5

May 13th, the day of the spring outing.

I arrived at the school early and followed the school bus to the "Xuanguanmen Forest Park" in the northeast of Qianshan City.

In addition to lunch, water, and a little cash, all I had in my bag was a portable medicine kit. It can be said that it is light. On the other hand, many students' schoolbags are so full that they bulge, and they still carry a bag in their hands.

Lianwen and I were about the same, and I didn't bring much with me.

Our Class 1 students were the first to gather, and the students scrambled to get on the bus. Yan Zheng and Mianxue, who walked in front, sat down and stood up and gave up their position to other girls, and I was already walking slowly, so naturally there was no place.

Soon, a kind-hearted classmate gave up his position to Lianwen, who politely refused, but was encouraged by everyone, and couldn't embarrass the classmates who gave up their seats, so he could only sit down awkwardly.

- The bandage on Lianwen's eyes is gone. But he is not suitable for seeing light, so he wears a gray monocular eye patch.

I leaned against the pole and looked at Lianwen.

After about half an hour, the car stopped at the south gate of the entrance gate forest park.

As the assembly whistle sounds, the teacher begins to explain the usual safety instructions. Of course, this year is even more special, because this park has built a large-scale puzzle puzzle facility - "Body Intelligence Park". In order to increase the unity among classmates. This year, we will compete in groups, and the first place will have a big prize.

It is said that this is the decision of our class teacher, so only our class has this activity. The arbors of Class 3 were disbanded early and moved freely.

Under the order of the head teacher Zhang Xiangqi, we all came to the entrance of the "Body Intelligence Paradise". When I walked over, I took a general look, and the facilities of the "Body Smart Park" are mainly climbing nets, walking single-plank bridges, balance poles and the like. These are some of the more routine projects. There are 13 "levels" from the entrance to the end, which are basically in a straight line.

Although Lianwen didn't participate in the competition, she was also a member of our group, so in order for her to do something, we asked her to help take pictures. My keypad was very poor, so I borrowed my phone from the teacher.

The competition method adopts the method of group timing, and each group must challenge these 13 levels to win in the shortest time. Our group is the sixth and last group. And there is one less contestant in our group, which already has a certain advantage. At the start of the race, before we took the field, the third group occupied the top five groups with a time of 5 minutes and 20 seconds.

Finally it was our turn, and with a "start", the teacher pressed the start button on the stopwatch.

The first level is the single-plank bridge, and the third group of six people crossed the single-plank bridge in a total of only 10 seconds. In order not to lose face, I first rushed over in one go, which took less than 3 seconds. I nodded with satisfaction, and turned around to find that Yanzheng, Mozhu, Mianxue, and wind chimes had all fallen off the single-plank bridge.

“……”

The bottom is fenced with air mattresses and safety nets, and it is not high, so it can be said that it is still very safe.

It's a team game, and everyone has to come over to move on to the next level. Those who fall have to get up again.

"Come on, I'm sure I'll be able to do it again."

I shouted encouragement.

But I didn't expect to say this seven times.

It wasn't until the eighth time that they all passed the first level.

After the third level, it took more than 5 and a half minutes. It's fair to say that we've lost the game early, but we still have to keep going.

The fourth level is a crawling game, I first turned over the top and pulled up the black bamboo behind with my hands, and then the black bamboo foot was entangled in the net. The onlookers burst into laughter.

At this time, I realized that Qiao Mu was also in the crowd of onlookers, and it seemed that he really had nothing to do......

Ah no, he's here to find Lianwen.

I saw him approaching Lianwen, who was taking pictures, and chatting with her.

Without paying attention, my hand loosened a little. Mo Zhu, who was untangling the entwined part with his hands, stumbled, let out a "wow" scream, and fell. Fortunately, there is an air cushion underneath, so it shouldn't be a big deal......

"Teacher...... My hands seemed to be twisted. ”

Mo Zhu raised his other hand and explained the situation to the teacher next to him.

I apologized to him from above, but Mozhu's expression was so exaggerated that I was a little surprised.

Then he gave me a look. I understand that this guy doesn't want to play anymore.

“…… No way. ”

So our group became four people?

"Hurry up and let Xiao Lianwen come over too. Otherwise, the number of people is too small! ”

Yan Zheng looked at Lianwen and greeted loudly, and the eyes of the crowd also turned to Lianwen.

“……”

The stopwatch still does not stop.

"Wait a minute......"

Qiao Mu was about to stop it with a voice.

"Qiao Mu, help us take pictures."

Throwing off the phone, Lianwen took off his coat and stepped into the competition area.

We come to the fifth level, which is another team-assisted game. One tied his feet, one tied his hands, and one carried the other on his back, climbing a high platform with pedals and ropes. In other words, the idea of the game is for one person to hold the rope with their hands, the other to operate with their feet, and two people to climb up together. This is going to test the tacit understanding between the two.

- However, we have one less person. There are three girls and only two boys.

"That, I'm ......"

I was about to speak, along with the sudden loud assignment of tasks.

"The smaller Qinghe is carrying the wind chimes, I will carry the snow first, and then come down to recite the love text."

"Wait a minute—"

I haven't had time to protest yet.

"Hurry up! We're running out of time! For the honor of our group! ”

I was speechless for a while, but after thinking about it, no matter how hard I tried, I was sure to be in last place.

I had no choice but to do as he said, and in a few moments I and the wind chimes were at the top.

Yan Zheng is also considered to have strength, carrying a tall Mianxue on his back, and it didn't take much time to reach the top. Then I saw him grab the rope and slide down with a bang, so his hand hurts, right?

She picked up the tie-up on her back and stepped upwards step by step, but this time it was faster than the last time.

It didn't take long for me to realize that something was wrong.

"Wait, wait."

That guy, it's too fast, Lianwen can't keep up.

Sure enough, Yan Zheng stepped into the air, and the whole person shook heavily, and he immediately let go of the hand that was originally holding Lianwen, and Lianwen was suspended in the air, and only his right hand grabbed the rope.

- but the top half of the rope is loose.

"Danger!"

I immediately reached out and grabbed the rope from above, stabilizing it.

Lianwen's body shook out, and the impact of the rope straightening made her let go of her hand, and the whole person began to fall down-

“？！”

By the time she reacted, Lianwen had already fallen onto the mat.

Fortunately, it was no big deal.

[But the competition was stopped because of this, and we naturally had no results.] 】

The hot air and the fiery breath hit everyone present. The dripping beads of sweat disappeared without a trace before they reached the ground. The earth was smoky by the sun, and the hot air cushion was like a frying pan, and everyone seemed so irritable.

Qiao Mu and I took Lianwen to the park's infirmary. Half an hour later, I was back in the grass from the infirmary, the base camp of our class.

Our group chose a corner, spread the carpet on the grass, and put a lot of snacks on it, I didn't have much with me, so I took out what I had and sat down on the carpet.

Yan Zheng and Mianxue both sat next to me, looking bad, and this unique unconvinced expression was like having just been reprimanded by the teacher.

"I was scolded by Mr. Xiangqi again just now."

Yan Zheng said to me. I was surprised to be right.

"That guy, that's too cunning."

Spread the whole person along the mat.

"It's always like this, only she can always be taken care of by the teacher. It's always been like this before – and it's so unfair to everyone else. ”

Yan Zheng was indignant, and Mianxue and the others lowered their heads when they heard his words.

["It's just an eye injury, and it has nothing to do with athleticism."] Besides, it's not a fatal injury, at least it's not blind, but it's always relying on being weak, pretending to be like that to win the sympathy of teachers and others. ”】

No, it's not like that. - Why do you want to judge and interfere with others without permission, even if you don't understand anything?

It's not something she's willing to do either.

From the moment she entered school, she was defined as weak because of her father's divorce.

When dealing with the weak, the school and the elders always try to "care" for them. He even did not hesitate to play in the name of "goodness" and called on everyone to do the same.

No matter what the weak do, they will be treated as "going through the back door".

No matter what care the weak person receives, they will be treated as "cunning".

This kind of unfairness is based on everyone's hearts, and it is especially obvious in Lianwen.

To ask why.

Because Lianwen is too strong and too gentle.

Strong enough to look like there's no need to take care of it.

Strong enough to take care of anyone.

Strong enough to take on all the responsibility and hurt alone.

Gentle enough not to contradict anyone.

So gentle that she doesn't blame anyone.

Gentle to the point of trying to respond to anyone's concerns, whether well-intentioned or disguised. For anyone's sense of justice and compassion, she will remember her heart, even if her emotions are not exposed, she will understand the goodness of others.

In the hearts of others, Lianwen is a strong and sensible child, Lianwen is a gentle and understanding child, and Lianwen is a child who is "loved".

In any case, she is playing this role, responding to the expectations of her elders and classmates.

Even, in response to my expectations.

“……”

I don't want to interfere with anyone because I know too little about other people. Even if it's Lianwen, I've only been with her for two short years, and some people can't see a person clearly in their lifetime. What the hell am I judging about the love text?

So I have always chosen to be silent.

Because I don't know, I don't know, I don't want to judge one thing with the partial knowledge I have.

I don't want to do it, I don't want to release my cheap sense of justice.

I only do what I want to do, and I can say that I am useless compared to classmates like Yanzheng. They may be what society needs.

They act bravely, discern things clearly, and consider the overall situation.

I don't hate them, but I always feel like it's a bad situation. I always wanted to do something to change that.

"The east side of Class 1 is positive."

A sharp voice came, and I looked back to see Qiao Mu standing behind us, his breath was so rapid that he looked like he was running over.

"Qiao Mu, why are you here? What about Lianwen? ”

I asked, and after arriving at the infirmary, I left alone, thinking that Qiao Mu could take care of Lianwen alone.

At this time, not far behind Qiao Mu, Lian Wen ran over panting.

"Wait a minute! - Arbor. ”

"I can't swallow that."

Qiao Mu clenched his fists and stared at Yan Zheng.

"You did it on purpose, deliberately let go of Lianwen."

Qiao Mu's voice was very sharp, like a halberd piercing into Yanzheng's heart.

"No...... I ......"

Yan Zheng's expression became very anxious, and he retorted with his hands dancing.

"What happened to Lianwen?"

I think that's what's important.

"Nothing happened — but I just couldn't swallow it. And not only this time. You've been saying bad things about Lianwen all along. ”

I was relieved a little, but it soon became clear that it seemed to be worse.

Lianwen ran to Qiao Mu's side and tried to dissuade Qiao Mu gently.

The situation became out of control, Qiao Mu and Yan Zheng confronted each other head-on, and the others were also like arrows.

The atmosphere was extremely cold. Even on such a hot summer day, the breath here makes people shiver.

Now, face these three parties.

There is no point in deviating the siege on the surface.

Even the words of explanation have become weak.

A word, even if it has no other meaning, will turn into a fuse.

It is a question of who will completely shatter the original hypocrisy and shatter the status quo.

I remembered that phrase.

I'm sure, I'll take that responsibility.

That's definitely not the Haikou I just boasted about. It's definitely not what I said to comfort my aunt in judging the situation.

Rather, it's based on my heart.

I just do what I want to do.

Because of this, it may not be the same.

Perhaps, no, it will lead to everything falling apart. Shatter everything, and then, with my own power, reshape it.

Even if I know that I will not be able to restore the way it was in the end, I must not let a crumbling and dangerous building continue to be praised by people. Rather than not knowing when the collapse will occur, it is better to have a clear time and survive the disaster with minimal damage.

It's not a good idea, but it's something I want to do.

I looked up and spat out a few words in a straight voice:

"This is the fault of Lianwen, and it is definitely not deliberate."

My voice is clear, but it's because it's clear, and it's all the more incomprehensible.

"It's a team game, and it's understandable that you're picking up the pace for the sake of winning. [On the contrary, it was the love of the text, which dragged the team back, resulting in no results in our group, and should be mainly responsible. 】”

I try my best to convey the meaning of every word.

"Qinghe...... You ......"

Qiao Mu's eyes widened, as if he didn't believe what I was saying.

When Lianwen heard me say this, he only showed a slightly surprised expression, which quickly turned into a wry smile.

"Hmm...... Indeed......"

She bowed her head.

Not enough, not enough.

"It's always like this. You're just blindly evading, overdrawing everyone's concern, [It's obviously not a serious matter, but you have to pretend to be weak.] 】”

……

"Your dreams are just so fragile. Even if you can't be an internist, there is not only one medical-related profession? Obviously, you have many other ways to do it, but you just blindly avoid it. ”

Not enough, not enough.

"You're worrying too many people, at least I don't want to make you anymore—"

Not enough, not enough. Faced with the stunned love text, there is something that can decide to change.

"You're just a loser, not only did you fail, but you also let your mother worry about you, [for your business, Auntie fell down the stairs, all of this is your fault.] 】”

Hearing this, Lianwen's face suddenly turned pale. The body unconsciously trembles with anger.

"It's all your fault."

My words fell, and the air seemed to freeze suddenly. Lianwen lowered her head, and I couldn't see her expression. However, her expression must be terrible, and even if she tries to hide it, she can't stop the god of emotions in the human heart.

"Obviously ......"

Her voice trembled.

["It's obviously your fault, it's all because of your fault that there will be accidents!"] It's all because of you! Tear my dreams apart entirely! Hurt my only remaining loved ones! ”】

Lianwen's eyes widened, her left eye was invisible because of the blindfold, but her right eye seemed to burst out of her socket, and her whole facial expression was distorted, I had never seen her like this.

But soon, she realized her gaffe. She hugged her shoulders with both hands and lowered her head to let her hair cover her face.

"No...... No. ”

Her voice trembled so much that she could barely hear her.

"It's not my dream to be a doctor or anything, I just want to save my mother. ”】

She shook off the last sentence, then turned and ran away.

Both Lianwen and Auntie misunderstood each other.

Lianwen is not sad at all because of the broken dream. It's because I can't fulfill the promise I made when I was a child, and I can't help my mother out of the haze. I can't let my mother see me as a doctor, because my mother is sad and sad. All her starting points are for her mother.

The aunt was not sad at all because of Lianwen's injury. Instead, she didn't want to see the soulless and painful Lianwen after the "dream burst", she thought that "becoming a doctor" was Lianwen's own dream.

Through the sustenance of the "doctor's path", Lianwen is happy to see her mother's recognition of her dreams, and in this way to show her love for her mother. The aunt, on the other hand, was pleased with the dream of Lianwen, not realizing that the dream was based on herself. This delicate balance could have continued, but it was shattered by the explosion.

However, if you communicate well. That's not going to happen. It's just that Lianwen is too strong.

It's my fault. I am not only responsible for the bombing, but also for not facilitating exchanges between the two sides.

Obviously I can do more.

However, I'm also scared.

I don't want to interfere with others based on my own one-sided judgment. I don't want to make the mistake of speculating when I don't understand.

But when I really sure about it.

I can't just sit idly by.

It's not just a matter of responsibility, it's my heart telling me that I have to change something

It's also a kind of selfishness on my own.

Lianwen ran away.

Qiao Mu clenched his fists and stepped forward with an arrow, and before I could react, I was already knocked to the ground by him.

"What have you done?!"

Arbor yelled at me.

"Why bring up that incident?! And Auntie?! Obviously, there was nothing to ...... Why do you want to stimulate her?! ”

He grabbed me by the collar and lay on the grass.

"Obviously everything is so normal!"

"Arbor!!"

I yelled back, and he froze.

"It's because she's so normal. ”】

I spit out this sentence unhurriedly.

“……”

Qiao Mu was also silent, and Yan Zheng on the side was completely stunned. The wind chime was so scared that he ran in the direction of the base camp, and it seemed that he was looking for the head teacher.

["Cut...... Although, for the things of the time, I am grateful to you. ”】

Qiao Mu smacked his tongue, stood up, and ran in the direction of Lianwen just now.

I patted the mud off my hair and sat up.

"Ahem."

What am I doing?

It's terrible.

What the hell am I doing?

Soon, the whole class will know about it.

The members of the group who were still by my side are now only Mozhu.

"Huh...... Qinghe. ”

Mozhu looked at me, looking at me covered in mud, and my clothes became loose because of pulling, so embarrassed.

"Do you really think so?"

……

"Well, it's just a whim. The willfulness of a child. ”

I stood up and replied casually.

"I hope other people think the same way. Otherwise, you're too much of a jerk. ”

Mo Zhu said with a smile. I can't laugh at it.

- I expected the homeroom teacher to be here soon, so to avoid her, I walked in the direction of the woods.

It is all broad-leaved forest, and there are many cane plants, which grow densely in rows, and row after row like the mouth of fireworks. I don't know how long I walked, but I saw a small path, which seemed to be a tour road for tourists to see.

Just beside the road is a meandering stream. If you go north along the stream, you will come to the "Bodhisattva Temple", which is a famous spot in the Genkanmun Forest Park. The roadside is full of red wild camellias. If you smell a special smell, you may be able to find the red drunken butterfly flowers of Bordeaux.

After walking along the road for a while, I saw a love essay standing on the side of the road admiring the flowers.

Why are you here, I obviously went the opposite way to her.

It's really a pot that can't be opened.

I was about to turn around and leave, but Lianwen saw me.

She took off her blindfold, perhaps to wipe her tears, for both of her eyes were red.

“……”

“……”

The two men looked at each other for a while. Lianwen pursed her lips and approached me.

"Why didn't you come to me?"

"Because I don't have a sense of responsibility."

Lianwen pursed her lips again, stretched out her right hand, and gently touched my chest with her fist.

"It's all your fault—"

She looked at me angrily, but not really.

"It's all your fault—"

Again, she emphasized, but her tone wavered. Ah, why does she look so cute?

"Does your eye hurt?"

"It hurts everywhere."

She shook her head, a reproachful expression, but her expression was more seductive. What's going on? Why can't I resist this little devilish expression. Ah, it's so bad, could it be that the masochist attribute in me has awakened?

I've never seen a love affair like this, and it makes me a little flustered.

Am I red now? It's a hassle to not have a mirror.

"It's all your fault—"

She suddenly plunged into my arms and began to sob slightly.

"Hmm...... It's all my fault. I'm sorry. ”

"Your acting skills are terrible. ”】

She cried and laughed, and it was really an unstoppable tone.

"I don't have any acting skills, I'm sincerely apologizing."

"I'm not talking about this. ”】

"Ah......?"

I still understood what she meant, but the next second she hugged me.

"Can I cry to you? Is it okay to be angry with you? ”

Her voice was weak, pounced on me, clinging to my clothes, and sounding even weaker.

"If you don't mind me as an enemy."

"I mind."

Huh? It's not a normal process.

"So, I'm going to be angry with you."

"That's really indesensitive."

"It's useless for you to run away, I'm just going to be angry with you until my anger is completely gone."

“……”

I'm not going to run away.

"Depending on the severity of the matter, it could take a lifetime."

"Then I'll follow you for the rest of my life."

Her tone was firm and made my heart tremble.

Does she know what she's talking about?

Then I will be by your side and accompany you for the rest of my life. - Of course I wouldn't say such a thing.

Yes, she is very cunning indeed.

However, I don't hate it.