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People have four basic emotions, which are joy, anger, sorrow, and fear. We often switch back and forth between these four emotions. What kind of emotion prevails, we seem to define what kind of person he is. I think this is a very unscientific approach, just one-sided observation of a person often with a smile on his face, arbitrarily add the label of "happy" to him, use optimism, liveliness and other attributes that represent "joy" to define him, and then use a set of countermeasures defined by some experts, holding the banner of "different from person to person, against drugs", take great pains to classify people, and then use that set of fixed methods to treat that person. Over time, he has the feeling of "this is me", but he does not know that the so-called "self" is defined by others.

Therefore, it is foolish to judge a person's attributes and thoughts based on emotions. I'm not good at exposing my emotions, and when I'm lively on the outside, I'm the most impatient and unmotivated in my heart, and I often act the opposite of my thoughts.

Emotions are only a disguise for the outside, and there are definitely more than the four simple worlds in the heart. Simplifying everything, judging in a mechanical way, and even interfering with others is just a cheap form of self-satisfaction.

But now, I envy people who can directly reveal their emotions.

Because now I don't know what kind of emotions to use to face what is happening now.

Should I be afraid, angry, sad, or joyful?

I couldn't find a corresponding emotion to express, and it was a terrible situation, so bad that I didn't even know how to explain it. It's hard to move every step of the way.

But now I have a very absolute entry point.

Lianwen opened the door and looked surprised to see me standing outside the door, then grabbed her arms so hard that she almost spilled the water from her glass.

"You...... What do you want to do to me? The little woman is not delicious at all, don't eat me. ”

Is this a skit?

I ignored it and rushed forward, holding her shoulders with both hands.

"What was I doing after 11 o'clock last night?"

I know it's a strange question, but it's definitely a good place to start. I had several possibilities planned in my head. From my point of view, everyone suddenly disappeared after 11 o'clock. Either my perspective on others suddenly disappears, or my memory is tampered with and I can't remember anything about me.

Lianwen looked at me with an expression on his face as if to say, "Is this guy an idiot".

Then the magic transforms from the unthinkable to the sorrowful, especially the exaggerated sadness.

"You...... He still said that kind of thing. Have you forgotten yesterday? ”

She felt like she was going to cry, which made me panic.

"Ah...... I forgot. ”

I replied solemnly, in fact, I was extremely flustered.

"Does our alliance only exist in that brief night, in that small room?"

…… I see.

"I didn't expect the devil in you to be so terrible, I didn't even have any chance to resist, I was ...... by you"

She began to wipe her tears, and her voice became quieter and quieter, and it was heartbreaking to hear.

It turns out that during that time, I still existed in the world, I didn't disappear, who was that "me"? If I had known about him, I would have beaten him up until his nose was blue and his face was swollen, his skin was open, and his body was incomplete. It's all my fault, I'm a beast.

"I see, I'll take care of it, let's get married. Do you prefer boys or girls? Let's give our child a name right now. ”

I took her hand, bowed deeply like an English gentleman, and got down on one knee in the standard proposal position.

"But your expression doesn't seem like that."

She suddenly looked at me coldly.

Oh? Is it like this? What is my expression? I really don't know if there are no mirrors. Maybe it's a disgusting smile, then I'll admit it's sincere. But I couldn't feel the movement of my facial muscles, maybe it was a righteous and upright face.

"The sketch will be played later, come in first, don't get cold."

She led me into the house, just as several families were out of the house. From an outsider's point of view, there will definitely be some misunderstanding. Ahahahaha, let them misunderstand, this feeling is the best.

I took my shoes off again, and at least I confirmed one thing.

"What did I do after 11 o'clock yesterday?"

I asked Xiang Lianwen again.

"Call a taxi and go home with you. Nothing else. ”

…… It's beyond my imagination.

"So, was there anything strange about me at that time?"

"It seems to me that you are stranger now."

I see, there's nothing strange about it.

It's beyond my imagination. How could there be such a thing.

"Wait a minute, you just said, I'm with you...... Go home? ”

It dawned on me that something was wrong.

The expression on Lianwen's face changed from "Is this guy an idiot?" "Became "Is this guy a super invincible King Kong idiot?" ”

"yes, you went home with me."

"Where do you mean?"

She gestured to the floor.

"Here."

……

Ha?

"You stayed at my house last night. Why did you suddenly run out of the door and knock on the door again and ask me what I did last night? I thought you were doing a skit. ”

Hearing this news is like a thunderbolt on a sunny day, no, this is called "a thunderbolt in the blue sky".

She said, "What?"

My eyes widened, and I was completely unexpected.

"Are you really sure that's me?"

My voice was already shaking.

She frowned.

"Height, looks, character, smell, length should all be the same. Well...... I think it's you. But when you say that, it feels a little weird. ”

No, it must not be me.

It must not be me. What the hell is going on.

As if I had lost my mind, I clenched my fists and said solemnly to Lianwen:

"Listen, it might not be me. Now something very complicated and unimaginable is happening, be careful of the "me" after ten o'clock tonight. Be careful, and if you can, don't approach me. Yes...... No, that's not me! Although it is my skin, and even my character, it is not me! Do you understand?! ”

I suddenly became excited, I don't usually do this.

Rather, I was too worried about what "I" would do at that time.

It all has to be out of control.

[It's as if there is a god who has withdrawn my soul and put it into a false world, and then borrowed my body to live.] 】

"Ah...... Good. ”

Suddenly startled by my voice, Lianwen replied weakly. Then he lowered his head sharply, and stopped talking.

"Eh......"

After a brief silence, Lianwen's expression was subtle, his hands clasped together in front of his thighs, his fingers rubbing back and forth, as if he was hesitating about something.

"Yesterday's you, indeed, was a little strange."

"What?"

I replied to my initial calmness, asking cautiously, not missing a single clue.

"That...... Actually, you said yesterday that you forgot to bring your house key and didn't want to wake up your mother at night, so you lived in my house. ”

She squirmed and pinched, and she looked so cute.

"We were about 12 o'clock when we got home. It was about 12:40 p.m. after taking a shower. You didn't want to sleep with me, and you didn't sleep in your mother's original room, but lay down on the couch. ”

"At one o'clock, I wanted to sneak up on you at night and carry you back to your room, but ......"

Well? Did she say something terrible?

"But I can't find you."

？！

"What do you mean?"

I suddenly felt a chill down my spine.

"I wasn't too surprised, because a few minutes before that I heard the sound of people getting up in the living room — I thought you were going to get some water. In a word...... I thought you were going home. ”

…… I don't know what to say because that's not my behavior.

"But, at half past three in the morning, although it was quiet, I heard the door open again, so I got up and saw you coming in, looking sleepy, with a convenience store bag in your hand. I asked where you had been, and you said you had gone shopping, and then collapsed on the couch. ”

...... convenience stores? I?

"I didn't care, and when I was about to put your shoes in order, I noticed that there was mud on them, so I cleaned them. Not even when we came back. ”

I remembered that she had a habit of tidying up, and then looked at her shoes, and there was no such thing as mud, for sure, because I had been walking on the concrete road, and I spent most of my time in a bookstore, and if any bookstore had a muddy floor, it would definitely be complained by the customers.

"But I don't have mud on my shoes now."

"Ah...... So it's kind of weird. I was so sleepy that I thought I'd wash your shoes tomorrow. So theoretically, there should still be. ”

“……”

"Besides, I obviously carried you back to bed after that, why did I get up at five o'clock and you disappeared again. How many times are you going to disappear in a night. ”

There was dissatisfaction in her tone, and her face puffed out angrily.

"I'm sorry."

"Why do you want to apologize......"

"Ah, no, actually......"

Eh...... I let out a long sigh.

Unexpectedly, even the whereabouts are uncertain.

3

Of course I didn't listen to the class, I didn't even want to go to class.

But I still have to pretend to be very serious, and everything I say is in the left ear and out of the right ear. He was also praised by the teacher as a "serious" and "sensible" person. Even if "seriousness" can be drawn from the surface without authorization. "Know how to measure" is summed up by something. Nowadays, people just like to sublimate indiscriminately, from a superficial example to something irrelevant, reflecting their so-called broad-mindedness.

I'll admit that I'm in a bad mood, after all, this kind of compliment doesn't make me angry.

I didn't see Lianwen in the open space on the roof at noon, I don't know where she went, she suddenly disappeared after class, and I didn't see her messages back.

To tell you the truth, I'm having trouble sitting right now.

But I didn't know how to solve it, who to turn to, and I didn't even have an entry point to discuss. Will anyone believe me if I tell me what happened now? Or will it be like some of the main characters of the novels who tell their secrets, and they are stopped by some unsightly obstacles?

But I still want to make it clear to Lianwen.

I went back to class and asked my tablemate:

"Mozhu, have you seen Xiao Lianwen?"

"Little Huangwen? It seems to have been back just now.,Took a USB flash drive and went out again.。。 ”

Mo Zhu spread his whole body on the seat, and at first glance he was destroyed by the test questions, as a boy, he looked quite delicate, long bangs covered his eyes, usually always put on a lazy, unkempt look, but it is said that he is quite popular among the girls, and he was confessed by a junior school girl before, but he simply refused. He likes to wear white shirts that are several sizes larger, even in such cold weather, and he is a warrior.

"That's right, thank you."

I briefly thanked me and turned to leave the classroom, just in time to meet the sportsman among the girls, willow thread.

She is not very tall, but her body lines are quite perfect, and when she first saw this girl, she had such a naïve idea that "her figure is born for sports". I can even explain her fast running in terms of physics, and the submarine may have been inspired by her body line. - Ah, that's a dolphin.

She is also quite active in sports, and she was the first to raise her hand during the sports meeting. But I don't like to speculate on her heart based on the obvious. But there is still to be basic communication.

"Good afternoon."

I smiled at her and left the classroom.

She smiled back, as if she wanted to say something, but I didn't wait.

"Ahh

Now is not the time to do that kind of thing—

"We'll talk about that later."

Yes.

Just as I was thinking this, I ran into a love in the hallway.

"Love...... Wen. ”

Other students walked past me, and it was really inconvenient to talk here.

I woke up the screen of my watch, and it wasn't far from the end of my lunch break.

I also need more mental preparation.

"Let's go home together after school."

That's what I said.

The bell rings to mark the end of the lunch break.

- The afternoon class began. The first session in the afternoon was a Chinese class, which was decent, and there was no other way than to listen carefully. The second and third periods are physical education classes, and the recent physical education classes are all learning to swim, and there is a gymnasium in the playground near the back entrance of our school, and there is a swimming pool in it, and our swimming lessons are all in it. I picked up my bag and followed the class to the gymnasium. Go west and follow the ramp towards the back door, which is the fastest trip.

When we arrived at the gymnasium, we changed our clothes in the locker room and came to the pool, where the PE teacher was waiting for us early on the side. After all, the school is large, and it is normal for the time to walk from the classroom to the gymnasium longer than the ten minutes after class.

As soon as the whistle blew, we lined up and assembled. Boys are the ones who like swimming lessons the most, after all, it is rare to see girls' swimsuits. I'm not much interested, after all, there are only a few styles of wow, wow,

Just a glance at it, although Lianwen is wearing an ordinary black two-piece, but the exposure is quite high, which is rare. The tight figure is more perfectly highlighted by the tight swimsuit, and the coiled ball head is covered by the swimming cap, and every move exudes a peachy scent.

“……”

I deliberately controlled my gaze. This kind of deliberateness made it difficult for me to hear what the teacher was saying. When I reacted, I was actually pushed by the ink bamboo behind me.

"Hey, what are you doing, you're going to run along the pool."

Mozhu said impatiently, running along the pool is a warm-up exercise, and for safety, we usually run very slowly.

"Huh! Do you think today's incense sticks are particularly good-looking, and that new swimsuit is beautiful. ”

Mozhu secretly bit my ear.

Is it? Did incense sticks get a new swimsuit?

That's when I turned my gaze in her direction.

She is wearing a red two-piece swimsuit, and the swimsuit is printed with the pattern of Zhu Jinhua, which is indeed very trendy and novel.

Her bumpy figure is perfect for this tight swimsuit. It is not difficult to understand that many boys' eyes are locked on her.

After running five laps along the pool, we stopped, and after a simple leg press, the students jumped into the pool one by one.

"Aren't you jumping?"

Mozhu asked me, looking defiant. I looked at the love essay on the side in embarrassment.

Lianwen stood next to me, and I let out a long sigh.

"You don't know I can't swim."

[Yes, I barely passed the swimming test last semester when I took the make-up exam. 】

Seeing this, Lianwen on the side stepped forward to relieve me.

It seems to have become a joke.

"It's okay, I'll still be a little."

I smiled and puffed up.

"Oh, is it? Then give it a try. ”

Mozhu then jumped into the water, in order not to fall behind, I jumped into the water despite frowning, I stepped on the ground, step by step, this is no longer considered swimming, when I reached the middle of the pool, I couldn't even step on the bottom.

It seemed to have become a joke, and in the end, it was Lianwen who pulled me and I walked out of the middle of the pool.

……

- I didn't expect it to be so long until school. I didn't expect that I would be asked by the teacher to stay on duty, and to make matters worse, in order to catch up with the blackboard newspaper for tomorrow's school sports meeting, the people in the propaganda team stayed after school to catch up with work, and I had to wait until they were finished and cleaned before I could go back.

"Qinghe, the class uniforms and class flags you customized yesterday have arrived, go to the back door and get them."

Am I alone?!

"Let's go with her."

The one who gave the order was the deputy class leader, the actual person in charge of this school sports meeting, Bian Mianxue, who used to be my classmate in elementary school. She also has a more resounding identity, which is the student council president. She looks quite tall on the outside, always likes to tie a single ponytail, has a big voice, has a strong sense of responsibility, and is the kind of character who is very decent and serious. He is always ruthless to others and himself, and he doesn't know how to be accommodating, and it is said that he has made a lot of enemies. But he is clean and neat, his grades are quite good, and his motor nerves are outstanding, which is the face of the class in the eyes of the teacher.

When I was a freshman in high school, I served as the class president of our class, and a year ago, the class committee was re-elected, and for some reasons, she did not run for class president, and she was replaced by Xiao Lianwen. But this did not actually change the situation of the class, coupled with the identity of the student president, Bian Mianxue still held more real power than the class president, and later Lianwen gradually faded out of affairs, so to this day, the real control of the class decision is still the righteous and awe-inspiring girl in front of her.

And our squad leader - just in charge of logistics.

As a result, I can't even find her now. Where did Lianwen go?

I looked to her seat. A taupe, cat-shaped backpack was lying on a stool — her bag was still there.

I picked up my bag from my seat, and even though I was going to be back later, I still carried it on my back, which I had always been used to. There is a special layer in the bag for wallets, tissues, and surgical medication carrying cases, so it will be more secure to carry on your back. If you want to talk about how this habit came about, I used to like to run to the east to play in the mountains, and I always got hurt if I wasn't careful, and then my mother asked to put Band-Aids, alcohol and other drugs in my bag to carry, and over time it became a habit.

[I went to the back door with the incense, but unexpectedly, the incense stick also carried the bag, could it be that she has the same habit as me? 】

I sent a message to Lianwen on the way, telling her that I might be busy late and asked her to go home first.

I don't know if she saw it, but after thinking about it, I guess she's already home.

Our school is quite large, and it takes about 10 minutes to walk from the classroom to the back door at a normal pace, let alone come back with so many things.

"Qinghe...... Schoolmate? Do you have a good relationship with Shino? ”

Walking on the road, incense sticks accosted me.

"It's okay. I like her a lot. ”

I replied without changing my face.

I glanced at the incense sticks walking to my left, although he was wearing a black down jacket on the outside, he was wearing a tights with no zippers inside, and he was also wearing tight sweatpants and a small blue backpack. If memory serves, today's minimum temperature was 5 degrees. I curled up in my coat and felt cold, and I couldn't compare to the athletic girl next to me.

"Because...... There has always been a ...... Rumor has it that the two of you ...... in the relationship. ”

She is at a loss, and one sentence can be divided into three paragraphs. Of course, this is what she has always done, after all, she is a very introverted child.

"That's not true, she's my childhood sweetheart, I've been playing since I was a child, and I'm just too familiar. [In the past, the trio of us often went to the mountains to the east to fish, swim, and catch grasshoppers. Ah, a lot of those mountains are now being developed. ”

I rambled on and on, and after a while I realized that it seemed inappropriate, so I paused the narrative.

"Ah, the mountains to the east...... I've been there too. I live in the neighborhood, and my uncle has a reservoir there...... But it was later sold. ”

"Oh? Then you live close to me, you live in the southeast area? ”

"Uh-huh!"

Her eyes lit up and she shook my hand excitedly.

Ah, it's shining, it's shining. That's how it should be.

"Well, do you know Sendo Avenue?"

"Of course! I often go to the cake shop at the intersection of East Avenue 2nd Road! Super delicious! ”

"Oh~ I've heard of it."

A second before she tried to dance excitedly, I quickly pulled my hand away from her, put it back in my coat pocket, and responded to her enthusiastically.

To ease the embarrassment, I looked her up and down, hoping to find something to talk about, and just then, I saw something familiar, a stone-shaped doll pinned to her school bag.

The doll is gray-toned, and looks like a humanoid monster made of more than a dozen stones, and the joints are painted in a bright fluorescent blue, because the schoolbag is also blue, and the fluorescence at the joints is not eye-catching.

This is a popular character from a well-known anime, from the manga "Evil Dragon", called "Stone God", is a simple personality, the whole body is made of stones, the joints will glow superhero, the power is huge, can control all the stones in the world, but also give it life. In the comics, he is chivalrous, cute and funny, and is a very likable character, and I used to be a fan of him. Later, it was also adapted into an anime, which caused a lot of heated discussions.

"The doll...... It's a stone god. ”

I used this as an incision to initiate a conversation with her.

"Ahh You've seen it too! I love the stone gods! ”

She was so excited that she tried to grab my hand, so I put my hand behind my back and dodged it.

What a simple, energetic girl.

However, now the comics and animations of "Evil Dragon" are no longer popular, new comics are emerging in an endless stream, and they are getting younger and younger, and there are few works like "Evil Dragon" with blood and depth.

"I miss it so much, I haven't seen it for a long time. I used to love stone gods too. ”

"...... before?"

"Ah...... I like it now. ”

[In fact, when I see the stone god now, I always think of the past and make me uneasy. Even if you deliberately remove that layer of bad haze, you can't erase the scars that have already been deep in your heart. 】

Chatting and chatting, we have walked to the back door, a van is parked at the door, the rear trunk is open, and there are quite a few goods. At the back of the car stood a man holding a sign, waving at us.

In order not to be embarrassed, I wanted to let myself move more things, but I didn't expect the class flag to be heavier than I imagined, although the class uniform is not heavy, but because it is a winter coat, the volume of 50 stacked pieces is unimaginable, which is definitely not something that the two of us can handle.

Just as I was thinking so, I saw the incense stick lifting the class flag with one hand, then clamping it under his armpit, and lifting dozens of class uniforms with his right hand, which were accurately stabilized on the palm and arm, and looked effortless.

……

What is the purpose of my existence? Why did I come into this world?

I twisted my face and stood awkwardly, incense sticks looking at me with a confused expression. It's true that my expression is not easy to discern emotions. But it's not that bad.

"That...... I'll get you some. ”

"Ah...... I'm sorry. ”

Why apologize?

I don't have to ask, I just share as much weight as I can from her.

What the hell am I doing now?

Lianwen, where did you go?

Back in the classroom, her bag was gone.