigorous and unforgettable first love......"

"As for who the other party is, you already know! I still remember that at that time, I was just an innocent and simple ignorant teenager, and she was just a slim and pure little girl! ”

"So gentle, so quiet, just like a fairy who is not stained with dust, but so smart and beautiful, so understanding......"

Slowly closed his eyes, took a deep breath of cool air, his eyes were already a little moist, and his voice was even more hoarse and difficult, "At that time, it was really ...... In my eyes, she is the most perfect girl in the world, and I truly believe that she is the woman who can accompany me all my life and stand silently behind me forever......"

"Even if everyone in the world misunderstands me, she is the only one who can understand me and support me. Even if one day in the future, in this dirty and flashy world full of profit, I hit my head and bleed all over my body, and when I return home, she is also the woman who can gently lean on my shoulder, give me warmth and give me some comfort......"

"And once upon a time, I also firmly believed that she was the woman who deserved to be guarded and protected by me for the rest of my life......"

"So at that time, I was really stupid and naïve, and I was willing to give her everything I thought was the best in the world, without reservation......"

"Even if at that time, there were too many misunderstandings, too many ridicules, even if I was like a dog, even if I hit my head and bleed, I didn't want to see her suffer a little grievance......"

But as he spoke, this man who was once so debauched and unruly, who was once so unruly and domineering that frightened countless people in the capital, only too unforgettable loneliness and loneliness were left in his eyes.

Just like a lost child, his voice has been choked to the extreme, and he keeps shaking his head, "But...... But in the end, the ruthless reality is still so cruel, destroying all the beliefs and persistence in my heart......"

"Finally, one day, when I was at the lowest point in my life and most helpless and desperate, she chose to leave ruthlessly so suddenly......"

"I still remember that day, my third uncle, who had always treated me like a mountain like a biological son and had an incomparably significant impact on my growth, died in blood at the hands of a man as powerful as a devil! But in front of that devil, I was so powerless, so vulnerable that I didn't even have the capital to take revenge......"

"The only thing I can do is to kneel in front of the third uncle's coffin and cry heartbreakingly......

"Yes...... But just when I was kneeling there so sadly, not taking a drop of water for three days and three nights, and not closing my eyes for three days and three nights, that girl, the girl I thought would be able to accompany me all my life, finally came up to me in cold blood and ruthlessly, and said the word 'break up' with a blank face......"

Su Wanxi lay on the sofa weakly, tears rolling down like a flood that burst the embankment, and she couldn't cry anymore.

"At that moment, it's really ......" Zhao Xiaotian lit another cigarette and took a big sip, at this moment, it seemed that he only wanted to let the stimulation and labor pain caused by this nicotine hitting the lungs to make himself numb, "I really don't dare to recall, at that moment, what kind of heartache it was for me, what kind of sorrow was greater than heart death, it was a kind of collapse of all the beliefs and attachments in my heart......"

"I'm not the kind of man who is strong enough to be invulnerable! On the contrary, I also have my inner vulnerability, and I also have my own weaknesses. For the rest of the day, I don't even know how I got through it......"

After a short pause, he continued to murmur hoarsely, "Maybe during that time, I really didn't live as well as a dog......"

"I was bitten and bloody, and I was bitten all over my body...... For so many years, I've always been like a snail, imprisoning myself in a hard shell, and maybe that's the only way I feel warmer......"

"I'm scared, I'm really scared! After so many years, I am afraid of being bitten again, and I am afraid of experiencing that unforgettable pain again! I just hid in the hard shell I had woven for myself, and even if I felt the slightest smell of danger, I quickly retracted my head and ......"

"Over the years, I have met many perfect girls, and I have failed too many people, but I, I no longer have the courage to dig out my heart and lungs, even if I hit my head and bleed......"

"Actually, to be honest, why did that girl leave so ruthlessly at the beginning, what is the distress behind it, I have never asked, and I have never thought of listening to what she explained to me!"

"But that doesn't mean I don't know, at least the moment she turned away, I guessed. I don't blame her, in fact, I can understand her, so for her, there is no choice at all......"