To be honest, Jiang Tian was indeed a little interested in the contents of the diary. But now, when the girl gave it to herself, he hesitated a little.

Thinking of the system task related to the diary and the expensive reward behind it, Jiang Tian had a bad premonition.

"Ah, do you really want to show me?" Therefore, he subconsciously retreated and politely refused, "I was just joking last time, don't take it seriously." Something like a diary can already be regarded as a person's secret, so it's better not to tell others without permission. ”

Jiang Tian waved his hand, wanting to put the kitten down and leave.

"However, if you don't read it now, then my gratitude to you will never be conveyed for the rest of my life......"

Beatrice gave her a pleading look.

Oh, when facing girls, Jiang Tian just eats soft rather than hard.

"Okay...... I'll see. ”

The boy smiled wryly, put little Alice back in his arms, and took the diary.

Ignoring the slightly nervous girl on the side for the time being, she lifted the cover-

[Page 1]

"When I first arrived in this big, big country and barely learned a few words, I had to start keeping a diary and recording everything."

The words were crooked, and Jiang Tian took a lot of effort to finally recognize the first line of words.

"Ah, Chinese characters are so difficult! If it weren't for my mother teaching me Chinese since I was a child, I don't think I would have been able to learn it for the rest of my life......"

"Come on!"

Seeing this, the boy raised his head and skimmed the girl with a strange gaze. Seeing that the other party was blushing, he lowered his head and continued.

In short, the first page records only some boring journals.

[Page 2]

"My body is really weak, and I fainted again today......"

"Mai has always taken care of me carefully, always bothering her, a little uneasy."

"My heart feels like it's exploding, it hurts!"

"It's breathless, it's uncomfortable, it's uncomfortable!"

Eh, this, the style of painting has changed abruptly......

However, Jiang Tian had seen Beatrice faint with his own eyes, so he could slightly understand the pain in the other party's words.

[Page 3]

"Will I die in pain one day because of my illness? Then, no one but Alice, Maid, and Aunt Yelena will know, right? Oops, people are dead, what's the matter! ”

"Well, I came here to recuperate, but my condition has not been alleviated at all, so if I continue like this, I might as well die by my family's side...... No, I don't have a family anymore, just stay with Aunt Yelena. ”

"Today is several times more painful than before, I can't stand it anymore, eh......"

“……”

“……”

“……”

Jiang Tian wanted to settle all the pain of Beatrice. But what is helpless is that it seems that because the girl's body is getting weaker and weaker, she doesn't even have the strength to pinch the pen, so the handwriting is getting more and more distorted, and it is scribbled more than at the beginning, and it is not clear at all.

When his gaze swept from top to bottom, only the bottom four words could be distinguished clearly-

"I want to die."

When he saw these words that contained pessimism and negativity, Jiang Tian's eyes suddenly shrank.

It turns out that the girl who looks beautiful and carefree has the same thoughts of wanting to die as he does now.

That's a coincidence.

But this kind of coincidence can't make people happy.

[Page 4]

"Alas, there are many ways to die, but which one is more comfortable? If you look up the book, you might be able to find one. ”

"Alice said that if death could free me, she would not object to it and would be with me. Woo...... It's okay if I'm dead, but what if Alice is involved? ”

"There was no place to hang a rope in the room, hanged himself, vetoed; The height of the jump is not good, and it seems to be very painful, and it will cause trouble to the people around it, veto; I can't buy sleeping pills myself, and Maiden will definitely not buy them for me, veto...... Damn, I'm such a wasted person, I can't even die! ”

"Hey, there's a book called '100 Ways to Commit Suicide,' and maybe it can help me."

"After reading it, woo, the last page says 'So suicide is painful, live!' This sentence shattered my idea of begging for death at once...... Okay, then I'll just work harder, well, come on! ”

Seeing this, the young man's heart suddenly fell. Fortunately, Beatrice came across this book, otherwise, she might have died.

He glanced at the girl again, and saw that she was sitting there well, still holding a cold sweat in her palms.

However, from the fifth page onwards, the content inside, including the emotions it expressed, suddenly changed, and Jiang Tian was dumbfounded.

[Page 5]

"As always, I still can't go out. It's nice outside, but if I get a little wind, a little bit of a bright light, or I'm scared by a noise, I'll probably faint on the spot – so stay in the house. ”

"Abominable, abominable, abominable! I'm so unwilling! No, I'm going to try to look outside, it's early in the morning, it's quiet, and there's nothing irritating, so it should be fine. ”

"Ah, it's really great outside~ I envy Alice, when she's bored, she can go out for a walk. When will I be able to be like her. By the way, there is one thing I have to write down: halfway through, a boy with long hair passed through the street and rode a strange vehicle that almost scared me. ”

"Today too, I see him again—"

He sped past under the window with two cartons of milk on his feet in a strange vehicle with two cartons of milk behind him. I didn't know him, and neither did Alice, but his face was covered with serious sweat that caught the eye of us who couldn't go out, and just like that, we watched his back disappear at the end of the street. ”

When his eyes swept here, Jiang Tiancai suddenly realized, it turned out that the "boy with long hair" was referring to him!

Anyway, Beatrice is really peculiar in some ways.

She mentioned before that little Alice spoke to her, hey, please, cats are very spiritual, and their big eyes seem to be able to speak. But it's just a cat, it can't speak. It seems that the girl is too lonely and has auditory hallucinations.

Also, you don't even know about bicycles, so there must be such things in foreign countries, right? Little sister Beatrice, are you a princess who grew up in a palace, or a canary who has been kept in a cage......

Jiang Tian can be distracted and complain, because the content in the back, the words are better, easy to recognize, and most of them are talking about him, if you look at it quite seriously, it will make people shy.

Basically, it can be summed up in one sentence -

"He's working hard to live, and looking at his hard work, I want to live hard."

Well, day after day, year after year, Beatrice and Alice, each time bathed in the early morning breeze, watched him walk quickly through the streets. Sometimes, the sky cried, it rained, and the drops of water outside might sneak through the curtains' line of defense, wetting the girl's face, but she didn't take her eyes off, because, the boy would still pass through Ninth Street, consistently.

No wonder little Alice would kiss him so much, for in its eyes, the boy was its second acquaintance, and they could see him almost every day;

No wonder, Beatrice didn't mind some outsider entering her boudoir. Because, for her, the teenager who appeared again and again rain or shine was the spiritual pillar that encouraged her to go strong.

At the beginning, it was her own business, but the back, very thick paper, was his story, so the cover would say "story about him".

This is the biggest secret hidden in Beatrice's diary.