"I don't know if it's Xiaobai's psychological shadow or the instinct of a vampire, I feel like I can't get up when I sleep. ”

This sentence made Zach, who was about to go back to his room to sleep, stand in place.

Turning around and looking at Winston, who was sitting against the wall, Zach ...... sighed.

Fresh after the quiet of meditation, Zach realized that he was back to working for an interest group. Maybe that's Toledo's fate.

But at this moment, Zach was pulled back to himself.

Zach sat down next to Winston, "I've had that for a while, too. He smiled at Winston, "No, it's two." ”

Winston didn't mean to do anything anyway, and looked at Zach with a look of eagerness.

"The first one was supposed to be when I first became a vampire. Zach had a smile on his face, "You know that once upon a time, vampires, especially those with status in the clan, had a mandatory time to sleep. ”

Winston blinked and thought for a moment, "You mean the Thirteen Clans haven't yet gained the ability to travel dayly?" ”

"It's a drop~" Zach nodded, "Vampires during the day, at least we Toledo, people who don't have a job, are forced to sleep at the request of their father. Because waking up for vampires whose desires are magnified is boring, boring, hehe, hehe, in those days, when no desires were as easily satisfied as they are now, it was a very bad state. ”

Winston pouted, "Hank said that your job was to be a vampire for the noble vampires, who were clear about the vampires who ruined the reputation of the vampire race. ”

Guess how many incidents that have ruined the reputation of the vampire race have happened out of boredom?

Zach laughed, "Not only that, but for the vampires of the time, especially for the vampires with aristocratic status, sleep was not only a consumption of those boring hours, but also a status symbol. Zach raised an eyebrow, "You can imagine those idle rich and noble children who have nothing else to do but sleep and eat. The corners of Zack's mouth curled, "Because nobles don't need to do things~"

Winston thought for a moment and understood, "Nobles have status, power, and don't have to fight for their own survival like those who ruined the reputation of vampires. ”

Zach nodded, "So sleep." Sleeping is a very ...... for vampires," Zach thought about the words, "Pride activity." ”

Winston bowed his head and didn't speak.

Zach didn't mean to taunt Winston, and continued, "But no matter how much my father taught me to embrace my proud aristocracy, I just couldn't sleep." ”

Winston looked up again, "Why?"

"I feel like I'm asleep, and I can't get up~" Zach looked at Winston with a smile, which was probably not a joke, "It's a vampire instinct." ”

Zach began to explain the reason for the sigh just now, "Toredo is a nobleman, a nobleman with guaranteed living space and security, so as soon as I become Toledo, it stands to reason that I can enjoy sleep." But instinct told me that as a nascent vampire, I couldn't expose my most vulnerable state so casually. ”

Winston had a look of agreement, "That's it, I know Hank has stressed to me many times that there's no safer place than Grande right now, but I'm just, uh, just ......"

"I don't believe it~" Zach picked up Winston, "I was once a human who was nothing, and suddenly entered the Toledo clan, and I didn't believe that what I saw in front of me was real. So no matter what my father told me that the Toledo clan was noble and safe, I couldn't believe it. ”

Winston was stunned for a moment, eager to explain, "It's not that I don't believe in Hank, I don't believe in you, I don't believe that Grande is safe, I'm just ......"

It was Zach who made up for Winston, "Suddenly into Grande." Zach laughed, "The point is not 'believing', but sudden changes in life, changes in circumstances, changes in everything." ”

There was a sudden emotion on Winston's face, "Yes, yes...... It is a sudden change. ”

Zach continued to laugh, "Newborn babies have to cry for a while before they begin to realize that they were born, isn't it~ This is the instinct of life." He patted Winston, "It's normal, you're going to get used to it." ”

Winston's expression relaxed a lot, but still, "But it didn't take long for Hank's life to change, and he adapted quickly, why am I so slow." ”

"Because for Hank, he hasn't changed. Zach shrugged his shoulders, "Grande is still Grande, he's still him." Zach looked at Winston, "You don't know who Hank is, he's lived his whole life extremely selfishly, and he's the kind of person who doesn't care about his surroundings." ”

What does this mean...... You know, Hank's personal orientation determines a lot of things. This old man probably never thought about adapting to the environment of his life in his life - because he, Hank, lived in an environment that Hank had created by himself: for example, he and old Grande's funeral gray business, for example, they came to the South End to retire, for example, he agreed to vampires and werewolves to live in his home, for example, he asked Frank for eternal payment......

"Hank is strong. "Winston understands what Zach means, after all, if you want to investigate, Winston is a guy who knows what kind of person Hank is better than Zack!

"There are quite a few such people. Zach tilted his head, thinking of a woman, Ethera. Forget it, put aside unpleasant thoughts, "no need to envy or envy anything." Zach continued, "The second period when I couldn't sleep was when I had just fled to the North after the Covert Alliance encircled Toredo. ”

Winston already understands Zach's logic, "The circumstances of life have changed again, and you need to adapt. ”

Zach was pleased with Winston's intelligence and nodded, "Yes." Then he went on to explain another reason for the initial sigh, "You said that Xiaobai caused you a psychological shadow. Zach kept smiling, "My psychological shadow is that I'm the only one alive. ”

Winston opened his mouth. Although the so-called psychological shadow given to Winston by Xiaobai has a very clear human category - Xiaobai's ultimate side effect on humans will eventually become a living corpse that can't wake up. But Winston can understand that Zach has nothing to do with the category of human beings, and the focus is on the psychological shadow.

Winston's shadow is the fear of not waking up, and Zach's shadow is waking up to find that he is alone.

Winston's mouth opened for a moment, "How did you overcome it?"

"I didn't get over it. Zach shook his head lightly, "I'm just starting to get bored." Zach laughed, "When I'm bored, I start to want to do boring things." For example~" Zach looked at Winston and blinked, "Rebuild the Toledo clan." ”

Things that ruin the reputation of vampires.

Winston understands that Torredo is the only one left with Zack, and if the shadow is loneliness, then the most direct way is to create an environment where he is no longer lonely.

But the reality is that Zach didn't make descendants in the Northland, "You didn't rebuild the Toledo clan. ”

Zach nodded, "I didn't. There was a helpless smile on his face, "I'm in a very awkward position. Toredo's requirements for descendants are very clear......" Zach said as he shook his head, "What's more, I'm still for the purpose of rebuilding the clan, I can't be like my former aristocratic father, when I saw a group of refugees, I randomly chose the people I liked and adopted them as descendants." ”

That's what Zach experienced when he was a human himself. It is laid out here to contrast the situation -

"I'm alone, I don't have any privileges, and I don't even have a legal status in the Northland. I do not have the ability and energy to provide for any of my descendants who are useless while planning my escape. "This is the difference between Toredo after being encircled and suppressed, and Toledo in the past. Zach, bitter.

"In order to find a suitable descendant, I had to fit into the living environment of the northern country and meet all kinds of people. Zach laughed, "And then carelessly." Zach shook his head again, "Integration into society with the original intention of discovering that it can serve the purpose of re-emerging the Toledo clan has become a ......"

Winston added to the smiling Zach, "You're in real life." ”

Toredo's social skills, do you need to say more? Can you imagine such a guy with good skin and good inside, entering an unfamiliar environment and then blending into the scene? That is called a relaxed, that is called a fish in water.

Zach nodded again, "I'm starting to live." Alone. Zach adjusted his posture, "I didn't find a suitable descendant, but I found it, a person, it's good." Looking at Winston, to say that the tranquility of meditation brought some impressions to Zach, "It may be the relationship with Toledo, or it may be my original personality." But I've found that it's nice to live without having to serve the community for anything. ”

Zach once said in his storytelling that there were no restrictions on the need to serve the Hidden Alliance, and that he lived very freely in the Northland, and could even spend half a century participating in the life of a human being. This was not possible when you were a nobleman of Toledo and a member of the Hidden Alliance.

"I began to consciously avoid any collective behavior, and not to participate in any events with a wide range of influence...... which led to Craig's lack of news from Zack in the Northlands - because Zack was deliberately avoiding any collective idea, state power, and collective, which needs no explanation. "Enjoy a personal life with no constraints at all. ”

Winston still remembers what should be the subject of an enlightening conversation, "And then you can sleep?"

"Sleep like a baby~" Zach smiled, "Because I know I've avoided trouble, I've avoided threats, and the humans around me are harmless to me......" Zach raised an eyebrow, "Creature." Zach paused, "I still wake up and realize that I am a person (Toledo), but this awareness, not in the shadows, is the reason why I enjoy my life now. ”

If Emilia had been there, she would have criticized Zach for being pathological!

As Zach said, he didn't get over the psychological shadow of his loneliness.

Change the analogy, everyone will understand the meaning -

Instead of correcting his destructive psychology and behavior, a dangerous antisocial personality begins to enjoy the destruction of society.

Is this healthy?

Zach is the antisocial personality 'dangerous element' who enjoys 'destroying society'.

Tsk, but forget it, don't judge Zach by the standard of human mental health, Zach, not human!

Winston was a little speechless, and he understood the logic of what Zach said, "Uh, but how do I turn Xiaobai's side effects into something worth my enjoyment?"

Zach tilted his head, "It's up to you." Zach used his own example, but also his own experience - Toredo's personality determined that Zach found the enjoyment of integrating into life. Winston is Lesenbra, and the Shadow is not such a thing as the clan being destroyed, so he can only discover it himself.

Winston thought quietly for a moment, not thinking of anything useful, but "Thank you." "Gratitude is a must, at least Zach is willing to say so much to himself, pouting," Hank would only say 'don't sleep'. ”

Zach smiled, "No thanks. ”

The conversational conversation ended, but Zach didn't stand up, "Hank has his own way of doing things, so I won't judge it, you know." "Let's evaluate it - Hank is not a kind person to life, do you disagree. "There are some things that Hank will ignore, or deliberately ignore. Now you're his descendant, a direct descendant of Barton, and some things ......" The reason why Zach didn't leave immediately after the conversation ended-

After all, Zach is back to working in a life of collective interests. So, what else to resist, let the tranquility of meditation begin Zack's journey back.

"There are some things that you have to think about for him. ”

Because Zach's tone changed, Winston's slightly nervous, "What's the matter?"

"You don't want to sleep anyway, so why not take advantage of all this wasted time. Zach didn't look at Winston, "You know, on a night like this, there is also a Lesenbra in Barton, working hard for his future. ”

Aethra.

Winston's reaction was quick, "Secretary to the Mayor, that Ethella, the woman who got the staff reassignment for Grand's halfway house?!" Winston looked a little angry, this mood was obviously directly influenced by Hank.

Zach nodded, "The relationship between Aethra and Mayor Anthony, you should be clear by now. ”

Winston nodded, "I know! Hank's blood contains all the information about Grande!

It's convenient~

Zach has decided to serve the interest collective again, but this interest collective is not a magic feast!

It's Grande, it's the people around Zach!

"So you understand what Athera might be doing with the mayor at this time. Zach gave a hint.

"Yes!" Winston's gaze was gloomy, "probably right next to the mayor's pillow, continue to blow some wind that weakens Grande!"

Zach nodded, "Then why are you still here?"

Winston vanished.